- Perubahan -

Sudah hampir sebulan mama meninggalkan kami semua..
Tapi memori masih lagi terpahat..
Sebenarnya, berlaku terlalu banyak perkara yang penuh dengan hikmah sejak itu..
Alhamdulillah..

Syukur pada Allah Taala..
Antara yang paling besar berlaku..
Solat jemaah berkeluarga..
Sebelum ni, kami tak buat solat secara berjemaah sekeluarga..
Biasanya, saya solat bersama adik lelaki di dalam bilik..
Umi dan abah solat bersama di bilik mereka..
Sejak hari pertama mama meninggalkan kami...
Kami sekeluarga solat maghrib secara berjemaah di ruang tamu rumah..
Dan masih berterusan hingga sekarang..
Syukur pada Allah Taala..
Biasanya ayah suruh saya yang menjadi imam..
Lain rasanya menjadi iman kepada keluarga sendiri..
Bila doa, mereka mengaminkan..
Indah bukan..
Apa salahnya untuk menjadi imam kepada keluarga..
Kita ni selalunya bersembang bagai nak rak..
kita tahu itu dan ini..
kita hebat bab itu dan ini..

Kitalah kononnya hero..
Bercinta bagai dunia dia yang punya..
Mahu menjadi pemimpin hatinya..
Tetapi tidak mampu untuk menjadi imam kepada ahli keluarga sendiri..
Amat malang dan rugilah kita..
Seperti memperbodohkan diri sendiri..
Sedarlah, kerana kita tak punyai apa-apa..

Tiap malam selepas solat maghrib, kami akan baca Al-Quran beramai-ramai..
Saya kadang kala membaca surah Yasin, kadang kala menyambung bacaan surah-surah lain..

Selepas itu, baru bersurai..
Dan buat kerja masing-masing..
Saya, macam biasa ambil masa mengadap komputer..
Buat apa yang patut sementara menunggu sesuatu..
Sama ada keluar dengan kawan..
Ataupun tunggu waktu Isya'..
Biasanya, saya keluar dengan kawan..
Seharian di rumah..
Saya juga memerlukan waktu untuk berehat sambil bersembang dengan rakan..
Tentang semua hal..
Mengambil udara segar sambil menghirup secawan teh..
Memang mengasyikkan..
Kadang kala, paksa diri untuk menunggu waktu Isya'..
Bila azan, cepat-cepat bersiap..
Ajak adik lelaki ikut sekali ke masjid..
Yang berdekatan dengan rumah..
Perjalanan hanya 3 minit dari rumah..
Masjid yang berada dalam kawasan Maahad Tahfiz..
Dan pelajar di situ akan menjadi imam..
Ada yang dah dewasa..

Dan ada juga yang masih kecil lagi..
Dalm lingkungan 8-10 tahun..
Berserban, berjubah..
Rasa lain bila menjejakkan kaki ke masjid tu..
Solat bersama orang yang suci wajahnya..
Yang indah pekertinya..
Yang menghafaz Al--Quran..
Terasa diri ni terlalu kerdil berbanding mereka..
Bersih sungguh wajah mereka..
Suara yang lunak melafazkan kalimah suci..
Jauh sekali untuk kita gapai..
Mungkin tempat sebegitulah baik untuk kita muhasabah diri..
Menilai di mana sebenarnya kita..
Kadang kala terlalu berbangga dengan apa yang kita ada..

Bukan bertujuan untuk berbangga..
Apa lagi riak..
Cuma sekadar berkongsi bersama bersama orang di sekeliling..

Terutama yang sudi membaca blog yang tak seberapa ni..
Mungkin boleh memberi inspirasi pada orang lain untuk mencari permulaan..
Ajaklah ahli keluarga untuk solat bersama..
Mungkin bukan dengan ibu bapa, cukuplah permulaan dengan adik beradik..
Tidak kira lelaki atau perempuan..
Better late than never..
Dapat juga merapatkan hubungan kekeluargaan..
Di bawah redha Allah Taala..
Sama-sama mengaminkan doa..
Doa kepada ibu bapa..
Kan manis dan indah saat sebegitu..
Bila lagi mahu berkongsi sejadah bersama kalau bukan sekarang..
Ingat..
Kita bukan manusia yang sempurna..
Jadi apa salahnya ringankan tubuh badan untuk melakukan ibadat..
Bukan susah, kalau hati ada iman..
Bukan berat, kalau tersimpul dengan takwa..

