pictures in my head

7.04.2008 11:09

now you want to be free
so I'm letting you fly

4.18.2008 23:42

aunt talked to me today, it didnt set me thinking. i actually know there's no way out for me but to continue in this suck fest for the rest of the year. i have with me, an irresponsible attitude towards work. but does anybody realize that the motivations behind such an attitude is different this time. its not rebellion like it used to be, its tiredness and unwillingness. "think about it carefully, make sure this is what you want." or similar phrases like that. i dont know. apprehension over the future that is unknown, my indecision is driven by it. yet, what future do i have if i continue like this?

this week has been bad, so was last week, so was last last week, so was last ... last week, and so will next week, next next week, next ... next week.

it has reached a point where these tears dont mean anything anymore, because you see them so often. it would have helped if you saw them differently; if it is like what it used to be.

4.15.2008 14:47

i wish you can take me away and never come back. )':

3.30.2008 15:26

i would fall asleep,
only in hopes of dreaming,
that everything, would be like its was before.

3.23.2008 20:51

its been a happy weekend.

i finally know what i really want.

3.20.2008 23:25

Block Test is finally over, but it doesnt spell celebration. because i'd rather be studying and preparing to fail exams than to go back to normal school days and learn new things that add more to my sorrows. tell me if you agree with that. HAHA. they say jc life is kinda short, i mean, looking at it as mere two years is indeed short, but time is passing so fast yet so slowly, if you even get what i mean...

but hell yeah, im excited about my long and lonely weekend this week cus, my parents will be happily out of town and we can all be happy people. (: i seem to have forgotten that feeling of brooding over free weekends with no assignments or what, but its coming back now. this weekend is so my lucky weekend, and tell me im not happy about it :D

have been really moody for a very long time. i dont mind actually, because it means i havent got over some things i love so dear, things that i never wish to get over with. i've been very contented though, i got more than i've asked for. (: and its keeping me rather happy.

tomorrow's still special, so will the next and the next and the next and ...... and the next. (:

3.16.2008 22:32

block test starts tomorrow.
im not the least prepared.
but why am i not panicking at all.

the holidays was okay. its not bad cause i did everything else but study. and its not fantabulous cause of many reasons i dont wanna bore you about. i cant wait to cry over my results and have someone tell me "no use crying over spilt milk", its been a long time since i have someone tell me that, long time since promos ended. when will i ever learn..

i dont know.