有些回忆很美，但,
有些回忆因为充满遗憾，禁不起触碰，只适合藏在心里。
我们以为藏在心里很安全，不去触碰，
这一辈子就能和它和平共处，假装从来没有发生过，
但是根本不可能。
有些感覺, 一直存在你的記憶裡.
你以為你忘了, 但其實那些感覺 只是被藏起來了.
藏的很深, 藏的很好.
想把那些藏了很久的感覺找回來,
或許我們需要的 只是勇氣.
面對現實的勇氣, 面對我愛你的勇氣.
Monday, February 29
Friday, August 9
How I Spent My Summer.
(Words, words, and only words.)
Finally able to sit down in front of my laptop without much worries/ things ahead to do, & then focus on clearing my blog debts. How i wish my thoughts can be directly converted into words without the need to type them out #lazypeople'sthoughts So after spending roughly 2months overseas, i'm finally back on this sunny island! & i'm secretly wishing that people actually miss my presence when i wasn't around. Anyway, the 8 weeks in US were great. All negative thoughts that used to haunt me almost everyday were left behind in Sg; & it's like starting a new life in a new place, and of course meeting new people that left memories in my life in many different ways. I was happy. Life was carefree. Not much worries. but of course missing all the important people in my Sg life was inevitable.
Life In Berkeley, California.
Reached Berkeley on 25May, where there is a time difference of 15hours behind Sg. Kind of difficult for me and Sg friends to calculate the difference in timing initially, but as time passes i could mentally calculate Sg's time without much difficulties! & of course, i'm really glad for those Sg friends who even bother to take note of the 15hrs difference so that we could contact each other "on time". Life in Berkeley means Independence. I got a key for my own room, i got to clean up my own room, i got to wash my own clothes, i got to take care of myself. I mean like, duh, these are the mandatory stuffs. But it's until when you're really overseas, really on your own, really living alone in a room - then you'll truly experience the meaning of Independence.
I have never used a keyring in my life, because I don't use a key to enter my house. Sometimes i really really want to have the chance to use a keyring (LOL OKAY) & so i really had the chance to do so in Berkeley!
I got to clean up my own room, duh. We have cleaners in iHouse, but they're there to clean the common toilets & vacuum the carpeted floors. I hate dust so much that i've to lie a provided towel onto my study table & chair before putting my notes and bags on them, & i never ever go barefooted in iHouse. I had my slippers on in my room, in the toilet, in the showers, to the dining hall - literally everywhere i go. I think my room's floor is dirty too & i'm too lazy to find a mop to clean it, so i walked around with my slippers everywhere i go. Okay i'm only barefooted during sleep/ on my bed. I drop alotttt of hair, so i'll always use my right leg (w slipper on) to "sweep" the hair that are on the floor & out of my room & onto the corridor. Hehehe i'm evil but at least there's cleaners vacuuming the corridor eh.
I got to wash my own clothes. Ya after close to 22years in my life, i've finally washed my own clothes. Or rather, learnt how to operate a washing machine & dry cleaner. And also learnt the "theory" behind washing dark colored and light colored clothes. But it's kinda fun because i get to sort the clothes up before putting in the machine, & then when they're in I prayed hard that the colors won't go off. & when the clothes are done, I'll be super happy & relieved when the colors didnt run hahaha #cheapthrill
I got to take care of myself. Yep. Thank god i'm quite resilient in a way that i seldom fall sick /slapmouth but just that i need to take extra care of my gastric and tummy. & other forms of taking care of myself includes studies. Like, i'll need to have enough self-discipline to get myself to read and study the notes before the seminars/tests/projs/exams. & then also to not stress myself so much with the studies. I know la i'm not the kind who will go really STRESS kind of stress when it comes to studies. But i feel that it's a different case when it comes to being alone overseas with no closed ones by your side. Of course i have friends around but, i guess the feeling is just different. Like yknow that at some points in life when things are going rough, the presence of some people would really make a difference. Kind of thing. And because i'm the only one (out of my friends) living alone on level 4, so it made me feel more independent in a way. & because i'm taking Advertising alone, i made my way to/fro school (WALK) alone - till some time later when i got closer with a group/classmate who stays in iHouse too. Thankfully for Consumer Behavior, Char was with me so it kind of made my Mon-Wed less alone!
