Never loose hope... Pinning hopes??

I've got like every of my hope pinning on getting a job at a school from the start of the year..

But guess what?

There comes another unforeseen and unexpected full time job being offered to me....

Just pure coincident that I've got the offer when I visited their base...

I've not really worked for them for this past years and yet they offered me a job just via my resume which does not includes camps and activities that I've done and what I've wrote in the mail to the boss...

It has got a similar job environment but am i willing to wake up super early to go for work???

Ponder and ponder.. I think I've got till Saturday which is tomorrow to give a respond to the company...

My life and the pass-on aimless days...

I used to think of being in this and that industry...
But dreams and hopes just don't usually turn out well..


Being in the outdoor industry, life can be both hard and smooth..
Just like life - I guess..


Getting away seems like a solution..
But is it worth it?


Listen to what I had wished for years ago, I feel so small..


Once, I was a girl whom wish to be in the media industry..
To be exact, a reporter for magazines and newspapers..


But what had I became now??
Jobless, aimless person I guess..


There's tons of work out there..
But I'm just looking at them and not doing anything??


I guess not.. 


I guess I'm just observing..  Being observed??
Maybe I'm being observed than me being the observer..


Observing doesn't means much when it comes to me..
Looking and letting it pass-by seems like the term to describe that; I think....


I seriously think that I should had done a lot more in my secondary schools days like joining dance, learning guitar, being in band, being in in-line skating, playing netball, joining NPCC and such....
I guess it will be better if either of the choices or options were being made...


Staying in Gu-zheng, I have to say its something good..
YET something bad as it DOES NOT require the amount of time which my instructor had said it required..
And the realization just start like what??!! A few years later when I'm in poly or say even now as I'm thinking through what had I really done in my past life..


Cheers to my past life...
Its time to move..
Its time to think better or smarter..
Its time to put everything behind..
And PRAY to myself for a better me HAVING to START NOW... 

Back from tw like gg a month..

Lifes bad without any job or goal in life..

Seems like Im walking along a dark pathway and the exit is an unknown place..

Seems like the tarot card reading session in TW really is what Im facing now; The lost and needing a power/energy...

Still loving TW a lot and I miss the people there, the slow pace living environment of Taiwanese, new environment, the feeling of anywhere on the street is filled with surprises awaiting for you to open it and blar blar blar...

Im willing to go back and stay or even live there due to having low living cost, low interference of the stress and pollution and the cold weather, and the important thing; the outdoor environment...

Loving and missing the high altitudes, its like a home to me..

The snow is awesome, the scenery is beautiful, the people with me are friendly and treated me like family, the experience on the mountain is indescribable with words as what is being felt there is a lifetime memory...

Friends and colleague in TW is really good to me and really had taught me a lot about the place itself and it is even great to be greeted by my hostel mates with family like welcome (thats how friendly they were to me)..

Sister like colleagues in the workplace environment, made fun of each others, etc... Its so much like a home than an office.. Though politics exists in the company, but they are mostly small incidents and sometimes even a joke among ourselves...

Sincerely;

to myself...