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Yoz! ohisashiburi datta!!! It's the end of Q1 of 2011... and let's have a checklist..

Let me write some footprints of my life in this blog... XD

Let's see.... Red seas, ne?

How many more red seas ive crossed?

1. I think i should consider this as a red sea, coz I, well, I kinda state my "apology" to someone which I still think im not in the wrong... Wkwkwkwkw... call me names if you want, but i think im old enough to KNOW which is wrong, which is right, so ya.. but I still apologise to fill the ego that that person wants.. haha!! and yup, of course that person may say anything and everything else about me... but yup, I can be a Bitch if you want me to be a bitch to you, but yup, I think i wont waste my life and brain XD coz i know exactly wads behind those masks and i know exactly, that im happy, i can see it through earlier =D 

Oopz, yes, the point is I crossed THAT redsea, that is to apologise wohooo~~

 2. Well..., appraisal is just around the corner, and this year, im happy enough with the feedbacks ive gathered.... well, whatever hard work done in the past year, paid off =D 

3. One of the managers have been putting me on the front line now.... and yup, though there are ups and downs (obviously), coz taking more responsibilities are not easy, fronting the client is not easy, I'm learning throughout the days.... and yup, seems like the manager is trying to get me out of my comfort zone and shape my confidence up.... thanks!! =D 

The more I think about this, the more I remember that last time, I read about this article, stating that "everyone who gave you shit does not mean that they hate you".... yup, I agree.. this "work shit" thingy is just a term that everyone else can "blame on", but nobody really give it a thought... without the "shits", you wont be able to grow out of shit..... and for me, I think i appreciate those things now =D

4. I took N2 class... weewww O_o this was actually the "end goal" for this year, but maybe I'd stick to N3 =D haha... nopez.. its too early to give up yet!

Ok.. a little about the class... it's damn boring...... lecture-style..... =.=; it's so much different than my last few "friendly" class and teachers making conversations with you... In this class, the teacher smiles "konnichiwa..." and give out the test papers XDXDXD..... yup, every CLASS got test O_o.. every CLASS got homework... :s.... the homework comprises of  30-ish questions to shape your grammar, AND to remember three hundred words THREE BLOODY HUNDRED WORDS O_o'!!!!

and the thing is, this N2 class is usually once a week... but since my previous class is kinda "disbanded" (as the teacher went back to Japan), so nao, there's only 1 a week class... which is gonna be sooooo slow and boring... so, few of us decided to just try out the N2 class.... n since we started in April, they are holding it as 2x a week (to be able to make it in time for N2 exam in November) engingengg....~~~~  so shocked on the first class... XD nobody tot it'd be tat crazy pase XD

4. Made friends... and more friends =D

The good thing about a new class, is of course, new people to meet... hehe... but hor.. this new class is very "studious" that nobody even care to make small talk with you before the class/ during the break... but yup, before joining this class, we talked about it and we "decided" to join as a group, so that we can help each other out.. =D and yup, becoz of that, I have like.... 5 people from my previous 2 classes, and 1 person from previous school, joining the class... =D the pain is lesser now =p and everytime the class is too heavy, we can chill out after the class... seriously enjoying their company... hehhehee... coz they sincerely share the same hobby and goal mah...~~ =D thanks palsssss

5.... more to come =D

Of course, having crossing red seas is one thing, NOT crossing red sea is also another thing...There are still things that I cant cross....  haha... such as.... hm.... to go out for some "friendly chat" with some person that i dont even know yet... which, it should have been a good opportunity for "getting to know you" session... but no, im not up to that standard yet........ and for that, I should try to work on it more =D

Red sea?

I've been jumping to different classes for my jpnese classes the past months.. =p 

The class that I'm supposedly in, there are lots of students (polys/ JCs and even uni students).. only a small number of us are workers.. so, the class is v noisy and u can say very lively... XD.. The other class is the complete opposite... there is only 2 students there XD the rest are working adults =p

I liked both class, coz the first class is very "creative" in the sense, when the teacher asks to make sentences, the answers will be really crazy.. like "where would you like to go?" the answer will be like "hell", "afghanistan"... n stuff like tat, ofcoz, they're still young wad... so they are really really really imaginative.. whereas the other class, is really "adult" class XD and will give answer like "europe", "hawaii".... all the PROPER answers... XD 

Teachers-wise, the first class teacher likes to ask "close-ended" questions, like the answer is only 1 or two answers, whereas the 2nd class teacher likes to ask things like "what do you think of.....", "If you were in this kind of situation...."....

