|Tuesday, October 09, 2012|
:'(
9:25 am
|Saturday, August 04, 2012|
& i still stubbornly visit blogs which i know their owners would not update anymore.
11:04 am
mayb i still crave to be extraordinary.
10:58 am
|Saturday, July 14, 2012|
祸从口出.
i'm not angry that he's angry or disappointed with me. i'm more angry with myself that i actually could possibly have really done it.
10:09 am
|Monday, April 09, 2012|
for ego? for a sense of power? for satisfication of self-worth? or really for the bigger challenge? something i'm really up to?
1:52 am
|Wednesday, April 04, 2012|
am i really having too high expectation of the work my group submit?
or are my teammates really not caring too much about it?
why do i feel that i'm always the one who has to dig deep for deeper analysis, always the one who feels the draft can't be MUCH improved on, sees analytical errors that others do not? WHY?!
2:24 am
|Sunday, February 05, 2012|
drive.
an alien word.
but can i be blamed for the lack of it? 没心了.
12:14 am
|Tuesday, January 03, 2012|
http://rebelicious-shots.tumblr.com/post/15200734106/random
i get it now. i'm jealous of all these characters in the movie(s). happy endings. if they don't quite happen for you in reality, at least they happen in fiction? quite sad/depressing huh.
5:23 am
|Monday, December 19, 2011|
sucks. why am i missing you again. since ytd. get out of my dreams & mind :/
12:02 am
|Tuesday, December 13, 2011|
little reflections of the journey as it comes to a close.
i learnt that i am alone in ms. that i'll never have someone who will jio me to build a snowman tgt. well simply because everyone else has someone else in the course. i'll always be the one they jio along because well... the more the merrier! but it wun matter w/o him as well (or well, it isn't nice not to include him) in any case, to defend them, it's never easy trying to figure out what are the times people want company & what are the times people are happy to be alone, esp if the subject is yours truly. & at some point in life, i have probably make people feel they are an option rather than a priority. remaining 5 days in oslo, no plans w anyone, nv more alone.
i also learnt that it's so freaking hard to make someone show the slightest indication that they are just that teeny bit interested in your life. even though i have made efforts to update my blogs, facebook w new photos and made guest appearances on msn. even acquaintances have shown they see what is happening. have you? oh well, they prob wun even see this too huh? & thanks to others w your comments, likes & msn that my fb news feed or msn poping hasn't been overlooked. & more thanks to others (THANKS ZHANG JINYAN!) who show that they are willing to deviate from their preferences (towards mine) just to see how ya doing! apologetically, virtual is the only medium i have to try to enter into your lives & i do make full use of them. i check all my friends' blogs i have at least once every 2 days & click on friend's profile once in a while to see what they have been up to.
1:27 am
|Tuesday, November 22, 2011|
他们昨晚问我有没有想念你. 心想的和嘴说的是相反的.
有. 我其实很怀念和你和她相处的时光. 但一切再也不一样了不是吗?
10:17 am
http://rebelicious-shots.tumblr.com/post/13144741788/21-11-2011-late-for-the-day-but-this-is-taken
friend's bdae celebration. mixed feelings i wld say. they are the ones i once felt close to. to the extent i wanted to reveal this to them. but as i hear the conversations in today's dinner, how things have changed. the awkwardness that came w friends once so close. i felt it deeply again. even though at the beginning i see some possibility of salvaging. hahhaha i don't know how it ended up like this. i want to ask but i have no courage. prob afraid that they don't feel there was a problem. prob afraid of that awkwardness that comes w asking :(
5:13 am
