Day 26 When will this Month Ever End?

I'm starting to think that 24 is the same as 30 and hence a month has passed and I can again spend a few quality hours with my cock in my hand, maybe something up my ass, but mainly with my cock.

Day 13 Update (seems like it's been longer)

Still haven't masturbated, though I think that I would have give a very technical answer to the no masturbation.

The situation was I was with a guy that I've met several years ago. All the times we've met it's just been a your typical blow job. It starts out slow, licking the head of my cock, and along the length. Next he puts it into his mouth using his tongue that makes my cock go from semi soft to rock hard. After more of this and slowing working more and more of my cock into his mouth, I bury my cock to my balls in his throat. (on a side note squeezing my balls against a guys chin while my cock is buried in his throat feels really good.) I'd really like to keep it buried there for a while, just wished the guy could hold his breath longer than twenty seconds. After I know that his throat is opened up that is when I vary the movement of my cock in and out of his mouth. At this point it really becomes less of a blow job and more of me fucking his throat. The tears in his eyes are of the joy that he's getting from my cock.

Well this past Saturday, was a bit different, he wanted to bottom for the first time, and boy was he tight. As a top, I like to make things last as long as possible, the pleasure isn't so much from getting to the finish line, but the time spent along the way. The issue with this is that at some point just cumming becomes an effort on my part to cross that finish line. On this day, after him sucking me to rock hard, then taking my cock up his ass for about fifteen minutes, he shot his load, and that was pretty much it. Meanwhile I still hadn't cum yet. I wanted him to lick and suck my balls while I jacked my cock, but that wasn't going to work out, he was done.

Now at this point while I was exerting manual stimulation on my own cock, with the presence of another person within inches of my balls, that's technically not masturbation. Even though all the actions are pretty much the same as for masturbation, it's not. But that's not the stretch of the technical part of the story yet. The guy had came and he was ready to leave. Not wanting to let on to much that I hadn't cum yet, kind of like faking an orgasm, I said sure, I'm done.

So the guy dressed and left, and I still have ejaculated.

The stretch comes in that after he left, I put on a pair of loose short, sat on the back steps in the sun, and pulled up one leg of the shorts and finished myself off. I know it was the first time I had cum in a while, because my first shot went about two feet out, then next one just a few inches and after that just a puddle on the concrete steps.

So I'm going to chalk this up as a non-masturbation moment, and say that I'm still on track.

I'm starting to formulate a theory that masturbation actually speeds up time. More on that later.

Day 6 update

So over the weekend was tempting, what with laying round on a day off wearing just my underwear. While my hand felt my cock through the fabric of my shorts a lot on Monday, I never got a full blown hard on during the day, I didn't look at any porn, and while I wanted to masturbate, I didn't.

Now I'm starting to wonder if this whole no porn for 30 days is going to be worth it. The idea behind it is that porn distorts your idea of reality in that all the guys and girls in porn have the best bodies, and the reality is the most people are very much less than perfect. With the porn image in your mind, you will be always disappointed in the reality of what people really look like. It was porn that gave me the impress that my cock was average to maybe just above average in length. It was porn that gave me the idea that I need a trim waist (maybe a six pack if possible) to be attractive to other guys. It was porn that taught me that three or more guys can have a good time with one another.

So I'm started to rationalize that porn isn't that much of a distortion on reality, except when I see other guys my age. Other guys, say they go to the gym on a regular basis, I'm guessing that twice a year is their regular basis. Other guys say that they are ddf, but when you see their profiles on other sites, and notice their pics on CL looking for any load possible, and wonder why they would get a hotel room so they can be fucked all day long by a series of guys. Not someone that I'd be interested in, but I need to invest the time to weed out those guys.

So six days in and I wonder if when and if I make if through the thirty days am I just going to go back to regular masturbation schedule? Only time will tell.

