arghhh.. hahaha.. before i go into what i want to blog about.. hahaha.. m gonna update a little about my life.. lol. ( too long nv blog.. feels like closing down the blog.. bt it started with a reason.. and i dont feel like closing it down yet..) anw..right now studyin in SMU for info system management course. last week was the first week of lessons. After so long of nt studyin, gg back sch actually get quite exhausting. so many new things, so confusing. and then so many activities and suddenly there are so many projects gg on. haha.. bt i m still lookin forward to uni life :)
Even before sch starts, through the camps and outings i have known quite a number of new friends. I think that knowing ppl is fun :) and these few months i have actually learned a lot of new things from these ppl that i just got to know. Beautiful and Ugly sides of the world. It's funny cause i always thought that it cant be tt much more to tt (hahaha.. guess i m too arrogant) bt indeed there is tt much more. how ppl treat one another. how ppl slowly transform. what kindness really means. and what are friends all about. hahaha.. and what influences can do (this one yet to discover the full force.. bt some of the traits are showing alr :P) get to know quite a few of nice and lovely ppl, gd leaders, and gd frens :) it makes me feel even more inadequate.. hahahaha.. suddenly "ding" (i m just like a speck of dust in the world and can b blown everywhere if there is wind.. even a breeze can unsettle me) lol..
lol.. next thing.. after friendship.. come the relationship.. hahaha! actually some of us have just realised tt (while looking at our sch timetable and all the activities tt are coming up), it will be a wonder if we can find someone dear in our uni years.. hahaha.. bt again nothing is impossible right :P anyway, i thought that i won't be looking for one yet. but it actually comes faster than i realise. hahaha! nt tt there is anyone in my life. what i mean its the feeling.. the feeling of wanting one actually exists right now in me. i suspect its because of all the stress.. ahahhaa.. afterall it happened a few times alr just before the big exams like PSLE, 'O'Lvl,'A'Lvl.. lol..i think its a way of telling myself tt i m under pressure. lol.. bt anyway.. thats nt the main pt.. the main pt is.. i think i found someone to have a crush on.. bt i dont want to b tt someone. bt i cant ctrl it. i want to msg the person, i want to get to know tt person. bt it seems like i ll end lookin very desperate.. which i dont want.. hahaha.. so i actually wrote this blog, to tell myself tt I DONT LIKE HIM. yup! tts it.. hahahaha.. n I WaNT TO LIVE MY LIFE that only have MY FRIENDS and I in it. SO FROM NOW ONWARDS, I WONT TALK ABOUT HIM OR TALK TO HIM UNLESS NECESSARY. (actually tts v sad.. bt no choice.. hahaha.. or rather this is the choice i choose to take right now)
third..Communication.. hai.. is it possible to have one's communication skills deteriorating? i think its possible.. it seems like i just cant communicate with some ppl. n i think the problem lies with me. for example, i have a friend who tries talkin to me everytime she saw me (cause due to sch, i have nt been seeing much of her), (n she said tt her attempts to talk to me is to communicate). bt everytime she talks to me, i felt so irritated tt i feel like snapping at her. my own reasoning of my impatience is tt she always tries to talk to me at the wrong time. its either i m too exhausted and dont feel like talkin. or tt i m doin my work or doin sth else. and another thing is the things tt she talked abt.. its like she is tryin to chat me up with all the just-tryin-to-be-nice conversation topics.. arghh..ok.. i think i shall CONTROL MYSELF and treat everybody better..
mwahahhaa.. wad a depressin entry.. :) and so full of ironies
arghhh.. hahaha.. before i go into what i want to blog about.. hahaha.. m gonna update a little about my life.. lol. ( too long nv blog.. feels like closing down the blog.. bt it started with a reason.. and i dont feel like closing it down yet..) anw..right now studyin in SMU for info system management course. last week was the first week of lessons. After so long of nt studyin, gg back sch actually get quite exhausting. so many new things, so confusing. and then so many activities and suddenly there are so many projects gg on. haha.. bt i m still lookin forward to uni life :)
Even before sch starts, through the camps and outings i have known quite a number of new friends. I think that knowing ppl is fun :) and these few months i have actually learned a lot of new things from these ppl that i just got to know. Beautiful and Ugly sides of the world. It's funny cause i always thought that it cant be tt much more to tt (hahaha.. guess i m too arrogant) bt indeed there is tt much more. how ppl treat one another. how ppl slowly transform. what kindness really means. and what are friends all about. hahaha.. and what influences can do (this one yet to discover the full force.. bt some of the traits are showing alr :P) get to know quite a few of nice and lovely ppl, gd leaders, and gd frens :) it makes me feel even more inadequate.. hahahaha.. suddenly "ding" (i m just like a speck of dust in the world and can b blown everywhere if there is wind.. even a breeze can unsettle me) lol..
lol.. next thing.. after friendship.. come the relationship.. hahaha! actually some of us have just realised tt (while looking at our sch timetable and all the activities tt are coming up), it will be a wonder if we can find someone dear in our uni years.. hahaha.. bt again nothing is impossible right :P anyway, i thought that i won't be looking for one yet. but it actually comes faster than i realise. hahaha! nt tt there is anyone in my life. what i mean its the feeling.. the feeling of wanting one actually exists right now in me. i suspect its because of all the stress.. ahahhaa.. afterall it happened a few times alr just before the big exams like PSLE, 'O'Lvl,'A'Lvl.. lol..i think its a way of telling myself tt i m under pressure. lol.. bt anyway.. thats nt the main pt.. the main pt is.. i think i found someone to have a crush on.. bt i dont want to b tt someone. bt i cant ctrl it. i want to msg the person, i want to get to know tt person. bt it seems like i ll end lookin very desperate.. which i dont want.. hahaha.. so i actually wrote this blog, to tell myself tt I DONT LIKE HIM. yup! tts it.. hahahaha.. n I WaNT TO LIVE MY LIFE that only have MY FRIENDS and I in it. SO FROM NOW ONWARDS, I WONT TALK ABOUT HIM OR TALK TO HIM UNLESS NECESSARY. (actually tts v sad.. bt no choice.. hahaha.. or rather this is the choice i choose to take right now)
third..Communication.. hai.. is it possible to have one's communication skills deteriorating? i think its possible.. it seems like i just cant communicate with some ppl. n i think the problem lies with me. for example, i have a friend who tries talkin to me everytime she saw me (cause due to sch, i have nt been seeing much of her), (n she said tt her attempts to talk to me is to communicate). bt everytime she talks to me, i felt so irritated tt i feel like snapping at her. my own reasoning of my impatience is tt she always tries to talk to me at the wrong time. its either i m too exhausted and dont feel like talkin. or tt i m doin my work or doin sth else. and another thing is the things tt she talked abt.. its like she is tryin to chat me up with all the just-tryin-to-be-nice conversation topics.. arghh..ok.. i think i shall CONTROL MYSELF and treat everybody better..
mwahahhaa.. wad a depressin entry.. :) and so full of ironies
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