I'm back!

Ah.. long time didnt update my blog..
Coz dun feel like blogging recently..
Duno what to write actually.
This week a lot of unexpected things happen to me..
First is my results, charity carnival, then about her.. Ahh..
Quite tiring actually, but it's all worthwhile.
Meanwhile, have to prepare for my A2 trial.. Ah..
Can i do it again? I wish i can la..
Yesterday is a memorable day..
Coz.. i had done something notty..
Hoho... it was indeed like happened in a dream..
But it's all real.. I can't believe it!
Ah.. long time didnt back ipoh la..
Duno how's all my friend doing leh?
Gonna back next week.. To collect pocket money of cuz.. Hoho..
K la.. Stop here lu..


*Paulina, Gambateh oh.. U can do it! Mun mun always support you! Muax..

Outing..

Ah... Yesterday went go redbox with few my classmates..
I'm excited coz can go out with her nah..
They all sang english songs. Which i'm not really good at..
But wow.. KC and Candice can sing.. And of coz.. Her also la..
I observed her when she sang.. Looking at the ways she sang and her facial expression.. So cute.. Hehe..
Then i purposely lie-down on her. Wow.. my heartbeat increased so fast.. Feel like jumping out..
I guess that time she really wanna kick me far far away la... I'm so annoying..
I didn't sang much. even though i liked singing but i preferred staring at her and listen to her sweet voice.
After k-ing.. Then we took some snapshot. I felt satisfied coz i can take a nice pict with her..
This pict meant a lot to me..
Happy moments always passed fast..
I hope we can go for outing again..
Time flies.. Its august edi.. One more month then trial..
Gambateh la everyone..
I'll work hard too.. And stop thinking too much..

Break time..

It's break time..
I dun feel like eating..
Y?
I duno.. But i definitely confirm that i'm not in good mood.
Y again? I guess there is only one cause that can make me feel like this..
Yes.. it thursday again.. I still cannot forget what happened last thursday..
And today, i'm feeling the same sadness and depress..
Can't help it..
I'm in the web now.. feel like blogging.. coz my laptop not functioning. can't online.

Recently i'm really tired.. Both mentally and physically..
I can feel the effect due to lack of sleep..
But i kept telling myself that i nid to be tough and strong.
I cant be weak..
I nid a very strong mind and heart also..
I can get through all the obstacles..
I wan to get good results..
I wan to get her..
I know it's seem impossible.. But this two things is most important to me now..
Especially her..
However.. today i had a feeling again when i was talking to her..
I saw the unwillingness in her eyes..
I feel like i can't bring happiness to her..
And i felt a strong barrier around her that i can't get closer to her..
But i'm still trying to hide my emotion. Eventhough it's a bit hard..
I wan to be super nice to her. And i had promised that i will be a better man.
I'm trying my very best to do it..
I really hope that one day when we are chatting, i can see happiness and sweetness in her eyes.. Her enchanting and irresistible eyes..

Arghh.. I feel a lot better expressing my feeling, even though i feel a bit hungry.
At least later i can still smile to her and not like last thursday. just sat quietly and get angry.
Later we had accounting test somemore..
Good luck to me and Wish her luck too.. U can do it!

Stop here lu. Grab something to eat first...
I'll be Better n Better n Better!!

Sad..

I'm sad again.. Arhh..
Why? May be is those stupid sad songs..
Telling me my story again...
Haizz.. Miss you...

Another chance..

Today.. Something horrible happen to me..
I really dun wan to describe it..
Just feel like i'm really stupid and childish..
I made the same mistakes again.. I broke my promise..
Haiz.. Guess i'm too over.. too desperate edi..
Consequently, i made her angry again..
I sorry paulina...

Yes.. She is the girl i love..
The girl i wanna to own so much..
The girl i like to stick with..
Today i made a terrible mistakes..
I learnt a lesson..
She is really important to me..
She gave me another chance..
The last chance...
I can't afford to lose this last chance..
I really wan to be with her so much so much...
But i know i can't force her to love me..
I'll just show u my effort and love to you..
Hope that one day..
One day u'll fall for me..
I'll wait that day to come..


Here.. i just wanna say that..
PAULINA,
I WILL WAIT FOR YOU!!!

Eternal love...

Am i making the right choice?

It's monday again..
Today everyone look extremely tired..
Duno due to what reason. Include her too.. She looked pale..
I was the one exception. Duno y, i felt awake and energetic when sitting beside her.
I knew my body was tired also. But my mind was still so fresh.. Power of love i guess?
My feelings to her was getting stronger. Was it a false feeling or a true feeling?
I like to stick her so much. But i know i was a bit annoying, coz i'm not who to her but alwis stick with her. But i just like to stick with her. She had some kind of attraction that are irresistible..
Arhh.. I know many frens said me ambivalence in love. flower heart.. Yes, i am..
But i felt different this time. I really hope she is my only one. And hope i was making the right choice. As i promised to her i will wait for her.. And i'm gonna prove to her i'm true..

Recently always blog about her.. U guys must be guessing whether i had neglected my study..
No no no.. I'm working double hard now.. Power of love again i guess.. Hehe..
I will try my very best in this trial.. Wont make everyone disappointed of me. I'm still me...
Wish me luck ba..

Miss you.. And miss all my friends!!