Well im still over here above water some how some way. Dont ask me how... bc I dont even knoww.
Its pretty pathetic actually. I have people asking me if I still even go to Lewis & Clark. How do you say I have just been shitty which forces me to be anti-social without expecting questions? You cant. So I laugh it off and get through that part of the conversation as fast as possible.
The stress load has lightened a bit but school still sucks. I just want these As and be DONE. Damnit.
I talked to my mom today. UGH. idk. Idk why I let her get to me so much. Cameron was like let it go let it go.. BUT I CANT. Its just like WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO LET ME GROW UP AND YOU BE OKAY WITH IT. You would think im 19 going on 9. Shit.
I think the only thing that has been keeping me sane is Cameron & knowing that Ill be seeing him in five days. Things are good.
