wat's wrong working during Christmas and birthday..actually the feel quite lonely and boring..tot will gonna be alone by the day, thankz for Kessie and Rudy..thankz them purposely bought me a cake and Kessie brought me to star village had a dinner...thankz a lot~~
1226 is a disaster number to me..year 2004 of 1226 hapened Asian Tsunami including Malaysia and earthquaqe in India..year 2009 0f 1226 hapened an serious accident in ipoh, 10 people was died in the bus accident...its not a good number~~
im 19 officially, no longer claim myself is 18 anymore~~~~
Monday, December 28, 2009
Thursday, December 24, 2009
have been long time i din blogging, not becoz of im lazy, act i also wanna to blog but i really have nothing to drop down..honestly, there are a lot of feeling inside me since i went to Penang...it should be huge gang and being fun within us..but it only left 4 of us, yes~is the pics which 4 of us..did not know what happen within us, but its ok..im really okay~~btw, it has past, nvm la..im not really care at all..cincai la~~what actually u like to do, is non of my business as im being a cold blood gal..nop~im a cold blood gal all the time...being a cold blood not becoz of selfish, im juz protecting myself that not been hurt, and juz pretending im okay all the time~~~
*nice to meet cb family that i hv learned from them to be a cold blood...sometimes it can make me tough as well~~feel so lucky that i know them, if not, im sure damn hurt and sad now....*lolzz
*nice to meet cb family that i hv learned from them to be a cold blood...sometimes it can make me tough as well~~feel so lucky that i know them, if not, im sure damn hurt and sad now....*lolzz
Sunday, November 29, 2009
生病记
感冒~~红眼症~~
都已经第5天了，声音还是怪怪的，眼睛还是红红的。。。
换另一个角度想，可能它要我生病时要我多休息，要我修心吧。。可是也太久了吧。。。
呆在家不是病死，而是要闷死了啦。。。
不过这几天没接触到外人，感觉心静了很多。。
但我觉得生病时在浪费我的时间，没去做工3天 = 就没了3 天的新水耶
想起都觉得很心痛，3天叻~~~天啊。。给我去做工啦，求求你~~~
都已经长大了，生病时不会有人再为自己忙进忙出了。。这样也好，不用听到有人在耳边唠唠叨叨。。真的觉得自己越来越孤僻了，想躲的人越来越多。。我怕再躲在家就来要活在自己的世界里了。。。
真的睡了很多，吃了很多，做少了很多。。让我好吧。。。
只想赶快去做工，他们真的需要我的帮忙。很抱歉~~让他们习惯了我的存在。。如果有一天，我不再在那边帮忙了，希望他们能够应付得来。。。祝福他们~~
都已经第5天了，声音还是怪怪的，眼睛还是红红的。。。
换另一个角度想，可能它要我生病时要我多休息，要我修心吧。。可是也太久了吧。。。
呆在家不是病死，而是要闷死了啦。。。
不过这几天没接触到外人，感觉心静了很多。。
但我觉得生病时在浪费我的时间，没去做工3天 = 就没了3 天的新水耶
想起都觉得很心痛，3天叻~~~天啊。。给我去做工啦，求求你~~~
都已经长大了，生病时不会有人再为自己忙进忙出了。。这样也好，不用听到有人在耳边唠唠叨叨。。真的觉得自己越来越孤僻了，想躲的人越来越多。。我怕再躲在家就来要活在自己的世界里了。。。
真的睡了很多，吃了很多，做少了很多。。让我好吧。。。
只想赶快去做工，他们真的需要我的帮忙。很抱歉~~让他们习惯了我的存在。。如果有一天，我不再在那边帮忙了，希望他们能够应付得来。。。祝福他们~~
Friday, November 20, 2009
hey cb guys..if u guys seen this post please help me think a suitable reject reason that i should giv my secondary fren for hanging out with them......lolzz..i really don wanna gathering with them la..
u guys noe where they intend to go?they are planning to go to genting arr...buffet summore arr..
lolz..if they wan eat buffet why dont they juz at kl...summore it is also going to celebrate bufday with cjy.....i really really really really don wan lor...
lee jian qin~~dim suen??? xlim lim~~giv me some good idea.. ah see~~~dim suen arr...
HELPPP~~~~~~
PS: please don leave ur commment in facebook ya....it is our confidential...shhh~~~
u guys noe where they intend to go?they are planning to go to genting arr...buffet summore arr..
lolz..if they wan eat buffet why dont they juz at kl...summore it is also going to celebrate bufday with cjy.....i really really really really don wan lor...
lee jian qin~~dim suen??? xlim lim~~giv me some good idea.. ah see~~~dim suen arr...
HELPPP~~~~~~
PS: please don leave ur commment in facebook ya....it is our confidential...shhh~~~
Thursday, November 12, 2009
SUCK LEGEND HAVING SUCK STUDENTSSS
非常抱歉~~~对不起~~~今天我说了很多句粗口~~在营里的佛教常告诉我们无论发生什么事；生气前就先默念数十声，闭上眼睛，深呼吸，一定要忍。。。对不起~~今天当我生气时，我忘了，我没做到。。。我还骂了很粗鲁又很多句~~~对不起~~~对不起~~~
回到家，扫了地，抹了地，把家里整理干静了，舒服好多了~~心情终于好了点，可是问题还是存在，问题还要我来搞定~~theory所学的什么 team work 都是假的，跟本就是放屁的话语~~~
早就预料了所谓的 group assignt 就是自己做的，在前一天一个两个都说争着要print 出来，好吧，给你们print 吧。。但出来的结果还是一堆大便给我，害我用了一整晚的时间来排页数，print 到页数乱完了，还可以说一大堆大便理由，竟然懒到连排一排都懒惰； “你酱send 给我，我就酱print 啦~~“
···#@%%&*^$$@#!()*^$@!^^*^*@#!!^&$&*^(^^&Y%^(*) lolzzzz
还有 library 的死人垃圾电脑该拿去丢死狗啦~~~
死韩国仔~~给我一个cd 有百多张页数的microsoft word file 就以为很伟大么，只是从 internet copy paste 我都会啦，所以才有184 pages 啊，copy paste 谁不会~~~有一大堆大便理由；“ im sorry coz i cant online tats why i copy paste a lot first/coz i wan to let u choose which information u wanna to use it" ....死大便~~死大便~~死大便~~死大便~~~~酱懒惰，一个两个去死~去大便啦。。。
冷静~~冷静~~冷静~~冷静~~~还有一个礼拜的时间，一定有时间准备那个exibition 的。。。
不要靠别人。。不要信他们了。。靠自己。。。相信自己。。。
回到家，扫了地，抹了地，把家里整理干静了，舒服好多了~~心情终于好了点，可是问题还是存在，问题还要我来搞定~~theory所学的什么 team work 都是假的，跟本就是放屁的话语~~~
早就预料了所谓的 group assignt 就是自己做的，在前一天一个两个都说争着要print 出来，好吧，给你们print 吧。。但出来的结果还是一堆大便给我，害我用了一整晚的时间来排页数，print 到页数乱完了，还可以说一大堆大便理由，竟然懒到连排一排都懒惰； “你酱send 给我，我就酱print 啦~~“
···#@%%&*^$$@#!()*^$@!^^*^*@#!!^&$&*^(^^&Y%^(*) lolzzzz
还有 library 的死人垃圾电脑该拿去丢死狗啦~~~
死韩国仔~~给我一个cd 有百多张页数的microsoft word file 就以为很伟大么，只是从 internet copy paste 我都会啦，所以才有184 pages 啊，copy paste 谁不会~~~有一大堆大便理由；“ im sorry coz i cant online tats why i copy paste a lot first/coz i wan to let u choose which information u wanna to use it" ....死大便~~死大便~~死大便~~死大便~~~~酱懒惰，一个两个去死~去大便啦。。。
冷静~~冷静~~冷静~~冷静~~~还有一个礼拜的时间，一定有时间准备那个exibition 的。。。
不要靠别人。。不要信他们了。。靠自己。。。相信自己。。。
Monday, November 9, 2009
i tot i can tahan till this week, but actually was not..
i felt down; finally i gt sick..its the second time my mom saw me was taking medicine in the midnite again..she din say anythg by the time,tot she was fine, but she scolded me in the next morning..ofcoz i ignore her advising...finally finish the HFD assignt and presentation, can rest enough enough finally..thn continue keep struggling the marketing assignt, damn hate group assignt, summore with group members is people who always find their own excuse saying that they are busy..bla bla bla.......
WTF~~KNS~~TNB~~TMD~~SPP~~#$%%*&#!)(*^$##*&&^%#$%@
anyway, no matter is grouping or individual, for me the results are the same; =do myself=
thn after i finish done it, they will pretending asked me : key,r u ok? / key,wat info u stil left? /
key, i help u print out la../ key, u sure this question can be answered lik tis ar?bla bla bla....
anyway, please let me sleep and rest one day first, i nid to charge battery of myself~~~
i felt down; finally i gt sick..its the second time my mom saw me was taking medicine in the midnite again..she din say anythg by the time,tot she was fine, but she scolded me in the next morning..ofcoz i ignore her advising...finally finish the HFD assignt and presentation, can rest enough enough finally..thn continue keep struggling the marketing assignt, damn hate group assignt, summore with group members is people who always find their own excuse saying that they are busy..bla bla bla.......
WTF~~KNS~~TNB~~TMD~~SPP~~#$%%*&#!)(*^$##*&&^%#$%@
anyway, no matter is grouping or individual, for me the results are the same; =do myself=
thn after i finish done it, they will pretending asked me : key,r u ok? / key,wat info u stil left? /
key, i help u print out la../ key, u sure this question can be answered lik tis ar?bla bla bla....
anyway, please let me sleep and rest one day first, i nid to charge battery of myself~~~
Thursday, November 5, 2009
生命
生命不是只有我们自己，而是和所有身边的人有关。。
生命不止是包括情绪和感觉，而是‘责任‘。。
生命要在乎我们如何去生活，也要珍惜拥有的一却。。
阿甘正传的名言“生命就像巧克力盒，你不会知道你会获得什么“。。
所以，一定要勇敢阔步向前。。
只有自己可以改变自己的生命，别人不能。。
加油哦！！！
生命不止是包括情绪和感觉，而是‘责任‘。。
生命要在乎我们如何去生活，也要珍惜拥有的一却。。
阿甘正传的名言“生命就像巧克力盒，你不会知道你会获得什么“。。
所以，一定要勇敢阔步向前。。
只有自己可以改变自己的生命，别人不能。。
加油哦！！！
Monday, October 26, 2009
" polo " antidote
today super super sleepy in the class...
everyone was also being like tat...
maybe is lecturer's problem..the subject is really boring us..
i damnn hate the 3 indians guy who sitting behind there..
they were so annoying and always thinking about ham sap topic watever wat the lecturer said..
and they loughing was so disgusting, i don wanna to say ppl lik tat; but its really; that they are damn 'yong sui'..tats y im typing my blog here...amitabha~~~
=GOD BLESS THAT PLEASE NEVER SAME GROUP ASSIGNMENT WITH THEM=
when i took out my polo sweet, everyone all around were like saw the antidote of sleepy..my one whole polo was just bought new has distributed to ah cat, kessie, kitty, jin, anson, hanns, big show, kelvin, ah kok, jiayi....few minutes later, they all required again in the same time, then i distributed again, then finished by them..it lets me noe that the whole polo is around 20++ pcs oni...
everyone was also being like tat...
maybe is lecturer's problem..the subject is really boring us..
i damnn hate the 3 indians guy who sitting behind there..
they were so annoying and always thinking about ham sap topic watever wat the lecturer said..
and they loughing was so disgusting, i don wanna to say ppl lik tat; but its really; that they are damn 'yong sui'..tats y im typing my blog here...amitabha~~~
=GOD BLESS THAT PLEASE NEVER SAME GROUP ASSIGNMENT WITH THEM=
when i took out my polo sweet, everyone all around were like saw the antidote of sleepy..my one whole polo was just bought new has distributed to ah cat, kessie, kitty, jin, anson, hanns, big show, kelvin, ah kok, jiayi....few minutes later, they all required again in the same time, then i distributed again, then finished by them..it lets me noe that the whole polo is around 20++ pcs oni...
