Anywhere But Here.

Sunday, February 27, 2011

NOTE TO SELF: STOP BEING SO EMO!!!

Thanks for telling me.
i really wish i could explain everything to you
but as you said,
it doenst matter anymore now.

its alr been a year.
maybe it wouldnt be so bad
if i wasnt posted back to raven.
but ohh well.
everything happens for a reason.

my thoughts at 1:13 AM

All i ever wanted

Tear up the photographs, but yesterday won't let go
Every day, every day, every minute
Here comes the emptiness, just can't be lonely you know
Every day, every day, hey, hey

This second chancin's really getting me down
You give and takin' everything I dreamed about
It's time you let me know, let me know, just let go

All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was a simple way to get over you
All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was an in between to escape this desperate scene
Where every law reveals the truth
Baby 'cause I all ever wanted, all I ever wanted was you

I'd rather walk alone, don't wanna chase you around
Every day, every day, every minute
I fall a thousand times for I let you drag me down
Every day, every day, hey, hey

Your new beginning was a perfect ending
But I keep feeling we've already been here before
[- From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/k/kelly-clarkson-lyrics/all-i-ever-wanted-lyrics.html -]
It's time you let me know, let me know, just let go

All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was a simple way to get over you
All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was an in between to escape this desperate scene
Where every law reveals the truth
Baby 'cause I all ever wanted, all I ever wanted was

Tell me with so many out there why I always turn to you?
Your goodbyes tear me down every time
And it's so easy to see that the blame is on me

All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was a simple way to get over you
All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was an in between to escape this desperate scene

All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was a simple way to get over you
All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was an in between to escape this desperate scene
Where every law reveals the truth
Baby 'cause I all ever wanted, all I ever wanted was you

my thoughts at 1:11 AM

The Memory

She is everywhere I go
Everyone I see
Winter's gone and I still can't sleep
Summer's on the way
At least that's what they say
But these clouds won't leave

Walk away
I'm barely breathing
As I'm lying on the floor
Take my heart
As you're leaving
I don't need it anymore

This is the memory
This is the curse of having
Too much time to think about it
It's killing me
This is the last time
This is my forgiveness
This is endless

Now spring has brought the rain
But I still see your face
And I can not escape the past
Creeping up inside
Reminding me that I
Can never bring you back

This is the memory
This is the curse of having
Too much time to think about it
It's killing me
This is the last time
This is my forgiveness
This is endless

(This is endless)
This is endless
(This is endless)

Someone help me
'Cause the memory
Convinced itself to tear me apart
And it's gonna succeed before long

This is the memory
This is the curse of having
Too much time to think about it
It's killing me
This is the last time
This is my forgiveness
This is endless
(This is endless)

Someone help me
'Cause the memory
Convinced itself to tear me apart
And it's gonna succeed before long
(This is endless)

She is everywhere I go
Everyone I see
But these clouds won't leave

my thoughts at 1:09 AM

Almost Lover

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind, images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes, clever trick

Well, I?d never want to see you unhappy
I thought you?d want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me in the shade
And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you would never ever forget these images, no

Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you?d want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot try the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind

So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy to walk
Right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Why can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

my thoughts at 1:07 AM

Wednesday, February 09, 2011

when i'm alone

It's been years in the making
In my skin I am shaking from the cold
I am tired from the taking
And my heart it won't stop breaking and I know
Moving forward can't be this hard

I'm just trying to find out
Who I am on my own
I had you right beside me
But now you're gone and I know
That when the room clears I'm still here
Who am I when I'm alone?

They say time is a healer
But it's more like a concealer for a scar
'Cause it never really leaves us
But it can always find us where we are, we are
Who thought it could ever be so hard?

I'm just trying to find out
Who I am on my own
I had you right beside me
But now you're gone and I know
That when the room clears I'm still here
Who am I when I'm alone?

There's so much I should have said when time was wearing thin
You're not here but someday I know I'll see you again

I'm just trying to find out
Who I am on my own
I had you right beside me
But now you're gone, you're gone.

I'm just trying to find out
Who I am on my own
I had you right beside me
But now you're gone and I know
That when the room clears I'm still here
Who am I when
The rooms clears, I'm still here who am I
The room clears, I'm still here when I'm alone?

my thoughts at 6:18 PM

Sunday, February 06, 2011

the past is only the future with the lights on.

my thoughts at 9:10 PM

Friday, February 04, 2011

Im sick of you acting like this
And I know everybody else is
Go live with your friends
Since you always could count on them

And I hate to see you this way
Youre losing everyone that loves you
And thats just not you
To want something so new

Well Ive heard of phases
That people go through
Thats just not me
And thats just not you

And its all so shocking
That you could end these last three years
Without shedding a tear
Its like Im facing my biggest fear

Well, I have every right
to never want to see you again
But my hearts got other plans

I think of dates and nights
and everything Im so missing
Im so missing
my best friend Is what Im losing

And if you listen to me you can tell
Im not the one choosing to be so unhappy
Your liquid clarification's just temporary
And everything that was never thought of is

The only thing ever brought up
And now my stomach burns from this diet of nerves
Its all I can choke down

And everybody
They say get another girl
Well thats the very last thing
that would be good for me

And all you lovers,
well just cherish what you have
Cause with one slip of the tounge
Its never coming back

I have every right to never
want to see you again
But my hearts got other plans

I think of dates and nights
and everything Im so missing
Im so missing my best friend
My best friend

You know the backdoor to my heart
and you're sneaking in
The front one's locked it says:
Were just friends

But thats not how the story goes
Thats not how the story unfolds
Well this is how to lose a best friend
This is how to lose a best friend

I guess were old now
I guess our times run all out
And Im sick of your dreams
Always misleading mine down

And I know your spark for me is no more
But mine's still lit
Why you tamper with it
I know your spark for me is no, no, no more

And I have every right to never want to see you again
But my hearts got other plans
I think of dreams I think of everything Im so missing
Im so missing my best friend.

Where did you go? Where did you go?
(My best friend)
Where did you go? Where did you go?
Where did you go? Where did you go?
(My best friend)
Where did you go?
You always had a home

btw i guess about time i ordered somehing else from ajisen.

my thoughts at 11:57 PM