Today is the end. Tomorrow is the beginning. *Gasp*

I canceled all my plans for today, as in the whole day. Haha. I don't intend to have fun till late night. Dad's back to the hospital, cut another toe, this time on the right.

He is a superhero coz he got 3 toes on each side. :D

So I'll be visiting him later. That's my only plan for New Year Eve.

Can I make a recap? Thank you.

Best moment of the year?
It was my first time watching movie with a guy, believe it or not. None of my exes actually brought me out for a movie date. Only him. :)

Most shocking moment of the year?
When I found out some close friends talk behind my back/bitched about me.

Most painful moment of the year?
To see my dad in hospital for toe amputation.

Pressure of the year?
During the finals of Year 2 Semester 3, that came along with many side problems.

Worst moment of the year?
The stupidest yet most terrifying break up with Kitts. And also the healing process. Wasn't easy!


Ins & Outs.

- I didn't know my Godfather passed away a year ago.

- I thought the previous relationship with Kitts was about to go to another level, but I was so dead wrong. Hope crashed.

- I found a bf, who seems to be weird. Hahahahaha. Coz he is being very realistic and loves making fun of me. According to him I am "budak busuk, pendek, tak lawa langsung, kembang, suka pakai seluar buruk"

- After the previous relationship, I learned alot! Including throwing aside my "seluar buruk". Finally realised I have no fashion sense. Hahahaha!

- I lost a friend and it was damn menyusahkan to put up with all the happenings. Wrong timing!

- Pucca, the one eyed cat died while I was in 3D Advanced Animation class.

- I got my first proper makeup set!

- New dresses and new pants. ;) Closet revamp!

- I packed all the pinky shirts I have, not gonna wear pink unless its a nice one. I dislike pink colour.

- I had the worst Valentine's Day with Kitts. Ain't that simple. Beyond the little thing like not getting roses.

- The old grandma who is already 80+ yet still strong, left this horrible world. I missed her Kuih Kapit and Hailam Chicken Rice. So many people died this year.

- I only attended one wedding this year! :O

- No Raya open house this year for me to attend! :O:O

- No Deepavali open house to attend too! :O:O:O

- Only 1 birthday party to attend. :O

- 2 Christmas function! :D:D

- 1 house warming function! :D:D:D

- Have to accept my Twilighter-to-the-core sister as a normal person. XD

- My work got displayed in TOA gallery. finally. one work.

- Eric gave me B+, not A- for Compositing & Editing subject. -------_-------

- No New Year Eve outings this year!

- Still using Motorola L6. Dropped it many times, still strong. What more can I ask for?

Happy New Year.

I'm not over it.

This is my very first time making a big fuss about my grade.

I can't seem to forget that B+, its haunting my mind since last night.

It's not logical. I really don't know where I went wrong till I failed to secure A-.

I have so much passion for that subject. And I was confident coz I love what I do (though I don't like Heineken)

Why other people can get? What is the damn difference?

Maybe I'm over-confident. Yeah. You can start laughing at me now. Go take a look at my compositing work that I posted earlier.

I'm just not very happy with this. I can't forget it. I believe I deserve at least A-.

So what if I'm making a big fuss about this? Yeah I'm emo-ing, go away. I'm in this way for a reason. I'm not satisfied with the grade. I know we should care more of portfolio.

BUT SERIOUSLY...

Where did I go wrong?

Why can't I earn that A- too?

You know, I'm writing this post because I cannot take it anymore. I tried to hide it. I failed. And its not like a big change will come if I post this up. I'm not asking for anyone's sympathy. I really need this space. I need to type it all out.

I can't accept the fact that my friends can get their bloody As and I can't.

Don't try to comfort me, especially when you are the ones with As.
Whatever! I'm not in good mood.

I need something + someone.

This is my berkabung week.

My stupid result.

Business: A-
I'm surprised. Thought our group business was bad and I actually ponteng sometimes. I was having dinner at Nikmat while my group presentation was going on.

3D Advanced Animation: C+
I expected D coz my animation sucks. and i dont like animation. (hope Kelvin doesn't read this.ehehehehhe)

VaginaSoTrendy, sorry, I meant VisualStoryTelling : B-
my comment is well-expressed at the above line. muahxxx!

Compositing&Editing: B+
I berkabung because of this subject.
I loved this subject and I got a freaking B+???!
Where's my A, Eric?
All your fault, sir. I blame u. bwekkk!!
I'm deeply depressed.

Timetable is out.

Monday: Advanced 3D Studio 1
Wednesday: 3D Character Animation[imsodead]
Thursday: Portfolio Presentation
Saturday: Final Project Development 1

Dah, I nak berkabung. Wanted to watch Avatar with someone, someone already get a freaking VCD and watched it. Menyampah.

Eh, don't feed PutPut too much shit ah! It's..FATAL!

I did my modeling in the end. hehehe. What's left are the forehead to eyes area, the 4 horns, the shoulder armor.... Oh and how much time I have till 4th Jan 2010. Nvm, I was told that you will always have time to do what you LOVE to do no matter how busy you are.

Lately, I have been thinking.
Thinking real hard.
Thinking about something.
Something that could possibly make a difference in me.
Something that could possibly open up more opportunities for me to explore how far can I go.
Maybe there's something that I didn't know about myself, my potential.

Coz

I've been labeling myself as the average one,
the one that lecturer don't favour much, don't put much hope, and erm " less demanded". haha.

I'm thinking. Give me time. It's my choice I know. But there's good and bad in every option I can choose from.

Oooo, I'm confused.

BTW, don't freak out if you hear some cute voice of a child when you drop by.
It's my doll-doll named PutPut (I know, what a name right!)
You can feed her for me.
I know she looks horrible, that's why I chose her. HAAHAHAH!