Life in Berkeley was actually quite "routinized" in a way that Mon-Wed i've lessons 10-1pm and 3-6pm. & then from Thurs to Sun i'm free to do anything i want (hehehe) and this is when some of us would go out of Berkeley to explore other nearby places like San Frans' Golden Gate, Chinatown, Lake Tahoe, Pitbull&Kesha's concert, Pier 39. And i've no idea why but in Berkeley, time feels to pass by alot faster even without doing much things. I thought time usually pass by slower when you're alone but then in Berk it seems to be of the opposite. Like after dinner it'll usually be 7ish. & then lepak, use phone, read SOME notes and it's alr 9ish. Wash up/ brush teeth, use phone, and it'll be 11ish and it's time for bed. Hahaha okay i'm summarizing the activities so much that it seemed ridiculous that time passed by so quickly. Anyway I get what I meant.
People in Berkeley? They can be of the extremes. People are generally polite and friendly, such that they'll greet you w a smile and say "Hi" whenever your eyes meet. Okay maybe this only applies to the cashiers or service providers since my classmates ain't that friendly afterall. But it really made my day when you see people giving you their genuine smile and asking you how's your day, though it might be a "compulsory" question for them to ask their customers. Or maybe it's alr in their culture to greet people in such way. & i kinda like their friendliness whereby two complete strangers could just engage in a short conversation with a smile. I mean in Singapore if you start smiling to someone and start to engage in a convo with him/her, probably that person will think that you're sick in the mind or just despo for attention or just trying your luck to flirt with someone. Or maybe you'll get stomped for it, idk. Sometimes i think Sgeans' reactions are kinda overrated - good also complain, bad also complain. Okay shan't get too deep into it.
Hmm. The other side of people in Berkeley are more of.. one less screw in their mind. Along the streets of Berk, you can see beggars (they're asking strangers to "donate" food and money to them so i assume their beggars) sitting/strolling around, and most of them are with carton "banners" to tell strangers their "stories/motives", instead of them shouting out loud or performing on streets. Yea they literally just lie/sit/walk without performing or what, hoping that people would donate some money to them. & once the clock strikes 6pm (or slightly later), more of these people would be out on the streets & that's one of the reasons why we would always be back at our hostel before 7pm. But for exceptional cases like weekends/traveling obviously. Or or some people would just go crazy in the public and start running around and shouting out loud on the roads. During the first week of our stay, we encountered a mad woman shouting and dashing across the road a few times & also at the same time taking off her clothes. Which means running naked. I was kind of dumbfounded by the situation but some passerby who witnessed it as well were pretty amazed, & started to shout across to that mad lady with no fear that the lady would come chase after them. o.O Do you call this liberation? Hahaha
What else? Can't think of what i could place here for now. & ya i'm lazy to upload the photos along w the words too, since the main purpose of this blog is to record for my own reflection. Time for bed!
Finally able to sit down in front of my laptop without much worries/ things ahead to do, & then focus on clearing my blog debts. How i wish my thoughts can be directly converted into words without the need to type them out #lazypeople'sthoughts So after spending roughly 2months overseas, i'm finally back on this sunny island! & i'm secretly wishing that people actually miss my presence when i wasn't around. Anyway, the 8 weeks in US were great. All negative thoughts that used to haunt me almost everyday were left behind in Sg; & it's like starting a new life in a new place, and of course meeting new people that left memories in my life in many different ways. I was happy. Life was carefree. Not much worries. but of course missing all the important people in my Sg life was inevitable.
Life In Berkeley, California.