Challenge

All the hype about the ALS Ice bucket challenge has got me thinking about things. Personally I think the whole challenge thing is just a bunch of peer pressure, but it's really getting some attention to ALS and that's a good thing. This in conjunction with a podcaster named Tim Ferriss who last month set a challenge to go thirty days without porn or masturbation, but all the sex you can handle. It's kind of like a low carb diet where bacon becomes a good thing to eat at every meal.

Anyway, I've notice that I do seem to look at porn and masturbate on somewhat of a daily schedule, and when I really getting into a masturbation session, it can sometimes lead to two or three loads being deposited into a tissue to be flushed down the drain. I know there are some guys that think that's a waste of good cum, but I'm not of a consumer of cum, my own, or others.

Challenges in general should be something that changes you, improves you, or makes you see the world in a different way. The ice bucket challenge just seems to get you wet, and cold, so not that interested in doing it. The thirty days without masturbation is more of a test of my will.

Yesterday was the first day, and while most people would think to start on the first of the month, or the first of something, I've pretty much chosen a random start time. This goes with most things with me, I think about it for a while then decided and start right then.

The synopsis of the first day is that I closed the open tabs on the browser that had porn preloaded, hadn't looked any blogs, and kind of think I had a more productive day. The start of the second day, sitting in a quite place wearing just my underwear would have lead to a masturbation session, it if weren't for the challenge, easy to overcome the temptation.

What I have deemed okay is to look on CL which is mainly for the humor anyway (Does a 60 year old fat guy really think a 25 year old muscle top is that common?) I also have been of a few other apps and things, so the search for a compatible bottom guy goes on. So while looking at the naked pics of guys online is technically porn, if it leads to us meeting, getting naked, sweaty and fucked, then it's just foreplay.

On a side note, my regular buddy, the only one that I have, fucked the hell out of me the other day. The sensation was to much to bear after a few minutes, but I let him finish anyway. It was similar to be tickled, where you wanted it to stop because it was overwhelming, but at the same time a feeling deep inside of me that I didn't want to stop. So for any bottoms out there, does that feeling just get more intense with time, or something that becomes more bearable where you want it to go on and on?

Odd Excercise

I don't know what he's doing, but he looks good doing it.

Public

I've heard and talked with other guys that have been in situations where one glance was enough for one of them to make and advance on the other, almost as if it was a planned meet up. Once, during a summer Eurail travel of Europe I was on the shores of the Seine, and unbeknownst to me, less then twenty feet, or would that be ten meters, from me was a major gay cruising area. Apparently the entry and exit to this area wasn't in the area I was in because I sat there for almost two hours and thought I have my own private waterfront view of Paris.

After getting up and walking toward the area, turning a corner and seeing about thirty guys doing private things in a secluded public place, was eye opening. First thought was how the did I not hear any of this, and I didn't see anyone enter or exit the area from where I was sitting. Needless to say I was inwardly excited to see real life porn, but nervous as hell about what I was seeing at the same time, and little tiny balls that forced me to leave the area immediately.

Since then, my balls have grown to good size and if I have to go back to that time, I would walk into that area, identify the best looking guy. Walk up to him, pull my cock out, and tell him to get on his fucking knees and suck my cock. Being that he wouldn't understand the words I spoke, he would understand the tone.

Saturday's the Day to Bike

 Get out on the road, and you may see stuff like this.

Two Dicks (this is real)

If you have two dicks, that are physically attached to your body, do you favor one over the other? You have to hands, and two cocks, I don't see the issues and giving them both the same amount of attention.

This is a guy that post these online back in March and having two cocks is known as diphallia. As he mentioned in his post, he favors the right side, and this shows the attention over his life, that when you pay attention to something, it grows bigger and stronger.

Developed Sensativity of Body Parts

When  I first started to think about messing around with guys, somehow I also heard about the sensitivity of some guys nipples. Seeing that man-nippling my nipples could make my cock harder was of interest to me. After laying back and squeezing my nipples all I felt was that my nipples were getting sore and I was wondering how the hell could anybody get pleasure from twisting their nipples. What I learned is that practice makes perfect, and some guys are just luckier than others.