Eh, don't feed PutPut too much shit ah! She can die.

Christmas outings, I think.

I've been ditching my modeling nearing Christmas. Hehehe. That's why you can't see any WIP of my work lately.

On Christmas Eve, I finally met Kalo, CK & Kathy. It was a simple hang out at Pappa Rich top floor. We didn't want to be there nearing countdown; don't wanna get sprayed with stuffs. haha. No pics. Sorry la.

In the end, I was at home, watching Talentime again, with my sis. Ended up crying few times. But I was pissed that the subtitles are not included! I don't understand Tamil but I watched in cinema before, so I kinda get it. XP

On Christmas morning,I woke up to realise that my eyes are swollen thanks to Talentime. Wrong timing. Got worse with period day one.

It didn't stop me to head down to Nikky's Christmas lunch. hehehe. Sofia fetched me on the way, and Yi Ling, Zi Kang & Lai Bung hopped in along. Saw Samuel the rabbit/cat at there too. And also our EOTH short film actor, Wei Keen. I promised to pass a copy of his "porn film" to him through Nikky.

Loved the mashed potatoes, chicken curry with rice, and satay! No pics. Mata bengkak, takder hati nak camwhore pun. XD

Yesterday was a two function day for me.

Function 1 : Lai Bung's housewarming at Lake Vista, Puchong.

Many of us from TOA. I sat Zi Kang's car, with Yi Ling & Ah Fatt. I survived from motion sickness thanks to that KoreanYuckyEwEwNotNiceGinseng candy.

Chee Sang came with Emily, Jacky came alone, Daniel too, Nick Fong and 3 more friends came in one car. If only Estrella & Chao Giar were able to attend, it would be another family gathering. Hahaha!

Had some game sessions. I joined in later. A bit awkward to join at first because I felt bad to join in and ask for every translation from Mandarin to English. I still can't speak and understand that well yet. A pic of all of us before leaving was taken. Have to wait for pics.

Zi Kang dropped me off at Bangsar for second function. Thanks :)

Function 2: Leanda's Christmas gathering, at Rice Cafe. Her uncle's.

I reached there at 11 something. LOL. So late, so no food for me. But I still managed to get some briyani rice with Mutton curry. Didn't take a glass of wine but a gin-tonic mixed with I dunno what la. But it was nice. Finally met Leanda's parents and Uncle Vas after so long.

Mak Chick Leanda & Mak Chick Pern.

Kathy took these pics of me & CK. LOL. We were talkingggg.Kathy & Me.Kathy insist our pic should be taken from top...Then, Kathy found a new style. She told us to look at her chest while she takes a pic of us. LOL.
Then, we tried to camwhore but failed. See Kathy? out of frame, always.In the end, we asked a lady to snap a decent pic of us. hahaha!Victoria is so sweet-looking! She used to be a lil girl and now...wow.Two nice photographs of us. Me, Leanda,Kathy & CK.
Kalo & Joanne wasn't there.


That's all for now. :)

And feel free to drop by at Bonbon's blog. He blogged about me. He thinks I don't have the female identity anymore. Why? Bacalah.
http://bonbonism.blogspot.com/2009/12/blog-about.html

P/s: Just checked OTP yesterday, so far so good. Just don't let me fail la. Results should be out in a week's time. eeee! Scared.

Who's Vagina? Hahahaha!!

I didn't know I have this mp3 in my thousands of collection.
The title is just bad.
My Vagina by NOFX.

I never heard of this song before.

I'm surprised that I loved the song. Hahahahaha!
Go listen!
Love the lyric. Bonbon thinks it is interesting. XD

Btw, to a friend of mine in DG78, V***** Leong. Make this your theme song! ;)

My vagina has two sets of lips
But I don't get monthly blood drips
My vagina hardly even used

My vagina's got lots of extra skin
They took my outtie and made it an in
Changing Donnie to Marie Osmond

Operation successfull
But now I gotta pee
Through a miniature hole
Gotta remember to put the seat down
And when I wipe my ass
I go from front to back
Cause I don't want a bladder infection

I never thought I'd miss my vas deferans
I traded it in for a pair of huge cans
Now I get to hang with lesbians

Operation paid up front
Now I show all my friends
My new designer cunt
They think I'm kinda weird
But that's OK with me
Cause now I kick their ass
Playing from the ladies tee
There's nothing finer than having a vagina

I'm loving Dior more and more.

My early Christmas gift from Aunt. :)
Dior Holiday Collection Makeup Palette.
And this is my first proper makeup set.
All these while, I only pakai bedak johnson on the face, with mascara and also eyeliner for eyebrows. People still think I looked pale because I don't have good makeup skills kot.
Anyway, this set suits with my current favourite fragrance.Yes, Dior also. J'adore. I love the name as much as the smell. wheee~! I have to use this perfume coz he thinks I stink like budak busuk. Hahahaha. Kiddddding!

Anyway, Day two progress of my modeling.Did some changes on the body. More contour. Working on the neck to chest armor area. More curvy shape for the rib-patterned part. Changed the ugly buttons.I'm procrastinating a little.

There's a jealous pig behind you, Sayang.

Realise something, people?
When you know you are about to achieve your goal, about to get something good, that is the most perfect time for you to hear sudden complains of you behind your back. Suddenly you hear people talk cock behind your back.

Easy word - Sabotage

It happens everywhere. Workplace, College, School, even in Families!

I knew all these while there's a person who keeps watching me and him. Oh I know simply because I can't deny the fact that I'm a very perasan girl.