Reached Berkeley on 25May, where there is a time difference of 15hours behind Sg. Kind of difficult for me and Sg friends to calculate the difference in timing initially, but as time passes i could mentally calculate Sg's time without much difficulties! & of course, i'm really glad for those Sg friends who even bother to take note of the 15hrs difference so that we could contact each other "on time". Life in Berkeley means Independence. I got a key for my own room, i got to clean up my own room, i got to wash my own clothes, i got to take care of myself. I mean like, duh, these are the mandatory stuffs. But it's until when you're really overseas, really on your own, really living alone in a room - then you'll truly experience the meaning of Independence.
I have never used a keyring in my life, because I don't use a key to enter my house. Sometimes i really really want to have the chance to use a keyring (LOL OKAY) & so i really had the chance to do so in Berkeley!
I got to clean up my own room, duh. We have cleaners in iHouse, but they're there to clean the common toilets & vacuum the carpeted floors. I hate dust so much that i've to lie a provided towel onto my study table & chair before putting my notes and bags on them, & i never ever go barefooted in iHouse. I had my slippers on in my room, in the toilet, in the showers, to the dining hall - literally everywhere i go. I think my room's floor is dirty too & i'm too lazy to find a mop to clean it, so i walked around with my slippers everywhere i go. Okay i'm only barefooted during sleep/ on my bed. I drop alotttt of hair, so i'll always use my right leg (w slipper on) to "sweep" the hair that are on the floor & out of my room & onto the corridor. Hehehe i'm evil but at least there's cleaners vacuuming the corridor eh.
I got to wash my own clothes. Ya after close to 22years in my life, i've finally washed my own clothes. Or rather, learnt how to operate a washing machine & dry cleaner. And also learnt the "theory" behind washing dark colored and light colored clothes. But it's kinda fun because i get to sort the clothes up before putting in the machine, & then when they're in I prayed hard that the colors won't go off. & when the clothes are done, I'll be super happy & relieved when the colors didnt run hahaha #cheapthrill
I got to take care of myself. Yep. Thank god i'm quite resilient in a way that i seldom fall sick /slapmouth but just that i need to take extra care of my gastric and tummy. & other forms of taking care of myself includes studies. Like, i'll need to have enough self-discipline to get myself to read and study the notes before the seminars/tests/projs/exams. & then also to not stress myself so much with the studies. I know la i'm not the kind who will go really STRESS kind of stress when it comes to studies. But i feel that it's a different case when it comes to being alone overseas with no closed ones by your side. Of course i have friends around but, i guess the feeling is just different. Like yknow that at some points in life when things are going rough, the presence of some people would really make a difference. Kind of thing. And because i'm the only one (out of my friends) living alone on level 4, so it made me feel more independent in a way. & because i'm taking Advertising alone, i made my way to/fro school (WALK) alone - till some time later when i got closer with a group/classmate who stays in iHouse too. Thankfully for Consumer Behavior, Char was with me so it kind of made my Mon-Wed less alone!
Life in Berkeley was actually quite "routinized" in a way that Mon-Wed i've lessons 10-1pm and 3-6pm. & then from Thurs to Sun i'm free to do anything i want (hehehe) and this is when some of us would go out of Berkeley to explore other nearby places like San Frans' Golden Gate, Chinatown, Lake Tahoe, Pitbull&Kesha's concert, Pier 39. And i've no idea why but in Berkeley, time feels to pass by alot faster even without doing much things. I thought time usually pass by slower when you're alone but then in Berk it seems to be of the opposite. Like after dinner it'll usually be 7ish. & then lepak, use phone, read SOME notes and it's alr 9ish. Wash up/ brush teeth, use phone, and it'll be 11ish and it's time for bed. Hahaha okay i'm summarizing the activities so much that it seemed ridiculous that time passed by so quickly. Anyway I get what I meant.