心墙
一个人 眺望碧海和蓝天
在心里面 那抹灰就淡一些
海豚从眼前飞越
我看见了阳光的笑脸
我学着不去担心得太远
不计画太多 反而能勇敢冒险
丰富地过每一天 快乐地看每一天
第一次遇见阴天遮住你侧脸
有什么故事好想了解
我感觉我懂你的特别
你的心有一道墙 但我发现一扇窗
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化
你会闻到幸福晴朗的芬芳
在心里面 那抹灰就淡一些
海豚从眼前飞越
我看见了阳光的笑脸
我学着不去担心得太远
不计画太多 反而能勇敢冒险
丰富地过每一天 快乐地看每一天
第一次遇见阴天遮住你侧脸
有什么故事好想了解
我感觉我懂你的特别
你的心有一道墙 但我发现一扇窗
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化
你会闻到幸福晴朗的芬芳
Sunday, October 25, 2009
cycling day 3
today damn feel reluctant to get up from my bed~~~
third times been taman pertanian...this time quite enjoy compare to the second time...
damn damn tired today...they ride almost all around the taman pertanian...
last 2 time i've been there was also just tired a while only..but this time i damn damn tired all around the journey...lolz
with different guys will had different memory..today when we all went to four season house,same place, same autumn also, same location, but different feel with them..we been there is only few minutes i guess~~~and it was not as cold as last time~~~
after that, went to eat bak ku teh at klang i guess..cz actually i don really noe wat the place is?! hehx.. it was raining during we going back, luckily we were laying comfortably in the car..lol
nothing special for today, it's juz a cycling bicycle as usual..now damnmmmmm tired and sleepy, going to sleep well well well right now~~~nitez ya!!!
third times been taman pertanian...this time quite enjoy compare to the second time...
damn damn tired today...they ride almost all around the taman pertanian...
last 2 time i've been there was also just tired a while only..but this time i damn damn tired all around the journey...lolz
with different guys will had different memory..today when we all went to four season house,same place, same autumn also, same location, but different feel with them..we been there is only few minutes i guess~~~and it was not as cold as last time~~~
after that, went to eat bak ku teh at klang i guess..cz actually i don really noe wat the place is?! hehx.. it was raining during we going back, luckily we were laying comfortably in the car..lol
nothing special for today, it's juz a cycling bicycle as usual..now damnmmmmm tired and sleepy, going to sleep well well well right now~~~nitez ya!!!
Friday, October 16, 2009
失眠记 （2）
1145 pm，我睡了。。0237 am，睡醒了。。一直很努力的睡下去，什么都不想，很努力的把眼睛紧紧闭上，结果还是一样，超精神耶！！是天气不好，还是健康出了问题？！不盖被就感觉冷；一盖被又觉得很热。。。看看电话，0325am 了，再继续努力睡吧！！为什么闭着眼睛了感觉到头晕的！？原来我伤风了，肚子在打鼓了。。忍忍忍忍忍！！一定能忍到睡着的，要加油哦！！终于忍无可忍了，再看看电话，0437am 而已咧。。争扎了一个小时，起来吃药吧！！可是，空着肚子可以吃药么？！海牙。。随便啦，吃了再算吧！！再回去睡，还是睡不着咧，怎么办。。。我明明已经没有任何烦恼了啦，明明头脑就是空白的啦，做莫还是睡不着的？！盯着天花板一段时间了，再看看电话，0525am 了，肚子超锇咧！！起来弄早餐吧，想喝杯milo，没有了，想喝杯牛奶，也喝完了，做莫我酱倒霉的？！炒饭咯，准备好材料了，糟糕！！该先放材料，还是先放鸡蛋？饭几时放啊？哎呀，随便啦，炒饭的意是可能就是所有的东西一起炒吧！！最后出来的结果：我猜对了，哈哈！！只是味道淡了点。。。
终于天亮了，要和他们第2次踩脚车了。。feel 到这次应该不会像上次那样开心耶，因为有我不想要的人去。。而我想要去的人又放飞机。。。闲！！！打算踩了脚车赶去做工，lolzz， 为了能够睡个好觉，一定要让自己有多累就多累。。。。。希望这个方法会有效啦！！！！
终于天亮了，要和他们第2次踩脚车了。。feel 到这次应该不会像上次那样开心耶，因为有我不想要的人去。。而我想要去的人又放飞机。。。闲！！！打算踩了脚车赶去做工，lolzz， 为了能够睡个好觉，一定要让自己有多累就多累。。。。。希望这个方法会有效啦！！！！
Monday, September 21, 2009
失眠记
今早凌晨2 点多。。平时大家都还没睡，怎么今天好像都睡了。。
听了很多首歌，越听越精神。。
辛好电话里有几首韩国歌，听不明白也好，开始有点睡意了。。。
睡醒了更糟糕，无所事事，做着阿呆，对着电脑。。
更加闷，闷，闷，闷。。。
睡个午觉，晚上又失眠了。。。
晚上又闷，睡醒又闷，下午又闷。。。
只有一个字。。‘闷‘。。。
听了很多首歌，越听越精神。。
辛好电话里有几首韩国歌，听不明白也好，开始有点睡意了。。。
睡醒了更糟糕，无所事事，做着阿呆，对着电脑。。
更加闷，闷，闷，闷。。。
睡个午觉，晚上又失眠了。。。
晚上又闷，睡醒又闷，下午又闷。。。
只有一个字。。‘闷‘。。。
Saturday, September 19, 2009
4th sem is over~~~
the last subject of final exam 'housekeeping' finally finish...and the last nite before the exam i still watching drama,烈火雄心大结局...actually the overall of the drama was damnnn boring,very disappointing...luckily during the exam i can handle it,thanx for ah see and ah kit sent their luck to me~~~hehez...wondering why me and ah cat sure will become crazy after exam of every each sem,we shouted at the locker there ~~哇！考完了，去死吧，那些 notes~~hahaha...luckily no outsider people there...we all 自己人。。。Kessie: 1 'siao' cat , 1 'siao' key = 2 siao za bo~~~
after that went for movie with Betty, wanna watch Tsunami..but the oni seat left 1st row, we rather don wan watch..wanna watch Orphan but it has no more..finally we choose final destination which is i totally no interest in that coz i noe it is not horrow at all...damn final destination~~no horror at all...the ways that they die is jz small cases to me...wasting my money...wasting my time..wasting my life for watching that..lolz!!! damn hate the girl who sitting beside me keep scaring all the movie from beginning to the end...don noe what she scared about lor...lolz!!
then we go eat thailand food at pandan indah and walking pasar malam...jiayi said the food was damn spicy tats y we going for have a try...another disappointing again...tak ada rasa at all de la...lolz..that time we oni realise is jiayi's problm, she cant take spicy food..6 gals of us, oni she sweating during eating,we all really cant feel any spicy feel...thn complain to the boss,wow,we are so brave to speak out our opinion..then the boss giv us another spicy tom yam soup, he said it was really come from original thailand, we trust him one more time, walouee..jiayi behtahan already, that time we oni gonna tasted gt some spicy feel.....thn walking pasar malam,it was rainning...we all taking the umbrella known as ''肉酸‘’...actually taking an umbrella is not a big pboblem but jiayi said it so 肉酸 thats why we all match wif her together taking it...
then time to go home...eveyone started feel wanna go toilet and seemed all of us behtahan ady..then we squeeze to jiayi's house using her toilet..that time was really shocked her mom...lolz
ps: is the first day of activities while finish exam, but following days seem will become bored....lolz
after that went for movie with Betty, wanna watch Tsunami..but the oni seat left 1st row, we rather don wan watch..wanna watch Orphan but it has no more..finally we choose final destination which is i totally no interest in that coz i noe it is not horrow at all...damn final destination~~no horror at all...the ways that they die is jz small cases to me...wasting my money...wasting my time..wasting my life for watching that..lolz!!! damn hate the girl who sitting beside me keep scaring all the movie from beginning to the end...don noe what she scared about lor...lolz!!
then we go eat thailand food at pandan indah and walking pasar malam...jiayi said the food was damn spicy tats y we going for have a try...another disappointing again...tak ada rasa at all de la...lolz..that time we oni realise is jiayi's problm, she cant take spicy food..6 gals of us, oni she sweating during eating,we all really cant feel any spicy feel...thn complain to the boss,wow,we are so brave to speak out our opinion..then the boss giv us another spicy tom yam soup, he said it was really come from original thailand, we trust him one more time, walouee..jiayi behtahan already, that time we oni gonna tasted gt some spicy feel.....thn walking pasar malam,it was rainning...we all taking the umbrella known as ''肉酸‘’...actually taking an umbrella is not a big pboblem but jiayi said it so 肉酸 thats why we all match wif her together taking it...
then time to go home...eveyone started feel wanna go toilet and seemed all of us behtahan ady..then we squeeze to jiayi's house using her toilet..that time was really shocked her mom...lolz
ps: is the first day of activities while finish exam, but following days seem will become bored....lolz
Thursday, September 10, 2009
090909~ a sudden outing
i tot the whole study week will jz 'periuk' at home lonely for doing revision, wat a coincidence, cold blood executive date me out suddenly,huhuhu....i jz go out cz i tink that even i jz stay at home is also jz watching drama, eating snack,or taking nap only...lolz..study week seemed like sem break...hahaha...i also don wanna be lik that dar...烈火雄心 la...damn nice at middle part there...made me cant stop for watching that...sogo sales la,make me bought many snacks there...
sei lo...damn scared for putting weight ar...but i really cant control leh....
haiz...going back to the desk and hugging and kissing all the notes la....sei fei po....hehx !!!!
sei lo...damn scared for putting weight ar...but i really cant control leh....
haiz...going back to the desk and hugging and kissing all the notes la....sei fei po....hehx !!!!
Monday, September 7, 2009
yes~~i did it
该忘记的终于都忘掉了。。。
该放弃的终于都放弃了。。。
该努力的正在当中。。。
终于放开了。。。终于想开了。。。
不再想你了。。不再期待了。。。终于放松了。。。
为自己感到骄傲，感到自豪，因为很却定的。。
终于能够 100% 没事了，忘了，放了，娃哈哈哈哈哈哈~~~YEAHHH
该放弃的终于都放弃了。。。
该努力的正在当中。。。
终于放开了。。。终于想开了。。。
不再想你了。。不再期待了。。。终于放松了。。。
为自己感到骄傲，感到自豪，因为很却定的。。
终于能够 100% 没事了，忘了，放了，娃哈哈哈哈哈哈~~~YEAHHH
Sunday, August 30, 2009
cycling day
i think it has been long time that my blog never post any happyness events...
finally, today will be different...went to ride bicycle at shah alam with DCA guys..
they have asked us few times, but the few times always f.f.k them, but today finally confirm wanna go with them..
early in the morning was raining like cats and dogs...everyone was worried about that...
luckily it was sopped...then we start cycling...
wow..i have damn long time never ride bicycle, luckily i still can handle it today...
ah kok was a damn nice person, he keep concern about me, keep ride at behind me to look after me...
then we took many photo in half way..actually guys were did not want to rest, but we all ladies keep moaning that it was tiring and force them to rest, that why we only hv the chance to take photo..
after that we keep riding our way, not even 5 minutes, kessie keep saying wanna rest pula, thn we stopped at a shop and was watching and playing with the butterfly(s) that jiayi most scared in this world...wakaka...
after that we keep riding to four season house, on the way to there, it was so bad i got a tiny accident on my bicycle, the break was broke down, but i still ignore it keep ride it cz don wanna to waste their time...hehx
finally arrive the four season house, walao..its damn comfartable that we all damn hot and in the temperature was only 15 celcius..donno how long we were inside there, but it confirm very long time and we all was sooooo reluctant to leave there...