The same thing has occurred to me with bottoming, going from what the fuck you doing back there to, wow, that feels fucking incredible. I'm starting to really think that the sensation one feels by stroking your cock or have something up your ass is basically a learned experience. I know this because recently I was chatting back and forth with a muscle bottom about what I was going to do to him and he mentioned that he was playing with his nipples. So I started playing with my nipples too, and in that contexts I was feeling it at my cock.

That's why I feel the guy with the really small cock, and that body is a bottom. If you can't get your hand round your own cock and feel the sensation of stroking your cock to an ejaculation, then you find other ways of getting an orgasm, and maybe you get really good.

Really good Place to Rest a Cock

The only thing better than having my cock rest across a guys head is when he goes further and really gets his face into my ass. The best position, for me, for this is the flat on his back as I lower my ass over his face, almost to the point of suffocating the guy.

The second best is in this position as pre-cum leaks from my cock into his hair. But if you really want to get me hard, stick your tongue into my ass, as deep as possible.

Biker's Ass

Recently I rode in one of those 100 mile rides that are becoming popular theses days, but don't understand why people think that riding 100 miles is a unobtainable feat. Any way, I started late with the lower mileage riders, by the time I was surrounded by other 100 mile riders, I wasn't going to be the last person across the finish line.

There was a small group of riders that I was staying just in front of, leaving the rest stops shortly after they arrived. What caught my eye was the one guy that had the cocky self confident attitude, that made him an attractive guy, and had the body to reinforced that. Totally straight, to the point of barely keeping his hands off his girlfriend at the rest stops. While that might seem like over compensating to show everyone that he's straight, the attitude was more of him wanting to make sure that his girlfriend was cool and comfortable as he dragged her 100 miles on a bike.

The nice thing was that when he got off his bike at the rest stops, his riding shorts had crept up his ass, and nicely displayed his ass. His ass was fully covered, but at the same time, skin tight as to be almost as if he was naked. Then to watch him work his shorts out of his ass was worth the wait just to see.

And that is one of the reasons that everyone needs to bike. It's almost mandatory that you have to stare at the ass of the guy in front of you the whole ride. If they're faster than you, then it's the incentive to go faster yourself.

Who would you let Fuck you?

There are only a few guys that I could look at a photo and, or see them in a video, and know that I'd let them top me. I've seen a few of his videos, and haven't seen him bottom. He looks so dam cute and has a great body, seeing him top me would be a fun night.

Why?

 

Why would someone want to do this? I've hear of people shaving their legs because of a sport, but why the hell would you want to shave your pubic hair. Trim is okay, but a full scale deforestation is just not right.

Bottoming

I'm a top, but I've talked on here about experimenting with bottoming, cause I've seen the pleasure that a guy can get from having his prostate messaged by the shaft and head of a cock as it slides in his ass. There is also the feeling across the buttocks of another guys body, as he slams his cock into your ass. So I know that it's possible to have the feelings, but when I started I could barely feel anything.

Skip ahead a few months and I continue to work with a dildo, and the occasional help of my buddy, I've gotten better at bottoming and having those feelings. I now know the feeling of having a cock in my ass as it hits my prostate and my cock starts leaking cum. The feeling isn't the same as when I jack off or when I cum after topping a guy, and I can see where it might be better.

Now I'm worried that I might become more of a bottom than a top guy. Is this something to be concerned about?

Still Riding

 

This being Saturday morning, I'm either going to be on my bike, or being fucked by my buddy, while fucking our new muscle buddy. The chances of coming across a guy like in the above pic is pretty slim, and compound that with the focus I have while riding, that I might ride by this guy and never notice what he's up to.

On top of that, have you ever tied to get a hard on while wearing bike shorts and pulled it out to the extent that guys has his cock out. They aren't skin tight shorts because of the roominess.  

Guys with Trucks

 

I think in the south you have to have a certain look in order to get a four inch lift in your truck. I don't know if it's the truck or the guy who has the truck, but nine times out of ten the guys are better looking that the average joe. At the same time their average height is in the five foot six range. That's night a bad height, their easy to move into any position I want, and they tend to be better proportioned.

