578 posts, goodbye mvpmin.


now at cherche.wordpress.com


sorry i havent been updating much, or in proper entries. see you guys at the new one.

i'll miss the mvp.



i wonder how people do it.. how people stay in love, and faithful for so long....

i don't understand. maybe i never will.

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes..

.And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life, I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late.



what a difference a week can make, what a difference two weeks can make, what a difference a month can make...

i've more or less come to terms with it already, finding my own way out of this mess. many things still make me sad, but i guess, in the near future, i'll figure out a solution... hopefully. well. being sad over it isnt gonna make things better.

that pain in my heart is still quietly but steadily pounding away, but somehow in the past month, i think i've grown and changed alot.

for better or for worse, i guess i'll find out soon enough.



you disgust me.



sigh. words and blogs are dangerous things.

just, don't take anything you read at face value please. you really dont know what you're misunderstanding.

i didnt mean what you think.

sigh....



haven't really been blogging lately. i remember when i used to pour out everything on this webby. then, somewhere along the way, life became too complicated. too complicated to put in words, too complicated for the wrong people to read, too complicated for words to not be misconstrued.



i thought of you today.
actually, i thought of you when i was in tioman.
i thought of you when i was on that rocking boat with my head hanging over the side, puking out my dinner.
i thought of you when the power went out.
i thought of you when the gear was too heavy.
i thought of you when the water was too cold.

basically, i thought of you everytime something went wrong.

i could just imagine all the things you would do if you were by my side. you were always taking care of me, my every littlest want need fancy and whim, you were there to magically materialize it.

well. these thoughts dont actually lead anywhere. i guess, for a while, i was just missing you.

i feel so tired and emotionally exhausted. doesnt help that the people around me are goin thru shiet too.

hanging out with different people has only shown me more than ever before how extremely weak people can be. weak, too weak to resist temptation.

welllllllllll.
ashes to ashes, dust to dust.