Ambition? What ambition? (2) : Pakar Telur

When I was about 9 years old, I wanted to be an inventor. I wanted to invent a Mesin Cahaya Masa or a Pintu Suka Hati or Pen Komputer or even a silly Loceng Mimpi, thanks to all the Doraemon comics. I have a big collection of them! But anyway, the ambition disappeared when I grew up and found out those are impossible. -_-" Then, there was this other phase of my life when I was so influenced by the entertainment world, I actually wanna be an actress or singer! -_-!! Alright, that was stupid! So I thought I would become someone more professional, like perhaps a doctor or a lawyer or whatever. I was quite sure I'll be able to be one of those. I was confident.

Once upon a time, it was all a competition. I would rival my brothers in everything. In primary school, I refuse to lose to them. If they got second in Primary 5, I have to get first. What a sad sad life. And for more than 6 years, it was like that. Then I grew up once more. And the semangat in me faded and eventually died-ed. I got to know that there are a lot of career choices out there. Heck, I spent more than one hour on a Sunday morning thinking about what I wanna next time and literally came out with nothing! I said I wanna be a char kueh tiaw seller in Go Say Lak during BM and people laughed. Fact is, I can't fry. I'm scared of oil. -_-"

My masa depan is quite gelap. Truth is, I don't know what I like. What I enjoy. Unlike my brother, I'm not a very science person. The only part I like is the bio on human part. I hate plants! So anyway, I thought I'll do something different. Perhaps selling kolo mee. But one day, I was watching the Martha Stewart show and l managed to learn how to scramble fried eggs! So I thought maybe I'll become a scrambled fried egg maker! Then, I actually baked something last Monday. It turned out alright. So perhaps I'll become a baker. *Muahahahaa!* Then today, something came in my mind. I have decided that I want to be........ *drum rolls* an egg specialist. Wakakkakakaka!

I am going to be the proud owner of Egg Toast. Like Kaya Toast, Egg Toast is going to be about eggs. Scrambled eggs, fried eggs, eggs, eggs, eggs... it's about eggs. Kaya Toast is bread. The banner says return to the olden days of bread with coffee. Well, eggs is older than bread. Bread is created when men are more civilised. Eggs were eaten a looooooong time before bread was even created. It's almost as old as men! I shall also sell cakes. Cakes are made with eggs! It's all eggs! Eggs! Eggs! Eggs!

There ya go... my ambition: The Egg Specialist! Pakat Telur!

The better life

There was this retarded boy diagnosed with down's syndrome. He's about as old as any teenager but he was only in Grade 2 because he had difficulty coping. Who could blame him? But he couldn't take care of himself in class, thus often disrupting the lessons. Teachers often got frustrated with him. They tried persuading his parents to transfer him to a special school but his parents said that the boy liked that school and often spoke of it. So tak jadilah their attempt to rid him.

When Easter came, the teacher told the class the Easter story, about the resurrection of Jesus. After that, she gave everyone a toy egg and asked each to put in it something that represented new life. She went home that night thinking that the boy would perhaps brought the wrong thing or whatever. She sighed in her heart. The next day, she asked everyone to put their eggs on a table. She then went to open each of the eggs, inspecting its contents. The first one she opened contained a toy caterpillar. She said, "The caterpillar is going to be a beautiful butterfly someday. Yes, it is a sign of new life!" and the owner of the egg beamed proudly. The second one she opened contained a seed. She said, "A seed is going to grow up to be a tree someday. It is a sign of new life!" and the owner of the egg blushed and smiled. When she opened the third one, it was empty. "This must belonged to that boy," she thought in her head. Since it had nothing, she put it down on the table and went to another egg.


"Aren't you going to comment on my egg, teacher?" asked the boy. "But yours is empty!" the teacher replied. "Yes. But when Jesus was resurrected, His grave was empty too..." said the boy innocently. The teacher was left speechless.


There was an Easter gathering this morning in school. They got a funny preacher who looks like Cikgu Ismail. Hahahaha! But it was nice. He was hilarious. He spoke of the good life that we have and the better life that Christ promised us. They made this hilarious "advertisement" about wanting to live a better life. There is magnificent stool that is.. well,... magnificent lah... or we could try Jesus. Then there was this coke label saying "Jesus Christ, Enjoy!". Creativity.

It's April

School reopens today after four days of holidays in which I did absolutely nothing. I feel so useless. On Friday (a holiday), I woke up at 6 a.m! I was like so pissed at myself for waking up so early! Aduh! Bodoh. Then that night, I watch 24 until about 2 a.m and woke up at 7.30 a.m for band. Gosh, rushed like what just to reach school in time. And this morning I woke up feeling like crap. But then again, I always wake up feeling like crap... so... no comment. Hahahaha! -_-"

I am now in Unit Kebersihan. I like this unit. I like picking up rubbish. I can just imagine your funny face right now. But yeah, I like this unit! I was telling Jacinta about how much I like picking up rubbish, half expecting her to say "What? Serious?", but she took my hand and shook it instead, saying that she feels the same way. Lol!! So I decided that maybe others like it too. So I mentioned that to my group during duty and Sharon supported me! Yah! Mission accomplished! Felicity suggested a competition tomorrow - who picks up more rubbish. Size also counts though, meaning if we pick up 10 cigarette butts and she pick up one big empty cup, she wins. -_-" Where's the sense in that, right?! Lol! Then she pulak go and say pentingkan quality and quantity. Rubbish also got quality ah!

Anyways, 21 April is going to be a whole day for me. There's band in the morning. It's almost June. I'm about to take study leave soon. About three months without band. Total sedihness! I am currently wishing and praying hard that band won't turn from 3 in 1 to 2 in 1. Thank God for Mr Reggie! Then, I'll be participating in the General Knowledge Quiz in the afternoon with Michelle and Lysandra. We spent like almost one period thinking of a perfect name for our group. We randomly named anything that popped into our heads like... foods, water, choco, pink, blue, faith, pluto, hand, head, lungs, dumbo, smarty, nerdy, etc.... I bet you're thinking "What stupidity!". Hahaha. I don't blame you. We were about to settle on Unity but I thought it wasn't "cool" so I was like saying "let's pick something that represent the three of us." and Lysandra suddenly blurted out "Alive!". So yeah, there you go. Our group name - Alive.

Then I planned to go for Youth ER that night. Who wanna go with me? Go! Go! Go! Couldn't make it for the Friday one coz Ms Tan's dinner on that night. Cannot miss lah hor!! K lah. That's all.

By the way, IT'S APRIL!!!!!

Something is wrong

Tell me what's wrong with society
Where everywhere I look, I see
Rich guys driving big SUVs
While kids are starving in the streets

I feel like I've been robbed.


No one cares, no one's there
I guess we're all just too damn busy
And money's our first priority
It doesn't make sense to me

And now I feel a sense of loss and sadness.


No one cares, no one likes to share
I guess life's unfair


Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you'll open your eyes,
You see that something,
Something is wrong.