Cocksucker

Am I a cock sucker? I've sucked a few cocks, but I've never just sucked a guy off and nothing else. There have been a few guys I've met that they just sucked my cock and nothing else.  Personally I don't thing that I would just suck a guys cock and  be satisfied. The guy above would be an exception to the rule for me.

I once Did This

 

I once did this in grade school. I don't remember specifically if I pulled out my cock, but I do remember pulling out the pockets of my pants and the girl got the picture. She wasn't happy, I do remember that part. In thinking about it now, I didn't have anything in my pockets, it seems like I've always have something in my pockets theses days.

Ban On Gays

 

While in the Gym this morning, I saw a quote pop up on one the news programs that were on one of the many screens that were on. The quote was from Rush Limbaugh, and it was something about how the Governor of Arizona is being to veto the bill by the Gay Lobby.  My initial reaction is that Rush really needs to learn what the word bully really means. My second reactions is the unsaid words that Rush and his followers use in a situation like this are: faggot mafia, imposing their immoral lifestyle on the children, spreading disease, and many other uninformed miss leading bigot statements.

So who is really the bully in a situation like this?

If you think it's not Rush, then we need to talk. No better yet, sit down in a quite place and reflect on the use of pressure in this case.  To pressure with violence, to get someones lunch money is to be a bully. To repeatedly ask to be respected as a human being, is not an act of being a bully.

To make it even simpler, Rush is a bully and the Governor of Arizona is a politician, and the bill violates basic human rights.

Hadn't seen my trainer for a couple of months naked, but it finally worked out early one morning. The above image is pretty much how things ended. I'm still surprised that I came four or five times with this guy, but he likes it. The last two happened in the position shown, with my hand working my cock. Does it count as two different events if there are a less than three minutes between discharge?

Anyway, my continuing celebration of black history month pretty much peaked with I got two loads out of him.

I also watched Lee Daniel's "The Butler" and if you have an aversion to watching this movie because of something that you might have heard about it, it just means that deep down you don't want to know that humans can be mean and cruel to other humans. I wonder if there were any middle aged white women who saw the movie and thought to themselves that during the lunch counter scene that they would never treat someone different than themselves like the white women did in that scene, then go out of the theater and see two guys holding hands and have the exact same thoughts.

Naked on the Sand

One of these days, I'm going to lay down on the sand at some beach, buck ass naked, and make a pocket in the sand for my cock, and just sit there and watch the world go by. The only thing I worry about is getting a sun burn on my white ass, so I wouldn't be out in the sun long.

Black History Month

You can't go back, because you've expanded your mind to accept more things. Sure you can have a preference for one type of guy over another, but the color of someone's skin doesn't play an issue. In the movie Bulworth with Warren Betty, he says the following when his character is asked about racism in America. "We need to keep fucking till we're all the same color." Now with guy on guy that's going to take a little bit longer, but practice makes perfect.

Black History Month

The old saying, "Once you go black, you never go back" it's true, and it doesn't have anything to do with size.

Friends

I began this journey with the hopes of gaining some friends that, like me, wanted to get naked and play round with our cock in each others presence. Friends aren't easy to find, and naked good looking friends are even more difficult to find.

Man Crush

This is a guy that looks good naked, but I bet that if I were to ever get to know him, I'd think he was an ugly asshole, but I don't know him. So instead I've just masturbated to him image while think about fucking him. 

It usually starts with telling him to take off his cloths, and pushing him down on his knees as I grab the back of his head and rub my crotch into his face. He's got to smell my sweaty balls and realize that he's going to be my bitch for the next hour. I slowly unzip my pants, and pull my cock out and have him suck it till I'm good and ready. Then flip him on his back so I can see his face as I slide my cock slow and steady into the depth of his ass. If there is any resistance at all you've got to be forceful with a guy like this and act quickly to let him know that nothing is going to stop him from getting fucked, and pain is part of the deal, so just take it like a fucking man. Then after he's cum, and I'm ready for a second cumming, I sit on his stomach so that the tip of his cock is rubbing my balls, and I jack off a second round while I've got him pinned, and when I'm close, lean forward, with my knees holding his arms down and let loose on his face and make him lick my cock clean. Then I look him squarely in the eye, and softly tell him to get his little faggot ass out of my place now. 