Oh ya.. the 2nd class is very quiet XD I think the total size of the class is 5-6 people... XD whereas the other class is 13-15 people =p  So in the smaller size, somehow u will "volunteer" urself to speak up more.. yup, the 1st class, the teacher ALWAYS need to call names, coz otherwise, people would be shouting out their answers like nobody's business XDXDXD

So it's really quite funny when you see the students from second class coming to OUR class for "make up" lessons, if they are unable to come to their class.... They'll be really like "lost" O_O and always seen to frown XDXDXD duh! it's so contrast!

Then.. The bad news came.... the teacher from the first class( the one im enrolled on), is going back to Japan... =( n she was also very sad that she was sobbing while explaining and (of course, being Japanese), saying sorry to all of us =(.... so,  we were discussing about the soubetsukai (farewell party for her)...

Since one of the girls are also going away for summer studies (but at least she'll be back to class after that), we decided to hold the party 3 weeks before her departure XD.... and it so happen that in class, there were 2 students from the Other class... so we were saying they could also join us if they want....

The two of them were asking whether i would be going, coz I was one of the "familiar" people with them since i crash their class most of the time XD... n i told them i may not go.. Then since one of the two also doesnt not want to go, the other one, naturally, doesnt want to go..

But, it so happen that I could go! So, that day, I went  to meet them, guess wad.. the two were there!!... of course they're like the "outsider" and if I were in their shoes, I dont think i'll go.... coz... well.. i dun know the people well and i duno the teacher well... so ya....If i were them, I wouldnt have gone..

And i applaud their courage for crossing the red sea and show up.. =D

As a result? they get really close to our class.. JUST because of that one dinner together outside class.. haha!  Oh as for me, I think I should also note it that I have done the right thing for going out with them... had a blast... talked alot with them, talked alot with the sensei... it was all fun and fun and fun =D

n yesterday, we took pictures coz again, one of the girl is leaving for summer studies... n u know wad? She was hugging the teacher and she was crying... n becoz of that, all of us turned our faces away... so tat we wont cry too =.=; so sad!!

Anyway, so we went home (to mrt) together and she was still tearing... like.. the tears just streamed down XD.. n some other classmates were behind us panting.. and said "why u cried!! sensei also cried leh!!!" then their eyes were also teary... oh man =.= such a sad night yesterday =s

N I was touched by the student from the other class.... only within well.. maybe 4 lessons together? Friendship could grow and sprouted just like that.... =D coz we both stayed in the east, after parting with the rest of the people, the student told me that this class is definitely gonna be missed........ 

Tho first time the student crashed the class, the feeling is "lame" and "oh my god are they all learning japanese at all? O_O".... the answer is, YES definitely, they are... through the lameness and obviously friendship with each other =D...... very sweet T__T;

Too bad the class is gonna close soon :( I hope the friendship stays forever =D

Bridge...

I was having small discussion with my boss and an associate... and the associate asked my boss "what to do with the client" coz now, we sort-of... Dont need the client already.. do we throw them aside? or wad?

My boss was saying "No, keep the relationship lah.. dont burn any bridges"... yup, when you are an auditor  a consultant.., it's important to keep as many bridges as possible... u'll never know how fate bends the road and cause the two of you to meet again...

V good advice, boss!

N after tat, at night, applying it to the current situation in my life, somehow I realise that yup, i shldnt burn any bridges with friends too, right?? So, tried to keep the bridge stay... and well.. shall we say that the bridge was just... burnt?

So, yup, what my boss said is true.... we are not supposed to burn bridges, but if the other party burn the bridge? who are we to comment? Are we supposed to even put the effort to build the bridge back?

I'm in the "MOOD" to think, and plus, with the recent incident, I have really been thinking alot... what ifs came to my mind... like what if I didn't say those words.. what if I have said more words... what if I have not done this and thats this and thats...... and the conclusion is, sometimes it is just difficult to make EVERYONE happy.. and sometimes there's really no point of proving or showing your point of view, when the other party does not even want to change their microscope to a telescope..

