countdown-ing..2 more weeks will be staying at HR..suddenly feel reluctant to leave this department..kak Rosmi and kak Shaz,ms Mala and Jefri treated me so well here..before that i really damn don like this department cz i hate paper work and i have nothing to do there,feel like an idiout..since the staff annual party is preparing together,HR team are getting closer within each other..kak Shaz wrote on her calender"key's last day in HR"..everytime when i saw that,feel so reluctant to it..will be going to front office soon, there are a lot of lan si staff there..hopefully i'll be fine there...
=God Bless=
=Life is short,Make it sweet=

away from city life

I've been here almost 2 weeks..
Food here damn suck like hell..
I behtahan the food here..
Miss my mom's cooking..
Miss her dessert that her made..
Suddenly miss so much..

living here damn relax till boring..
but environment of rainforest here,the feeling is so best~~
full of greeness life,made the life so simple and easy~~
wow..feel so good here..
Key like it!!!

Im nt sure do I made the right decision..no matter wat happen..i'll be strong n tough here..
GOD bless please!!!

期待我的归来吧

明天 要真的说再见了
我求求你
不要想太多 好吗
不要胡思乱想 好吗
不要担心太多 好吗
要多休息 懂吗
我答应过你的，我不会忘记的
我爱你

Dear GOD,
please bless she has a healthy life
please bless she'll be always stay calm and being happy in her life
please bless she'll always be in safe and peaceful life...
GOD,please.please bless her...
i love her so much~~~

难忘的对话

我很担心啊，你去了那边我会更加担心的，这几天我常做错事，又睡不好。。我好像有忧郁症了，上次去台湾我怕到现在，现在你说要离开3个月半，我更怕你懂吗。。都是一样training啊。。就留在这，不要去酱远可以吗。。

我知道你担心什么的，我答应你我一定会好好照顾自己的，去那里 做什么，我都会小心的，你不要想太多啦，不要胡思乱想了，你酱子，我比你更担心耶。。我不再是17 18 岁了，我知道你还是当我是还小，可是，你一定要相信你女儿，要对我有信心。。我已经会想了。我知道什么该做，什么不该做的。。

我知道。。但3个月半叻。。都不会回来一次耶。。万一你在哪里有什么事，没人帮到你真么办，不懂为什么，我就是担心很多东西，也是学差不多一样的东西啊。。不要去啦~~那些东西kl也学到的啦，为什么偏要去到酱远学！！

我更本就不喜欢kl的生活，你都知道的，我超想在resort做的，你都知道的，我从小到大，就是喜欢那种平静的生活，干静的空气。。就算我不去，留了下来，明明有机会让我去，我却没去到，我在这也不会开心啊。。现在我有机会去，我觉得是应该去试下那边的生活，我一定会回来的，我一定会好好爱惜自己的，你不用担心我太多好吗，如果你不开心，我更担心你啊！！人家的女儿很多也是离乡背井啊，那些妈妈也不是很放心吗。。我一定不会让自己有事的。。外面世界那么大，总有一天，我也会时常酱的，难道你就要每天提心掉旦吗。。为什么上次我去ns你可以这么放心，这次你却非常帕。。

我也不知道，总之我就是很怕，很担心，很不想你去，可能是更年期的effect吧。。何况你要去到那么远的地方3个月半。。ns没办法，选到你了，非去不可。。但这次，你想清楚你真的是要去的吗，你有想过去到了你会后悔吗！！

我不敢肯定那边的环境是怎样，我一定不会后悔，我一定可以坚持到9月20号。。就算是，我宁愿去到后悔，也不要没去而有遗憾。。你一定要乐观懂吗，只要把心放下，当你感到担心时，做5次深呼吸，那就会舒服很多了，我觉得反而是你，不要让我担心你才对！！

countdown 10 days

going to Langkawi soon
10 more days to go
feeling so excited feeling so curious
wondering how is the environment there
wondering how will my performance there
cant wait looking forward to be there
feeling so sorry to papa and mami
feeling so having left to u guys
gonna to miss u guys
before that keep thinking wanna go there for intern
but now the resort is accepting me
i really feel so reluctant for leaving here
really really really so so so so not feeling wanna to go
but finally i hv decide to go
1 more weeks to go...
countdown-ing....

