Lions, Tigers & Bears- Jazzmin Sullivan

well im STILL not getting sleep
woke up at 3am ready to have a damn party!

so instead Erica and I waited for mom at 5 to wake up and went on a power walk
man that woman can GOOOO.

im having a nice time though. Its really nice to just get away from everything. well... not everything.

Remember how I was talking about time yesterday? well this time its helped me develop my thoughts.
I dont think I have ever felt so strongly about anyone or anything.
It actually scares me
because even though this feels so right Theres always that small thought
Tomorrow isn't even certain so how can anything else be.

I had a long talk with Kemi the other day. She really helped me realize that there is nothing objective about Love, and while everyone will always feel like they know the right answer and when notice they come up with the "answer" so easily. Things become so much more complex when one is actually on the other side. Emotions switch the whole game. So while their on the sideline hollerin like they dont have any sense your the one that has to make the best move so your ass isnt the one who ends up with the concussion.
So instead of looking towards others for answers, I can only turn towards myself and talk it through with loved ones

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"life happens"

Well I just got into shanghai last night with erica
mann
to say it was long would be more than an understatement.

its crazy to think how much has changed since I was last here
Not in shangha, but with the different things that have happened in my own life.
I knew that I would grow in my first year of college but i didnt think it was going to be like this.

Time is such a funny thing to me.
Its something i dread
that exites me
saddens me
makes me anxious
and sometimes all at the same time.

LIfe seems so short when you already think you know who is going to be in you life.

its very possible that when i go back and read this another day i will bet on the fact that i was on crack when i wrote this just because my toughts are EVERYWHERE but honestly thats my mind/life right now.

well i just sat down to write this huge blog but i just changed my mind
i think ill shower and hit the town
till tom

xoxox