And so, tho 1 bridge was burnt... I may not make the effort to build it back, but again, if sometime in life, I am to meet you again, and you want to extend the bridge, I shld be fine with the arrangement....

Really?

After giving it much a thought.... sometimes.. you are friends with one person for over than 10 years... and tho there are alot of complaints and bickerings, you made up... but sometimes, after meeting the same person for more than 3 times, you already give up on that person..... what is the driving force?

 It's the material of the bridge =D

For the first case, it could be your childhood fren or ur best of friends, your bridge is built with a concrete... something that is more solid and not easily breakable... tho there may be thunder, fire and storn between you, it'll just..... PASSED... and the bridge still going on strong.. Tohoshinki said, "asu wa kuru kara" XDXD ... An example is, well.. maybe you don't see the person often, maybe you know the person is not always there, but that person WILL always be there for you... and you kinda have a "clearer" vision of what kind of person that person is, and you accept it..

Some bridges are made of tin..... after a few punches here and there, you'll see dents here and there... tho the bridge still holds, it may not look pretty.... I imagine the friendship to be.... hm... not so sturdy, there are quite a few "distrust" here and there, but after all, you decide to trust and go on with the person... maybe there are days when you hear something this and thats from others and you decide to doubt the other party... but in the end, when you somehow learnt the truth, your friendship lives on..

Some bridges are made of wood.... tho it looks strong and sturdy, when there's fire, it's most probably will not last... this shows that the two pillars supporting the bridge did not make the effort to "coat" the bridge with a stronger material... The friendship of this type may be prone to alot of suspicions and doubts... Trust has not been laid down.... or, there is mis-match of expectations one party thinks the other party SHOULD be like this and thats,.. well, I personally think that as we grow older, the kind of bridges we make, is made of wood.. coz you no longer make the effort to know the other people, or when a doubt clouds your mind, you stopped.......... this kind of bridge, if noone walks on it, it'll be mouldy, smelly and often left to slowly be eaten up by time..

The last type of bridge I could think of, is made of thread...... so thin, so fragile and almost invisible...... interactions are based on a "mutual" (one-sided) purpose... whether or not the thread is there..... can't really see, can't really feel it..... =p When something happen, e.g., the "mutual" (one-sided) purpose is not met, the thread can easily snapped and disappear into the thin air and never be seen again.... 

Eh... there shld also be the grass bridge... looks pretty and beautiful and when you try to step on it, you find out that you can only walk a few steps before falling off the bridge.... XD..... ok.. i cant think of any "real good" example for this, but from movies, this could look like the "someone" that you met during orientation and you could hit it off.... but somehow the person "steal" away the happiness from you (anyway, i dont believe this, okay! i believe happiness can always be found in your own heart... it's not something that SOMEONE ELSE can step on it or steal away, so HAVE FAITH GUYS! hopefully dun hav such pple around in real life)....

Anyway...let's try to assess the "bridges" that are in our lives.. people who have walked in and out of our lives... assess your bridges... =D is it there? is it STILL there? are they dirtied? burnt? needs some polishing? or you are ready to build a stronger bridge? 

But of course, building bridges are not easy... Sometime you make the effort to build a strong bridge.. from your side, it looks like a concrete bridge... you may want to boast it to the world that you have the strongest bridge with someone... but from the other party's point of view, your bridge is Tin compared to other bridges in his/ her life..... 

 

Well, I think it's normal... in friendship, I think you are my bestest of friends whom i THINK you should always be there when i need a listening ear, comforting shoulder or a hug or WADEVER....... but the truth is, you could be just a "friend" to that other people... If i were in this position, (ive been in this position), it sucked.... big time... but again, you have two choices... to continue building a stronger bridge, or stop there and let the bridge rots with age..... your choice....

If you choose to build a stronger bridge, by all means =D go all the way..... stopping half way is, well, I believe is worse than not starting at all XDXDXD also, there's no reason for you to change your bridge to a thread if your goal was a concrete bridge..... 

When you are wondering why other parties are doubting your sincerity, sorry to say, but most probably, you dont have sincerity in you............ and it kinda show..... True sincerity, i believe, glows without the need of explanations or boasting....

Remember that the key of building stronger bridge is Sincerity..... however, sincerity with only just talks are not sincerity at all XD

 

so, what bridges do you have in stock? XD