Bad Mummy? Yes I Am!

Dear baby angel,
Sorry for being a bad mummy,
I chose not to remember you,
I chose not to visit your grave,
I chose not to clean you,
I chose not to bring you home where i supposed to,
I chose not to speak or write your name,
I chose to throw all the things that I've bought for you,
I chose not to confine myself and went back to work immediately,

Forgive me,
Yes, I am a bad mummy..
You are in better hands right now..

See You in Heaven, Daryan Darda

I sit and write this letter,
With tears running down my face,
But I know deep in my heart,
You are in a special place..

I could still remember..
I cuddled your blanket and said my prayers
I saw your weak breath by breath
I searched for any sign of you
For your scent
A string of hair
And I felt so blue

I hold it and wish I could go back to that awful day
There was so much I didn't tell
So much more to say
Cause baby oh baby mummy's heart is sore
I find myself missing you more and more....

Dear miracle baby
Will you wait for me in heaven?