Dalam hal ibadat, kena ingat bahawa kita mengadap Allah Taala..
Jangan sesekali ada timbul untuk berbangga dengan amal ibadat kita yang seciput tu..
Itu pun belom tentu Allah Taala redha..
Ikhlaskan niat sebaik mungkin..
Biar kita buat sesuatu, untuk mendapat redha Allah Taala..

Coretan ikhlas..
Sekadar untuk menegur diri sendiri yang sering lupa..
Renungkanlah..
Diri kita yang sentiasa lupa..
Moga kita sentiasa diredhaiNya..
Insya Allah..

Let's fly, high to the sky..
(",)

- Low Pass -

I'm not remember what is the date, the date and all the detail of my flight today..

But what I know..
I'm mutual this guy..
His callsign is APAC 2457..
Anas from batch 24..
He's a very nice abd good guy..

Actually I'm not plan to mutual him..
I mean in "diary" today, he is not in the list..
Yah..
You know, I'm mutual guy..
I think all the cadet pilot know, operation staff also..
I'm the mutual guy..
Always available for anyone to ask me to mutual them..
I love flying so much..
I always stay at operation room..

Sometimes doing something, sometimes doing nothing..
Depends..
Waiting for someone asking me to mutual..
Sometimes waiting for the cadet's sortie who ask me to mutual them..
Then suddenly I know Anas got sortie navigation..
And no one mutual him..
So I volunteer myself to him..
And he really appreciate it..
Nice rite when someone happy to fly with you..
Alhamdulillah..

He ask me to teach him..
But I'm not good enough to teach anyone..
Just can advice something that I know..
The rest, ask instructor..
Definitely the know better..

Ok..
Check the aircraft..
Jump in..
Start and ready for departure..
The routing to Terengganu..
And to Kerteh..
Yes..
The best place ever..

ME: Anas, confirm kita ke Kerteh (WMKE)..
ANAS: Affirm.. Aku nak try pegi sana..
ME: Ok.. Good then.. Aku tunjuk kau sesuatu.. Kita track final for runway 16 for missed approach.. Kat Terengganu aku tunjuk kau VOR Yankee.. Kau pernah buat??
ANAS: Tak pernah.. Ok jugak.. Kau tunjuk aku nanti ok..
ME: Bereh boh..

Then we continue NAVEX..
Fly cross Terengganu airfield (WMKN)..
Then proceed to our furthest reporting point, Kerteh..
Normally at Kerteh, I like to do a missed approach..
Because we are prohibited to do touch n go there..
Its a policy of our academy..
So we follow the rules..
Even I have done one touch n go long time ago, when I still in single engine flying..
Shhh..
Dont say to anybody..
hehe..
Ok..

We report overhead Marang..

Then I say to Anas to request to track final..
Anas ask me to do that..
He never done it..
So I make the Radio Call..

ME: Kerteh Tower, APAC 2457..
TOWER: APAC 2457, Kerteh Tower, go ahead..
ME: APAC 2457, from present position request to track long final runway 16 for missed approach, there continue our NAVEX as per flight plan, 5000 ft..
TOWER: APAC 2457, approve to track long final runway 16 and call again establish..
ME: Approve to track long final runway 16 and call again establish, APAC 2457..

And then we proceed with our plan..
We try to find the airfield..
Its a bit hard to find Kerteh airfield..
Because the location near the high hills..
So we have to struggle to find it..
Then using VOR Kerteh, VKE..

TOWER: APAC 2457, Kerteh Tower..
ME: Kerteh Tower, APAC 2467, go ahead sir..
TOWER: APAC 2457, confirm your intention for low pass..
ME: (stunt for a while) Affirm sir.. Intention for low pass.. APAC 2457..
TOWER: APAC 2467, copied..

TOWER: APAC 2457, confirm visual with the airfiled..
ME: Affirm sir.. We are visual with the airfield.. Tracking for final, currently 12NM..
TOWER: APAC 2457, have you insight.. You are clear to commenced low pass, right turn and climb 5000ft..
ME: Roger.. Clear to commenced low pass, right turn and climb 5000ft, APAC 2457..

ANAS: Faiq, aku tak pernah buat..Kau buatlah.. You have control..
ME: Ok.. Actually aku pon tak pernah buat low pass.. Aku try jela ye.. I have control..

I take the control of the aircraft..
Fly that machine from the left handseat..
I do the procedure..
Proceed everything..
Configure the aircraft to go around mode..
Continue descend..
Until at the threshold, around 150 ft..
Continue descend on the runway around 100 ft..

And below..
I concentrate to see outside..
With full power..
At the end of the runway..
I configure the aircraft to climb position and commence steep turn to the right..
And then I realise..
There is a hill at the right side of the runway..
We can make it..
I assume..

