Saturday, October 29, 2011
The world is going to change their perspective about me.
So am I, to myself.
Figures.
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
10/29/2011 09:52:00 PM
Monday, October 17, 2011
I need answers to answers.
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
10/17/2011 10:59:00 PM
Sunday, October 16, 2011
When I close my eyes,
Please light up my way.
And keep it simple.
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
10/16/2011 12:04:00 PM
Saturday, October 15, 2011
Fucking hope that you and your fucking group gets caught.
Putting fire outside my house is no fucking joke.
If you retarded young runners think it's fun, think twice.
If the fucking door is on fire, how the fuck my family escape?
Wake up your bloody idea, and I hope you suffer.
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
10/15/2011 09:39:00 PM
My 21st is gone just like that.
Not like I did not enjoy myself.
I really did.
Katherine, thank you so much for your birthday card LOL!
My awesome consultant.
Thanks Amber for the dinner and movie last night.
Of course the presents as well.
And hearing me out and scolding me pussy LOL!
The people at work, thanks for the pleasant surprise.
Although it has been disrupted as I need to meet Commander,
and need to constantly run to MPO to discuss things,
Thanks a bunch.
Kangwei, Eugene, thanks for the gifts and cards.
For driving me to commonwealth too, even though we got lost.
And TRACOM for the $10 polar voucher hahahaha!
Dy for the awesome limited edition badge LOL!
Rachel Shumin Shannen Markie Minghan,
Thanks for the awesome birthday roll HAHA!
Really nice and sweet.
And of course, the dinner.
Thanks for everything, and Shannen for driving me home.
Presents and all, I love the company best.
Best thing, thanks to my relatives, for the great great...
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$!
:D
Why am I stumped by the easiest questions?
I'm afraid of giving answers.
Afraid of giving promises.
Afraid of myself.
Heavy pendulum, swaying back forth.
Never And.
Never end.
Defying gravity.
Against the apple.
I'm hungry.
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
10/15/2011 11:48:00 AM
Friday, October 14, 2011
I don't know what has gotten into my head.
Haven't I wanted this all along?
Why does it seem so different.
Have I really changed?
Or am I just so weak?
I may just be.
Haha all the ironies in life.
Or maybe its my indecisiveness.
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
10/14/2011 06:49:00 PM
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
It's hard when you meant this but became another.
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
10/12/2011 10:52:00 PM
Monday, October 10, 2011
Cute :)
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
10/10/2011 10:08:00 PM
38 months. We've come a really long way.
I really don't know what I did was right.
The truth is, I'm crushed.
To even a state worse than pulp.
What if I'm wrong?
What if there's a way?
Am I giving up too easily?
I've never felt like this before.
Never have I loved, and be loved so much before.
And never have I tried to give up anything so important to me.
I'm having doubts about myself.
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
10/10/2011 09:45:00 AM
All these while, I've been thinking.
Kind of end up in nothing.
Nothing at all.
Some feelings are just so hard to fight.
I know I shouldn't push things too hard.
But I just can't shake the unsettling feeling in me.
Then again, I'm afraid to face the worst.
Tomorrow is Monday.
After not working for Thursday and Friday,
I kind of dread going back to see what is waiting for me.
Shit it sucks to clear backlogs but if I still don't see a doc,
I'm really a goner.
Call me weak.
I hate being sick.
Even though I ALWAYS fall sick.
ARGH.
I need to FOCUS.
I feel drowsy after taking the medicine.
Shall retire for the night.
Looking forward to next week though.
In those animes and mangas,
Something always happens to the main character on the 21st birthday.
I sure hope its not something like getting bang by a car or whatever.
LOL.
Maybe I'll have awesome power.
Stop the time like that cute japanese guy from Heroes or something.
Shall focus on my clock then.
YATTA!
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
10/10/2011 12:12:00 AM
Thursday, October 06, 2011
Wouldn't it be nice, if I can have my own brush.
To illustrate my life.
With my ugly drawing.
At least it depicts what I want to see.
Probably sadistic, maybe a little artistic.
Most likely orange-y, definitely happy.
My mom got me a new wallet!
Love it. TTM they say.
Birthday is coming soon.
And I can almost foresee myself in my office that day.
Mom repeatedly ask me if I am going to celebrate, like you know, big scale.
I'm not going to.
I mean I don't really celebrate my birthday.
But I would really love it if my dreams really came true.
Just one, or maybe 2?
How about 3?
Ever wonder why stories always grant protagonist 3 wishes?
Why not 5?
Or since having your dream come true its like a miracle,
Shouldn't it be just 1 very important wish?
What's the reason behind the number 3?
I may seem like I'm asking many questions.
Curious about everything in life.
To be frank, I'm not.
I take life as it is.
Seeking answers are not my style.
To me, some things are meant NOT to be known.
Questions like, why am I here.
Its like asking my self-worth.
I'll probably put myself down.
Life can be smooth, can be rough.
Its almost funny to see the kind of irony I'm living in now.
Saying things that I do not like, but am facing now.
Saying things that I wish not to do, but I'm a sitting duck.
I'm thinking of what kind of lunch I want to have.
Considering the fact that I can't eat many kinds of stuff.
I should just be practical and eat what I can.
I'm laughing at myself as I write this kind of post.
People who knows me know that I don't think so much.
I'm just entertaining myself because I'm resting up to get well soon!
Bronchitis. I think I'm just having mild sore throat.
Silly doc. Making things sound so severe.
I'm not the least worried about the worst.
Buy lotteries also won't get so lucky.
Off to rest! My neemo is calling out to me!
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
10/06/2011 11:28:00 AM
Sunday, October 02, 2011
My chest.
It hurts.
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
10/02/2011 10:25:00 AM
