I must say I had a really good weekend. Friday, I left it for myself and had some "me" time and last night was Divas and Hustlers night. I love dressing up =). Two lessons were learned last night. THINK carefully when crossing someone off of the potential list and NEVER mess with my friends, because you will permanently be crossed off of my potential list.
Mom and John told me that they were just about to get me India Arie tickets for my birthday but im not going to be in LA =/ she is my absolute favorite which is why I have her playing all day everyday. When I played this song this morning it put me in a better mood and shed some light on the things that I should be doing in my life right now.
All this energy that im putting forth towards him is useless, because at the end of the day im the only one left drained. Its not fair to me and the people who care about me and that truly deserve my attention. Im just aiding to this vicious cycle and its time to break it. I feel like I often have these days. I go through these days were I constantly want questions answered and I care so much, and then ,I wake up and I tell myself, im moving on because this is dumb. I think this makes it that much worse, because I know the decisions I need to make and the absurd emotions im putting myself through, but im not putting a stop to it. I talk about "dumb girls" all the time and im not gonna lie, I was pretty close to having that title myself. Im not saying that im a whole new person today but I can say im gonna get it together.