明天就是最后两天做工了 很开心 终于可以摆脱了 哈哈
过后的日子就要做量地宫了 哈哈 也好 可以让我有机会休息连续3个礼拜
然后 就是intership的日子。。。
刚才 four seasons终于给我电话了 他说拜一会再联络我 interview我
linda说通常子要他们来电话说要interview 那就80%是答应了
是很开心耶 但 另一方面 必须要考虑到妈妈的感受
她一直都以为我回待在kl的。。。先别想太多 都还没确定four seasons是否要我
耐心和期待拜一的来临~~~

最后一天 （2010-5-14）

“考完了“ 平时我们考完都会说的 但 这次我们却忘了说它
这次的考试大家都有同样的心情 就是怕不及格 没有信心 有压力
这5天来 我们全部都好像读到很晚才睡 每次考完出来 就一定会算一算把握能得到的分数
也许是最后一次考了 特别紧张 还有就是怕万一不及格就来不及今年毕业了
我真得很担心我会考到怎样 尤其是law
今天最后一天和dca的他们一起考HRM 和以往一样 同样的人 在同样的班考 只有我们
我们没有不舍得彼此 也没有特别多话聊 甚至不想在college多待一秒
当然 包括冷血的我 很快 大家就各自回家了
最后一天见面的我们 很简单 就这样

刚才回家的时候 在巴斯上 有点小塞车 我带着耳机 一边在想
这两年来 从2008年6月9日 我们第一天在malaca room认识
当时我们每个人都得站出去自我介绍 我记得
ah kok;big show;hanns 坐我后面 他们是我首先认识的人
后来 就是kessie,ah cat,kitty，zabo,大姐，kelvin,anson(chun yew)
我们聊过很多很多很搞笑 无聊的话题 有时候甚至会气到kessie
哈哈 最喜欢看到kessie气到的样子 不爽哪个老师时 大家就会一起讲粗口
还有很多很多很多和他们的回忆 就算要讲一整晚也讲不晚了
这两年来大家都发生过了很多故事 开心的；不开心的 记得的；忘记的
那些故事 那些回忆 都不会变
可是 我们身边的人 朋友 一直在增加着 改变着
但至少 请让彼此的名字 花名 牢记在心中吧

其实 有一霎那 我又忽然想起和他的回忆
我又忽然很想回到过去
但 过去了就是过了
我提醒自己 要保持冷血

下个礼拜就要final exam 了 感觉有点怕 因为前两天的周末还要去做工
该说是忙碌的生活 还是自己孤单呢
经历的那么多 生命中有人来了又离去 到最后 还是自己一个
该可悲 还是该庆辛没人骚扰呢
从拜一到拜五 读书读书读书 睡睡睡 吃吃吃
最舒服的时光就是睡觉了
我爱你 我相信你 我需要你 我在祈祷
祈祷希望你听到 希望你知道 祈祷希望你真的存在着 保佑我
保佑我 保佑我的家人 保佑我的朋友 保佑全天下人
=GOD BLESS=
may GOD bless the whole world living in the peaceful and happiness life without war and disaster...
may GOD bless we all have the peaceful minded....

study study study study study~~~~~..........

hey gal,u must be concentrate in your notes,ok...
hey gal,u cannot fail any subject for this final,u know..
this is the last final in lgd college...cannot fail...
must focus,must concentrate...no sleepy...no sleepy...