its time to get off, another small accident on me, i ride too fast and forget to step break cz of keep busy chatting with jiayi, but luckily im and the bicycle also fine...hahahaha
then we mango that bring by big show, RM 10 for 3 kg....haha..never thought that they bring along their chef knife to cut the mango...at that time, really "za dao" lo...then all together siting at the side road and eat it....
the legs damn painful when went back home, but it has long time never ride bicycle and take photo like today..previously my legs feel painful and taking photo non stop lik today will only happens during NS..because of Larry and Big show, they keep kacao people when taking photo, made me feel they look like 刀疤哥....hahaha...on the way of going back home, NS memory came in my mind again........
finally, today will be different...went to ride bicycle at shah alam with DCA guys..
they have asked us few times, but the few times always f.f.k them, but today finally confirm wanna go with them..
early in the morning was raining like cats and dogs...everyone was worried about that...
luckily it was sopped...then we start cycling...
wow..i have damn long time never ride bicycle, luckily i still can handle it today...
ah kok was a damn nice person, he keep concern about me, keep ride at behind me to look after me...
then we took many photo in half way..actually guys were did not want to rest, but we all ladies keep moaning that it was tiring and force them to rest, that why we only hv the chance to take photo..
after that we keep riding our way, not even 5 minutes, kessie keep saying wanna rest pula, thn we stopped at a shop and was watching and playing with the butterfly(s) that jiayi most scared in this world...wakaka...
after that we keep riding to four season house, on the way to there, it was so bad i got a tiny accident on my bicycle, the break was broke down, but i still ignore it keep ride it cz don wanna to waste their time...hehx
finally arrive the four season house, walao..its damn comfartable that we all damn hot and in the temperature was only 15 celcius..donno how long we were inside there, but it confirm very long time and we all was sooooo reluctant to leave there...
its time to get off, another small accident on me, i ride too fast and forget to step break cz of keep busy chatting with jiayi, but luckily im and the bicycle also fine...hahahaha
then we mango that bring by big show, RM 10 for 3 kg....haha..never thought that they bring along their chef knife to cut the mango...at that time, really "za dao" lo...then all together siting at the side road and eat it....
the legs damn painful when went back home, but it has long time never ride bicycle and take photo like today..previously my legs feel painful and taking photo non stop lik today will only happens during NS..because of Larry and Big show, they keep kacao people when taking photo, made me feel they look like 刀疤哥....hahaha...on the way of going back home, NS memory came in my mind again........
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
别怕， 神在保佑你们
在那一瞬间，上天带走了你们最亲爱的家人，你们的家园。
失去了最唯一的家人，最熟悉的家园，一定很难过吧。。。
流了很多很多的眼泪，呐喊家人的名字很多遍吧。。。
没了家园可以再建，没了家人怎么办啊。。。
大声哭吧，然后你们要坚强哦。。
全世界的人都在为你们加油打气，祈祷哦。。
也许很多人都一致认同你们很可怜，但生长在一个幸福家庭里，谁能够真正了解你们的感受？
你们的内心现在一定比任何人都痛吧。。
就当作是上天给的考验，上天要你们学会坚强成长，要你们勇敢努力生活。。。
悲伤有时，没有人会喜欢悲伤吧，但它却有能力改变一个人。。。
感受得到这段时间你们的心里真的很痛苦，但，还是要忍耐。。
坚持信念，坚持相信一却都会过去的，所有都回没事的。。。
听到了吗？看到了吗？所有人都在帮你们啊。。。
虽然上天很狠心从你们身上夺走了一却。。。
但，别怕，它是公平的，他不会永远只对你们掺忍。。要相信他。。。
相信你们，经历了那么大的考验，你们一定比任何人都还要坚强。。。
眼泪流过了，抹干了，清醒了，要站起来面对了。。。
没有人会想放弃你们，不要自己放弃生活，要知道，神在看着你们，
他永远都在你们身边，守护着你们，保佑着你们。。。
=GOD BLESS=
失去了最唯一的家人，最熟悉的家园，一定很难过吧。。。
流了很多很多的眼泪，呐喊家人的名字很多遍吧。。。
没了家园可以再建，没了家人怎么办啊。。。
大声哭吧，然后你们要坚强哦。。
全世界的人都在为你们加油打气，祈祷哦。。
也许很多人都一致认同你们很可怜，但生长在一个幸福家庭里，谁能够真正了解你们的感受？
你们的内心现在一定比任何人都痛吧。。
就当作是上天给的考验，上天要你们学会坚强成长，要你们勇敢努力生活。。。
悲伤有时，没有人会喜欢悲伤吧，但它却有能力改变一个人。。。
感受得到这段时间你们的心里真的很痛苦，但，还是要忍耐。。
坚持信念，坚持相信一却都会过去的，所有都回没事的。。。
听到了吗？看到了吗？所有人都在帮你们啊。。。
虽然上天很狠心从你们身上夺走了一却。。。
但，别怕，它是公平的，他不会永远只对你们掺忍。。要相信他。。。
相信你们，经历了那么大的考验，你们一定比任何人都还要坚强。。。
眼泪流过了，抹干了，清醒了，要站起来面对了。。。
没有人会想放弃你们，不要自己放弃生活，要知道，神在看着你们，
他永远都在你们身边，守护着你们，保佑着你们。。。
=GOD BLESS=
Monday, August 17, 2009
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
从新加油
8 月了。。。发生了很多事情。。。心里有了好多的感受。。。
低落过。。伤心过。。感动过。。
不是每一次的感受都能用文字来表达的。。。
不要问我。。不要乱猜。。相信我。。。
答应我。。为我打气好吗？默默的支持我就足够了。。。
用‘心‘去看。。。你能感受得到我现在的感受吗？？？
该醒了。。要会想了。。不要再做猪了。。
要有勇气面对眼前的烦恼。。只要有勇气，一定能搞定的。。。
还有一个月的时间，加油吧！！
天神只眷顾有勇气的人的吧。。
不要怕，不要慌，就算没人再支持了，也不值得为他人的不支持而虚脱。。
可以流泪，但不可以哭，虽然还没有能力做到这样。。。
但也要坚持的忍，绝对不让哭的眼泪掉下来。。。
这是唯一还能对自已的承诺。。。
答应你们，答应自已，不再逃课了。。。不再逃避了。。。信我。。。
跟自已说，在心里大喊：“ 加油吧！“
要有一天为自已的成就而流泪，而不是再在巴士上把双眼哭红。。。
不要再为哭而掉泪。。泪，要为感动而掉。。。
=GOD BLESS=
低落过。。伤心过。。感动过。。
不是每一次的感受都能用文字来表达的。。。
不要问我。。不要乱猜。。相信我。。。
答应我。。为我打气好吗？默默的支持我就足够了。。。
用‘心‘去看。。。你能感受得到我现在的感受吗？？？
该醒了。。要会想了。。不要再做猪了。。
要有勇气面对眼前的烦恼。。只要有勇气，一定能搞定的。。。
还有一个月的时间，加油吧！！
天神只眷顾有勇气的人的吧。。
不要怕，不要慌，就算没人再支持了，也不值得为他人的不支持而虚脱。。
可以流泪，但不可以哭，虽然还没有能力做到这样。。。
但也要坚持的忍，绝对不让哭的眼泪掉下来。。。
这是唯一还能对自已的承诺。。。
答应你们，答应自已，不再逃课了。。。不再逃避了。。。信我。。。
跟自已说，在心里大喊：“ 加油吧！“
要有一天为自已的成就而流泪，而不是再在巴士上把双眼哭红。。。
不要再为哭而掉泪。。泪，要为感动而掉。。。
=GOD BLESS=
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Monday, July 27, 2009
Monday, July 20, 2009
很久没上blog 了。。。不是因为懒惰哦。。而是最近都没什么事发生啊。。。
其实这段时间脑子想了蛮多东西的，但就是不懂要怎么打，说穿了，就是懒惰，哈哈哈
直到星期5 那天，终于忍不住决定要逃课，逃避hosp. accounting....
在当天看了harry potter。。。并不是和他看。。。他应该忘了啦。。。算了吧！！！
自从他们一起去了malacca后，他们的感情比我们的还要好了。。。
很想我们好像以前那样，可是我感觉到她们好像取代我了。。。
算了吧！！我是谁？我什么都不是。。。虽然我们偶尔还有玩闹。。。
但那种感觉已经再也不是了。。。因为当我和她们同时出现时。。。
他选择了她们。。。他们蛮像欢喜冤家的，以前都讨厌对方，现在却。。。
反而是=他=最近表现得很奇怪，以前从不主动和我打招呼，从不主动和我说笑。。。
从不多看我两眼，从不和我多说话，为什么最近为什么都作了呢？
以前只有人多时才敢和我说话，现在却相反了。。。到底是为什么呢？？
最近很少再想念任何人了。。很少上网了。。很少用电话了。。很少出街了。。。
躲在家里睡多了很多。。。现在感觉到头脑很轻。。很清醒。。感觉蛮爽的。。。
其实这段时间脑子想了蛮多东西的，但就是不懂要怎么打，说穿了，就是懒惰，哈哈哈
直到星期5 那天，终于忍不住决定要逃课，逃避hosp. accounting....
在当天看了harry potter。。。并不是和他看。。。他应该忘了啦。。。算了吧！！！
自从他们一起去了malacca后，他们的感情比我们的还要好了。。。
很想我们好像以前那样，可是我感觉到她们好像取代我了。。。
算了吧！！我是谁？我什么都不是。。。虽然我们偶尔还有玩闹。。。
但那种感觉已经再也不是了。。。因为当我和她们同时出现时。。。
他选择了她们。。。他们蛮像欢喜冤家的，以前都讨厌对方，现在却。。。
反而是=他=最近表现得很奇怪，以前从不主动和我打招呼，从不主动和我说笑。。。
从不多看我两眼，从不和我多说话，为什么最近为什么都作了呢？
以前只有人多时才敢和我说话，现在却相反了。。。到底是为什么呢？？
最近很少再想念任何人了。。很少上网了。。很少用电话了。。很少出街了。。。
躲在家里睡多了很多。。。现在感觉到头脑很轻。。很清醒。。感觉蛮爽的。。。
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
cant believe today's incident...
im taking position of LICHT secretary...
why is me?? i don wan...
what should the position do?? i don noe...
cjy pls don jealous me...i oso don wan taking the position...
but i had no choice...majority vote me...
never tot i will hv one of the position in college...
cz my slogan alwayz is " none of my business"...
now hv to take care all of the thing...really scared will getting depressed...
worried i cant carry out all the events...
worried i cant done the job very well that ppl tot i can do it...
i admit im quite stupid...im quite blur all the times...
i hate responsibility...hate take caring others thing that im not prefer it...
worried will let u all down...
trying my best...
=GOD BLESS=
im taking position of LICHT secretary...
why is me?? i don wan...
what should the position do?? i don noe...
cjy pls don jealous me...i oso don wan taking the position...
but i had no choice...majority vote me...
never tot i will hv one of the position in college...
cz my slogan alwayz is " none of my business"...
now hv to take care all of the thing...really scared will getting depressed...
worried i cant carry out all the events...
worried i cant done the job very well that ppl tot i can do it...
i admit im quite stupid...im quite blur all the times...
i hate responsibility...hate take caring others thing that im not prefer it...
worried will let u all down...
trying my best...
