bleah.

目前心情：伤心难过，沉闷

英文翻译：EMO!??!

真的很讨厌这种心情啊。。。。

Secret to being HAPPY:

JUST BE MYSELF.

Very bored at work, so.. Here it goes!

I always feel a little soft in the heart whenever i see old ladies cleaning our offices. Sad! They should be resting at home at this age! But maybe they enjoy doing something useful which also gives them a little side income? It makes them feel that they're helpful. I feel quite happy and touched too whenever i see my very own cute grandfather working very hard and being so serious when he is working on uncle's projects. My grandfather is very capable. I love my grandpa. And of course my grandma too! =)

Last week i went out for dinner with fz. He said something which unknowingly made me feel quite sad. But i didn't want to show it so i simply said 'uh'. We were talking about my family and he said why my family doesn't sound close. I was more affected than i realised. =( Does it really seem that way to you? I thought to myself is it true? I never thought so b4.. But then, even tho it may appear that way to you, i really don't think anyone can understand the feelings we all are feeling except ourselves. I love my family and i always care about them. Tho we may not appear close but how will you know what is going through our hearts? I don't think you can judge from appearances.. But anyhow, it is okay because you probably didn't understand.. so i wouldn't blame you. Just that you're my very close friend and i just felt quite sad that you thought so.

Okay okay nvm about that. Work is extended for about a MONTH! Supposed to end by March, but now seems like it will extend into April! My boss doesn't want to let me go! Whaa.. am i too lovable? LOL. I think i just seem to be a very helpful and kind OL. Whatever pple tell me to do, i will do. Never shoot back. That's why i end up being the office girl. Youngest here and also the least harmful! 'Photocopy this', 'shred that', 'scan this', wahhh! Super OL. Hai. But somehow, i realise that my colleagues like to ask me for help or share their problems with me, and i'll feel quite glad that they trust me enough. Or then again, maybe because i don't bite back. Maybe i should one day.. if i am bullied! There's this girl in the office who seems to like to act 'professional' and 'cool'.. when she talks to me.. kinda scary, tho she's the same rank as me! =S i was telling my dear kelly about it on the phone yesterday, when i realised much later that her line got cut off and i was talking to myself for about 2 minutes!!! WAHAHA. JOKE!! I was like, 'Hello??' then my phone rang! TSK. KEL!

LOL. Okay back to work now. OH YES! Kelly's dearest baby is called Jake Black Chung Wei-Qi!! Weiqi is my fave name for a son! Haha see kel how much i love you. Next time must help me think of a beautiful name for my son/daughter! How's 'Yu-En'? ^^

Past weeks 点点滴滴！

Updates:

14 Feb ~ CNY 2010

Went to visit father's side relatives this year.
Didn't do so for the last 2 years i think.
It was quite nice actually, family feeling is always good, tho we're not all that close.
Finally learnt how all of them are related to me.
Hongbao money has increased this year from the last. ;)

18 Feb ~ Mum bday

Mum's bday is actually on the 19 Feb.
But due to my JC class gathering on 19th, we celebrated on the 18th.
Just for my JC class gathering!
I was so glad i went. Missed them all terribly.
Lol.
I forgot how crappy they all can get.
Cracked me up.
Gambling took place. Rather, 'simple card games' :)
I've learnt how to play Blackjack, and Big-Small.
Mastered the official Mahjong rules!

23 Feb ~ Jake Black is out

Jake Black greeted us this day.
Our dearest Kelly and Black's baby boy!
Cutie baby. I carried him and i felt LOVE. =)
I am an Yi-Ma now!

1 Mar ~ Auto Driving

I have switched to auto driving!
I've asked myself countlessly, why didnt i learn this from the start??
Feels so much easier... Ahh...

6 & 7 Mar ~ Church Weekend

Had conference this past weekend. Was good. I actually wrote quite a bit of notes.
And i saw so many babies in church.
Adorable!
And i can't deny, it always feels so nice seeing him around.
Even nicer when he comes up to talk to me.
Please don't let this get out of hand?
I still have to focus on going on my mission. And so do u! :)

You Belong With Me

Walking the streets with you and your worn-out jeans,
I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be,
Laughing on the park bench, thinking to myself,
Hey, isn't this easy?

You've got a smile that could light up this whole town,
I haven't seen it in awhile since she brought you down.
You say you're fine, I know you better than that.
Hey what're you doing with a girl like that?

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you,
Been here all along, so why can't you see me?
You belong with me.

Standing by and waiting at your back door,
All this time how could you not know,
Baby, you belong with me.

Have you ever thought just maybe, you belong with me?

Keep going..

大伯, please rest in peace. We are all here for you.

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When you have made up your mind on a certain decision, you will find that there will be many obstacles thrown in your way, specially aiming to push you off course.

This is a test isn't it? Of my perseverance and my faith. Let's see how much more I can take.

Don't give up. That's what the adversary is trying to make me do.

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Unspoken Words

人与人之间有多难沟通？为什么有时候我总会觉得这是一件非常困难的事呢？

我不知要和你说些什么。不说也不好，说了还更烦。我是不是患上了前后矛盾的一种病态？？

我的结论：还是不说比较好。

我体会到了开不了口的滋味。味道酸酸的，很不好受哦！