Hikmah

Today i witnessed behind all my struggles to conceive for the past 2 and half years.. 

And today, i managed to khatam al-quran..Alhamdulillah.. :)

The last time that managed to finish reciting al-quran was when i was 11 years old. Ever since that, i rarely recite al-quran, most probably due to the tight schedule etc (alasan!)

I'm grateful to Allah.. I realised that this probably the "hikmah" behind all my struggle..

p/s- May Allah lead me to the right path.. ameen..

Expect The Unexpected!

Ok, finally, i found a cheaper place to deliver the baby.. I will be delivering my lil angle in QHC Medical Centre, which is 5mins from home.. Delivery via c-section will only cost me max RM7k for 3 days 2 nights package.. Ok, this is indeed a good news.. And the one who will be responsible for my complicated pregnancy is Dato Dr Subra.. He's willing to accept me as his patient.. pheww..

Ok, one problem relieved!


Now, there's another came up..

Everytime when i did my check up, my baby seems to grow BIGGER than it supposed to be.. Last Monday, during the scan, my baby's is measuring as if his that I am 31 weeks pregnant. By right, I'm only reaching to my 29th weeks.. And the weight is almost 2kg now! wow, is this normal?


Well, now, my Dr is puzzled to determine the date of my delivery. By right, if delivery via c-section will be conducted 2 weeks earlier than EDD.. But now, we dont even know when exactly is my EDD.. hmmm...

And, i have to be super careful now, since ive already in the scary "7months stage" that the baby MIGHT want to deliver now (depending on the capability of my uterus)...  But so far, the Dr said that my torn uterus is still in a good shape.. alhamdulillah..

And that's not the worst case, my husband probably couldn't be with me should i deliver early... :( He'll only be back after 2nd May 2013...


Ok, i just hafta keep on praying and praying.... May everything runs as smooth as it is supposed to be.. ameen.. ameen..

Thank You Again Dr Ramirez!

So i thought to update Dr Edward Ramirez about my current situation.. I used to write an email to him asking about my chances of getting pregnant again after the cornual pregnancy... (read my previous post here)

So i wrote to him to inform him that i've made it! ;)

Few days ago, he replied by saying this:

"Hello Reen,

 

Thank you for letting me know.  I see from the email thread that we communicated in May of last year.  I’m glad that you got through the corneal pregnancy and didn’t give up.  Good luck with this pregnancy.  You are well on your way to your dream.

 

Congratulations,

 

Edward J. Ramirez, M.D., FACOG"

I guess that Dr Ramirez is indeed the most friendliest infertility Dr that ive ever known.. He would replied to my humble email and I wasn't even his patient!

God bless you Dr Ramirez... God bless you!

Think Positive - You'll be Happier!

Lately, i've received soo many good news from my fellow TTCians who are finally conceived after tons of efforts they've put into.. Alhamdulillah, congratulations dear friends (you know who you are.. ).

To those who are still battling with infertility, my prayers are always be with you.. Please remember that when life knocks you down, you have a choice to get back on the horse.. The most vital thing to do is to keep the positivity vibes within you! ALWAYS BELIEVE that "everything will happen eventually when the right time comes"..

I truly understand the frustrations and sadness faced amongst the TTCians. The pressure coming from the people around you. I truly understand a situation whereby, the more you want to be pregnant, the more people around you is pregnant! YES, it happened! It used to happen to me too! You'll feel that God is being unfair towards you. You'll feel that God is "playing" with your emotions and you whispered to yourself that "even the stray dogs could get pregnant easily", right?

You may choose to cry, or feel dissapointed, but all those emotions should not be permanent.. Human emotions are just as fragile as a piece of glass.. But when we handled with care, the glass will not be shattered! 

 

Do not give up.. Do not give up on trying.. Keep the the positive vibes around you. I'm sure that you will succeed.. :)

Clear Nipple Discharge

Well, this is embarrassing.. Ive been having a clear nipple discharge since my 16th weeks of my pregnancy. At first, I wasn't that worried, but now the discharge has been more and more frequent.

I've informed my Dr and my Dr told me that the early nipple discharge means that my body is now starting to produce milks for the baby. However, my Dr said that an early clear nipple discharge would usually happen to second or third pregnancies onwards..

Ok, when I heard that, i felt a bit sad.. Yes, this wasn't my FIRST pregnancy.. I had been pregnant for a couple of times already, but it ended up miserably..

Whatever it is, I'm thankful to Allah for giving me a chance to experience this journey thus far.. I hope and I pray that I would breastfeed my baby until he reaches 2 years old.. in sha allah..