We Keep The Faith Eternally ♥

I don't know why is this feeling taking over me. Isn't it supposed to get better as days past by? At first it left me so shocked and speechless. And then it made me have you in my mind all day. And now, it's making me reminise all the things you did & words you wrote for me. I couldn't cry the first night, neither could I the second night. But finally today, I did. It's still as bad, that feeling stuck in my chest. It's really as though you're really not here.. Anymore. like there's no possibility for us to meet or talk at all. And today my heart accepted the truth. That's why I could cry. Today my tutor mentioned a little about you to the class. I didn't like the way he said it. Although I know he meant no harm. & nobody in my class knows.. The way I'm feeling abt this. I just want to sleep all day, I don't want to wake up. I don't like this lingering feeling that pulls my heart down. I just feel so tired everyday. I wish I h...

and we are all the same fools.

When I woke up in the morning, your presence seemed to linger around me. I can't get you off my mind, and it's only your figure that constantly took over my sight. I felt afraid and scared, and I kept wondering how things became this way. My heart had never felt any heavier. Probably because you ain't the only one who's on my mind right now. Hope you are finally in peace. You know, you will always live on in our hearts. 28 April 2010.

It's raining. Like how it's crying for you. I have so many whys in my mind, and the pieces of memories seemed to rewind. We used to be so close, all those fun times. Even though we aren't close anymore, it still hurts in a way to know this. Your beautiful face and gentle actions, you had a flair in English literature & drawing,, your writings they speak with feelings, and your enchanting voice. Wished you hadn't choose this path. Rest in peace.

YESTERDAY NIGHT WAS SUPER FUN! went chomps for dinner with the girls :D it was super fun ttm! HAHAHA yeah & congrats to our dear shili :D it's so exciting & we're all so happy for her! ♥ :DD anyways, we ordered way too much food hahaha & couldn't finished it :P & then after that, we went to ice cube to have ice cream! :D loved the chats we had (: & after a long while, we all went home! i was a happy girl last night! hahaha School is starting and i hate it. SO SIAN! haiz.. & lately i've been feeling tired & sleepy, i don't know whyyyyy though. :/ and lastly, thanks dear fatty for your concern :) don't worry kays, i'm fineee! :D there's a part of you that stays & your happiness is all i need

wonders why am i worrying too much. the same fear from the past is coming back to haunt me. should i think it positively? then maybe that fear will go away. something so uncertain & so unpredictable, i never want it to happen now, even if it will someday. I hope it will be in the long future. not now.

I should be sleeping now. SWIMMING TMR! :D with usual gang, fiona, juitwen & fangrui! EXCITEDDDDDDDDDDD! :D i believe in you. & no matter what, i'll still believe in you. because that's the most i can do for you guys. please stay strong & keep fighting! right now, i'm a little confused. so many things are going through my mind. & i don't want to think about it. goodnights.

HELLO! I'm back to update :D Well well, where should i start? Okays since i haven't been updating for a super long time, i shall not post lengthy posts haha just a brief overview then :) 27 March 2010, saturday. went out with Muthu, Rainer, Julia, Sean and Fiona. Had movie marathon! 3 movies for the day. LOL 1. How To Train A Dragon - SUPER CUTE! :D 2. When In Rome - Not bad :) 3. Book Of ELI - Boring but meaningful, more on religious kind bah :) Had dinner at Brotzeit, some german restaurant. Was not bad! :) after that, we went to the roof garden of orchard central. Beautiful view. Nice soothing wind. 28 March 2010, Sunday. Celebrated Mummy's birthday in advance :D went for Crystal Jade buffet @ Holland V. then after that, went to have ice cream @ Daily Scoops! :D surprised mummy with her cute ice cream waffle with a candle & we sang her the happy birthday song! :D it's a wonderful wonderful day(: 29 March 2010, Monday. I totally forgot if i had done anything. haha...