=GOD BLESS=
OH, LOVE'S IN THE AIR IT'S EVERYWHERE
EVERYONE CAN SEE EVERYONE CAN FEEL
THAT LOVE'S IN THE AIR IT DOESN'T MATTER WHERE
EVERYONE AGREES LOVE IS ALL WE NEED
WHEN THE MOON FALLS IN YOUR EYES I KNOW THE SUN HAS SET
THE FIRE STILL BURNS WITHIN ME SINCE THE DAY WE MET
I KNOW MY HEAVEN WOULD BE SO COMPLETE YOU COULD MAKE IT REAL
I WON'T LET THIS CHANGE GO BY I CAN SEE, I CAN FEEL YOU
EVERYONE CAN SEE EVERYONE CAN FEEL
THAT LOVE'S IN THE AIR IT DOESN'T MATTER WHERE
EVERYONE AGREES LOVE IS ALL WE NEED
WHEN THE MOON FALLS IN YOUR EYES I KNOW THE SUN HAS SET
THE FIRE STILL BURNS WITHIN ME SINCE THE DAY WE MET
I KNOW MY HEAVEN WOULD BE SO COMPLETE YOU COULD MAKE IT REAL
I WON'T LET THIS CHANGE GO BY I CAN SEE, I CAN FEEL YOU
Friday, July 3, 2009
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
i damn miss u...miss u so much...
wondering how r u now....
wondering whether r u miss me too??hope so very much...
wondering r u happy now?hope so u r...
wondering when will u be here...tat's y im alwaz be here...
wondering whether v hv any fate among us?? god bless...
wondering hv u same feeling like me right now?? hope so...
no matter how r u now...
no matter do u miss me..
no matter r u happy...
no matter i might be jz think it my own...
no matter v might be hv no fate at all among us...
no matter u might not hv the same feeling as me right now...
its ok...i will be fine...evythg will be ok...
at least now is better than previously...im feel happy n enjoy missing u...
=GOD BLESS=
wondering how r u now....
wondering whether r u miss me too??hope so very much...
wondering r u happy now?hope so u r...
wondering when will u be here...tat's y im alwaz be here...
wondering whether v hv any fate among us?? god bless...
wondering hv u same feeling like me right now?? hope so...
no matter how r u now...
no matter do u miss me..
no matter r u happy...
no matter i might be jz think it my own...
no matter v might be hv no fate at all among us...
no matter u might not hv the same feeling as me right now...
its ok...i will be fine...evythg will be ok...
at least now is better than previously...im feel happy n enjoy missing u...
=GOD BLESS=
Friday, June 26, 2009
4AP vs 5AP
Boe...Quan Siong...Mun Wah...
knew u guys during since form 4...
suddenly miss u guys so much...
im sorry...sry 4 my cold bloodness...
now oni start miss u guys...
feel so sad Boe became lik this...complicated social life...
photo of ur sexyness...hugging by so many different kind of guys...
wanna ask u...r u feel really happy now??
u r so talent in art..y dont u continue stdy?ur bro is very good in stdy...
pls don let him down...
a guy who sit beside me for 2 years..miss u so much...
sometimes acting were so sissy but actually he is who caring me for 2 years lik my bro...
many ppl were envy wif us...luckily v nvr fall in luv to each other...
a guy who really damn care abt me..a guy who damn trust in me..
feel lik wanna go back to previously time...go back our memories...
when i damn boring at class..u were slping...i forced u to chat with me...
when i no mood at all...u forced me to lough ur jokking eventot it is not funny at all..
wanna ask u,how r u now?but i wondering im not dare to asking u..myb u've changed..me 2
mun wah...damn miss u...
u always help me to do the chinese hmwork...
u always help me to buy my favourite breakfast...
u always consoling me with ur singing...
i damn lik ur singing..its damn nice...
u and CQS damn care for me...
i never feel sad during form5..
have many things wanna talk with u guys...
now oni realised never say thanx with u guys...
damn miss so much abt last time...
anyways...
no matters how r u guys now...
how our future will be....
=GOD ALWAYZ BLESS=
knew u guys during since form 4...
suddenly miss u guys so much...
im sorry...sry 4 my cold bloodness...
now oni start miss u guys...
feel so sad Boe became lik this...complicated social life...
photo of ur sexyness...hugging by so many different kind of guys...
wanna ask u...r u feel really happy now??
u r so talent in art..y dont u continue stdy?ur bro is very good in stdy...
pls don let him down...
a guy who sit beside me for 2 years..miss u so much...
sometimes acting were so sissy but actually he is who caring me for 2 years lik my bro...
many ppl were envy wif us...luckily v nvr fall in luv to each other...
a guy who really damn care abt me..a guy who damn trust in me..
feel lik wanna go back to previously time...go back our memories...
when i damn boring at class..u were slping...i forced u to chat with me...
when i no mood at all...u forced me to lough ur jokking eventot it is not funny at all..
wanna ask u,how r u now?but i wondering im not dare to asking u..myb u've changed..me 2
mun wah...damn miss u...
u always help me to do the chinese hmwork...
u always help me to buy my favourite breakfast...
u always consoling me with ur singing...
i damn lik ur singing..its damn nice...
u and CQS damn care for me...
i never feel sad during form5..
have many things wanna talk with u guys...
now oni realised never say thanx with u guys...
damn miss so much abt last time...
anyways...
no matters how r u guys now...
how our future will be....
=GOD ALWAYZ BLESS=
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Bonjour Paris
the 1st french word that i've learned...Bonjour...
Je m'appelle key...Je suis stagiaire....
quite difficult pronounce language but its challenging...
quite interest in it and looking forward to learn more abt it...
Fino said french will not pronouns 'h'...
thn there were a student ask him so how the France ppl lough??
thn they all lough as " a a a a" (cut the 'h')
thn the whole class lough as a a a a....wakaka...wat the funny lesson...
since we all were so hardworking to practice our pronunciation.....
Fino said we all like talking Tamil more than french...hahaha
problem is...we all think so as well....
still a lot funny stuff during the class...
posted 4 blog in one short...start lazying....
=GOD BLESS=
Je m'appelle key...Je suis stagiaire....
quite difficult pronounce language but its challenging...
quite interest in it and looking forward to learn more abt it...
Fino said french will not pronouns 'h'...
thn there were a student ask him so how the France ppl lough??
thn they all lough as " a a a a" (cut the 'h')
thn the whole class lough as a a a a....wakaka...wat the funny lesson...
since we all were so hardworking to practice our pronunciation.....
Fino said we all like talking Tamil more than french...hahaha
problem is...we all think so as well....
still a lot funny stuff during the class...
posted 4 blog in one short...start lazying....
=GOD BLESS=
真或假
觉得自己好像越来越假了。。。
到底何时真，何时假，连自己到不会分了。。。
是情绪化吗？还是得了人格分裂症？
我到底怎么了?不是已经 ok了吗？为什么还会这样的呢?
一时可以大笑。。一时可以很低落。。。这是有病吗?
在笑的时侯，是真笑还是假笑，都搞不懂了。。。
今天上课特别专心。。。完全没兴趣说话的一天。。。
放了课就回家上blog到现在。。。
很勉强的一天。。。是得了忧郁症吗？
发现到原来一直我都在装。。。
原来装也有限的。。。
最重要是装的好，让人看不出来。。。这才高招。。。
既然没办法真正的，就唯有装到变成真。。。
到底何时真，何时假，连自己到不会分了。。。
是情绪化吗？还是得了人格分裂症？
我到底怎么了?不是已经 ok了吗？为什么还会这样的呢?
一时可以大笑。。一时可以很低落。。。这是有病吗?
在笑的时侯，是真笑还是假笑，都搞不懂了。。。
今天上课特别专心。。。完全没兴趣说话的一天。。。
放了课就回家上blog到现在。。。
很勉强的一天。。。是得了忧郁症吗？
发现到原来一直我都在装。。。
原来装也有限的。。。
最重要是装的好，让人看不出来。。。这才高招。。。
既然没办法真正的，就唯有装到变成真。。。
老夫子
老父子早安。。。
差点忘了，我的math 是你教会我的。。。
你也说过很多超冷的笑话。。。
头发全白，戴着很liong 的眼镜，笑起来面瑕会又红又圜。。。
真的很像老夫子咯。。。
想要跟你说对不起。。。
在JJ遇到。。。你先认得我。。。我竟然不认得你。。。
竟然还以为你是路边的uncle 认错人。。。
真得很对不起你。。。
这一天看到你。。。你老了。。。当然啦，都5年了。。。
但你的笑容和5 年前是一样的。。。（老夫子）嘻嘻
让我想起了很多以前的事，是我一直以来很久都没碰过的回忆。。。
想想。。。
和以前的自己比较。。。真的变了很多很多很多。。。
是变了还是成长了？？我不懂。。。
但，很肯定的，不可能回到从前了。。。也回不了了。。。
差点忘了，我的math 是你教会我的。。。
你也说过很多超冷的笑话。。。
头发全白，戴着很liong 的眼镜，笑起来面瑕会又红又圜。。。
真的很像老夫子咯。。。
想要跟你说对不起。。。
在JJ遇到。。。你先认得我。。。我竟然不认得你。。。
竟然还以为你是路边的uncle 认错人。。。
真得很对不起你。。。
这一天看到你。。。你老了。。。当然啦，都5年了。。。
但你的笑容和5 年前是一样的。。。（老夫子）嘻嘻
让我想起了很多以前的事，是我一直以来很久都没碰过的回忆。。。
想想。。。
和以前的自己比较。。。真的变了很多很多很多。。。
是变了还是成长了？？我不懂。。。
但，很肯定的，不可能回到从前了。。。也回不了了。。。
想我吗
10/06/09...凌晨2点22分。。。谢谢你至少想起了我。。。
你有心事吗？还是你纯碎要我回你？
无论是什么都好。。。谢谢你至少还会想我。。。
很抱歉。。。很可惜。。。我睡了。。。
是无缘无份。。。还是你就是故意在凌晨才有勇气呢？？
无论什么都好。。。要维持一段永久的关系。。。就是友情。。。
不管彼此有否把对方放在心上。。。
希望我们友谊永固吧。。。
把 ''友谊永固'' 套在我们身上,感觉很心痛...
没办法了...唯有这样...心里才会好过点吧...
大家都有很长的路要走...我们所走的路,还会碰面吗?我不懂。。。
一天前。。。无法专心读书。。。
在想你。。。在伤心。。。在痛苦。。。你都不懂。。。
想通了。。。应该更努力才能前进。。。
也许有一天，我们碰面了，你会不同，我也不列外。。。
一齐努力生活吧！！！
你有心事吗？还是你纯碎要我回你？
无论是什么都好。。。谢谢你至少还会想我。。。
很抱歉。。。很可惜。。。我睡了。。。
是无缘无份。。。还是你就是故意在凌晨才有勇气呢？？
无论什么都好。。。要维持一段永久的关系。。。就是友情。。。
不管彼此有否把对方放在心上。。。
希望我们友谊永固吧。。。
把 ''友谊永固'' 套在我们身上,感觉很心痛...
没办法了...唯有这样...心里才会好过点吧...
大家都有很长的路要走...我们所走的路,还会碰面吗?我不懂。。。
一天前。。。无法专心读书。。。
在想你。。。在伤心。。。在痛苦。。。你都不懂。。。
想通了。。。应该更努力才能前进。。。
也许有一天，我们碰面了，你会不同，我也不列外。。。
一齐努力生活吧！！！
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
DHT 42 & DCA 36
recently feel like going back during sem 1...
that time we almost see each other everyday..having class and lunch together...
even though now we are not see each other everyday..but the feel seemed lik coming back...
that time we always mengumpat other people...we always "chai" each other...
that time see u guys almost every day,felt so bored to u guys faces...hahaha
but we got familiar each other very soon...
but that time i was just came back from NS...
that time i miss NS guys so much, i still cant mix wif u guys so close...
but thanks a lot...u guys keep kacau me that time....
forced me hang out with u guys...forced me eat the food that u guys made...
and even forced me to praise it was damn nice...wat da chef u are...kaka
that time quite was a happy and relaxing semester...misz so much...
