Outing..

Ah... Yesterday went go redbox with few my classmates..
I'm excited coz can go out with her nah..
They all sang english songs. Which i'm not really good at..
But wow.. KC and Candice can sing.. And of coz.. Her also la..
I observed her when she sang.. Looking at the ways she sang and her facial expression.. So cute.. Hehe..
Then i purposely lie-down on her. Wow.. my heartbeat increased so fast.. Feel like jumping out..
I guess that time she really wanna kick me far far away la... I'm so annoying..
I didn't sang much. even though i liked singing but i preferred staring at her and listen to her sweet voice.
After k-ing.. Then we took some snapshot. I felt satisfied coz i can take a nice pict with her..
This pict meant a lot to me..
Happy moments always passed fast..
I hope we can go for outing again..
Time flies.. Its august edi.. One more month then trial..
Gambateh la everyone..
I'll work hard too.. And stop thinking too much..

Break time..

It's break time..
I dun feel like eating..
Y?
I duno.. But i definitely confirm that i'm not in good mood.
Y again? I guess there is only one cause that can make me feel like this..
Yes.. it thursday again.. I still cannot forget what happened last thursday..
And today, i'm feeling the same sadness and depress..
Can't help it..
I'm in the web now.. feel like blogging.. coz my laptop not functioning. can't online.

Recently i'm really tired.. Both mentally and physically..
I can feel the effect due to lack of sleep..
But i kept telling myself that i nid to be tough and strong.
I cant be weak..
I nid a very strong mind and heart also..
I can get through all the obstacles..
I wan to get good results..
I wan to get her..
I know it's seem impossible.. But this two things is most important to me now..
Especially her..
However.. today i had a feeling again when i was talking to her..
I saw the unwillingness in her eyes..
I feel like i can't bring happiness to her..
And i felt a strong barrier around her that i can't get closer to her..
But i'm still trying to hide my emotion. Eventhough it's a bit hard..
I wan to be super nice to her. And i had promised that i will be a better man.
I'm trying my very best to do it..
I really hope that one day when we are chatting, i can see happiness and sweetness in her eyes.. Her enchanting and irresistible eyes..

Arghh.. I feel a lot better expressing my feeling, even though i feel a bit hungry.
At least later i can still smile to her and not like last thursday. just sat quietly and get angry.
Later we had accounting test somemore..
Good luck to me and Wish her luck too.. U can do it!

Stop here lu. Grab something to eat first...
I'll be Better n Better n Better!!

Sad..

I'm sad again.. Arhh..
Why? May be is those stupid sad songs..
Telling me my story again...
Haizz.. Miss you...

Another chance..

Today.. Something horrible happen to me..
I really dun wan to describe it..
Just feel like i'm really stupid and childish..
I made the same mistakes again.. I broke my promise..
Haiz.. Guess i'm too over.. too desperate edi..
Consequently, i made her angry again..
I sorry paulina...

Yes.. She is the girl i love..
The girl i wanna to own so much..
The girl i like to stick with..
Today i made a terrible mistakes..
I learnt a lesson..
She is really important to me..
She gave me another chance..
The last chance...
I can't afford to lose this last chance..
I really wan to be with her so much so much...
But i know i can't force her to love me..
I'll just show u my effort and love to you..
Hope that one day..
One day u'll fall for me..
I'll wait that day to come..


Here.. i just wanna say that..
PAULINA,
I WILL WAIT FOR YOU!!!

Eternal love...

Am i making the right choice?

It's monday again..
Today everyone look extremely tired..
Duno due to what reason. Include her too.. She looked pale..
I was the one exception. Duno y, i felt awake and energetic when sitting beside her.
I knew my body was tired also. But my mind was still so fresh.. Power of love i guess?
My feelings to her was getting stronger. Was it a false feeling or a true feeling?
I like to stick her so much. But i know i was a bit annoying, coz i'm not who to her but alwis stick with her. But i just like to stick with her. She had some kind of attraction that are irresistible..
Arhh.. I know many frens said me ambivalence in love. flower heart.. Yes, i am..
But i felt different this time. I really hope she is my only one. And hope i was making the right choice. As i promised to her i will wait for her.. And i'm gonna prove to her i'm true..

Recently always blog about her.. U guys must be guessing whether i had neglected my study..
No no no.. I'm working double hard now.. Power of love again i guess.. Hehe..
I will try my very best in this trial.. Wont make everyone disappointed of me. I'm still me...
Wish me luck ba..

Miss you.. And miss all my friends!!

Pain...