ME: Anas, bukitlah.. Boleh lepas..
ANAS: Yela, ade bukit.. Lepas kot..
ME: Boleh.. Insya Allah.. Takdelah tinggi sangat pon..

Gulp..
I start sweating..
I know, the aircraft was so power full..
No problem to pass the hill..
But sometimes I have doubt with it..
Haish..
Then, the most important thing, be cool..
Dont be gelabah..
Then, your mate will gelabah also..
Continue climb..
With take off flap..
And then I realise the is high intensity electric cable on the hill..

ME: Eh Anas, ade kabel elektriklah..
ANAS: Yela.. Lepas punyalah..

I look to him..
He is so damn cool..
So confident..
And then I feel the same after look at him..
The ATC also keep quiet..
Maybe he wait for us to pass the hill..
I think he know we struggle for it..
Then..

TOWER: APAC 2457, nice flying sir..
ME: Roger, thank you sir.. And we climbing to 5000 ft, call again Dungun at time ___..
TOWER: APAC 2457, copied..

Wah..
For the first time in my life..

The ATC appreciate what I'm doing..
I mean in RT..

I feel so proud..
So happy and everything mix..
Alhamdulillah..
Thanks you ATC Kerteh..
So pleasure..
Abd then Anas take control, we proceed to Terengganu..
Do the VOR Yankee..
Then back to Kota Bharu..
All the way to Kota Bharu..
We talk about what we have done at Kerteh..
I know..
For the others..
It is normal thing..
But for me..
It is something..
I appreciate it, appreciate the moment, appreciate flying..

Then we landed safely at kota Bharu..
In a split second, the story that what we have done at Kerteh separate among the cadet..
And then I heard a lot of them wanna try it..
I say, go ahead..
As long as you know what you are doing..
Be safe..
Insya Allah..
New experience for me..
Lets try another time..

Lets fly, high to the sky..
(",)

- No picture was take during this flight.. I just put the picture, randomly from my gallery -

- All weather pilot -

Some of us..
Already immune to this thing..

I mean this word..
In aviation, we call this word "kata keramat"..
For those who are so tough in flying in weather..
We call them 'all weather pilot'..
Means they are so brave and dare to fly in weather that make you think more than twice to start your aircraft..
Awesome right..
I have my own experience, fly in bad weather..
On navigation..
Alone..
Quite scary that time.
But it is a unforgettable memory..
I smile when I think about it..
What a nice experience..

Long time ago..
But I want to post it here..
To share my experience with the others..
And for knowledge to the other cadet pilot who will request start for NAVEX..

Date: 7 November 2010

Exercise: Navigation 15

Aircraft Registration: 9M-NRG

Routing: To Terengganu

Today was my unlucky day..
Because I will fly alone..
Normally all of us will bring a mutual pilot (partner) on their navigation exercise..
Because the flight time more than 2 hours..
Its quite boring to fly alone..
No one to talk..
No one to have control for a while when you want to do something else..
Sometimes you feel tired, you can ask your co-pilot to take the control..
You can have a rest for a while..
Nice right..
But you have to do yourself..
Everything..
Because you are alone..

In November and especially December, the weather at Kota Bharu quite bad..
Monsoon season..
Raining all the day..
For Navigation, worse..
En route, cloudy..
Hard to see the ground..
Early in the morning, I have to standby because the weather still not improving..
Hazy..
The ATC only allowed instructor to airborne first..
Then they will advice..
Me and my batchmate, Faizal (APAC 2152) standby for clearance from the instructor..
The weather still not suitable for Navigation solo..
In the meantime, we take a picture at the aircraft..
Fill the plenty of time..
Faizal fly have his mutual partner, Philbert (APAC 2156)..
Our route is about the same..
So we plan to depart together..
Then the operation room advise us..
The weather is suitable for solo..
Then all of us run and jump to the aircraft..
We want to have the clearance first..
Who start first, got the opportunity to call early..
We go through the checklist..
Even we rushing to beat the others, safety is always the first priority..
Never ever disregard the checklist..
Read by sequence..
One by one..
And then proceed with the others..

ME: Kota Bharu Ground, Apac 2161, Assalamualaikum..
ATC: Apac 2161, Kota Bharu Ground, Waalaikumussalam go ahead..
ME: Apac 2161, request startup for NAVEX as per flight plan, POB 1, endurance 5 hours, in 9M-NRG, copied information ___ of QNH ___
ATC: Apac 2161, start approve, time check ___
ME: Start approve, Apac 2161..

Continue with my checks..
Key in the flight plan..
And at the same time I can hear the others doing their RT..
Finish everything..
Ready for clearance..