I might be smiling at you but at the same time, I'm aware of what you do, how you behave, I can even detect if there's anything stuck at your teeth. Call me dangerous, or pandai berlakon. I don't fucking care. I survive with that in these kind of situation. No boasting, this is fact.

I heard stories. BAD STORIES about him, particularly when he is already in a relationship with me. See how much this link to my previous post on single vs relationship!

Let me make this story simple.

A man who deserves more than what he gets, finally hear the good news. He is about to get something good in return. Suddenly, Oh no, there's a complain of me and him always dating in the labs and omg, he is not doing his work properly. See, all eyes on us. I feel so damn famous. Hah! It is an obvious action. Yes, children, this is what we called SABOTAGE.

I feel sorry somehow not for him but for the jealous pig because he KNOWS he can't get what my bf can get. So jealous that you have to use our relationship as the "reason". What a pity.

I do not care if any of TOA staffs read this. I would be happy if that fella gets to read this and maybe you can drop a comment and say beautiful sentences like "Fuck you la" , " Cibai betul!"

Give me a shot. Coz I'm used to it. I can handle you, believe me.

We so do not care of what you want to say or do. In the end, it doesnt really matter (Eh, very Linkin Park!) Even if my bf is not going to get what he deserves, its alright. There's a better place out there for you. :) If the boss really bought that stories, HAHA you are about to lose a good worker.

Anyway, I wouldn't want to appear on screen (CCTV) so much, coz I'm such a "hot topic" now in that department. I don't want fame now. hahahahah. Sabar jer Sayang.

The jealous pig will soon be pork chop. :D

" I have blue hair! I'm getting married in a week!"

I'm not getting married, and I certainly wouldn't want to ruin my hair colour (in case you didn't notice the apostrophes XP)

This is the second project for 3D Advanced Animation. We have to modify Norman character and choose a good dialogue for the lipsync. I took Bride Wars' dialogue. The part when Liv(Kate Hudson) got her hair dyed with blue, thanks to Emma(Anne Hathaway).



Eee. My animation skill is just badddd. Not as good as my friends. Lucky thing my interest is not really in this field. :P I showed Ben this clip and he suggested that I should do something about the shoulder and neck.

Suddenly, I realised I didn't save the file. It means all my hard work that night wasn't saved! I really regret that, but then again, there's nothing much I can do. Wait. I could have redo again la. But you know me. Hahahahaha.

Thank God I playblast it already. No need to submit the Maya file. Wahahaha!

I'm currently modeling my own character out. Loth Demonous. ;) I refered to my sculpture instead. More 3D, get to see the depth. Yesterday was my Day One. Progress pic is below.
Drop some comment if u have anything to say; could be an opinion, motivation for me (hehehehe), critique, u name it. Tak nak drop a comment pun takper actually. :D

3D Advanced Animation

This is my floursack animation. Don't expect much yeah, I'm not a good animator. hehehe. But I still do all my work, still willing to learn though its not my strength. :)

I hope the ending of this floursack animation wouldn't make my classmates misunderstand. I know my previous one was like, so wrong visually.
"What's the head doing?? Poking at the other floursack's butt??!"

Tmw is the final submission for Lipsync Animation. Still working on the graph editor. eeee.

P/s: Not planning to batch render floursack animation, playblast only. XP

Visual Storytelling is Over!

Yesterday was the presentation day for VST(Visual Storytelling) and instead of starting at 4pm, Christopher came in at 5.40pm, with a reason apparently. hmm. He brought Mr. Alvin, a producer from the industry as our external assessor.

I'm so sad that our group didn't do super-well. I was the editor and sound designer. Feels like its my fault. What the producer said really makes me angry but I kept myself cool.

"I know you are trying to make a romantic love story, but I don't buy it..."

I was pissed because FIRST : ouch! we epic failed. SECOND: I memang don't like love stories and we have no choice but to follow whatever that is chosen already.

Ahh nvm. its over. No more short film. The presentation ended at 9.30pm. Supposed to have class gathering at the steamboat restaurant. All of us rushed there. Will post up about it soon.

Anyway, at least we get to go to Genting. Hehehe. Thank you Mr. Joseph See. :D We got two big rooms at First World for 3 nights. But we checked out on the 3rd day itself. He sponsored the hotel payment.

One room costs RM398 per night, if not mistaken.
And we have two rooms!
And its 3 nights, ppl!
Berapa ribu? Do the maths. ;)

I shared the room with Yi Ling & Estrella.
The other room is for the actor, Lydia, and Chun Yee.

Here's some pics when we were in Genting for shooting.What we ate for 3 days in the hotel. I nearly choked when I checked out McChicken set's price.Me taking a ride in Gondola with Chun Yee. She refused to take her pic with me. See my stupid excited faces! First time pergi Genting tau. Jakun. And I wasn't so afraid of height coz it was slow.
The room itself ;)The bathroom. Loved the bath tub. Estrella & I actually soaked our frozen bodies in it with hot water for two nights. No, we are not lesbians and we weren't naked okay.At the lobby area.

At Starbucks.
The departure day. Lydia's dad's car got clamped for no reason. We have to wait while things are being settled.

The Lame Outing

Its the term break now.
Labs are open till 6pm, but was extended to 10pm.

Do you think you will have mood to do work when you only found out about the time limitation in the evening?
No, people. XP
I think its my own excuse to be lazy. Hahahaha!

Dinner was at KFC. Samson thinks I'm rich woman (Yau Shin Poh) coz I spent more than him. Hahahahaha.

He suggested we go to Sunway Lagoon at night, coz its free. At least walk around. Okay. we went down the escalators to the side entrance. And we thought they closed the entrance; should go to main entrance perhaps.