After the Ride

Is it just me or do other guys jack off after sitting on a bike saddle for a long ride. I feel that I want to make sure the plumbing still works, and it does; every time.

Black History Month

It's black history month, so do your part and let a black man fuck your ass. I know for myself I'll partake of this action before the end of the month, sooner if I can get his ass out of the gym. We did have plans for earlier this week, but he had a family emergency come up and we haven't gotten back together yet.

Also if any one reading this gets mad when they learn that minorities get special privileges and advances in certain things, mainly dealing with the government, it's true. Minorities do get a special advantage over an equal white guy, and while the white guy might not like it, tough shit. It's there to right a historic wrong, and if you're only getting disappointed because a minority beat you out for something, just remember that even as recent as 50 years ago it would have been reverse and the black guy would have a lot more to worry about than just disappointment.

Jock Strap

I'm not a big fan of many things in my ass, and certainly not the straps of a jock. Now if it was a tongue, I'd go for it, but I don't  think they make or could make that type of jock.

Riding Buddy

I've been looking for a riding buddy, the problem finding one that has a similar ride schedule, pattern, and speed. On top of that short list, add the good body and connection, and there might be just one person in my area that matches those points.

I've chatted with guys that think they want to ride, but really just want to get fucked. I've also fucked one guy that I have ridden with, but he's slow as shit, and his wife keeps him on a short leash. So the dream is there, just no one to fill it.

Body Shape Goal

Asked my trainer if this was attainable with my body. He said yes, and has worked out the routine, that was five months ago. I'm not all the way there, but close.

Mark Cavendish - Bike Rider

This is the guy to beat on the sprint stages of the Tour de France, and yes that probably is his penis on his left thigh. While this guy has a great body, it's it talent as a bike rider that I find more impressive.

When I first started riding I was self conscience about wearing the spandex. Now I'm totally comfortable and anyone that wants to stare at my crotch is more than welcome.

Riding

It's getting that time of the year to get out your bike, clean it up and get outdoors. Something like this isn't going to happen everyday, but you need to get out there often enough the work the odds. Or you can bring an friend, pose him, then suck his cock. Either way works.

The point is to get outdoors and ride.

Gotta Learn to Wink

One of my goals this year is to wink at people like the guy above, maybe something will come of it.

I know if I saw this guy in real like from this position, that wink would mean that he's about to get a blow job, before getting my cock slowly pushed into his ass. He wouldn't be winking much then, but his head would be throw back in pleasure, and that's a better sight to see.

What Would You Do?

If I was sitting across from this guy, there would be one of two things going through my head, and they would both be dependent on what occurred before we sat down in those chairs in the backyard.

First:
If we were working on the house or some other project, and we're taking a break, waiting on someone out of the pic to bring us some cold beers or something. Then it would just guys being guys, in the heat of the summer, no thoughts of sex in any way.

Second:
He came to the backyard fully dress, but I had him change into the shorts, because I didn't want the neighbors seeing my naked boy walking around in the yard. I've sat him down in this chair to tell him how the afternoon is going to go, and that he's going to be fucked at least three times by me over the course of the afternoon. You can tell it's early in the conversation, because he hasn't developed a boner yet, but he will.

BORN or Choice? the Answer is Yes

Something occurred to me when I saw this image.

The fundamentalist who say that being gay is a choice, must mean that they are fighting that choice all the time, which suggest that given an opportunity where their god wouldn't find out they would the gayest people around. Their flaw is in believing that their god is perfect and mistakes aren't a possibility, so being gay has to be a choice because god is perfect.

One of the things that I remember from my college philosophy class, is that logic can be used to prove anything, which is also one of the reasons that I'm not a big fan of Vulcans (though Spock is okay, being half human and all.) So using logic to prove your case is not much different than just belief for the sake of belief, but with logic you can get others to buy into the belief. When others buy into the belief, then there's money and power to be had.