ME: Ground, Apac 2161, request ATC..
ATC: Apac 2161, ATC clear to leave Kota Bhatu control zone to Terengganu as per flight plan, 6000ft, squawk 5400..
ME: Clear to leave Kota Bharu control zone to Terengganu as per flight plan, 6000 ft, squawk 5400, Apac 2161 and ready for taxi..
ATC: Apac 2161, taxi to holding point Charlie, contact tower..
ME: Taxi t holding point Charlie, contact tower, APAC 2161..

I'm clear for taxi..
Increase the power..
Aircraft start to move..
Tap the break to test it..
In good condition..
Do the instrument check..
All working..
Continue taxi..
At Charlie, switching to Tower, 122.50..

ME: Kota Bharu Tower, Apac 2161, Assalamualaikum at holding point Charlie..
ATC: Apac 2161, line up runway 10 number 2 for departure..
ME: Line up runway 10, number 2 for departure..

Ok..
I wondering who behind me..
Because I heard no one request taxi while I taxi just now..
Maybe I that time I already on Tower frequency..
And then I heard Apac 2152..
He's the one who behind me..
I taxi first, but he depart first..
Aiseh..
Buang karan betol..
hehe..
But that is normal..
Sometimes number 3 or 4 for departure..
Worse right..
Waiting for the aircraft in front of you depart first..
And plus when the PIC taxi the aircraft "slow and steady"..
I think we can finish one bungkus of nasik lemak before he line up..

Ok..
Back to our story..
He depart first..
And then me..
The height given by the ATC is the same..
He at 4000 ft, me also at 4000 ft..
We just follow the instruction..
They know what they are doing..
The weather is marginal..
Can see the ground..
But a bit cloudy..
And GPS as the secondary reference..
Continue our NAVEX..
And switching to Terengganu Approach frequency..
The ATC KB transfer us to ATC Terengganu..
Apac 2152 the first one, I'm the second..

ME: Terengganu Approach, Apac 2161, Assalamualaikum..
ATC TRG: Apac 2161, Terengganu Approach, Waalaikumussalam, go ahead..
ME: Apac 2161,release by KB Tower, overhead _____ at time___, estimate_____ at time ___, 4000ft, POB 1, endurance remaining of 4:30 in 9M-NRG, squawking 5400..
ATC TRG: Apac 2161, copied and clear to enter Terengganu control zone, maintain 4000ft, runway 04, QNH ___, report again _____..
ME: clear to enter Terengganu control zone, runway 04, QNH ___, report again _____, and request climb 6000 ft..
ATC: Apac 2161, approve and climb 6000 ft..
ME: Climb 6000 ft, Apac 2161..

I heard Apac 2152 request 6500 ft..
So I would like to climb..
And 500 ft separation with him..
We continue our NAVEX..
And I keep in touch with him, via company frequency..
Talking with him, about the weather..
It getting worse..
He know I'm alone..
So he want to keep in contact with me..
And plus, it start to rain..

Enroute back to Kota Bharu..
Cloud was so thick..
Hard for me to see the ground..
And I relay on GPS..
My position not so far form Apac 2152..
About 2 min separation..
Then we have been transfer to KB Tower..

At that time..
They ask me and Apac 2152 hold overhead Pulau Perhentian..
I'm below him..
Hard for me to see the island..
I relay on GPS..
And ATC ask me to descend overhead Pulau Perhentian..
While continue holding, I heard MAS commence go around at the airfield..
I wondering..
Why the aircraft go around??
Maybe because of the weather at the aerodrome..
Heavy rain maybe..
Thats why the ATC hold me here..
Wait for the weather to clear..
And plus runway 28 in use..
Without ILS.
Then the aircraft manage to land using ILS runway 10..
Then..
My time..
ATC clear me and Apac 2152 to continue our NAVEX..
And I'm the first one..
Because I low than him..
Easy for them to control and to give clearance..
I report myself at Bachok..
I have been clear to KB town at 1500 ft..
During that time, Apac 35 with Eagle was holding at KB Town, 2000 ft..
They want the student to land first, instead of instructor..
I join lefthand downwind runway 28..
On final..

ME: Apac 2161, turning final to land, runway 28..
ATC: Apac 2161, surface wind 300 degrees 10 kts, clear to land..
ME; Copied, clear to land Apac 2161..

