New layout

I also apologise for the new layout. It's quite gross, but it's better than the ramshackle old one which just expired itself. I'll get down to finding a nicer one someday. Just probably not anytime soon.

Soul searching

So for some reason or another, i've been going through a period of life reevaluation, wondering what i want in life, where i am, and how i'm going to get myself where i wanna be. Perhaps it's because i'm now settling into working life and getting used to this new change of status, and the routine of my life has changed and bears some consideration. Perhaps it's because up until recently, she used to be the centre of my life, so now i begin to wonder if all those things were what i -really- wanted, after all.

don't think anybody reads this anymore

which is good. wonder if you ever set up an RSS feed with my blog?

So perhaps relationships are like economies, they go through these cycles and although the general trend is inflationary and to keep growing closer together, there are periods when it is difficult and you go into a deep depression. And this period might last a quarter, or maybe a year, but if you take enough expansionary policies you'll come out of it. And maybe, just like a recession, you might go through a structural change and lob off the bits which don't work, and focus your energies on the bits which do.

But of course, if you don't even want to be part of the capitalistic system, all this won't concern you.

Lengua

I would like one day to be hosting a dinner party with Lengua, and then have a housecat pounce on the food and make off with it before my guest can even try it.

Then I would look over, smile, and say:
"What's the matter? Cat got your tongue?"

search

Of late i'm feeling that there's something missing in my life (quarter life crisis!), perhaps it's part of this whole pre-graduation trauma... the oh no i'm going back to work in some place where i might not be happy issue. Trying to scale back on schoolwork doesn't help, i've filled the time up with tutoring some cute kid which is rewarding but somehow just still doesn't cut it, and social events which are also like temporary distractions... maybe this is the long distance speaking? Sometimes i feel trapped within my own life.

Revival?

So in a spate of procrastination, I've decided to stop saying "I should update my blog" and actually start blogging again and overcome the inertia and the excuse that after this long i have to wait for something momentous to occur before i blog. I mean, face it... how many momentous occasions happen when you're busy tracking down DAGs?

(That's a directed acyclic graph, or what Australians call the bits that hang off the behinds of sheep when they're done with their business)
(They call them Acyclic Directed Graphs in Aussieland)

Anyway, I realise that most of my blogs are mostly small useless tidbits, since I'm a bit averse to posting things which are too deeply personal online. Maybe with my new camera phone I will post interesting pictures too.

So, me? Still in school, not wanting to leave, although it's busy as hell. Traded in my car for a bike, which is healthier, funner coz of the wind in your hair, muddier when it rains, more tiring with heavy groceries, and probably the cost of 3 tanks of gas. It changes the sort of lifestyle i lead, but it's all about priorities after all!

Busy but not too busy to go skiing (perhaps busy because i went skiing?), although I don't have pictures to show since i didn't want to bring a camera up and it was too frick cold to handle my phone much while i was up there. Drove through storms which flooded an interstate and blizzards which needed snow-chains on tires to get through, which is sort of like hell and high water when hell freezes over. Not much to say, really, about my life here, it's one of those things which is sort of terribly interesting on a day to day basis but hopelessly boring when you try and relate it to someone else. Anyway, perhaps this is the start of a new chapter of blogging!