最近都在忙。。忙到很累。。
头脑在累，体魂在累，心灵在累。。
很自然的，累到把他给忘了。。
累到 忙到 没时间想他 甚至 我忘了想他。。
现在的我 在打blog 只想正式宣布 我忘了 我ok了。。

now im officially stop working Sin Yin..i leave they all accidentally,i was leaving them without saying goodbye to them..im feeling happy is finally i got a new job,can get new experience,can know new friends,can learn new things..im enjoying working for Fernleaf Project Roadshow now~~i have been working at sin yin at least 5years,what kind of person am i?! no reluctant at all..jz always thinking wanna leave the place as soon as possible..cant blame me as well,so many years working for them,being treated like a cheap labor..being paid damn fxxxing low salary..anyways,im so worried to them,are they enough staff during saturday?anyways,i will be leaving them in one day,now finally im quit...=blessing them=
this week will be going to Rawang work soon..big show said he will come for visit me,looking forward for that~~next week will be going to Johor pulak,ah Cat said will also come and visit me..damn looking forward for that~~cz of out station,has been ponteng for HR and FO class for 2days..i think this is influencing my studies,i worried about final exam question..3more weeks to go...but i have no choices...i feel that i have no more passion for study..and no more energy during morning class..no more mood to pay attention in class...how should i solve it...im feeling so tired..always juz thinking wanna sleep in anywhere,anytime...

big show 21st bufday

happy birthday for bigshow..my big big big brother in the college...but recently he has lost his weight a lots..no more big big big bro,it left big bro only..he made his bufday party at his home,wat the damn far-Rawang.we start from 7pm,arrived there has ady 10pm..from ampang to salak selatan to kepong to sg buluh than 45min more to rawang...walaoee~~wat a long and tiring journey to his house~~we had fun at there,at last we did not do nothing and juz sit and gather at a small round table and juz for chatting for nothing topic at all..i more enjoy in anson's car during the journey,we talked bad about other ppl,haha,but we also did talk each other how bad it is...
it was the nice feeling all of us could gather together and "ejek" each other..wondering how many time we still can ejek each other in the future..1 more month to go,we all are enjoying the moment that the time we are together now~~~

1st experience JOM HEBOH @ Kelantan

jz came back working from Kelantan for Fernleaf Project..damn tired,my hands damn pain as well as my legs,even my waist oso damn fucking pain until i don wanna move at all..it was my first time woking out station,at first im so excited for being there,but after that...ohh no...im lazy to type,tired to type.but i will always remember the experience that i gained in Kelantan.it was my first time i can feel what is team work...will be considering to Johor for next month although it was tiring job...

他妈的
你很烦耶 人家要去哪，你又要跟
人家要做什么，你又要跟
难道你就没有自己的想法吗
你一定要跟着人家的想法走吗
你到底有主见的吗
我求求你
离我远一点啦
你都没feel到吗
我已经常找借口避你了
你还想怎样
你走你自己的路可以吗
走开拉 死开啦
我真的求求你。。。

now is raining like cats and dogs
there are nobody beside me
no food nothing to bite
tv is beside me
pc is in front of me
thanz God
still have pc and tv
love it so much
hate raining so much

不懂你常说的那个人是谁
不懂你的心事
不懂你过得怎样
不懂你常在低潮什么
不懂你在想念谁
会是那个女生吗
还是某某某
很想知道是谁耶
如果是某某某
酱就好了
她终于可以彻底放开了
如果她知道那个人不是她的话
她一定会真心给你祝福的
因为她终于有了答案
她也完全痊愈啦

虽然说最后都是由自己决定，但可不可以就跟着自己的心想怎样就怎样。。。
可不可以很自私的不用管家人的想法
可不可以就把他们的话当耳边风
如果真的不管他们 真得很自私吗
不管他们的感受 真得很自私吗
一直以来好像只想自己想怎样怎样 从没考虑过他们想怎样
是自私吗
决定权是自己的 跟着自己的心走 会很自私吗
当然懂他们想怎样啦 可以装不懂吗
可以装傻吗 可以自私吗
很乱 很烦 很怕 很想自私一次耶
可以吗

chi sin

during HIS class,kitty suddenly stood up and panicking finding her cellphone,everyone were also worried about her,where is her phone?there is a theft in our class?then oni she noticed her phone has borrowed to ah cat....."chi sin po" said shaik...all of us laughing and say the same word to her as well....hehz
today,during almost finishing TDD class...i wanna take out my wallet but i could not find...omg...where is it? is anyone has stolen? omg..there is a pendrive there,inside pendrive have very important file,omg..where where where...everyone panicking together with me..i totally have founded around my bag,still don have...i was so upset a while,then i calm down,its actually was deeply inside my bag...hahaha...
"chi sin po"...this word returned to me pulak....hehehe!!!