冷战了一段时间。。。
冷血了一段时期。。。
冷漠了一阵子。。。
当初的我回来了。。。
当初的笑容都回来了。。。
到处找人说傻话。。到处骚扰别人。。到处开玩笑。。。
又在次被你们说我傻。。说我变态。。哈哈哈哈哈
其实这感觉蛮好的。。。（又变态了）哈哈！！！
don noe do u stil remember we have promised each other during sem 1 will going to watch harry potter together??that time we said we hv no fren who like harry potter as us,then we promised each other will go to watch when it show..now it is coming soon,will u ask me to hang out with u??
hopefully it will be "yes"..
actually the harry potter shld be showed during we sem 1...but it posponed to next month,u told me its been delayed with disappointing face that time...i still remember it...do u ?
now...im back...wait for your asking ya...
他们都不在了。。不会再见了。。
就算再见。。也改变不了结局。。
再给点时间我。。一定能完全放些的。。。
对不起。。忽略了你们一段时间。。。
尽量说多点傻笑话给你们吧！！哈哈
很庆幸还有你们。。很庆幸和你们一起上课。。。
很庆幸认识了你们。。很庆幸我是DHT 42。。。。
that time we almost see each other everyday..having class and lunch together...
even though now we are not see each other everyday..but the feel seemed lik coming back...
that time we always mengumpat other people...we always "chai" each other...
that time see u guys almost every day,felt so bored to u guys faces...hahaha
but we got familiar each other very soon...
but that time i was just came back from NS...
that time i miss NS guys so much, i still cant mix wif u guys so close...
but thanks a lot...u guys keep kacau me that time....
forced me hang out with u guys...forced me eat the food that u guys made...
and even forced me to praise it was damn nice...wat da chef u are...kaka
that time quite was a happy and relaxing semester...misz so much...
冷战了一段时间。。。
冷血了一段时期。。。
冷漠了一阵子。。。
当初的我回来了。。。
当初的笑容都回来了。。。
到处找人说傻话。。到处骚扰别人。。到处开玩笑。。。
又在次被你们说我傻。。说我变态。。哈哈哈哈哈
其实这感觉蛮好的。。。（又变态了）哈哈！！！
don noe do u stil remember we have promised each other during sem 1 will going to watch harry potter together??that time we said we hv no fren who like harry potter as us,then we promised each other will go to watch when it show..now it is coming soon,will u ask me to hang out with u??
hopefully it will be "yes"..
actually the harry potter shld be showed during we sem 1...but it posponed to next month,u told me its been delayed with disappointing face that time...i still remember it...do u ?
now...im back...wait for your asking ya...
他们都不在了。。不会再见了。。
就算再见。。也改变不了结局。。
再给点时间我。。一定能完全放些的。。。
对不起。。忽略了你们一段时间。。。
尽量说多点傻笑话给你们吧！！哈哈
很庆幸还有你们。。很庆幸和你们一起上课。。。
很庆幸认识了你们。。很庆幸我是DHT 42。。。。
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
4th semester...
first day of 4th sem...
quite peaceful day...
first day starting with mrs.linda class...pom...
pom again...evyone were dislike it...
early in the morning...evyone felt sleepyyyy....lolz
funny thing is..brandon has cut a short that same as mrs.linda...
never tot that my accounting will got B...and pom got A...
quite surprising and unbelieable....
i must be more confidence to myself...
i just simply wish happy birthday to Anson...
he looked like so shy and paiseh...
wakaka...what a shyness guy...hahahaha
i tink he never tot that i can still remember his bday...
knew a korean boy who same class with us today...
he is quite a funny guy who not look like has already 25 years old...
he quite can spoke English fluently...cant look down on him...hehx
starting from today is a new sem...
should be used to everything that i used to before...
without all of that...start getting used to...
quite peaceful day...
first day starting with mrs.linda class...pom...
pom again...evyone were dislike it...
early in the morning...evyone felt sleepyyyy....lolz
funny thing is..brandon has cut a short that same as mrs.linda...
never tot that my accounting will got B...and pom got A...
quite surprising and unbelieable....
i must be more confidence to myself...
i just simply wish happy birthday to Anson...
he looked like so shy and paiseh...
wakaka...what a shyness guy...hahahaha
i tink he never tot that i can still remember his bday...
knew a korean boy who same class with us today...
he is quite a funny guy who not look like has already 25 years old...
he quite can spoke English fluently...cant look down on him...hehx
starting from today is a new sem...
should be used to everything that i used to before...
without all of that...start getting used to...
Monday, June 1, 2009
Katsu
时间的轮廓 回忆的线索
像一首歌告诉我
不论多远 跟著河流走
会有个人爱我
走吧 去吧 让梦发芽
流泪 冒险 遗忘
走吧 爱吧
用我选的方法 学著怎么长大
就是爱一直跟著我呀
在风里保护我回家
就是爱学会了能原谅
在夜里我再也不怕
爱情是天空 希望是笑容
世界有梦也有痛
我们一起跟著时间走
总有一天会懂
ps : suddenly heard this song from radio...is a song which meaning full to life...
像一首歌告诉我
不论多远 跟著河流走
会有个人爱我
走吧 去吧 让梦发芽
流泪 冒险 遗忘
走吧 爱吧
用我选的方法 学著怎么长大
就是爱一直跟著我呀
在风里保护我回家
就是爱学会了能原谅
在夜里我再也不怕
爱情是天空 希望是笑容
世界有梦也有痛
我们一起跟著时间走
总有一天会懂
ps : suddenly heard this song from radio...is a song which meaning full to life...
Monday, May 25, 2009
为你祷告
希望你平安。。。希望你健康。。。
希望你平安。。。希望你健康。。。
最近你看医生的次数多了。。。
吃的药也多了。。。但工作量还是那么的多。。。
叫你休息，就是不肯，说什么responsibility...
每天看着你吃那些五颜六色的药丸。。。很可怕。。。
你的耳朵。。你的子宫。。你血糖低都不是第一次了。。。
这次一次过一起来。。。要吃那么多药。。你撑得住吗？？？
我很怕。。。我很担心。。。我很难过。。。
你一定看不出来吧。。。因为我在你面前时常都乐观的。。。
从六年级开始。。。你好像没看过我哭了吧。。。
看着你的背影。。。是你的衣服大件还是你瘦了。。。我不懂。。。
每次我生病，你都很紧张。。。
很想为做点事。。。但不知道能做点什么。。。
唯一能做的就是默默为你祷告。。。
希望你平安。。。希望你健康。。。
希望你平安。。。希望你健康。。。
天神啊天神。。。希望你听见了。。。
我只想妈妈平安和健康。。。
==GOD BLESS==
希望你平安。。。希望你健康。。。
最近你看医生的次数多了。。。
吃的药也多了。。。但工作量还是那么的多。。。
叫你休息，就是不肯，说什么responsibility...
每天看着你吃那些五颜六色的药丸。。。很可怕。。。
你的耳朵。。你的子宫。。你血糖低都不是第一次了。。。
这次一次过一起来。。。要吃那么多药。。你撑得住吗？？？
我很怕。。。我很担心。。。我很难过。。。
你一定看不出来吧。。。因为我在你面前时常都乐观的。。。
从六年级开始。。。你好像没看过我哭了吧。。。
看着你的背影。。。是你的衣服大件还是你瘦了。。。我不懂。。。
每次我生病，你都很紧张。。。
很想为做点事。。。但不知道能做点什么。。。
唯一能做的就是默默为你祷告。。。
希望你平安。。。希望你健康。。。
希望你平安。。。希望你健康。。。
天神啊天神。。。希望你听见了。。。
我只想妈妈平安和健康。。。
==GOD BLESS==
Monday, May 18, 2009
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Redang island trip
1st day at redang......
taking flight been there took almost 1 hour..
then was taking ferry also almost 1 hour...
while taking ferry,evyone was slping and cover their whole body jz dont wan to be tanned...
only me...didnt use sun tan oil...didnt cover myself...even enjoy myself under the sun...
sitting behind one of a tourist from Muar said she so admire my courage that never scared under the sun...quite proud of myself...hehe^^^
arrived REDANG ISLAND...damn excited...
saw a handsome guy at the bar..tot he was a malay but he is chinese...
then we have a lunch there and check in...
at aftnoon...1st time went for snorkelling...
no experience of that..keep drinking the sea accidently...
walao...damn salty...and the eyes damn pain...
but the view inside the sea damn beautiful......
at the evening we played valley ball at the beach with other local tourist...
other people were so pro in valley ball not lik us so lousy...jz simply play...
then dinner...the dinner is not nice jz lik during NS meal...
i tink NS meal was also better than that....
we planned go tangkap ketam at beach after having dinner...
unfortunely...rainning pour...jz can stay at own room...
during at room...all of us became crazy...
Rudy pretended Michael Jackson and made us lough...
he also keep pretended all of us loughing...
we lough so loud and un imej......
day 2 at redang......
was been Marine park and opening sea snorkelling....
this time i had had an experience that found out how to control never let the salty water get inside the mask...yeahyeah....
walao....marine park was a very nice place...the under sea was so reality...
so many memo...when fedding their bread can lure they come...
it was so reality that all fish passed by my skin...
afternoon went to opening sea...ermm...its quite a bit boring...cz nothing to see...
not so much fish there...the sea was damn deep at there...been there oni spent 1 hour...
others at least spent 2 hours for snorkelling...
then we went back our resort still hv lots of free time till dinner....
valley ball again...but this time we using kid's ball to throw the ball and kick the ball...
felt we are a bit childish...but we were enjoyed it....
its a tiring day....in the same day,we went to laguna beach visit the more more tea...
eating ice cream...taking picture at there also dont want take photo at pelangi beach...
haha...as kessie always said that ''the rice of beside home is always more nicer''....
BBQ dinner...this time is much more tasty especialy the chicken wing and sweet potato...
luckily this time didnt rain...we all sat on the beach enjoying the night breeze...
walao...its damn comfortable...i lied down looked at the starz that hang on the sky...
its damn a lot and full...its made me recall back all the memories during at NS...
fell so hope that can enjoy the starz with they guys...
i almost felt asleep it...miz it so much^^^
day 3 at redang......
damn boring day....
0830 am check out...wait at the beach until 1030 am hv ferry to fetch us out to the bus station...
then arrived the bus station,hv to wait untill 0700 pm hv another bus to fetch us to airport...
during the whole aftnoon time,we settle down at pelangi office...its was like another small resort...
luckily there was a tv...the tv accompanied us the whole afternoon to evening...
lunch at McD....dinner at KFC...haizz~~
at 1200 am..finally reached home....
this morning getting flu....
next plan is gonna change new hair style and Malaca trip...
Overall of redang island trip....
a bit disappointed that no chance to see baby shark and having banana boot....
disappointed my skin is not as dark as i want...i tink its didnt dark at all....
people said go on a vacation can make us forget some unhappy...its a lie...
i stil cant forget u...i stil thinking of u even when i snorkelling....
i have tried not to think..but when i saw couple there...i failed...
during at night, the bar will play all kind of song,the feel that i miz u is more stronger...
看着蓝天白云的时候~
心想~到底天有多大啊~~~
看着海水由青色到深蓝的时候~
心想~到底海水有多深呢~
看着鱼儿游来游去的时候~
心想~它们也有故事的吗~
在看着星星的时候~
心想~真的有流星的存在吗~
一个人坐在沙滩上的时候~
看着大大的天和海。。。深深的海。。。
在想~其实我是很妙小的~
*God please u bless the environment will never be polluted... ...
taking flight been there took almost 1 hour..
then was taking ferry also almost 1 hour...
while taking ferry,evyone was slping and cover their whole body jz dont wan to be tanned...
only me...didnt use sun tan oil...didnt cover myself...even enjoy myself under the sun...
sitting behind one of a tourist from Muar said she so admire my courage that never scared under the sun...quite proud of myself...hehe^^^
arrived REDANG ISLAND...damn excited...
saw a handsome guy at the bar..tot he was a malay but he is chinese...
then we have a lunch there and check in...
at aftnoon...1st time went for snorkelling...
no experience of that..keep drinking the sea accidently...
walao...damn salty...and the eyes damn pain...
but the view inside the sea damn beautiful......
at the evening we played valley ball at the beach with other local tourist...
other people were so pro in valley ball not lik us so lousy...jz simply play...
then dinner...the dinner is not nice jz lik during NS meal...
i tink NS meal was also better than that....
we planned go tangkap ketam at beach after having dinner...
unfortunely...rainning pour...jz can stay at own room...
during at room...all of us became crazy...