Went to main entrance and found out that it's on this friday. cis. lame enough.

To make our lame outing lamer, we dared each other to get into the fountain area. I didn't go coz I'm the cameragirl. Hahahahah!

Watch the lame video. See how Chao Giar conducts the particles. See how Jacky got wet on his birthday. LOL!



We went back to TOA by the free shuttle bus. hehehe.

So lame. but nice wor. Tmw must go to lab earlier to edit our final short film.

Single vs In A Relationship? Rubbish.

Is it true that, a person who is in a relationship CANNOT perform as well as single people in their work or activities?

I know most people would say depends. I do think that way too, honestly.

Look, I heard about what most people says nowadays.
"Your education comes first, then only you can have a bf"
"Having a BF will affect your grades!"

I cannot fully agree. Sorry.

I believe not everyone is the same. Duhh! Some people can still do well though they are in a relationship. Some are falling deeply and start to forget about their priorities. I don't think I need to explain more on this. See around you. You can find many examples. Good and bad.

And what pisses me off is when some people starts to think that single people work better than attached ones. I say bullshit la. To hell with that, especially when its from a single person's point of view. Are you being jealous?

You cannot compare. No way. There are some single ones out there keeping failing in whatever they do. What makes you think single cases are better than the ones in relationship?

I know there are people who are too blind in love already, neglecting their work and all. But please dont generalise all of us here. We are all different!

I'm writing this because I'm going through this situation. Yes, there ARE people out there who think that I'm not capable of handling my work because I am in a relationship and o-oh, that means I have "higher possibilities to screw work up because you will never know when the bf is going to break my heart and next thing you know I will be falling apart, not doing my work."

Don't come and merepek with me la.

What the hell.... seriously. Just because you saw me fell badly in my previous break up, it doesn't mean I will be like that again! And secondly, When I broke up previously, at least I did my damn work right? I still attend classes right? I still contribute to any work that is necessary right? I didnt fucking failllll okay.

When you are single, it doesn't put you at a better situation where you think you are way more capable of handling work than me.

Easy. Just don't use my bloody status as a reason to be less capable than you or whoever. Put that in your brains. It's not in any textbook. Don't simply compare me to anyone. Coz you are not in my shoes.

You know what I was wondering, will it be the same if you were in my shoes, going through a bloody break up? Better than me? Worst than me? Just like me?

:)

Is it me or that's the fact itself?

Eeeeee..
I was really thinking for awhile; how do I start or let it out...

Knock knock.
Is it just me going Cuckoo over here...
or..
nobody really care to drop by and give some love to Natelppa?

Feels like Natelppa is not really happening anymore.
Feels like I lost my readers(including anonymous ones).
Feels like nobody wants to drop a freaking comment[comment makes me happy!].
Oh sedihnya. Maybe I should have blogged more often. :P

Nvm. I will still continue to post all the rubbish in this Recycle Bin, maybe readers will come back? It's not about oh-i-want-publicity-online thing. I just want to share my silly thoughts and things I do and get feedbacks. It would be awesome to hear various thinkings/opinions. I feel thankful and happy if I could inspire or make anyone out there laugh/smile. Oh yes. I believe that my non-awesome writing can still make people laugh/get pissed. Haha.

I know I can't write impactful/funny things like my other blog buddies. hehehehe.
I know I'm not a popular person who can write one sentence and get thousands of comments in few hours' time.

I'm sorry for not being awesomeeeee! :P I'm weird that's why.

Lalalalalalalala. Hey hey. I'm not forcing you to drop a comment okay? This is not a sympathy entry. I'm letting out what's in my head. :D

I so can't wait for holidays.
I want to..
prepare my portfolio.
do more 3D modeling.[for portfolio]
Do some After Effects stuff. [for portfolio]
change layout for Natelppa.
Attend any X-mas breakfast(LOL!)/lunch/dinner/supper.

I might post up some of my work when its done.

Oh yeah. Did I mentioned that my sculpture got displayed at TOA gallery? Finally a freaking work from me. I envy Lydia. She's awesome. Go and see it yourself. hehehehe.

Compositing & Editing PART III

Assignment title : 3D Particles
Subject : Compositing & Editing
Done in Maya 2009, Edited in After Effects CS4

Glowing water. hehehehe. And I didn't show my work for critique but submitted right away. XP



My dad disappoint me. He broke his promise when I was not at home few nights ago. He started to smoke again. Fuck. I was so angry coz he broke his promise! Pa, if u disappoint me, don't be surprised to see your daughter disappoint you one day.

I really can't stand smokers that smokes in front of me. That includes my bf, though he rarely smokes. I'm pissed because I care. As for other people out there, I honestly can't stand it when they do it in front of me, simply because I do not want to be a fucking passive smoker. Nothing personal here, and not trying to offend any smokers out there. It's not my problem when you smoke, but not in front of me kay? When it comes to my health or loved ones' health, I am aggressively selfish. So, don't be surprised to see my major mood change when you start smoking in front me. Thank you.

I'm glad that night, Yen snatched that box of cigarettes away from Papa. Serve you right, my father.

And so I heard that Papa is going to be admitted again. Third time already in this year. He currently have 4 toes on the left and 4 toes on the right. Right one was gone back in 2004. This year, he lost the big toe on the left. *sigh*

From feeling very afraid and worried, I'm now getting used to this. I still care, but seriously I don't know what else I should do. He will lose one more toe on the left. The medium in my house predicted that he have the possibility to get his left foot amputated.

