Muallim

Peace be upon everyone who is reading my post!

I know, I know, it has been really, really, really long since I've updated. Well, due to the same reasons. Suddenly, I got the urge to update as I really want to share some of the things that I'd experience in my life here in this world. I really don't know how long I'll be writing, I'll just let the words flow until it becomes dry. Heh.

As the title suggest, yes, I'll be talking about those who teach us, not only teach, but also educate us. And who may that be? Yes, our teachers, lecturers, tutors and whoever that have taught us anything in this life. But, in this post, I'm specifying the teachers who educate us in schools, especially those in our schooling life in primary and secondary.

So why am I talking about this now? Okay, let me update a little about myself since it as been ages since I've updated. Alhamdulillah, I just finished my 1st unofficial year in IIUM and currently am having this very looong holiday due to the very annoying fact that IIUM is changing the month they are starting the 1st semester which means that they are pushing it to two months later which means that I'll be graduating later. Enough of my ramblings. So moving on, due to this long holiday, as usual, I decided to do relief work at my old school. Besides getting some income which i can't deny is the main factor (at first) but also to gain some experience as I know I'll be in this field after graduating, but boy, I gain more that I expected. Way more.

So I'll be sharing what I've learnt.

Firstly, never do something for money. Okay, this sounds really general, but what I mean is don't let it be the number one reason. You'll be really miserable, trust me. And trust me, the teachers working are not doing it for money. Why? because it's a very tiring, tiring job. I am truly amazed by the fact that they are working longer than the normal office people and do it straight for five days a week, sometimes six with all the work piling. Even I'm younger than them, but the tiredness is killing me. They seem way better than me, so energetic so cheerful. Maybe I'm a bit bias as this is only one school that I've seen but seriously, how different can it be?

Secondly, the teachers are really passionate in their work, in helping their students. Sometimes as a student we may not realise how much our teachers have sacrifice for us. It's the passion that keeps them going. Seriously, if we don't hold on to our faith and the strength of passion, we can go crazy. Really. If you go through a teacher's life for at least a week, you'll know what I mean. Eh wait, to those who wants a career in this field, I'm not trying to scare you eh, I'm just trying to let you see the reality of it. Even I questioned myself if I can really do this or not. It's an eye-opener for me. Insya Allah, He will guide me through this. =)

Thirdly, being the best teacher that you can be. While being a relief teacher, I questioned myself a lot as to whether I've been giving out my best, whether, I've been using the right method to teach, whether the students really understand what I'm teaching. So many questions, thoughts were going through my head. I realised being a teacher means that I'm carrying a huge burden. A heavy one too. I may look like I'm confident, that I can control the kids (most of the time. heh) but, at the same time, sometimes, I feel like I'm a bad teacher. Sometimes, I didn't pay attention to some of the kids, sometimes, I'm not confident in my teaching. This makes me want to find ways on how to be the best teacher because educating is really not an easy job and there's no easy way out.

Being with them, the teachers, taught me a lot, and although being a relief teacher is equally draining me out, I really don't mind. I know, I've learnt more than what money can buy. The experience that I've gotten and will be getting is priceless. I will not trade it for anything in the world.

Being a teacher requires mental and physical strength. There's a lot of things going through a teacher's mind, how to improve the quality of teaching, how to help the weak students, what's the next plan.. so on and so forth. Basically the mental strength is needed to stay strong and to keep sane from any stupid thoughts and the physical strength is for having the will to go to classes and teach. Especially if you have classes for three hours straight.

Therefore, do respect your teachers, even if you may be at loggerheads with some as their sacrifices is more that we had imagined. Sometimes, I myself, when looking at this cute little naughty annoying students, I'll be thinking, what kind of student was I? Hmmm...

And why did I focus on the primary and secondary teachers? Because they are the ones that we will get close to in our lives. It is the time of our lives when we will be having lots of challenges and changes in ourselves and they are the ones who will help us build our characters, mold us to be the person that we will be later on in our lives.

So those of you who are still in that phase, enjoy the moments aites! Becoming a teacher, a relief teacher made me miss those moments. I wished that I could remember every bits and pieces of that memory, but well my brain can only hold on to that much only.

Moving on, I can't wait for the holy month of Ramadhan to arrive! I hope this coming Ramadhan will be better than the previous one. Since there's nothing much to do, I hope I can concentrate more! Let's pray for the best! Ameen!

One more thing! I'm really looking forward to the new semester, still a student but not studying seems wrong doesn't it? I hope this is the last long holidays that I need to face! Holidays can be a drag if not spend wisely. IIUM is missed, although we still have this love and hate relationship, but I believe that it is a strong relationship that will last as we face through a lot. There's a saying that goes something like we will not know how strong the love is until we are tested. (erks ni main hentam aje =p)

Have a bless Ramadhan everyone! =)

That's all from me for now!

2011 =D

Assalamualaikum everyone!

It's the first post of the Masehi calender! Are yo guys excited??? okay, I know it's lame. Haha I've said this countless of times.. but I'll said it again, It's been looooooooooooooooong since I've update! Just remembered that I have a blog. -_- The last post was about the beginning of the new semester and now it's already the end of the semester. Time is really moving at the speed of light. so how have I been doing?

What I can say is that university life is way different than my previous schooling life. Learning pace should be faster, need to be more hardworking, or start to be hardworking I should say and not slack off too much. Why? Workload is double and time taken to study is halved. That's why. Although there's not much of the daily homework that we used to get, there's this thing called assignment that is suppose to be around 20 pages long essay, that kind of thing. Some are done in groups, some individually. This is just the workload part.

The lecturers are in a wide array of different personalities, just like in the previous school. The difference is that, there's no attachment. Go to class, listen to lecturer, maybe ask a few if not one question, that kind of routine. No extra or remedial class, only make-up class not the facial make up, mind you. Heh. So it seems quite boring right? Totally not.

And why is that? I'm in a different country and a totally new environment especially this is an university with diverse students form different countries. Lots of activities and opportunities that comes knocking, banging, ringing at our doors. it's up to us to choose whether we are up to it or not. Apart from that, we can go exploring in this country we are in, and although it's just a neighbouring country, believe me, we are way too different at times, and we need to learn from each other. Even the way we speak Malay is different.

So, university life is the real deal, where the real challenge sets in. As what I can see, being in an university is a privilege that we get, so we need to do the best in it. Here, the balance is really important. To be balance in studies and the activities that we want to participate. Life is truly great. I really hope I can attain the best here, not only in my studies, but also the experience that I should gain and also gaining opportunities that should not be missed.

One word: OVERWHELM

I think I'm still figuring the way on how to live my life here. It's not just about being independent but also how to adapt to the environment while staying strong. Life is not meant to be easy. =)

I try not to be that emo as before, and maybe I'm improving. Heh. Now, to improve on the procrastination and laziness part! hmmmff~~ =S

As the days to holidays gets nearer, miss my family and those in Singapore, more and more. I hope that they are in the best of Imaan and health.

That's all from me for now! =D