The wind is quite strong..
But headwind..
So, I think no problem for me to use the flap..
Apac 2152 was the second and Apac 35 number three for approach..
Confirm to land, I put flap landing..
Near to touchdown, round out and flare..
I thought my landing gonna be ok..
But I'm wrong..
My aircraft balloon..
And touch the runway hard..
And start to bounce..
Bounce..
And continue bounce..
It getting harder and harder..
I stunt for a while..
Then I decide to go around..
I advance the power to full..
And continue climb..
I'm sweating..
"Habis lah aku kali ni", I whispering..
Apac 2152 and Apac 35 manage to land..
Ok..
Second chance..
While doing the go around, I glance at the hangar..
They are a lot of cadet waiting for us..
They watch us..
And of course they become the audience of my bouncing landing just now..
Alamak, kantoi..
Malu la plak..
But its ok..
Dont care about that..
My focus now is to land the aircraft..
I continue approach..
On final..

ME: Apac 2161,turning final to land, runway 28..
ATC: Apac 2161, surface wind 300 degrees 08 kts, clear to land..
ME: Copied, clear to land, Apac 2161..

The windspeed lower than before..
And I decide to use flapless this time..
And..
I land safely..
Alhamdulillah..
Continue taxi to hangar..
After shutdown the aircraft..
I went to OPS room..

They talk about us..
And they said they become "cuak" when I commence go around..
I smile..
Because not only them, me also become "cuak" just now..
And they wait for us..
Because they said at the aerodrome was raining..
Heavy raining..
So we become the hero on that day..
Hero of the weather.
And some of them call us, all weather pilot..
I just smile..
And I will not flt again in that kind of weather on future..
Never ever, alone..
With mutual partner, maybe..
Alhamdulillah..
Amazing experience..
And safe to tell the story..
Insya Allah..
See you again next time..

Lets fly, high to the sky..
(",)

- Waiting for the clearance -

- Philbert, Apac 2156 -

- Faizal, Apac 2152 -

- Apac 2152 insight -

- Cloudy -

- Can't see the ground -

- Airfield insight -

- Memahat Kebaikan -

Pernah tak kita terfikir..
Dalam perbualan dan percakapan kita seharian,adakah ia ada kebaikan di dalamnya..
Adakah perkataan kita ada secebis iman..
Adakah hanya omong kosong tanpa nilai setitis nilai kesucian..
Mengapa tidak diselitkan sedikit perkara kebaikan dalam perbualan kita seharian..
Tidak salah untuk keluar, lepak di kedai makan untuk menikmati segelas air teh dan sekeping roti canai..
Berbual, bersembang bersama rakan..
Menonton bola..
Bersorak riang meraikan gol pasukan pilihan..
Bergelak tawa..
Tidaklah salah akannya..

Cuma janganlah dibiarkan segalanya itu hanya perbuatan yang sia-sia..
Selitlah kata-kata iman,kata-kata takwa..
Walau ia hanya satu dalam seribu yang diucap..

Jika terlalu sukar, cukup setengah patah dari beribu..
Jangan kita sukarkan ucapan yang memberi manfaat..
Bukan susah..
Hanya mahu atau tidak sahaja..
Jangan sia-siakan masa yang kita ada..
Sambil hirup secawan kopi, apa salahnya berkongsi sesuatu bersama rakan..
Tidak salah mahu bergelak tawa..
Tapi pastikan batasannya..
Tak salah mahu ketawa riang, cuma batasi ia dengan akal yang waras..
Saya tahu..
Walaupun nampak ringan, tapi ia bukan senang untuk dilaksanakan..
Saya juga hadapi situasi sama..
Suatu ketika dulu..

Bila mahu membuka cerita pasti ada yang mula memekakkan telinga..
Saya tahu..
Hinggakan ada rakan yang kate, "Dia da mula da.. Da start la tu"..
Agak menyakitkan bukan..
Tetapi jangan jadikan ia satu alasan untuk kita tidak berdiri di atas kaki sendiri..
Alhamdulillah, sekarang orang di sekeliling sudah kenal siapa saya..
Manusia yang suka bercakap..
Banyak bercakap..
Itulah saya..
Perlahan-lahan mereka mula menerima cara kita..
Pasti mereka akan memasang telinga apabila kita membuka kalam bicara tentang soal kehidupan yang memang lari dari kehendak mereka yang muda remaja..

Cukuplah untuk seketika membersihkan halwa telinga dengan peringatan yang kadang kala kita sering dengar namun jauh sekali untuk mengendahkannya..
Mungkin usaha ini hanya sedikit yang amat..
Mungkin langsung tidak terkesan dalam hati manusia itu..
Tetapi ingatlah, setiap usaha yang ikhlas pasti ada ganjarannya..
Tak salah bukan..