No no no. I'm not going to be emo. I'm staying positive. Papa needs family support. And I'm now continuing to get my own transport to college, which is by bus. And sometimes I feel bad for making my bf to send me home most of the night but he is there for me. Thank you. Love you. :)

Compositing & Editing PART II

Assignment title : Visual Effects
Subject : Compositing & Editing
Done in Adobe After Effects CS4.

:D it was fun!

p/s: looks dark in my home pc. looks better at college.

Compositing & Editing PART I

Assignment title : Name Animation
Subject : Compositing & Editing
Done in After Effects CS4

P/s: If Eric ask me to refine again, I'm not gonna do it again. Rather work on Final Campaign. :P

Thanks Papa + Loth Demonous sculpture

I finally got a set of proper speaker for my pc. FINALLY, I can enjoy music, feeling each bass note going to my ears, surrounding me. Drama. Forgive me. I'm very "poyo" for a good reason.

Sadly, black colour is out of stock. Got white instead.

Thanks Papa. I'm very happy. I carried the box and put on my lap all the way back home in van. My parents were teasing me. cis! XP

Ala, its just like a mother with her newborn baby. Ehehehehe. :D

Here's a pic of my babies.[Nix broke up with my Totsie wacom! Wahahaha!]P/s : Ignore my dirty wall. I didn't do that. It was the younger version of Apple's work.

NEXT...

I went for Sculpture Class with Jason during the last semester's holiday. I chose to sculpt out Loth Demonous [ my Concept Art II villain character, edited version]
Sprayed with Transparent Liqour.

Are you surprised?

I suddenly decided to post an entry after having a dream that I was chased by a leopard. Not nice when I have to climb buildings just to escape. Haha.

I should be blogging more often next month, that's like in a week or two weeks time. Dear Dean Winchester and other beloved readers, just bear with Natelppa yeah. I'm too busy with my life. I can't help enjoying my busy life, like usual I have dramas and stupid problems to handle. Wait. The problem wasn't really stupid. More like I can't handle major attitude people. Yes, too many emo people around me these days. Tak tahan siot! Stop bringing me down. I need positive vibes. :) And now I'm getting better. *breathe in fresh, positive air*

My life now is all about one thing. Not LOVE(Most ppl yang tak tahu apa2 mesti ckp aku nie syiok bercinta jer kan. bodoh la korang nie.), not Friendship, Not Family. I only fucking care most about My final year. I'm selfish already. hahahaha. Sorryla. I don't think I want to fail. But I'm trying to balance things la. Pushing aside problems and care only what I should really care. Wahhhhhhh. This is what I'm made of. ;)

Here's some points I can share with you guys, compiled, shorten version.

- I just came back from Genting. Went there for 3 days due to group's short film shooting. I had an affair with Estrella behind bf's back. OMG! XP [but i'm not lesbo k]

- My script(About my Malay-looking face) got rejected by X-topher and when he said our girl group are more capable of love stories as it is "girl's Forte", my script needs to be handled "aggresively by men/boys. ....I can only say, "Fuck you la" behind his back.

- Oh crap. The actor we got for short film looks like my tutor, Yong Kang. LOL! We named him Yong Keen. XP

- I went for TOA Halloween with my zombie friends. Check out my FB profile pic!

- We had Business week. Not fun! Booo!

- I miss posting artwork on DA.

- I'm planning to remodel my character during holidays.

- I dare to admit that I ada hati nak join Miss TOA though I don't look like a hot chick or some miss popular. But tak jadi kot.

- I'm skipping TOA's Prom Night. I'm broke.

- My dad lost another toe and was in hospital for quite some time. Now he's back at home, and I love being nagged. XP

- Someone who works at 7-eleven was too shy to ask for my number. He ran and hide in the staff room and ask his friend to ask instead. Seperti biasa, aku jual mahal. Sekian terima kasih.

- An Indian lady in the same bus with me, asking almost everyone including me for RM3. Minah tak tahu malu. "Excuse me, sister, I got no change, can you give me RM3 ah?" How Pern jawab? I was in bad mood. I said nothing and just keep staring angrily at her while geleng kepala. She turned away and jeling. Babi betul.

- I have not been eating pork. and he has not been eating beef. Mutual enough. Guys, don't bother to ask me if I miss pork. I don't and that includes Bak kut teh. Respect my decision. Don't question me. I'm respecting my partner like how he is too.

- I don't give a shit what people trying to tell me about being in a relationship with a Malay/Muslim man. As far as I'm concerned, I'm still aware of everything and I'm 200% sure I'm dating a human being. If you are my friend but disapprove our relationship, putus persahabatan jerla as I don't need a friend like you. Racist and not being supportive. Shoo!

- I think I found my interests and strengths. 3D Modeling and whatever we are learning in Compositing and Editing class. I like motion graphic. I know some people think I should be in MM. Sorry, but I still think DG was a good path for me.

- I can't wait to hang out with Mak Chicks!

- Checked my weight : 51kg. I expected 55kg, thought I didn't lose weight yet. I'm still trying to get rid of more fats on my body. Hehehe. Can I get to 45kg? :P Wait and see. ;)

Dont do these, Coz I dont like it.

Warning: This is my personal opinion and it is based on experience. ;)

Ladies n gentlemen..
It is certainly not awesome to do these to get one's attention, particularly when ur a guy and im a girl.

1. Touching ANY PART OF THE GIRL's body. ok ok. tht sounded so wrong. I mean, in physical contact with a girl. No, you shouldn't SIMPLY touch a girl's hand/shoulder/face...you name it. I'm one of those who DO NOT LIKE TO BE TOUCHED FOR NO PROPER REASON! I will sue you. XD Close friends should be 95% fine. Psst, hey you. i don't like the idea of you flirting/joking around with me LIKE THAT.