If there is to be peace in the world, there must be peace in the nations.
If there is to be peace in the nations, there must be peace in the cities.
If there is to be peace in the cities, there must be peace between neighbors.
If there is to be peace between neighbors, there must be peace in the home.
If there is to be peace in the home, there must be peace in the heart.

我期待有个人坐在我身边
我期待有个人能听我说话
我期待有个人能陪我晒太阳
我期待有个人能陪我疯狂吃一顿
我期待有个人能和我看日出
我期待有个人能和我无聊过一天
我期待。。。 。。。
在期待？
在等待？
还是在妄想？
还有5分钟就12点钟 去睡吧！
先期待周先生送个梦给我吧！！

key
睡吧！晚安！
祝福你今晚有个美梦

u are living in my heart all the time
u are living in my mind all the time
u are living in my world all the time
u might do not know about that
im not intend to let u know
i jz want to miss u in own world
i do not need to tell the whole world that i miss u
i jz want simply missing u all the moment without knowing of people
i jz would like to scream out loudly that
" HEY,I MISS U SO MUCH "

thinking about that again..i have decided ady,why they all force me to think again..why they all are not suppporting me at all...i really don wanna stay at KL at all..i juz want to leave from here...i know how to take care of myself,please u all juz don worry about me..i know they don wan me choose cherating is juz because of they r worried abt me...but please don mention this topic again..i really don wanna because of them change my mind, but they all is my lovely family,how could i jz bother them..how could i jz being cold blood to them...2:2...2 sisters is supportting,but the another 2...haiz...should i jz being insist on my decision or jz ignore them？if they worry abt me,i'll feel sorry to them,if i listen to them,stay at Kl,i'll fell sorry to myself...what shall i do?
suddenly i miss Mrs.Linda so much,hope she will come back soon and she will give me some suggestion...i miss my secondary Lingaton english teacher Mrs.Goh so much,she definitely will tell me what should i do now...i know her style,she difinitely will ask me being persistance and giving me the courage......
ARGHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!
HELPPPP　！！！！！！！

有个女生最近她的心情很复杂，她最近心情很低落，好像有很多心事，她不懂该告诉谁，她很想很想把她的心事都给说出来，但她不懂谁愿意做她的聆听者。。她甚至连想找个人陪她看场电影都没有耶。。她唯有把自己的心事往肚里流。。。除了去上课，她都把自己躲在家里，在新年那段期间，每个人整个礼拜都有自己的节目，唯有她，她很努力的在家把每份功课都做完了，她把 his notes 背了又背，她把 hr notes 读了有读。。这个时候，每个人都在赶着做功课，她觉得很庆辛自己的做完了，但是，她觉得自己很可悲，为什么她想找个人被她看电影都没有一个，真的一个都没有，她觉得自己好像没有朋友，很可悲。有个人曾说过，朋友不许太多，自要有一个是真心对你的，做你的聆听者，那就够了。可是，在这个女生的生命中，她尽然不懂要找哪个朋友去倾诉，翻看她电话里的电话名单，没有一个会是愿意的，这个女生真的超可悲！！没人懂她。。。
所以她一直很努力在做功课，把书读好，她要考好成绩，因为就算她是个可悲的人，那至少她还有个优点啊。。。