Rudy pretended Michael Jackson and made us lough...
he also keep pretended all of us loughing...
we lough so loud and un imej......
day 2 at redang......
was been Marine park and opening sea snorkelling....
this time i had had an experience that found out how to control never let the salty water get inside the mask...yeahyeah....
walao....marine park was a very nice place...the under sea was so reality...
so many memo...when fedding their bread can lure they come...
it was so reality that all fish passed by my skin...
afternoon went to opening sea...ermm...its quite a bit boring...cz nothing to see...
not so much fish there...the sea was damn deep at there...been there oni spent 1 hour...
others at least spent 2 hours for snorkelling...
then we went back our resort still hv lots of free time till dinner....
valley ball again...but this time we using kid's ball to throw the ball and kick the ball...
felt we are a bit childish...but we were enjoyed it....
its a tiring day....in the same day,we went to laguna beach visit the more more tea...
eating ice cream...taking picture at there also dont want take photo at pelangi beach...
haha...as kessie always said that ''the rice of beside home is always more nicer''....
BBQ dinner...this time is much more tasty especialy the chicken wing and sweet potato...
luckily this time didnt rain...we all sat on the beach enjoying the night breeze...
walao...its damn comfortable...i lied down looked at the starz that hang on the sky...
its damn a lot and full...its made me recall back all the memories during at NS...
fell so hope that can enjoy the starz with they guys...
i almost felt asleep it...miz it so much^^^
day 3 at redang......
damn boring day....
0830 am check out...wait at the beach until 1030 am hv ferry to fetch us out to the bus station...
then arrived the bus station,hv to wait untill 0700 pm hv another bus to fetch us to airport...
during the whole aftnoon time,we settle down at pelangi office...its was like another small resort...
luckily there was a tv...the tv accompanied us the whole afternoon to evening...
lunch at McD....dinner at KFC...haizz~~
at 1200 am..finally reached home....
this morning getting flu....
next plan is gonna change new hair style and Malaca trip...
Overall of redang island trip....
a bit disappointed that no chance to see baby shark and having banana boot....
disappointed my skin is not as dark as i want...i tink its didnt dark at all....
people said go on a vacation can make us forget some unhappy...its a lie...
i stil cant forget u...i stil thinking of u even when i snorkelling....
i have tried not to think..but when i saw couple there...i failed...
during at night, the bar will play all kind of song,the feel that i miz u is more stronger...
看着蓝天白云的时候~
心想~到底天有多大啊~~~
看着海水由青色到深蓝的时候~
心想~到底海水有多深呢~
看着鱼儿游来游去的时候~
心想~它们也有故事的吗~
在看着星星的时候~
心想~真的有流星的存在吗~
一个人坐在沙滩上的时候~
看着大大的天和海。。。深深的海。。。
在想~其实我是很妙小的~
*God please u bless the environment will never be polluted... ...
Sunday, May 10, 2009
time's up... ...
finally....
this 3rd sem time's up...
final exam time's up...
i tink its should be no more chances to see you...
the answer that always thinking abt i tink its no more chances to know it...
its ok....no matter wat answer is it...time's up....
try to be optimistic...myb time's up means is the beginning not the end....
hahaha....(jz consoling myself)
sem break is getting start now...
this sem break is quite lots of activities....
going to redang...malacca...skating...
gonna changing new hair style...yeah!!!
looking forward my holiday....wakaka....
this 3rd sem time's up...
final exam time's up...
i tink its should be no more chances to see you...
the answer that always thinking abt i tink its no more chances to know it...
its ok....no matter wat answer is it...time's up....
try to be optimistic...myb time's up means is the beginning not the end....
hahaha....(jz consoling myself)
sem break is getting start now...
this sem break is quite lots of activities....
going to redang...malacca...skating...
gonna changing new hair style...yeah!!!
looking forward my holiday....wakaka....
Thursday, April 30, 2009
永远
永远有多远？？？
这个问题的答案，有100%的真确答案吗？？？
大多数的人应该都会说。。永远就是到老到死吧。。。
有人跟我说。。。永远可以是一个承诺的期限。。。
如果有个男的跟你说：‘我永远爱你‘。。。
在他心里的永远可以是。。。
两个小时，两年，20年，或一辈子。。。
如果他爱你只有那短短期限。。。
不要怪他。。。
因为他所谓的永远就是那段时间吧。。。
真的是这样的吗？？
还是另有答案呢？？
对我来说。。。永远的这个‘远’。。。
是永远都到不了的 。。。。
这个问题的答案，有100%的真确答案吗？？？
大多数的人应该都会说。。永远就是到老到死吧。。。
有人跟我说。。。永远可以是一个承诺的期限。。。
如果有个男的跟你说：‘我永远爱你‘。。。
在他心里的永远可以是。。。
两个小时，两年，20年，或一辈子。。。
如果他爱你只有那短短期限。。。
不要怪他。。。
因为他所谓的永远就是那段时间吧。。。
真的是这样的吗？？
还是另有答案呢？？
对我来说。。。永远的这个‘远’。。。
是永远都到不了的 。。。。
studying... ...
count down...left 5 days....
staying at home alomost 1week...din go out....
just for study....
but i jz keep eating...bou ing drama...taking a nap....
more than studying...sei lo...i looked like put on weight ady....
cant concentrate on my notes....
even finish read oso dont remember it....
hopefully i can get back my fresh and peaceful mind soon...
=god bless=
staying at home alomost 1week...din go out....
just for study....
but i jz keep eating...bou ing drama...taking a nap....
more than studying...sei lo...i looked like put on weight ady....
cant concentrate on my notes....
even finish read oso dont remember it....
hopefully i can get back my fresh and peaceful mind soon...
=god bless=
sing k
on 25042009...sing k with jianqin, xlim, cbl, and jen....
during sing k..sang lots of sadness songs...
no one of us were say it out abt our feeling....
but we were know each other...i believe it...
than we go lawyat...the place that i most hated in kl....
than v sat down at a store which sell 'tong sui'....
but we ordered ice lemon tea...
we took lots of photos by using jianqin's phone....
especially keep kacao Jen....
even at the end,when she pay,jianqin stil want kacao her...
but we still loughing...hehe...we so jahat arr....all bully her....wakaka
appreciate the cold blood families...
never forget it....(watever thingssss)
=god bless them=
during sing k..sang lots of sadness songs...
no one of us were say it out abt our feeling....
but we were know each other...i believe it...
than we go lawyat...the place that i most hated in kl....
than v sat down at a store which sell 'tong sui'....
but we ordered ice lemon tea...
we took lots of photos by using jianqin's phone....
especially keep kacao Jen....
even at the end,when she pay,jianqin stil want kacao her...
but we still loughing...hehe...we so jahat arr....all bully her....wakaka
appreciate the cold blood families...
never forget it....(watever thingssss)
=god bless them=
Friday, April 24, 2009
very NEAR but very FAR... ...
around 10 am....i hv done f&b test...was going toilet....
wat a coincidence....u came out from the lift....wearing handset....
u smiled at me...our distance is oni between 5 steps...very near...
the way that, u oso going to toilet...
u r in front of me...u never turn to me...
after we came out from toilet...
u still wearing your handset...
i still behind of you...
u still never turn to me...
our distance is oni between 3 steps...
your steps was become faster and further....
i cant achieve your steps...
our distance is from just oni 3 steps to become further....
looking at your back from behind....feel hurt to me...
it is suppose was a good chance for us....
why do i always just got your smiling....
i started thinking....
maybe i have thought too much....
i started thinking...
i was so silly....silly for 6 months....
i passed by the pastry kitchen....
don look at u...don look at u....don look at u....
u passed by the lagenda....
don look at u...don look at u...don look at u...
keep telling by self in heart....
but....why are you always look at me but didnt say anything to me....
PLEASEE YOU.....
don make me think too much on you....
hey...ke kai shen~~~~~
be cold blood ok....never look at him anymore....
never find him anymore...
never wait for him anymore....
once u decide to be cold blood....
PS:世界上最远的距离并不是天与地。。。
而是我在你身边，你却不知道。。。
我喜欢上你了。。。 。。。
wat a coincidence....u came out from the lift....wearing handset....
u smiled at me...our distance is oni between 5 steps...very near...
the way that, u oso going to toilet...
u r in front of me...u never turn to me...
after we came out from toilet...
u still wearing your handset...
i still behind of you...
u still never turn to me...
our distance is oni between 3 steps...
your steps was become faster and further....
i cant achieve your steps...
our distance is from just oni 3 steps to become further....
looking at your back from behind....feel hurt to me...
it is suppose was a good chance for us....
why do i always just got your smiling....
i started thinking....
maybe i have thought too much....
i started thinking...
i was so silly....silly for 6 months....
i passed by the pastry kitchen....
don look at u...don look at u....don look at u....
u passed by the lagenda....
don look at u...don look at u...don look at u...
keep telling by self in heart....
but....why are you always look at me but didnt say anything to me....
PLEASEE YOU.....
don make me think too much on you....
hey...ke kai shen~~~~~
be cold blood ok....never look at him anymore....
never find him anymore...
never wait for him anymore....
once u decide to be cold blood....
PS:世界上最远的距离并不是天与地。。。
而是我在你身边，你却不知道。。。
我喜欢上你了。。。 。。。
Monday, April 20, 2009
presentation psycho day
while doing the assignt....it is group assignt....
but oni me alone do the assignt....
1 kena chicken pox...
1 kena working...
1 no printer....
1 her mom in the hospital, hv to visit her mom....
bullshit...bullshit...all bullshit....
i also hv to go to hospital...
i also no printer...
i also hv to work...
but...i can do it...why...
bz u all are bullshitting....TMD
other groups done their slide above 10 more slide....
but i oni did 8 slide...
worried abt lecturer will shoot me...
luckily...evythg went smoothness....
the role play...
thankz for Cesca...Bilal...Azlie's coorperation....
i remember we all so nervous before the role play....
finally....
luckily...evythg went smoothness....
the dialog was totally changed with the original script....
but it is quite funny....
i saw puan yat face...she was enjoying....hehex
still left f&b assignment have to worried about....
then coming will be the test of accounting....
don noe do...
i cried when i see the questions....
college no people can teach me....
sisters forget already....
jian qin at sunway....so far....far water cant help the near fire.....
hopefully can at least pass the paper....
then coming will the final exam.....
6 subjects....
worried abt suck accounting....
worried abt f&b.....
worried abt social psychology....
long time didnt rest kao kao already.....
soooo tired already.....
soooo sleepy already.....
stressing semester.......
=GOD BLESS=
but oni me alone do the assignt....
1 kena chicken pox...
1 kena working...
1 no printer....
1 her mom in the hospital, hv to visit her mom....
bullshit...bullshit...all bullshit....
i also hv to go to hospital...
i also no printer...
i also hv to work...
but...i can do it...why...
bz u all are bullshitting....TMD
other groups done their slide above 10 more slide....
but i oni did 8 slide...
worried abt lecturer will shoot me...
luckily...evythg went smoothness....
the role play...
thankz for Cesca...Bilal...Azlie's coorperation....
i remember we all so nervous before the role play....
finally....
luckily...evythg went smoothness....
the dialog was totally changed with the original script....
but it is quite funny....
i saw puan yat face...she was enjoying....hehex
still left f&b assignment have to worried about....
then coming will be the test of accounting....
don noe do...
i cried when i see the questions....
college no people can teach me....
sisters forget already....
jian qin at sunway....so far....far water cant help the near fire.....
hopefully can at least pass the paper....
then coming will the final exam.....