Bersihkan hati kita yang selalu bergelumang dengan dosa..
Kita ni manusia biasa..
Tak lari dari melakukan dosa..
Kita lupa..
Kita alpa..

Dan inilah caranya untuk mengingatkan kita tentangNya..
Soal kehidupan, soal pelajaran, malahan soal cinta juga, jangan lupa ia berkait dengan agama..
Bukan kita mahu tunjuk pandai, cuma kita mahu menjadi manusia yang pandai menghargai kehidupan yang singkat ini..

Jangan mudah putus asa jika ditolak ke tepi..
Jangan gundah.
Pasti ada hikmahnya..

Kita akan rasa bahagia bila ada manusia yang menghargai..
Pasti akan ada..
Ramai manusia yang mencari kebenaran, cuma tidak menjumpai siapa orang yang mampu mengeluarkan mereka dari kebatilan..
Tak salah..
Kitalah orangnya..
Sama perbaiki diri..
Saya juga bahagia..
Dengan manusia sekeliling..
Yang berkongsi suka duka..
Riang tawa,,
Bila bercerita soal dunia, kita mendengar dengan teliti..
Saling berkongsi..
Bila bercerita soal akhirat, mereka pula memasang telinga..
Hebat bukan..

Jangan pula terlalu bangga dengan pujian yang melambung..
Cukuplah sekadar jadika ia sebagai pemangkin semangat untuk kita terus melangkah..
Menjaga kesucian diri dari ternoda..
Menjaga akhlak agar tidak leka..
Segalanya, hanya untuk kita..
Kenailah diri..
Pasti suatu hari nanti kita tidak akan menyesal..
Bila ditunjukkan Tuhan tentang kebaikan yang kita lakukan di dunia..
Moga Alah merahmati segalannya..


Lets fly, high to the sky..
(",)

- Erti Persahabatan -

Last weekend I went to KL..
For 3 days..
I went there by car..
Travel from KB to KL..
Awesome..
For along time I haven't been driving for a long trip..
Actually, I have been given a task from my mom..
She ask me to drive the car, sent my sister to KL..
That is the reason why I go there..
If I have nothing important, I will not go there..
Of course I need to spent some money if I go there..
Better for me to stay at home rather than spent it, unless I have something really important..
Because for sure I will go to meet my friend..
Fuel, tol and a lot of thing to do and need money to spent..
If I have permanent income (working) should no problem with me..
But the current situation, I'm jobless, just finish my study..
Still under FAMA "scholarship"..
You know what I mean rite..
For the others, maybe money is a small matter..
For me, it is something..
Rather than spent for something not important, better I save it and use it when I need it..
To reduce my parents load..
Atleast, I try to do something..
Maybe what I'm doing just 1% out of 100% to help my parents..
It is good enough..
I'm not a good son..
But I try to be one..
Insya Allah..
Allah knows better..

We drive out from the house at 10 am..
The journey will take about 7-8 hours..
Depends on your style of driving and the traffic..
This time, the traffic is quite heavy..
Because of school holiday..
I'm driving my sister's car, MyVi..
4 person on board..
A lot of car on the road..
So the speed a a bit slow..
Plus if there is a lorry with full load in front of you..
And we stuck Machang for almost 2 hours because of an accident..
Quite bad..
A Wira collide with Rexton..
Head to head..
We continue and stop at Raub,perform prayer and eat..
We reach my aunties house at Cheras at 8 pm..
What a long journey..
Almost 10 hours..
I suppose to be less than that..
I have a deep sleep that night..

The next day, we went out at 10 am..
I need to sent all of them..
My 2nd last sister take a bus from BTS station to Muar..
Then first younger sister to Inspens, Bangi..
And the last one, 2nd older sister to Kampung Baru..
Ok..
Finish my job..
Then , my turn..
To 'mengular' everywhere I want..
Actually bukan 'mengular' pon..
I want to meet my friend..
He's a former ATC at KB..
Now he's working at ATCC Subang..
I call him abang Nizam..
Of course because he older than me..
30++..
He's on leave today..
Cantik..
And I meet him at Seksyen 19, Shah Alam..
We have a conversation around 2 o'clock until 5 o'clock..
A lot of thing we discuss..
Tentang kehidupan, tentang flying..
I ask him a lot of thing..
I learn from him..

Until one moment he said..