安静

最近我好像安静了很多，看到身边的人一对对的有情人终成眷属，而我呢，还是老样子。。。哈哈哈。。现在是新年期间，一定很多人在外面吧，为什么我要在这自己一个人呢。。只要我爽就好了。。。哈哈
“挺好的“ 看了力宏和陈龙演的大兵小将，学会了这句话，我开始很懒惰讲话了，有人打给我，就是不想接，我好像又开始想你了，你好吗？我好像又开始期待了，在期待什么呢？你还是好像消失了，今天看到报纸一对老夫妇想当年是距离很远的，但因为缘分他们在一起50年了，好羡慕啊 ！！！ 不知道我和你有缘分吗？！ 我得“以后“会是怎样的呢？我虽然是在想你，但我开始有了随遇而安的心态，不再逼自己去忘记你，我要很自然的放开一却。。。我相信上天应该不会亏待我的吧，终有一天，它一定会送个缘分给我的。

i hate cny !!!
every year mom and dad sure will have arguing during cny...they argue about wat to eat,wat to buy,even when wat time to eat they also will have some arguing..i hate listen their argue voice..i hate my sis kept nagging beside my ears during cny..she was damn annoying..i hate her hot temper,i hate her lazyness..i hate back to ipoh..i hate all the relatives always asking me the same question..." how your study now?" /
" have boyfrend?"...im so lazy to answer them,it so boring during at there,all auntie uncle like to show off their daughther and son... i hate 1st day of cny,cant wash my hair,cant mop and sweep the floor,it made it so messy,really behtahan cny...y during cny they cant juz calm down their temper....I HATE CNY SO MUCHHH !!!!

finally today is the last class for cny holiday...we were looking forward long long time ady...today law class thankx for Ms.Sandy let us early than usually...i like she lecture us but i hate Bilal keep asking stupid question and like chatting with her..5 of us juz playing with own phone,chatting around...i think when attending her class is like chatting class more than law class~~~but i quite like this feel cz the law is really super damn boring...but i really hate Bilal's voice...
hanns and christie are officially together ady...we all discussing is christie is really true to hanns?! or she choose him is juz because he is better than Brandon...i admire the courage of brandon,he juz took the flower to our class and send it to her during we are having test of front office...but he failed...
cny is coming soon,but still have a lot and a lot of assignt is waiting for me...im also will settle them during cny...cz only that week i think the online will not be so lack than usual...

去他们妈的 x

DULAN !!! DULAN !!! DULAN !!! DULAN !!! DULAN !!!
DULAN !!! DULAN !!! DULAN !!! DULAN !!! DULAN !!!
DULAN !!! DULAN !!! DULAN !!! DULAN !!! DULAN !!!
DULAN !!! DULAN !!! DULAN !!! DULAN !!! DULAN !!!
DULAN !!! DULAN !!! DULAN !!! DULAN !!! DULAN !!!
DULAN !!! DULAN !!! DULAN !!! DULAN !!! DULAN !!!

今天，我又不懂发什么神经。。早上8 点钟醒来就一直做家务做到4 点钟。。中间那段时间丢了很多很多包垃圾。。我饿了就吃妈妈炒的炒饭，我觉得世界上最好吃的炒饭就是妈妈炒的了。。不懂是不是做太多事情了，吃了很多东西还是觉得饿。。。

昨天，那死肥妖也是不懂发什么神经，对我们好到。。。在班不再为难我们，还一直跟我们开玩笑，有人迟到不但没锁门，还跟他们聊天。。。平时我们看到他会装看不到他，他也会装看不到我们，昨天他尽然会走过来主动和我们聊天。。

这几天我真得很想很想自己一个人回，不希望有人陪，可是一个住pandan indah, 一个跟我同一个站下车，一个都已经够烦了，还要两个一起，妈的x！真得很想自己个人静一静，不想听到他们的声音，最讨厌星期一，二，四。。5 点放学。。为了要避开他们，我必须在另一站下车然后再等过。。很羡慕kessie 耶，住sri petaling, 可以一个人回。。。

" where will u be going "

today in law class, ms Sandy asked me this question...what should i answer...i asked her back all of my question again...she told me a lot of thing...the most that i most remember is " different place will learn different thing".....this sentences has made me hv a courage to choose Cherating....im still not sure that i confirm will be there, but someone has told me the same sentences as Sandy before as well..so, i think i hv known how to make this decision...but however, will there vacancies be allowed me to be there...jz depends on God........second choice might will be water chalet at PD..then oni Legend hotel......im choosing that kind of place cz i really like sun very very much until i wont use any sun block..ppl might say im siao...but i really wanna escape from city....escape urban life style and urban environment...