6 subjects....
worried abt suck accounting....
worried abt f&b.....
worried abt social psychology....
long time didnt rest kao kao already.....
soooo tired already.....
soooo sleepy already.....
stressing semester.......
=GOD BLESS=
working day
go working....
don wan go la....
go working.....
don wan go la....
go working....
don wan go la.....
haiz....finally went to work....
many things haven finish yet...
assignt....f&b test is coming.....
return back la....
haiz....finally went to work....
so so so tired....
so so so sleepy....
haiz...finally went to work....
not so much customers...
so so so boring....
after having lunch...
Nor started became 'crazy'....
thn kak shimah and me was influenced by her....
we started became sot plug....hehex
keep laughing and laughing.....
and keep talking sot plug things....
thn kak zue also kena influenced by us....
can say that we laugh almost until i go back....wakakaka....
i have never been laugh so much for this 2 sem already.....
my cheek was so tired....hahaha
although i know all those thing is sot plug things....
but its really so funny.....
thank you.....
thanks Nor Hidayah....Kak Shimah....Kak Zue.....
thanks for making me fun during work....
i can confirm that my laughing for yesterday is really from my heart.....
it is not fake....
don wan go la....
go working.....
don wan go la....
go working....
don wan go la.....
haiz....finally went to work....
many things haven finish yet...
assignt....f&b test is coming.....
return back la....
haiz....finally went to work....
so so so tired....
so so so sleepy....
haiz...finally went to work....
not so much customers...
so so so boring....
after having lunch...
Nor started became 'crazy'....
thn kak shimah and me was influenced by her....
we started became sot plug....hehex
keep laughing and laughing.....
and keep talking sot plug things....
thn kak zue also kena influenced by us....
can say that we laugh almost until i go back....wakakaka....
i have never been laugh so much for this 2 sem already.....
my cheek was so tired....hahaha
although i know all those thing is sot plug things....
but its really so funny.....
thank you.....
thanks Nor Hidayah....Kak Shimah....Kak Zue.....
thanks for making me fun during work....
i can confirm that my laughing for yesterday is really from my heart.....
it is not fake....
Thursday, April 16, 2009
在幻想还是在贪心呢
时常都在想如果你给我笑一个，只要可以和你谈多两句，那就满足了。。。
今天你给我笑了很多个，也比平常谈多了几句，你也主动了一点点。。。
在msn你也开始和我聊起来了。。。其实我是该满足了吧。。。
在回家一边听歌的路上，我竟然一边在幻想着和你一起走街，吃饭，甚至看电影。。。
甚至我在希望着你会约我。。。一直都在希望着。。期待着。。
对你的感情我不确定，好像是越来越深了吧。。
因为看到你的时候心跳会加数。。。
因为我无时无刻不管在那里，在干嘛。。
都在想着你。。。你的样子一直在我脑里，出现着。。。
倒数还剩两个星期。。以后就很难再看到你了吧。。。
心情越来越像当时在营里的感觉。。。
我超讨厌这个感觉。。。
也很怕这种感觉。。。
也不想要再有这种感觉的出现。。。
但我知道这种心情是控制不到的吧。。。
真的很想变回当初的冷血。。。当初的自闭心态。。。
那就不会有这种感受了。。。可以很潇洒的和你说再见。。。
但。。。都是因为你。。。我变不会去了啦。。。 。。。
很想很想知道。。。
你。。。也有这种感觉吗？？？
你。。。有不舍得我吗？？？
今天你给我笑了很多个，也比平常谈多了几句，你也主动了一点点。。。
在msn你也开始和我聊起来了。。。其实我是该满足了吧。。。
在回家一边听歌的路上，我竟然一边在幻想着和你一起走街，吃饭，甚至看电影。。。
甚至我在希望着你会约我。。。一直都在希望着。。期待着。。
对你的感情我不确定，好像是越来越深了吧。。
因为看到你的时候心跳会加数。。。
因为我无时无刻不管在那里，在干嘛。。
都在想着你。。。你的样子一直在我脑里，出现着。。。
倒数还剩两个星期。。以后就很难再看到你了吧。。。
心情越来越像当时在营里的感觉。。。
我超讨厌这个感觉。。。
也很怕这种感觉。。。
也不想要再有这种感觉的出现。。。
但我知道这种心情是控制不到的吧。。。
真的很想变回当初的冷血。。。当初的自闭心态。。。
那就不会有这种感受了。。。可以很潇洒的和你说再见。。。
但。。。都是因为你。。。我变不会去了啦。。。 。。。
很想很想知道。。。
你。。。也有这种感觉吗？？？
你。。。有不舍得我吗？？？
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
thinking of you anytime
i thought i cant be kelvin's birthday last Friday, but finally they allowed...
quite happy any enjoyable on that day, i don eat so much at his home but i feel damn full...wondering....
before kessie, cat, jiayi, dajie leaving..yuean was playing his piano and singing to us...during he singing, my mind was thinking of u, u was crosed my mind at moment, suddenly i feel like wanna sms u and on9 chat with u...
while playing game with his friends, i was lose and i suppose should be punished me to drink red wine..but my leg was allergic, hanns was so gentlement help me drink it, at the moment, i thinking of u again...anyways, thankz him...
finally can go home...so so so sleeppy!!! and luckily anson was send me back smoothness and thank god i know "tunjuk jalan" to him...hehex
today met u with accidently...im so surpriced...u said "hello" to me as usual...and u were asking me why do i wear slippers, i said my legs allergic...then u look like worried about me but u hv to go back demo kitchen soon, so no opportunity to ask me further....
God!!! please give us a chance that we can chat long long time...at least for once... ...
quite happy any enjoyable on that day, i don eat so much at his home but i feel damn full...wondering....
before kessie, cat, jiayi, dajie leaving..yuean was playing his piano and singing to us...during he singing, my mind was thinking of u, u was crosed my mind at moment, suddenly i feel like wanna sms u and on9 chat with u...
while playing game with his friends, i was lose and i suppose should be punished me to drink red wine..but my leg was allergic, hanns was so gentlement help me drink it, at the moment, i thinking of u again...anyways, thankz him...
finally can go home...so so so sleeppy!!! and luckily anson was send me back smoothness and thank god i know "tunjuk jalan" to him...hehex
today met u with accidently...im so surpriced...u said "hello" to me as usual...and u were asking me why do i wear slippers, i said my legs allergic...then u look like worried about me but u hv to go back demo kitchen soon, so no opportunity to ask me further....
God!!! please give us a chance that we can chat long long time...at least for once... ...
Thursday, April 9, 2009
sorry for making daddy worried
don noe what is happening my legs pop out many red dots...i think is almost 4 days already,today only tell my dad...usually he was look so calm...but just now he was looked so worried about me...i never seen his face like that before....feel sorry to see that...
i thought it just bite by mosquitoes...but i think it is getting more seriously...tomorrow is Kelvin's birthday party,i thought i can go but i have to ffg him...haiz!!! tomorrow is also our individual presentation of POM, everyone was so nervous and scared...its only 10 marks la..why they all so scared leh including me...hehe...i think we all are just scared Mrs linda...haizz!!9am-5am will face with her,suffering.... ....
hopefullly tomorrow when i see the doctor will be nothing,i just don wanna see they worried face...really very very sorry for telling late ya...
GOD BLESS US!!!!
i thought it just bite by mosquitoes...but i think it is getting more seriously...tomorrow is Kelvin's birthday party,i thought i can go but i have to ffg him...haiz!!! tomorrow is also our individual presentation of POM, everyone was so nervous and scared...its only 10 marks la..why they all so scared leh including me...hehe...i think we all are just scared Mrs linda...haizz!!9am-5am will face with her,suffering.... ....
hopefullly tomorrow when i see the doctor will be nothing,i just don wanna see they worried face...really very very sorry for telling late ya...
GOD BLESS US!!!!
Thursday, April 2, 2009
no 'title' about you
突然好想打中文。。。也许有很多话想让你知道吧。。。
今天又是星期四。。心想不再期待了，都是骗自已的。。看到你经过门口，很高兴又很失望。。高兴可以见到你，失望你这么都不过来呢。。。你站在哪很久了也经过很多次了，你是在假不看我还是一直以来我都误会了，是我在一相情愿吗？这个问题在我脑海里很久了。。为什么就是得不到答案呢？今天当我在跟Kishen聊天时，从你眼神中我看到你是很想走过来的吧，但你却没有。。你的这个眼神都已经不是第一次了，我也不是没有给机会你啊，你却一次又一次的让我失望，很失望，很失望。。。从你身上我只体会到“失望“的感受。。。
”回家啦“你就只有这句话吗？你就要毕业了，不要再浪费时间了，可以吗？我真的也很想主动更你说话阿，可是一看见你要笑又不笑得表情时，就不知真么办了，所以才学你一样耍cool阿。。有时真的宁愿不想看到你，要不然就不会那么失望，痛苦。。。在college又不知道可以向谁说，一直表现得无所谓的我，一直在压迎着我那痛苦的感受，真的很痛。。很痛。。很痛
我也没想到我竟然是个那么认真的人。。每次一有喜欢的人，心就会痛..然后就会变得没有mood。。没什么我总是都着样。。不可以坚强点吗？越来越讨厌自已了。。。
不知道是打中文的关系还是没心情的关系。。。我打不下去了。。。。
今天又是星期四。。心想不再期待了，都是骗自已的。。看到你经过门口，很高兴又很失望。。高兴可以见到你，失望你这么都不过来呢。。。你站在哪很久了也经过很多次了，你是在假不看我还是一直以来我都误会了，是我在一相情愿吗？这个问题在我脑海里很久了。。为什么就是得不到答案呢？今天当我在跟Kishen聊天时，从你眼神中我看到你是很想走过来的吧，但你却没有。。你的这个眼神都已经不是第一次了，我也不是没有给机会你啊，你却一次又一次的让我失望，很失望，很失望。。。从你身上我只体会到“失望“的感受。。。
”回家啦“你就只有这句话吗？你就要毕业了，不要再浪费时间了，可以吗？我真的也很想主动更你说话阿，可是一看见你要笑又不笑得表情时，就不知真么办了，所以才学你一样耍cool阿。。有时真的宁愿不想看到你，要不然就不会那么失望，痛苦。。。在college又不知道可以向谁说，一直表现得无所谓的我，一直在压迎着我那痛苦的感受，真的很痛。。很痛。。很痛
我也没想到我竟然是个那么认真的人。。每次一有喜欢的人，心就会痛..然后就会变得没有mood。。没什么我总是都着样。。不可以坚强点吗？越来越讨厌自已了。。。
不知道是打中文的关系还是没心情的关系。。。我打不下去了。。。。
Monday, March 30, 2009
i have forgotten.. ...
almost 19 years old already...today when i saw the newspaper posted my primary school SRJK(C)LAI MENG will be moving within 2 years...at the moment i was so shocked and feel some reluctant that it's gonna to moved...
but when i start recalled back my memories during at primary school, i didn't remember it at all... even i forgot the happiest and the sadness things of it...i have tried to recall back,but my memories of it was so blurrr to me...i take bus everyday will pass by the school,i also will looked at it and try to remember what i have in the memory with it..but it's still blur to me...
i remember i have a favourite teacher at that time but i can't even remember what is her name and how was her look....and i know there must be many memories during sport day and children day even teachers day and so on many festival...but i really can't remember what was happened at that time...
i think that is not such important to me in my life...people always said that anything has gone does't matter,the important is that will be etched in mind as a memory...but to me even a good memory in my primaly life also hard to figure out...feel so sorrry to all teachers and friends there who have been being nice to me at that time...i know i should not being like this,so i will appreciate and value it in every moment from now on as i don wanna my memories will be blank when people asking me what is the most happier in my life...really sorry to all of my primaly teachers and friends that i have forgotten everythings... ...
but when i start recalled back my memories during at primary school, i didn't remember it at all... even i forgot the happiest and the sadness things of it...i have tried to recall back,but my memories of it was so blurrr to me...i take bus everyday will pass by the school,i also will looked at it and try to remember what i have in the memory with it..but it's still blur to me...
i remember i have a favourite teacher at that time but i can't even remember what is her name and how was her look....and i know there must be many memories during sport day and children day even teachers day and so on many festival...but i really can't remember what was happened at that time...
i think that is not such important to me in my life...people always said that anything has gone does't matter,the important is that will be etched in mind as a memory...but to me even a good memory in my primaly life also hard to figure out...feel so sorrry to all teachers and friends there who have been being nice to me at that time...i know i should not being like this,so i will appreciate and value it in every moment from now on as i don wanna my memories will be blank when people asking me what is the most happier in my life...really sorry to all of my primaly teachers and friends that i have forgotten everythings... ...