2. Calling out a girl's fullname near a cemetery when she don't even know you exist! Till today, I really assumed that those boys that I saw were not humans. dahla lepak di kubur. Seram siot!

3. Throw a kulit langsat at a girl you saw at Pasar Malam, so that she will turn her face to you. Ain't cool. Thanks to the mamat Durian who did that just to senyum gatal at me, I lost the excitement of buying his durians. kan rugi itu mcm?

4. Get a girl's number from a mutual friend's handphone without permission. No thanks. Not interested with people who STEALS. Dilarang mencuri nombor telefon saya. LOL.

5.Calling a girl SAYANG when she is not your sayang and don't even sayang you. Geli.

On the other side, I'm really not interested to make new friends, at least not now. I'm being honest at least. That's why I deleted many many people from Facebook Friendlist. Some are just adding me for collection sake. So, don't bother to add me. Sorry.

Do you miss me?

Hehehe. I miss blogging, suddenly. XP
Sorry for ditching my blog.
I should get back to blogging. I should I should.


I got a surprise for you.
I don't know how I got my butt into the kitchen.
But today I was cooking chicken curry with Mama.
* you may pengsan/get heart attack/get choked now*

I finally get to chop chicken! Mama was patient enough to guide me. I was so afraid that the chopping board will go flying with the chicken. It didn't happen. XD Aren't you all proud of me? Perhaps I got the call. erm the call to be a good future housewife. hehe.

This is the chicken curry. :D Thai style. Its called "Keng Kai Kathik", meaning Chicken Curry with Santan.

Enough is Enough.

You asked for it.
I have something to say too.
Read carefully each word.

First of all, the problem that you and I have is not as you see, not like "bringing back old memories". NO. I don't do shit like that. I told you already, its not as easy as that. Perhaps, I really have to sit down and tell you everything. Yes, I wish I can sit down and talk. But don't you understand, that the talk would be something important and critical? And it affects both of our emotions.

THAT IS WHY I ASKED FOR SPACE. For you. For me. I don't want to make things worse. Because I care about our friendship. Honestly, I never had such difficulties in friendship before. And WHY I ASKED FOR THE SPACE? Didn't I tell you, or isn't obvious enough that I am going through a very hard time? The finals is killing me, and I have some family problems. Most importantly, my sick father. You do not know, so you should not say much.

Yes, I took a long time for this "space", because I'm handling many other more conflicts in my life. I'm settling things one by one carefully. I do not rush into things just like that. I was about try to make things better. Ask Nix. She knows. And wow, you said you do not care anymore?

Maybe its time for me to say I regret asking for space, and should have just cut off and forget this friendship instead? Its not about bringing back old memories. There are things about you. This is why I wondered if I should talk about it. I do not want to irresponsibly let out all the details. Truth is, I don't even wanna post this entry out. But since you are doing it again, so why shouldn't I? Just a little.

Forgive and forget? ahhhh. You got to know the details then you will get it.

Yes, I'm sad too. And the greatest fear I have in this, is that.. having you repeating your mistakes again. I will not say it here. Because, I still care deep inside, though you dont anymore. You said you are used to this.

OKAY. Got used to it right?

Dahla. I dah cakap, i need space. you tak faham2 jugak. sampai you thought I never tried. Your post on the blog this time make things so obvious.

You will never get this right.

If you want it this way, okay. Thanks for making up my mind, friend.

Damn Old Real [demoreel la bodoh]

This is what I have submitted for 3D Advanced Modeling. Way better than the super sucky and corrupted version that I presented. I felt so ashamed, that's why I edited and rendered more images.

Sorry for the intro's sound. Cacat-ed. Off Model..haha. sorrrrry.


Here's my environment design.
The Sacred Mountains & The Underworld. I enjoy digital painting :)

Although this semester nearly killed me, I admit that I enjoy what we all are learning. 3D Animation was okay for me. But I was more interested in 3D Modeling and Concept Art. I know I can't draw well for Concept Art but I enjoy the process and also digital painting. I'm learning not to be too dependent on outlines anymore. haha.

How's next sem? I heard that some filming subject will kill us all. XP

And btw, I don't think I will work this month. I'm planning to rest at home and learn how to cook. just the basics. hahahaha. Im laughing at myself.

Screwed, a little.

Urghh, I think I screwed my 3D demoreel. I can't render occlusion and wireframe for a one full turn around. eeeeeeee!

But, you know I don't give up that easily. Its okay.And if you think my work is screwed because of DATING, please shut up. Rendering has absolutely nothing to do with my dinner time with him. booooo. You can blame the computer. Always fail to render properly. That's why I put in more still images than batch render ones.
Might not be an A, but I will just accept a B this time.
Since this demoreel is going to be in my portfolio, I will continue to edit it. :)
Will show the video here when it's really DONE. XP

I think I still have mood swing. eeeeeeee! So be careful with your words.

Oh no. Holidays are here and it means I have to get 6K ready by September for my Final Year 1st Sem fee. And holidays are not holidays! I have to get a job to fill up my 5 weeks holidays. But I'm still feeling tired. You know, all because of the demoreel... I have been in TOA more than at home. Facebook has been blocked so I can only check it at home. Nez jahat. Wahahahaha!

Another story: I have been receiving two more prank calls. One from my area's public phone - Indian man who thinks he can "hentam my belakang". Err, sorry, you cannot hentam my belakang. Second call was from a Maxis number. "you kat mana?" with SMSes in language that I don't understand at all, except for the words "I love you?"

I wonder why they love to screw my life? Because a prank call can never get me down la. All attempts failed. But nevermind, I'm still kind enough to answer calls if they really think their calls can ruin my day. :D Ala, its a very simple theory. Let's be "perasan". Take these prank callers as your secret admirer. hahahahahah!