为海地祈祷^^

有史以来最严重的地震尽然会发生了...他们很不幸..他们很无奈..很无助...因为这场灾难,有人变得很自私..有人变得更坚强..有人更脆弱....到底上天是在提醒人类即将世界末日,还是惩罚人类呢?! 我知道,我坚信上天是不会用灾难来作弄人类的^^嘿!!人类,你们醒了吗?知道为什么会有灾难的出现吗?求你们,求求求求你们多爱护地球吧..不要再让更多的人受伤害了...
我祈祷..我希望..我祝福..所有面对灾难的人能重新在站起来, 能互相帮忙...希望还有更多的人为你们祈祷,会帮你们...希望上天能够听到,知道你们的心声,你们得难受,你们的痛苦,你们的伤心...要相信它..它不是绝情的...= 保佑你们=

OMG

starting new and last semester that having 6 subjects + 2 progress test for each subject + 5 group assignts..all within 14 weeks~~~omg...how could i stand for it ?! i must to be strong..to be more hard work..to be more patient...in order to control my temper..i wonder how will be my emotion for the next few weeks...anyways, juz bless that i wanna to be *STRONG* in this sem~~~

it have to start thinking for internship...where should i to be? where should i chose? should i go cherating? water charet? port dickson? grand season hotel? or go Legend hotel which is jz beside the building? how should i made this decision? am i making a right decision？will i chose the wrong decision? will i be regret in the futue? who can tell me what should i do? is there any person juz ask me to go where? im feel tired to think of this question and make this decision..............
my dream is working at out of city, i rather work rural place...who knows?! actually i hv a big will that chosing cherating, but will i learn much more thing at there? dreaming can make it to a realistic? will i be regreat for that? i hv told my mom abt that, but she seems not supporting...Lord, what should i do, please giv me some clue...i need supporting~~~~~

11 Jan 2010....

6:45 am
woke up thn drank a cup of oat milo..thn waiting for uncle to fetch me...

7:14 am
uncle lai arrived thn he sent me to hulu langat by 8am sharp..

9:30 am
finally the JPJ called my name..my number i got 11...

10:13 am
still waiting for my turn...one of a malay guy met an accident, wondering how did he crushed in front of his car; quite pity to him as he even never start to go on the test, JPJ asked him to go back...

11:23 am
finally my turn, quite smooth with the car..jz some scary is the hand break too tight, i almost goona failed the hill...luckily i did it...woohoo
then the parking, i still could not believe that i can make it very fast, is that me by the time...omg
i passed it finally...

11:50 am
another uncle sent me home..

12:35 pm
arrived home..everyone were calling me there will be class at 1 pm to 5 pm..should i or shouldn't i go...finally i decided to go..i was rushing at the time...

1:07 pm
i arrived college..luckily the botak lao not yet lock the door..im rushing all the way due to worried abt he will lock the door for ppl who late coming in..feel pity to bilal who were jz behind me cant get in the class~~

2:30 pm
i felt very very very hungry..my mind kept thinking why didnt he let us have a break?he was still keep talking the same topic..lolzz...Rayne keep asking the same question and he keep answering the same answer..omg...i kept thinging that im not hungry..im not hungry at all...
omg~~i really damn hungry la...

2:50 pm
finally he let us hv a break, but he said come back class at 3:05...i was starving the whole afternoon...

4:05 pm
finally class dismiss..i was rushing home for having my lunch and dinner....

now; 9:30 pm
im going to offline.....

2010 new year new journey

its really cant believe that it has already 2010...once step in Jan of 2010, i hv to keep work hard for 10 days without any day off... im not sure will i can be persistent and hv the strong energy to it, cz when everyday face to malays i really feel like wanna tumbuk them, now is oni day 3..hope God gives me energy into my mind and fizikal~~~
will be last semester soon...afterthat is internship then will be start working in social officially...its starting will be gonna many challenges and many things hv to decide wisely...maybe from now on, it the time to training me growth up~~~
*HELLO 2010*