When I was young, I don't remember specific urges to be gay, though I do remember, at eighteen years of age, walking into an adult video store, nervous as all "get out", stepping into a booth to watch some videos, when a dick or a finger appeared through a hole in the wall. It didn't take much thought to get my cock out and put it through the hole, to receive my first blow job ever (probably from a guy, I couldn't see his or her face.) It was a choice to go there, it was a choice to pull out my cock, and it was a choice to suck my first cock there too, but I was eighteen, horny and not thinking clear. What I do remember is that sucking cock made me want to vomit, and I did try, nothing came up. I covered the taste with a butterfinger candy bar and a coke. It was over twenty years later before I got around to giving a second blowjob, but the thought never left my head all through the years.

So it's a choice to act on your natural urges that you were born with.

Now days, it you put a cock in front of me, and it's attached to good looking guy, I don't have a problem sucking on that cock, but don't call me a cock sucker, or I'll come over there and kick your ass, then maybe suck your cock.

Weights at the Gym

I've been going to the gym for a few months now. Didn't want to join at the beginning of the New Year with everyone else, so joined in August when they ran a sign up special. Been going three to four times a week and it's noticeable now.

There is this one guy that's about half my age and when I see him at the free weights, he's swinging 40 or 50 pounds around. When I mean swing, what he's trying to do is a basic bicep curl, but he's doing it with a very poor form, the weights are almost stationary while he's moving his body around them, it's funny looking.

Part of me is thinking that he looks smaller than me, but he's using weights that are more than me, and that got me thinking that all the weights should be the same size. It's not an impossible task for the manufacturers of the weights to make them all the same size, then there isn't the feeling that someone else is handling more weight than I am. Of course my trainer when I mentioned this to him laughed, and had me doing the proper form with the right weights. The nice thing about my trainer is that he let's me fuck the hell out of him, not all trainers do that, right?

Saturday Mornings

Here in the south, this is pretty much a typical Saturday morning. Wake up, scratch your balls, get some coffee, and go out side and shoot things. A good day is when you don't have to put on pants.

The model here is actually fitness model Will Grant. From what I've seen on his workout videos, he seems like a nice guy that is all man, and straight.

Bike Season is Just Around the Corner

I've been getting some riding in, but nothing like in the warmer months, and the season is going to be starting soon. Hopefully the time that I've been spending in the guy is going to pay off on some of the segments of my rides that I've been working on.

Piss, You Really Get Off On That?

Pissing, there is a part of me that is interested in this, and I don't know why. Years ago while soaking in a tub, I did piss on my chest, and there was a small thrill from it, but I've never tried it again. Usually if there is something that I like and have the time or the opportunity to try it more than once I will, but pissing on myself, that was a one time deal.

I'm only thinking about it cause a guy that I met recently mentioned that he wanted to be dominated and pissed on. My response was, "sure I can do that." which in retrospect is not a very dominating way to phrase the response, maybe that's why nothing really happened.

When I read a guys blog entry about him going to a piss party, I am aroused, but mainly thinking "who the hell cleans up after a piss party, and what if there's carpet." These thoughts are what keeps me from just whizzing away on some guy, cause even if we're outside, he would still want some body contact, and that would put the piss all over him in direct contact with my skin, and I'm not sure if I want to do that.

Bottom line is that I'm not going to willingly allow anyone to piss on me, and if I piss on someone else, I'm going to have to treat them like a dirty rag, and I don't want a dirty rag rubbed on me. Now the lube, sperm, and spit that comes after several loads between me and another guys stomach, I don't have a problem with.

Tarzan

I'll admit that when I was young, that I did watch the old black and white Tarzan movies, and I do remember wondering what was under the loincloth. I mainly wondered who set up all the jungle vines that made it so easy for him to swing from tree to tree, because gravity makes them hang vertical, and you can't swing when they are vertical. The occasional groin shot was just icing on the cake.