People in Berkeley? They can be of the extremes. People are generally polite and friendly, such that they'll greet you w a smile and say "Hi" whenever your eyes meet. Okay maybe this only applies to the cashiers or service providers since my classmates ain't that friendly afterall. But it really made my day when you see people giving you their genuine smile and asking you how's your day, though it might be a "compulsory" question for them to ask their customers. Or maybe it's alr in their culture to greet people in such way. & i kinda like their friendliness whereby two complete strangers could just engage in a short conversation with a smile. I mean in Singapore if you start smiling to someone and start to engage in a convo with him/her, probably that person will think that you're sick in the mind or just despo for attention or just trying your luck to flirt with someone. Or maybe you'll get stomped for it, idk. Sometimes i think Sgeans' reactions are kinda overrated - good also complain, bad also complain. Okay shan't get too deep into it.
Hmm. The other side of people in Berkeley are more of.. one less screw in their mind. Along the streets of Berk, you can see beggars (they're asking strangers to "donate" food and money to them so i assume their beggars) sitting/strolling around, and most of them are with carton "banners" to tell strangers their "stories/motives", instead of them shouting out loud or performing on streets. Yea they literally just lie/sit/walk without performing or what, hoping that people would donate some money to them. & once the clock strikes 6pm (or slightly later), more of these people would be out on the streets & that's one of the reasons why we would always be back at our hostel before 7pm. But for exceptional cases like weekends/traveling obviously. Or or some people would just go crazy in the public and start running around and shouting out loud on the roads. During the first week of our stay, we encountered a mad woman shouting and dashing across the road a few times & also at the same time taking off her clothes. Which means running naked. I was kind of dumbfounded by the situation but some passerby who witnessed it as well were pretty amazed, & started to shout across to that mad lady with no fear that the lady would come chase after them. o.O Do you call this liberation? Hahaha
What else? Can't think of what i could place here for now. & ya i'm lazy to upload the photos along w the words too, since the main purpose of this blog is to record for my own reflection. Time for bed!
Monday, May 27
May.
Checked time: 8am 26May. GOOD MORNING!!!! Woke up at 530Am due to birds chirping (& perhaps jet lag) and since i've another 1.5hrs to breakfast, shall clear up my blog debts!
Headed to Zouk two days before my first exam :p I know la i thought i could have contained my "cravings" for alcohol and stuffs but NO I CANT. Furthermore this lady texted me after her work saying "study finish alr not?" and isn't a quite obvious hint to jio me out (for clubbing) HAHA. Met Nic at the dancefloor (when i actually told him that i wont be going till the end of my exams alr) & the first thing he did was to scold me "KNN STILL SAY EXAMS WON'T COME" hahaha okay... well at least my exams was quite smooth riding eh!!
So one fine night, just a few days before my final exam, we decided to go out for LICK's ice cream but it alr closed by the time we reached ): decided to settle for Airport's swensen's, hahaha aint we smart. But sadly the ice cream aint that satisfy. Though i really like these tall cups ice cream cus it seems alot, but it gets really messy and unsightly closer to the end. & a short ice cream date ended up chatting till super late and reached home at 2am ish. Cant even study after that alr lol.
Have i posted this picture on my attempt to do clean eating?
Sis' treat to mookata to celebrate the end of my exams!! Wooooots but fuck it my Mark42 got "banged" again on the way home & needa revisit the service centre again )))): Now my driving judgement gets worst 'cus of all the crashing and colliding etc.
An early dinner w the two ladies on a Saturday over at Wild Honey, and yay 10$ meal due to the vouchers that we had :D
Decided to go back to bangs since i'll be overseas for some time & doubt will have the time/chance to cut my hair. But after this cut i'm determined that i shall continue keeping my side fringe.
An impromptu date w Salted Caramel's ice cream waffle after my haircut 'cus my initial date was cancelled >: BUT YAYYY finally satisfied my cravings for SC waffle, IT'S REALLY ONE OF THE BEST I'VE EATEN. & well the greediness in us made us go over to the bachormee stall first to grab a quick dinner (LOL) before heading over for the waffle.
Also another impromptu met up w the annoying kid over dinner & as usual, exchanging updates on our current lifes and ranting and whatsoever! ^^
Last minute decision (HAHA) to make a trip down after having dinner at ION, with the reason of "trying out their new theme" but aiya still the same ley. Ghetto needa come up w newer mix alr.