Pain... Deep inside my heart..
My soul is crying...
Y god treat me so unfair?
Y he wants me to get through so many obstacles? Y?
I just wanted to treat you good and give you my love..
Just want a little hope from you..
I'm willing to wait you.. as long as i still have hopes..
I dun like to hear sorry from you.. Every time i heard that my heart was like being stabbed.
I would prefer if u said, "U wait la..." or " You will have chance for one day".. i rather perfer u give me false hope than saying sorry..
I'm damn sad again..
U break my hopes again and again.. but i still didnt give up.. Coz i love u.
I dun wan to give up, i wont. even u made me cry for hundred or thousand times..
I cried because i know u re important to me..
U gave me the feeling that nobody could..
Today, u accidentally stabbed my fragile heart again..
I really duno my heart had broken into how many pieces..
But i will gather them back again n again.
Because i need one complete heart..
To give you my complete love.

My tears are dropping..
Dropping incessantly..
I duno why..
I just can't control it..
...................................


Do i really have a chance?
I duno.. I reli duno...
But i'm sure that if i have one, i will never let go of this chance.
And never let go of you...
I just wanna say:


I

L
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V
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Y
O
U

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I'm in love... One sided love...

I'm in love?

Lately, i was emotionally disturbed. can't concentrate in class.
Of coz, it's not weird to me. As i had this feeling long time ago..
V once is a gud fren, n coz of some incident, our distance were teared apart.
Eventually, it ended up sadly.. I reli hope to be closed to her again..

Pray... and pray.. i prayed everyday that 1 day she will be gud to me again.
Ahhh, now she reli did treat me better, a little better. At least wont ignore me.
U re important to me. I cant deny it anymore.
Loving u might not be a gud choice. But.. I edi in love.. What to do leh?
I will wait u.. silently love u.. i believed one day u'll realised my effort,
N my love to you...
Another day has passed, we r separating soon. I dun wan to leave u! T.T sob.

Waiting for you....

Ahhh.. Long time didnt update my blog..

Sem 3 busy la...

I'm happy today.. I got full marks for my maths test.. WOw.. unexpected..

When teacher called out the name, i tot is jin zhi and our top student claire..

But ended up is my name.. Hoho.. So proud.. As i didnt study much also..

Still got more one and a half month then trial exam la..

Die lo.. My econ.. sucks la... My mind is... BLANK!!

Another things that bothered me,

That is the stupid H.

The person i dislike the most for now.

Feel like making him disappear in this earth..

The reason i felt this way could be due to my high male instinct...

He is the intruder and i need to vanish him from disturbing my....

Luckily i'm good in suppressing my feelings, if not i can guarantee.. He is dead!

I'm changing to bad boy recently..

Hoho.. I mean my hairstyle..

So many ppl cant recognize me jor..

But some still said i got guai zai look la...
I wan be noti boy la.. Huiyo...
Girls love noti boy...


My good boy look cant attract the girl i liked!
SO, i'm changing to noti boy.. to attract her... Hoho..
Joking ni la.. She will never be attracted by my look. Sobxx.. I got so cha meh?
I alwis luk at the mirror and fascinated by my handsome+cute look..
And got stun for few minutes..
I wondered how only can catch her attention. Haiz..
Never mind la.. I will wait.. wait for 1 year or 2 years perhaps..
I got patience..
But i duno i need to defeat how many rivals in order to get her la..
Nvm, I will watch ONG BAK 2 everyday and learn all his moves and defeat all my enemies..
Hoho.. Crazy in love..


I know eventually i 'll ended up with heart broken again..
But i wont have any regrets for waiting u.....
Good luck.. To me..

Audition..

Today i went for a singing competition audition in my college..
I'm surprised that i'm the no. 55 when i got there. Then i sat and wait.. observing..
I only realised it was a open competition. I shouldnt have come if i know it.
Ya, i'm not confidence in myself. As i clearly know exactly where my level of ability was.
I knew i wont stand a chance. But no choice lo.
Then i wait and wait. During the waiting time, i heard the other ps practicing..
Their voice is damn nice and clear.. Arhh.. I lose be4 till my turn.
I'm so ambivalence, i changed my song during last minute, due to lack of confidence.
Ok, two hours past.. and my turn now,
I looked at the two judges.. Huh, siapa tu? and luk so young and wear till so hip hop.
Dun care lo, jumped to the stage and just sang.
Surprisingly, i'm not afraid of the stage anymore.
But then, after the chorus part, the judges rang the bell. I havent sang the climax part yet!
Which means i dun have a chance to show my skill. I wished to have 30 more seconds.
Can't blame them, as they are almost 90 participants. They might lose a bit patience.
From that moment, i knew i cant go for grand final edi. Nvm lo..
Go eat lunch lo. I'm not so sad, as i didnt expect much in this competition and i felt i sing well also what. Haha. But my voice is used to attract female geh.. Cant attract male judges.
As expected, no reply from them, means lose jor lo..
Nvm lo, at least i'm glad to find out, stage is no longer an obstacle for me..
Singing, is still a part of my life.
I wont give up so easily..
But for now, study first.
Two more months, A2 trial..
Argghhh.. so fast la..
Dun Wan..