Then, I can say this sentence with a proud perasan feeling : Wahhh, I got so many admirers!

LOL!

Me & him? Fine tq :)
Sometimes, a simple day out or activity can really make us happy.
Laughed like shit at mamak.
Sitting at big rocks and look up to the sky at night
while enjoy free music from live bands.
Help to find where he dropped his card on the road for two times.
Watching youtube, sharing earphone and laughed.
Camwhoring? hahahaha.

The end. :)

P/s: I think I got the XOXO disease and I think I spreaded it to DG78, particularly Michael & Estrella.

My Characters Design

Dearest readers/Blogger friends/stalkers/spammer(s) on chat box.. haha.
I'm so sorry for not updating this recycle bin.
I'm pushing all problems about everyone and everything aside. Certainly need no drama right now.

I'm currently working real hard on my 3D character modeling and I realized that I spend most of the time (lately) in my college than home. Very stressful, and I get not enough sleep. I think it has been a week plus that I stayed up late at 3DLab. If you have me on MSN, you can tell ;)

Once, I stayed at TOA from 12noon till 6 in the morning. Yes, 6a.m. Sorry Papa. He gotta pick me up at 6 a.m. And its weird for me; I'm about to get back home to sleep for few hours till class and I see people are awake and ready to go to work or school. Sunday is the only day I stayed home.

My concept art is almost done. Just have to refine my environment design. I'm excited to share with you all though I know I'm just an average student :) I'm getting used to wacom. Here are my 3 character designs. Yes, its all my own design and its all rendered digitally in Photoshop. PLEASE CLICK FOR A BETTER QUALITY IMAGE :D
Hero . Larzeous
Villain A Loth DemoneusVillain B . Gorseuz

Crap. I didn't realized they are in the 3 primary colours. LOL! But it was the lecturer who chose the colour thumb, not me. :P I'm most proud of the second character XP

Wait for my demoreel on the first character yeah ppl! :D I'm working on it now. Hope he wont turn out so bad in 3D. eheheheh.

P/s : I'm dying for a life. I will be having a "life" after 1st August 2009. :D

Miss Campus Glamour 2009. Please vote by commenting.

Here's the promised entry on Miss Campus Glamour 2009.
Dg78's hottest chicks are participating.

Chee Sang was the only one with make up. Don't believe me? Let the pics tell you the story. Hehehe.
Chee Sang can be DG78's Adam Lambert. XD
Thanks to Lydia & Chun Yee (make up artists)
Result after make up : Chee Sang is leng lui. I'm jealous!Now, let's see the cover girls ;)

Cover Girl A - Chee Sang
Cover Girl B - BonBonCover Girl C - SamsonCover Girl D - Lai Bung ( I gave him long hair via Photoshop. Hot kan?)

P/s: They are not gay or whtsoever. They are NORMAL guys ;) And this is only for entertainment purposes (mainly for DG78).

So please comment if you want to vote. ANYONE can vote. Please don't be shy, come and vote. I personally vote for Lai Bung coz when I grow up, I wish to be as sexy as this cover girl. AHAHAHA!

Honestly, I want to give a try.

hehehehe. I admit I like acting, though I'm not good enough.

I really thought of giving a try
BUT
they PREFER Malay girl,
AND
I'm not sexy. LOL!

Dream on, Pern.

ANYWAY,
I'v been really busy with Concept Art & 3D modeling. But it doesn't mean I cannot have time to blog. Its just Streamyx, being a bitch to me. *bitchslap modem*

I promised some friends to update blog on Miss Campus Glamour 2009 contest. Hahaha. Some of them already know. I have uploaded the pics on Facebook. :D

Will do the poll a.s.a.p.

No you cannot fuck me.

"22733583 calling "
I know which area this public phone number came from and I just answered.

Me : Hello (Ican hear raindrops, so its my area. Raining too)
Him: Hello, can I err Fuck you ah? *Indian slang
Me : Aiyo..Cannot la.
Him: Why cannot ah?
Me : Coz ur one too small,so you cannot fuck me la.
Him: Ehhh, How you know? You never see before.
Me : Aiyahh, no need to see, I can tell from your voice.
*I hung up, laughing abit*

The Indian Man called again.

Me : Hello
Him: Eh Can ah? Apa macam?
Me : Aiyoh tell u already, you cannot fuck me.
Him: Eh dari blakang manyak bagus saya bwat tau.
Me : Why you want to fuck me?
Him: Becoz you are very HANDSOME
Me : *tahan laugh* Eh, what kind of English is this?
Handsome for Man la. Gay ah you?AHAHHAHA
Him: Eh? OK OK..(before he finished, I hung up again)

He called for the 3rd time. Malas nak layan. Passed to Papa to have the fun of it as part of Father's Day gift.

Him: Hello
Papa: Yes? *friendly tone
*ttuttttttttt
Yes the coward hung up.

Seriously, if you plan to prank call me, do consider to learn proper English. At least, strengthen you basics. If not, you will be a laughing stock like this poor fella. Kesian kan? So if I am as handsome as you claimed, you must be a hot chick, unless you are gay ;)

Estrella said she will respond this way
" I am a man"

Nez told me not to answer unknown calls anymore.

My sister told me to say this
" Sorry, I'm Lesbian"

HAHAHAHAH!! I'm not planning to change my number. Firstly because I can handle this, in fact very used to it. Secondly, I'm no coward like them who prank call using public phone. Boohoo!

Wanna spoil my day? Sorry, you gotta try harder. ;)

That Girl.