Short lunch w this kid before making my way to the Nike 5Km run on a Saturday. Always love how we're able to talk to one another as if we've known each other for long when actually we knew each other through a common friend. Friendship connections work wonder.
Was having 2nd day period, alcohol in bloodstream, 5hours of sleep but still I COMPLETED THE 5KM (: Though i almost died running hahaha
Morning date w my Daddy on a Thursday @ Aljunied's wanton mee stall where we used to frequent it almost every Sunday when i was young! Didn't spend much time together as I grew older, thus really gotta treasure times like this. & i still find it funny when we both have to rinse our mouth after breakfast cus he gotta put his dentures & i gotta put on my Invisalign :D
Family lunch together on Mother's day 'cus Dad was flying to Germany at night & Mum got a concert to attend at night too. Now it seems like my parents are getting more happening than me ah.
Experimented a new sleeping position (by tilting my head more i guess) & tada.... Neck was aching like mad & finally decided to go for neck reflexology instead of the salonpas self treatment. & yup i walked around the mall w this big white bandage taped at the back. A lady even asked me "You just did your ink isit?" LOL totally made me speechless.
Brought Miss Fat over to the vet for her vaccination & did a blood test as well. Left photo was taken w a biscuit on my hand while the right one wasn't. Basket, this practical fellow.
Chanced upon the Nitrogen ice cream while otw to Korean BBQ, & we had it after our BBQ! :D Yay
Headed down to Turf Club for the International Race to watch my Dad's horse, & somehow the adults insisted us on taking a photo w my Dad's horse jockey before the race. But he's a really well-recognized jockey around the world!!
Had a brunch date w this smelly fella after not seeing her for long! As usual she's w the proud and bull temper. Tskkkk
W the guy who seldom dress up in formal!
Hahahaha spotted an elf at home. I think she must be thinking that she looks quite pretty w the thing on lol
Her eyes totally beamed up when my sis baked dog biscuits & she knew she had a share too. Tumjia-ness runs in the family eh.
I think my family can venture into "rent a luggage" business. Confirm can earn alot.
Satisfied craving w Sheena & had a long chat over at Macs after that.
Just as we thought we got scammed by the photographer for not uploading our photos again.... Here it is (:
Last meal in Singapore before i fly off, and boy this is reeeeeally good!! I'm so glad i tried it before i flew 'cus it'll be closing down when i'm away from Sg.
Met up w this two guys on a... Saturday night! The last Saturday i had on this sunny island. Long chat over a tower of beer, cups of hard liquor & further proceeded to Outdoors for shots and Mcnuggets haha! They claimed that no outside food is allowed but these 2 guys somehow managed to outtalk him & yay, nuggets and fries w alcohol!
Always got the 有他们在，我可以放心 feeling 'cus no matter what "trouble" we met when we're out, they have their witty ways of settling them!
She looks super small in this photo BUT NO SHE IS NOT. So big size and heavy wodetian
Went for blood donation tgt w Ql but he failed again 'cus of small vein. Hehehe so proud of my iron level everytime i'm there.
Met up over dinner w the ladies & i'm glad we're doing well <: p="">
& now featuring....... My last clubbing session (till i'm back) HAHA. Decided to go for TGIW wooooo haven't been to TGIW for so long alr!!! Went for their drink buffet at 10pm & wadafa kept spamming the drinks 'cus the buffet closes at 11Pm. Kns.
Why I say it's time to grow side fringe. LOL
Avatar moment over at Zouk's bar please. Whole face was white due to the UV lights & god knows why. So xiasuay that i've to keep covering up half my face while walking around hahah
After drink buffet and before we went in for more shooters & KOD. After that, spinned all my way till i'm back on bed LOL. Thank you ladies for the fun night (as usual) that i could have before i fly!!!!!
The bus stop where mosquitoes start to have their buffet... FROM US.