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
waiting for... ...
i have been waiting for u (file 1) long time for asking me my msn and phone number....that day when i was as a bar tender during f&b class, finally u approached me came and asking me...i was so happy and i thought u will always find me from that day...but u are disappointing me... ...i am still waiting for you in every day and every night...but the result is...the person who found me is (file2),i can feel that file 2 maybe is crush on me now, he is a good guy, i know the person who suitable for me is him,always helps me in doing assignments,teaching me format pendrive,teaching me doing microsoft word...but i had no feel at all,just always thinking of you...why didnt you do any action at all....
recently, file 2 always keep chatting with me..i also replied but even when i replying him, i also hope that im replying file 1, this is not fair to file 2, at first, i was wondering file 2 is should be crush on jiayi at first,why became me?or i have misunderstanded him, i hope so very much...
everytimes when i signed in my msn, i saw u also be there,then im so happy u were there then i will look farward to chat with you, but you were no any action at all...once more dissapointing me...everytimes at college when we meet each other,i will so looking farword to you will approach me,but why the person who always approach me is your friends...you don like i chat with them?or you are no mood?or you are dare to do it?do you know how many questions im my mind when i saw your personal msg "trying to make some improvement"...what it means???
actually i like thursday and friday....that day is my f&b class, during lunch time,you guys must be around Lagenda cafe..then only i have a chance to chat with you,smiled at you...i hope it is same to you...another day is friday,we suposely should have a chance to have a lunch together,even go back home together...but you and me also didnt take any action at all...i really don want just always say "hi", "hello", "goodbye" with you, you will be graduate this semester,still left 6 weeks only...i don wanna be regreat after this,you said you don have a girl friend,is that really???if don have,why don you still take any action on me??dont you ever think that,if you start the first step,maybe the result will be different in your mind... ...
im starting avoided file 2...dont know can he feel it?i don know whether is this my action correct or not, but i know if i keep replying him, it will make him misunderstanding on me...i tink it is so cruel to him and i don know whether can i be persistant to do this?actually i have known that i can't...i just hope he will be fine...
every things was started because of PROM NITE, if i didnt be there last year,maybe all the situation will different...am i will be know they all??or maybe i will not being suffer right now...but i would like to tell the all seniors "nice to meet you guys"...thx for being 1 parts of in my mind and giving memories that at college life... ...
recently, file 2 always keep chatting with me..i also replied but even when i replying him, i also hope that im replying file 1, this is not fair to file 2, at first, i was wondering file 2 is should be crush on jiayi at first,why became me?or i have misunderstanded him, i hope so very much...
everytimes when i signed in my msn, i saw u also be there,then im so happy u were there then i will look farward to chat with you, but you were no any action at all...once more dissapointing me...everytimes at college when we meet each other,i will so looking farword to you will approach me,but why the person who always approach me is your friends...you don like i chat with them?or you are no mood?or you are dare to do it?do you know how many questions im my mind when i saw your personal msg "trying to make some improvement"...what it means???
actually i like thursday and friday....that day is my f&b class, during lunch time,you guys must be around Lagenda cafe..then only i have a chance to chat with you,smiled at you...i hope it is same to you...another day is friday,we suposely should have a chance to have a lunch together,even go back home together...but you and me also didnt take any action at all...i really don want just always say "hi", "hello", "goodbye" with you, you will be graduate this semester,still left 6 weeks only...i don wanna be regreat after this,you said you don have a girl friend,is that really???if don have,why don you still take any action on me??dont you ever think that,if you start the first step,maybe the result will be different in your mind... ...
im starting avoided file 2...dont know can he feel it?i don know whether is this my action correct or not, but i know if i keep replying him, it will make him misunderstanding on me...i tink it is so cruel to him and i don know whether can i be persistant to do this?actually i have known that i can't...i just hope he will be fine...
every things was started because of PROM NITE, if i didnt be there last year,maybe all the situation will different...am i will be know they all??or maybe i will not being suffer right now...but i would like to tell the all seniors "nice to meet you guys"...thx for being 1 parts of in my mind and giving memories that at college life... ...
Monday, March 23, 2009
云顶=无奈/无聊！！！
BAD BAD BAD MOOD TODAY!!!!
today we all went to genting for doing the survey... we all was meet at kl sentral bus station. before be there,one of my group member was came late,she came last minute...the bus was going to move,she still haven arrive the bus station,but there are nobody was stop the driver even my other group members...problem is...all of the questionaires were at her.... i was so wondering why were they was not care about her at all??why they seemed like not care about the questionsaires?the assignment??the people who doing the assignment is only me and her...what were they doing....
the driver started move the bus,she couldnt find the bus that we are sitting...i begged the driver give me 1 more minute,at first,the driver was angry and not allow,but she was already arrive...nobody was helping me to beg the driver....all the passengers at the bus was looking at me,i knew at that time i was so embrarssing..i hv no choice,i keep begging the driver please stop the bus...finally he dealed with me...thx god!!!
finally we got on the bus...all of classmates was teasing me just now was look like wanna cry..felt so upset at that moment...they was even scolding me why am i so silly,why don just let it be?can i say are they selfish, didnt care about other people...
during at genting, i was totally no mood at all to find any tourist to do my survey....during the survey,we were taking some photos...i was smiling in every photo...but i have no idea that is my smiling is true or fake??who knows??
today we all went to genting for doing the survey... we all was meet at kl sentral bus station. before be there,one of my group member was came late,she came last minute...the bus was going to move,she still haven arrive the bus station,but there are nobody was stop the driver even my other group members...problem is...all of the questionaires were at her.... i was so wondering why were they was not care about her at all??why they seemed like not care about the questionsaires?the assignment??the people who doing the assignment is only me and her...what were they doing....
the driver started move the bus,she couldnt find the bus that we are sitting...i begged the driver give me 1 more minute,at first,the driver was angry and not allow,but she was already arrive...nobody was helping me to beg the driver....all the passengers at the bus was looking at me,i knew at that time i was so embrarssing..i hv no choice,i keep begging the driver please stop the bus...finally he dealed with me...thx god!!!
finally we got on the bus...all of classmates was teasing me just now was look like wanna cry..felt so upset at that moment...they was even scolding me why am i so silly,why don just let it be?can i say are they selfish, didnt care about other people...
during at genting, i was totally no mood at all to find any tourist to do my survey....during the survey,we were taking some photos...i was smiling in every photo...but i have no idea that is my smiling is true or fake??who knows??
Saturday, March 21, 2009
开始写blog了
太巧了啦。。。。
318 是NS的纪念日。。。我竟然那么巧打电话给我在营里的一位好朋友。。。聊了很多很多。。。彼此讲大家的心事。。。也是她，让我有写blog的念头。。。
318。。。这个号码好熟悉，因为是这一天开始改变了我的想法，我的太度，我的性格。。说实在，在营里真的没学到任何东西，也觉得很浪费时间叻。。但我却很enjoy甚至会不舍得离开那里，因为实在有太多太多太多美好的回忆了……~~~她，是我好朋友，好姐妹，好妈妈，（还有很多身份）我们在营里一起build了很多‘‘家庭‘‘。。有动物家族，自闭家族，刀疤家族，乱伦家族，复杂家族，冷血家族。。应该没了吧！！哈哈！！我们还为每个人都起了个花名就是为了方便在他们前说他们的坏话。。嘿嘿！在他们前说坏话而他们又不懂，真爽。。我们还时常扮演观众的角色，坐在我的bed,看着我的roommate的一举一动，然后讨论着他们。。。
looking at the stars while listening to mp3 and chatting......mizz so much!!! 陈今在msn打过这一段，很多人都以为是我跟男朋友的回忆。。我也很懒惰去解释，就让他们以为下去吧。。walao 真的超想念当时的心情，当时的天空，当时的天气，当时的环境。。虽然我讨厌下雨，但，我们都很期待下雨的来临。。只有下雨才能睡多一下下，不用kawad，不用去class，大家可以在房间吹水，唱歌，开餐。。。得空还可以到toilet玩水战。。。
oui， wirawati jom makan....是最常听见的。。每次都会和她讨论这要上去吃还是待在房挨杯面，讨论要几点冲凉，讨论。。。 。。。都是她的错，害我现在要不要吃，吃什么都得自已想，身边的朋友代替不到她。。。其实，我的意思是。。当我想找人谈心事，不知为什么，就是对身边的人开不了口，除了她，不知还可对谁说。。。
都已经一年了，也开始college的生活已有近一年了吧。。。在college的日子里，不习惯的都习惯了，讨厌的还是讨厌，但，每次不开心时，就只有想到在318 的日子和朋友。。。。
ps: wei,sui po...if u r looking at my text,u know 她 is u rite..no nid i type ur name la ya...hehx
walao,its so tough to me to type chinese lo...actually still hv many thing....anyway,i hv tried
my best ady... ...
ps: type chinese....san fu sei lo... ...
318 是NS的纪念日。。。我竟然那么巧打电话给我在营里的一位好朋友。。。聊了很多很多。。。彼此讲大家的心事。。。也是她，让我有写blog的念头。。。
318。。。这个号码好熟悉，因为是这一天开始改变了我的想法，我的太度，我的性格。。说实在，在营里真的没学到任何东西，也觉得很浪费时间叻。。但我却很enjoy甚至会不舍得离开那里，因为实在有太多太多太多美好的回忆了……~~~她，是我好朋友，好姐妹，好妈妈，（还有很多身份）我们在营里一起build了很多‘‘家庭‘‘。。有动物家族，自闭家族，刀疤家族，乱伦家族，复杂家族，冷血家族。。应该没了吧！！哈哈！！我们还为每个人都起了个花名就是为了方便在他们前说他们的坏话。。嘿嘿！在他们前说坏话而他们又不懂，真爽。。我们还时常扮演观众的角色，坐在我的bed,看着我的roommate的一举一动，然后讨论着他们。。。
looking at the stars while listening to mp3 and chatting......mizz so much!!! 陈今在msn打过这一段，很多人都以为是我跟男朋友的回忆。。我也很懒惰去解释，就让他们以为下去吧。。walao 真的超想念当时的心情，当时的天空，当时的天气，当时的环境。。虽然我讨厌下雨，但，我们都很期待下雨的来临。。只有下雨才能睡多一下下，不用kawad，不用去class，大家可以在房间吹水，唱歌，开餐。。。得空还可以到toilet玩水战。。。
oui， wirawati jom makan....是最常听见的。。每次都会和她讨论这要上去吃还是待在房挨杯面，讨论要几点冲凉，讨论。。。 。。。都是她的错，害我现在要不要吃，吃什么都得自已想，身边的朋友代替不到她。。。其实，我的意思是。。当我想找人谈心事，不知为什么，就是对身边的人开不了口，除了她，不知还可对谁说。。。
都已经一年了，也开始college的生活已有近一年了吧。。。在college的日子里，不习惯的都习惯了，讨厌的还是讨厌，但，每次不开心时，就只有想到在318 的日子和朋友。。。。
ps: wei,sui po...if u r looking at my text,u know 她 is u rite..no nid i type ur name la ya...hehx
walao,its so tough to me to type chinese lo...actually still hv many thing....anyway,i hv tried
my best ady... ...
ps: type chinese....san fu sei lo... ...
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