There is this girl I know very well and she is suddenly losing her self-confidence. I know that she got low self-esteem but no matter what, usually she won't feel this way. Maybe its time to fall and get up again? I told her that its just silly to feel this way, stop it.

She ignored me. :(

She looks at herself and feel disgusted somehow. Today is even worse. She sees ugliness in the mirror. She asked me many times, "why am I born this way? Why can't I be like the other girls who look pretty with nice body?"

I told her that nobody is perfect. And yes, "you are beautiful too".

Again she ignored me. What is wrong with her? Where have the self-confidence gone to?

She complained to me that she got teased when she tries to be pretty. Truth hurts. If can I want to help her go and slap those mouths. But I know that's not right. People's comment after all.

If only I understand her well, as I thought I knew her all these while. Looks like I don't. She feels very ugly right now. She sees fats everywhere at her body. She wants to be pretty so badly.

What the fuck is wrong with this girl??!!!

If only I can help her.

P/s: I think she tengah nak period kot.

After All, you are just a cleaner.

I ate some junkies in 3DLab and hands got dirty. Estrella and me went up to the toilet to get my hands washed. There was a notice outside saying Cleaning in Progress. I know. I just need to use the sink.

I opened the door, and before I could say anything, the cleaner talked first while she is mopping the floor. Her friend was siting there too.

Cleaner : Tak boleh Guna, Tak boleh Guna! Tgh cuci (something like tht, with a harsh Indon tone)
Me : Owh ok. Saya nak cuci tangan sajer. *smile
Cleaner : Nak cuci tangan, CUCILAH! (Harsh tone)

I was shocked with her attitude. I'm trying to be nice and I respect her though she is just a cleaner in my college. I even talk to the guard okay! And it pisses me off when people don't respect me in return. Ahh, the story is not finished yet.

While I was washing hands, she was mopping the floor near me and when I turned around, her mop MOPPED MY SHOES. WTF! I don't wanna lose my head over this kind of person. I cooled down. Complained to Estrella, the witness.

Seriously, I dislike people like this. Don't be rude la. Talk properly! I don't look down at you as a cleaner! In fact I respect you. But when you behave like this, sorry I would just say to myself that you are just a cleaner, not worth to be angry at. You are nothing. Perhaps uneducated people are meant to be like this? I don't know.

She was so niceeeee to my bf and she knows we are together. And with me, she talks like this. Biatchhhh. I told my bf, "maybe she likes you so she layan me this way" LOL!

P/s: That's it. I shall not smile at these cleaners anymore. Stupid people.

Are you okay, friend?

I find this very funny actually.

Imagine this.

You have a friend who used to be close to you, everything was fine until your friend made a mistake and it really hurts your feelings. And to make things worst, your friend does not want to admit the mistake and try to turn the table around. As if its your fault things turned sour. He/She blocked you on FB, MSN..whatever we have nowadays.

This is a situation that is very very similar to what I have gone through. I'm over things like this but it is so funny to see a pattern of Blocking, Unblock back, then decided to Block again. Haha. Why suddenly change your mind, friend? Are you okay? Of course I don't give a damn anymore, but it is so funny to know that I have to blog it out. Don't worry, I won't be mad at you for blocking me. I mean, please..I got better things to get mad with. :D I happened to find out through comments, not stalking you at all. :) I rather stalk my boyfriend la. Hahaha.

Now Im wondering if you are really okay or not? I feel sorry for you, friend. :P

P/s: This is dedicated to a friend, who thinks my blog is not important and I'm writing crap here. Hehe. Oh wait. Why am I calling you friend? We are not even friends. :D

How to piss me off in the morning.

1. Switch on the light.
- I sleep on the top bed and i get direct lighting with the distance of approximately 1.2 meters. Definitely will wake me up.

2. Pull my blanket.
- I wrapped myself up with the blanket to hide away from the light and whoever can see me sleeping. You might mistaken me as the blanket itself if you are careless.

3. Knock the door.
-Annoy me with the best rhythm you could. My parents do it best.

4. Knock the plywood under my bed that I'm sleeping on.
-Ahh, it gives a real wake up to my whole body. Papa always do it.

5. Call me on the phone until I answer.
- I won't get annoyed if you are my boyfriend or my best friend. Try asking a stranger, my parents or some other friends instead.

6. Party outside my room
- Scream your lungs out, jump around, run up and down. Definitely wakes the devil in me up. Just scolded a kid for doing that yesterday morning.

7. Switch off the fan
-When it gets hot, I get HOT too!!

8. Touch me
-Just poke me, slap my butt, hit me. I swear I will be AWAKE!!!

9. Talk to me tru my ear
- Annoy me by whispering "BANGUN!!", "OI WAKE UP, WHT TIME NOW?"

10. Sing the Bangun Pagi song.
- Yes, "Bangun Pagi, Gosok Gigi...". Guess who always do that? Papa. Epic sekali.

And the winner is...

Last night, I was "appointed" as judge for E-Cooking Competition on Facebook. It is to sort out the conflict on who is the best cook. There were two finalists and what's hot is that they are a couple.Hahahaha! Curi-ed from Ruzy's page. XP

They both want me to be on their side, agreeing that masing2 boleh masak dengan hebat. So I asked them to upload pics of the food.

Entry from Mr. Jufry (he betul2 masak!)

Entry from Miss Ruzy.... (She tk masak! Curi dari mana ntah!)
As a judge yang tidak bias, I took some time to decide and judge properly. I was pretty sure I did well as a judge. After some time, I told them to come over to my page to check out the result. Nah. See the pic youself...CLICK TO SEE BETTER QUALITY!Samson kacau only. Hahahaha.
Yes basically there is a winner - the judge herself ;)