That's all i have for May. Have not yet cover my summer's exchange but will do so soon.
Wednesday, May 8
High & Low; April.
April wasn't a smooth riding month but happy moments still happened!
Sis came back from her holiday trip & bought me Laduree just a few weeks before it opens its outlet in Sg! Mmm~ I feel that its nice, but i don't think it's worth the price. Ask me to pay 35$ for a box of macarons? Nah. Don't think i'll ever buy any from Sg's outlet at all.
I MET THE BEST PROJ MATES I COULD EVER HAVE IN NUS (PERIOD). All of them were in Marketing year3 so naturally it's pressurizing for me because i'm afraid i would underperform. However most of them came from Poly & communicate in Chinese, so things subsequently got good and even better towards the end! We worked overnight together to complete the project which brought us closer (esp when you have a common enemy), chiong last minute editing for presentations, had meetings till super late night when i was starving like hell yet didn't dare to open my mouth (LOL humji). this is the first group which really bonds as a group, and not just formed for the sake of completing a project, and i'm really glad. & of course i've learnt so much things from them, and the level of expectations they have for themselves despite being poly kids really deserved my respect.
Recently in love w PB+nutella WOOSH but it's super heaty la.
Korean dinz w the siblings! It's been long since we had some bonding sessions... over food hahaha.
HAPPY INTERNATIONAL SIBLINGS DAY!! I don't get why people say we lookalike though we don't in this picture but ya its weird when they say i look more like her than my authentic sis HAHA
&...... the day my Mini got into an accident along ECP & was sandwiched between a taxi and a Mitsubishi ): Damage of Mini was minor as compared to the other two, so really thank God that it was a super solid car. Apparently the taxi banged into me & he had a squashed front, & i banged into the Mitsubishi which resulted in dropped carplate and squashed backside :/ & a insurance 3rd party agent came over to our help after the crash which caused a debate over whether he helped us(or me) for the sake of thinking that he could clinch this deal and fix up everything for me, or was there a little kind-heartedness to begin with. I chose the latter, but many (my family & friends) chose the former ): The world ain't ugly till that extent i supposed...
But ya so i was actually thinking if to go to school or not, till i meet this accident otw to school = fate had decided for me not to go to school! & warrior told me that when my tutor knew that i got into an accident, she "pressed" her heart in shock and asked "omg is she okay?". haha i have a v kind tutor over there. I emailed another tutor infoming her that i won't be going for tutorial, and she just replied a "okay". See the difference? & what's more after the accident, i had to drive the Mini down to the service centre AGAIN (i went there once in March to replace the mirror) & the guy in-charged was kind of puzzled to see me there again. Le sigh. There goes the beginning of 2 weeks without car.
Met the ladies for dinner & impromptu TGIF afterwards on the day of my crash.
Hey little oldie!
Superb curry peng woots. Dad bought it back after a failed attempt buying nice curry rice for me! ^^
That frightened look in the eyes when we bring her out to gaigai.....
My self-taken passport photo! Not bad aiight!
Waking up at 630am for a couple of times to hitch a ride over to ECP for my morning jogs. Loveeee sunrise!
In my Airforce singlet that's so airy & suitable for jogging teehehe
Tonkatsu for dinz w Mark and Hm after a day of rushing around! I remembered it was a Friday and that morning i reached at 10am for a 9am tutorial........ Well it was the last tutorial alr anyway. & received back another proj report which was stated as ONE OF THE TOP 15 REPORTS FOR THE COHORT!!!!
Normally this will be a norm during poly times but...... BIGGEST ACHIEVEMENT UNLOCKED IN NUS WOOTS.
My sister's bake!
& my sister's bake #2!
Went for an impromptu movie session on a Saturday night! Seeing so many handsome guys in the movie.. woots
How, you like my short hair? :D
Sister's bake #3!
Some clean eating happening during study/exam week and post-exam week!
LAST EXAM ON THE 4MAY LET'S GO! The day i've been waiting for after locking myself at home for close to 2 weeks!
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