Nizam: Faiq,I'm glad you call and meet me here.. Awak datang KL, mesti datang jumpa saya.. Syukur dan terima kasih..
Me: Takde apela bang.. Bagi saya macam ni jela.. Before this, saya kawan dengan abang sebab you are one of the ATC at Kota Bharu.. Means saya ade kepentingan berkawan dengan abang.. But now you are not longer ATC at Kota Bharu.. Abang dah kerja kat Subang.. That means kalau saya berkawan dengan abang kerana ada kepentingan, sekarang saya tak perlu lagi berkawan sebab abang tak bagi apa-apa kat saya macam dulu.. Tapi saya taknak jadi macam tu.. Once I be a fiend to someone, I want to be his/her friend until I die.. Bukan bermakna saya manusia baik.. Tidak sama sekali.. Saya cuma mahukan yang terbaik.. Bila saya buat macam ni, saya juga mahukan orang berkenaan juga akan memberikan hal yang sama pada saya..
Nizam: Ya.. Betul tu Faiq.. Ramai orang sekarang berkawan kerana ada kepentingan.. After they got what they want, they will forget about us..
Me: Itulah.. Sebab tula saya takde ramai kawan.. Saya tak ramai kenalan.. Tapi saya ada rakan-rakan yang terbaik.. That what I believe they will be with me anytime.. Waktu saya susah dan waktu saya senang.. Insya Allah.. When we do the best, we will get the best.. Allah Lebih Mengetahui..

Then I continue my heading to Klang..
To meet my ex-classmate..
Only 3 of them here..
Who close with me..
Akram, Izzuddin and Alif..
Akram and Izzuddin on their practical now..
And Alif on leave..
Before I meet them, I went to Masjid Negeri, Shah Alam..
The masjid was one of the place that I must go when I was in Selangor..
The scenery, the masjid also was an awesome structure..
Saya suka untuk berdiri seketika dan menikmati pandangan di dalam masjid berkenaan..
Betul-betul mendatangkan satu perasaan yang sukat untuk digambarkan..
Hati berasa amat seronok bila menjejakkan kaki di sini..
Dan kemudian melangkah kaki ke ruang utama untuk menunaikan solat..

Finish my prayer, I continue to Klang..
I meet them at Restoran Al-Bidaya, mamak stall at Taman Sri Andalas..
Nearby their house..
Then we spread during Maghrib..
My first intention is to drive back to my auntie's house..
But Akram ask me to hang out that night..
He suggest us to play bowling..
Oo..
Ok..
I never ever play bowling before..
I refuse at the beginning but they force me..
Ok..
I follow them..
For the first time, I play bowling..
We went to Ole-ole Mall, at Seksyen 18 Shah Alam..
Quite nice place..
We play 2 games..
And I'm the champion..
For the most throw the ball into the "longkang"..
We laugh..
Ok..
Try to improve on the 2nd game..
3 strike..
Good enough even I still throw the ball into the longkang..
haha..
We enjoy the night..
I sent them back to their house..
And heading back to Cheras around 12 am..
I have a deep sleep that night..

The next day, I went out from my auntie's house at 2 pm..
I say goodbye to them..
And heading to Setiawangsa..
I meet my senior at APFT, Anwar and Nazmi..
Anwar now is 2nd officer at FireFly and Nazmi wannabe 2nd officer at the same company..
We hangout until evening..
Anwar went back early..
I and Nazmi went to the Surau near Nazmi house and perform prayer..
Then I drive the car, to Kampung Baru to pick up my sister..
She will sent me to Hentian Putra, because I will take the bus that night to KB..
I bought Sani Express ticket..
I like Sani Express because the bus was so comfortable, rather than the others..
And the bus head to KB..
I have a very nice weekend at KL..
One day we will meet again..
Looking forward to come here again..
Insya Allah..

Lets fly, high to the sky..
(",)

- Tahlil -

Sudah seminggu mama meninggalkan kami di sini..

Masih terasa kehilangannya..
Kami di sini sentiasa mendoakan kesejahteraan mama di sana..
Alhamdulillah, malam2 kami buat tahlil ringkas di rumah kami..
Bersama keluarga dan beberapa saudara..
Hanya tahlil ringkas dan bacaan Yasin, kami sedekahkan kat mama..
Di surau dekat rumah pakcik pun dilangsungkan majlis tahlil..
Kami buat di rumah je..
Dan saya ketuai tahlil tu..
Sebenarnya saya memang tak pandai nak ketuai tahlil ni, sebab biasanya ikut dari belakang je..
Tapi disebabkan umi mintak saya buat, kena belajarlah..
Sebenarnya tak susah mana pun..
Baca sahaja apa yang tertulis kat dalam surah Yasin beserta tahlil..
Lengkap di bahagian belakang naskhah tu..
Cuma agak gagap jugaklah sebab doanya agak panjang..
Tak kisahlah kan, namanya pun baru nk belajar..
We need to make the first step before we start our 1000km travel, rite..

