That Three Letter Word

Can someone PLEASE tell me what Love is?

JUST so I can put it in my notes.

I mean the concrete definition, 

a definition were I can correct someone when they say they are in love.

a definition were I can say Megan, this is it.

a definition were i can say fool. you dont really mean that... 

I know, I know. 

"you just know"

Well, that answer just isn't good enough for me anymore.

I say it all the time & I hear it all the time. 

I cant tell you how many times I have initiated or responded. 

it must be countless times a day.

my mom 

my grandfather 

my cousins

my best friends

but what about when he says it?

The feeling when I first heard those words form his mouth is unexplainable. 

My heart stopped and it was like i was afraid to breathe 

it makes me a bit jealous actually, 

the fact that you can identify it 

and know like you know like you know...

The Summers Must See

There is ABSOLOUTLY no way that anyone can go through the summer and NOT see this movie. 

It was a BIT slow in the beginning but that did  not last long at all.

I know that it is just a movie but seriously, it made me think about alot. 

people say it all the time.

 Be happy that you are healthy, thank God that you have your family. I agree and I say, "yeah, thats  true." But I didn't  honestly stop and think about it until it was put in front of me like this. 

I think about all the things that I worry about and all of the petty arguments that I have.

 AND FOR WHAT? 

The things that i worry about now i know will be forgotten in year. 

Ill be honest. its not that i neccesarily care what OTHERS think but i do care what my loved ones think. I know  that they have my best interest so they will give me the and tell me what is right. Instead of following my heart I listen to them. 

we are all trying to get through life just as much as the next person so how is that the one knows the RIGHT thing to d0. 

I love my family and friends deeply but i think i need to learn to say I appreciate everything that you have told me but there is something that says that i need to do this one and feel the repercussions of it on my own. 

the unexpected

 wow...

Honestly that all i can say at this point. 

I never thought that eight days could every feel like a three week weeks. 

I learned a lot about myself and people in general  

im learning the meaning of forgiveness but i must say its a struggle

things wont be exactly the same for a while...

i understand that time is a healer but this scar is deep

This lesson is learned by everyone

it was just my turn 

keeping my head up and looking forward  

A New Title... The Girlfriend

man o man o mannn 

could i be any more of an idiot???

telll mee whyyyyy 

my car got towed??

fml

i just totally fogot to move it 

but that excuse wasnt good enough for dad

which meansss no car for ten daysss

damn. 

it hasnt been all bad though still got company 

cam came a couple times to go bowling and then yesterday was dennys 

i could get to this whole mandatory company business 

shoulda got a boyfriend way long time ago =) 

mom comes soon =) 

then the masqerade ball 

im super exited to see what my gown looks like 

i love getting dressed up 

man one step closer to getting a job 

mannn i hope i get the alta job

supposed to hear a call from them soon so well see what happens 

fingers crossed

but all in all? 

im good. 

really good