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Note of the day
"Live like a bird; Fly high, keep moving forward, but always look down."
Mar 27, 2011
@ 10:28:00 PM
My dad just randomly told me about his plan for the next year. He said that he wanna buy/rent a house at johor and we'll stay there. So, my house in sg will be rent to some family whom I dont know. Well...... I hope he's not serious about it. Cos if he is, I'll be damn sad. I was already sad for having a lonely time of my life just now and he told me about that news with a smile on his face. Whatttttt? And I wouldn't want to leave my friends and my kitty cat alone in sg. It's difficult to meet them nowadays. I wonder how it would be later? Pray hard for the best.Mar 1, 2011
@ 2:27:00 PM
I cried during my prayers last night. I wanted to change but I keep coming back. I couldn't take this anymore :( Saying that I wanna change is difficult. It's not easy. All the bad things that you used to do, is like a habit, keeps pulling you back. Yesterday, it was like a huge slap to my face. It will take a long time for me to be a good muslimah if I can't even get away from all the sins. My apologies to you dear Allah. :( I know I've been promising you to change. But i've been slow. I'm very sincere on moving on and changing. Please give me inner strength and protect me from evil. Please :( Feb 14, 2011
@ 6:55:00 PM
I am feeling dark and looking dark right now. Literally. Sentosa flower has been killing me. The sun was hot hot heat for day after day. I'm totally burnt. In fact, my DAD told me right in the face that I'm very dark now. I don't know why, out of all the places that I can get burnt, my nose is the only one that is black. Freaking black and not reddish. Hahahahaha funny. But whyyyyy my nose? :( Hasri love my nose. And it's black now. Hahaha, its okay. I'm keeping my high hopes that my skin colour will be back to normal soon. No need to worry to much right? Anyways, talking about sentosa flowers, it made those memories about my first job, my first true love came floating in my head. Everything that led me to what I am now ;) *smiles* kay, enough. Now, the disadvantage: The pay is not that good and i'm putting all my hardwork and sweat onto it. It's really tiring. I mean, i had no choice. I wanted to work badly cos I needed money for upcoming "events". Furthermore, I've been applying for jobs and they haven't reply me yet. Hmm, I think they didn't want me. Well, all of it. Damn you. So, i'll just join back with my old job(dg) - just to kill time. Apologies to my skin, nose, leg and feet for being the victim. :)
SF is over now. I'm thinking whether I should continue just for the 1month holiday. H told me not to cos the pay is low. Well, I know. But if i don't work. I'm gonna spend another holiday without money and another round of lazing around. No, that won't happen again. I know I should look for other jobs. But, i'm trying. So, let's just wait.
So if you're wondering what i've been doing since SF is over. Well........ I'm back to hardcore studying for exams!!! My last exam before my final year. MUST DO WELL. Must maintain my GPA!
Okay, Till then. :)
My current life progress so far: I'm doing great. Still loving food. Still kicking and rolling.
Jan 26, 2011
@ 10:07:00 PM
I'm always having this kind of feeling. But I know that, maybe it's just not totally me. But I know that, I need it. I know that I need this to feel good & chin up all the time. But in the back of my mind I've learnt to "look down but keep moving forward".
Jan 15, 2011
@ 11:05:00 PM
The feeling is like a tall kid looking down on a small kid. Hate this part right here.