Kami solat jemaah bersama-sama..
Dan macam biasa, saya jadi imam..
Alhadmulillah, mampu untuk menjadi imam kepada keluarga sendiri..
Amat bersyukur..
Sekurang-kurangnya lepas ni tak kekok bila nak jadi imam untuk jemaah yang lebih besar..
Insya Allah..

Hari pertama, masih terasa pemergian mama..
Selesai tahlil, saya baca doa..
Dan masa doa tu, tak semena-mena saya teringatkan mama..
Rasa sayu..
Perasaan bercampur-baur..
Dan saya menitiskan air mata..
Saya menangis..
Habis sahaja doa, seorang daripada ayah saudara saya menepuk bahu saya..
Saya tahu, dia mahu saya bersabar..
Kemudian terus saya berpaling dan baca surah Yasin..
Saya sedekahkan kat mama..

Hari ke-3 kami ke surau berhampiran rumah pakcik..
Majlis tahlil di buat d situ dan kami ke sana..
Malam ni tak d buat d rumah..
Memandangkan hari ke-3..
Kami ramai-ramai ke sana..
Alhamdulillah, smuanya berjalan lancar seperti yang di rancang..
Alhamdulillah..
Syukur pada Allah Taala..

Dan kami akan terus buat untuk mama kat rumah..
Selama mana kami ada masa dan ruang..
Moga mama tenang di sana..
Amin..
Terima kasih kepada sahabat-sahabat yang tak putus-putus memberikan semangat..
Mereka menghadapi kehilangan yang lebih besar dari diri saya..
Bahkan mereka kehilangan ibu dan ayah..
Moga saya akan tabah seperti kalian..

Teringat bila mama tegur saya..
Bila saya baca al-ma'thurat, mama tegur..
Mama ajarkan saya doa-doa yang dia belajar kat pondok..
Mama ajarkan surah-surah dan ayat-ayat Al-Quran untuk diamalkan kat saya..
Lepas ni, takkan ada lagi suara mama untuk membetulkan bacaan saya..
Mengajar saya doa-doa..
Saya akan ingat segala yang mama ajar dan amalkan sampai akhir hayat..
Insya Allah..

- Arwah nenek dan arwah atuk.. -

- Ditakdirkan untuk bersama sehingga ke akhir hayat.. Moga mereka tenang di sana.. -

- Selamat Tinggal -

Assalamualaikum..

Masih diselubungi kesedihan..
Hari ni masuk hari ke-4 arwah mama (nenek) meninggalkan kami..
Terasa sayu bila memikirkannya..
Sedih, sunyi..
Semua sedara mara yang tinggal di area lembah klang berkumpul di sini..
Mama lah orang yang paling gembira bila melihat cucu-cucunya balik ke kampung halaman..
Riuh-rendah rumah dibuatnya...
Ada yang terpekik, menangis, berlari ke sana ke mari..
Memang menyeronokkan..
Especially waktu makan..
Makan beramai-ramai..
Kadang kala lauk tak cukup..
Tapi tetap mengenyangkan..

Sebab seronok...
Tapi kali ni mereka pulang sebab Allah dah jemput mama pulang..

Allah lebih menyayangi mama..
Bukan tak redha..
Kami redha, itu ketentuan Allah Taala..
Cuma kami manusia biasa yang rindukan orang yang telah pergi..
Dan Allah juga makbulkan doa kami..
Jika Allah tak sembuhkan mama, ambillah dia sebab dah tak tertanggung nak tengok mama sakit..
Lebih baik mama pergi dengan aman..
Kami di sini sentiasa doakan mama..
Maafkan Aiq sebab tak mampu jadi cucu yang sempurna..
Tapi Aiq sayangkan mama..
Teringat lagi masa kecik-kecik dulu..
Berjalan kaki ke pasar dengan mama..
Masa tu mama masih ade kudrat..
Boleh berjalan jauh..
Teringat dulu, nakal..
Kena marah dengan mama..
Merajuk..
Semua ni buat Aiq tersenyum sendirian..
Aiq dah laksanakan tanggungjawab sebagai cucu..
Solatkan mama..
Dan syukur sebab dapat turun ke dalam kubur, sambut jenazah mama dan letakkan dalam liang lahad..
Kambus kubur mama..
Berbakti buat kali terakhir untuk mama..
Aiq sentiasa akan doakan kesejahteraan mama di sana..
Dan akan sentiasa sedekahkan ayat-ayat Al-Quran untuk mama..

Semoga mama bahagia di sana..
Selamat Tinggal, Mama..