Get to IT!

I love reading others blogs. It inspires me. I have decided the moment you think you are a perfect person is the moment you have a HUGE problem! I say this as I sit in a chair while my children spill red soda in the kitchen and clean it up with a bathroom towel and talk to my mom on the phone because I was too lazy to go see her! I will do better!

I love my husband! I fail as a MOM!

I just want to write down that I love my husband! I feel bad that he is gone a lot. I feel bad that I usually enjoy it! Only because it means that as soon as the kids are in bed it is my time. All my time. I don't have to worry about what anyone else wants to do. This week I have found though that I miss him. I miss seeing, and hugging, and talking face to face to him. He has been very lovey dovey lately. (At first I was nervous because I was afraid to find out what made him snap to!) He makes me want to be a better mom. Speaking of that I am NOT a great mom.

In Grantsville they have this thing called a sociable. This year is the 126th annual one. That tells you what kind of tradition it is! The first year we were here for it it happened to be the same day as the General Young Women conference. Both stakes in the city showed it on Sunday. Well part of the festivities is they do a children's sociable. It is like a glorified talent show. My son has tried out three years in a row and has yet to make it. As a mom I struggle with two things.

1. I am not caring. When something goes wrong in my children's lives, it is not in my nature to console them and give them loves. It IS in my nature to tell them to quit feeling sorry for themselves and get over it. I feel bad. I should have wrapped my arms around my son and told him that I am sorry he hurt. I would do whatever I could to help him feel better. Than I should have taken him to get a treat. I fail in the caring department. I do recognize it and I am trying to be better!

2. This is not my cup of tea. Need a meal? I'm there. Need someone to help in the classroom? I got your back. Heck you need someone to be PTA president? Sure why not, I'm a sucker!! Need a number for the talent show? UMMMM Sorry, wrong person! I don't sing, dance, or even like to get in front of others and act. Cas on the other hand is all about being in front of others. He does drama out here and has been in their drama teachers number to try out for the sociable. She always does way cute things I just think they are too involved. Kind of hard for a show that has to move quickly. Sorry Cas. Maybe your dad can help!

Life

Yes I need to post pictures of Disneyland and tell all about it. It was AMAZING, FUN, and a much needed family vacation!! I am in a reflective mood and just want to jot down some stuff I have been thinking about lately.

Adela - poor girl has had a fever for the last two days! On the fence about going to the doctor. We will decide in the morning! The other day she crawled into bed with me and was upset. I asked her what was wrong and she said that she was going to live in Grover some day and she would live with Tuhker in the cabin because she is to scared to live alone and Brigham won't let her live with him. Nice she knows Tuhker will be there for her!!

This is an argument Adela and Brigham have a few days after we return from Grover. Every time!! They both start saying that they are going to live in Grover. Usually Brigham starts so when Adela says she is going to Brigham says she can't. She then of course starts crying and comes to me and I in turn tell them there is a lot of space in Grover and they can both live there when they grow up. In separate houses.

She must have started thinking about this and got worried. I think she came to me when she reached her solution!

Cas - I love this kid. I feel bad for this kid because he got most of my genes! He is a little different and awkward. I hated elementary for this reason. From about 3rd grade to 6th grade it was not fun. I wasn't the bottom of the barrell but pretty darn close! Lately he has been very sensitive to teasing. Anything that anyone says that could even maybe be conceived as mean or teasing he takes it that way. We have had the discussion that there are a lot of mean people out there and the best thing to do is ignore them.

I hate watching my kids learn the painful lessons in life.

Brigham - That is all I have to say :)

Tuhker - I hope he decides that he likes the way life goes when he is being the kind, loving kid rather than the mischievous one!

Travis - I love my husband. I don't know very many people that can work as hard as him. I am soo glad he is coming home tonight. I miss him.

Lessons to Learn #1

I thought that a more positive way to rant is to turn it into a lesson for my posterity to learn. This is after all the only form of journal I currently have!! We are trying to beat the bishop by reading the Book of Mormon before he does. He have been behind since day one but at least we are in the race!! Today we were reading Lehi's last words to his kids. These things are not my most important things to leave my kids but I am not on my death bed! ( I don't think!)

1. -VOTE- You are not allowed to complain if you are not involved. You may not complain if you don't vote. Voting is your ticket to have an opinion.

2. -GET INVOLVED- Don't just vote. Get involved if you can. I don't know that I want to ever run for public office. I don't try to hide my past but I don't want everyone criticing me! I do however get involved in other things that directly impact my life. Such as PTA and HOA. Where I live both are swear words in a lot of peoples books. I find both of them to be a benefit.

3. -BE FAIR- If you don't agree with a friend try to see their side. If you weren't involved in the process of me making my decision and then you get mad at my decision then ASK me why I did what I did. Don't just hate me because I don't agree with you.

4. -BE BRAVE- If you don't agree with someone, don't go around talking about them behind their backs. If you don't have the courage to face them then shut your mouth.

5. -BE NICE- If you do try to see someone elses side and you don't agree still then AGREE to DISAGREE

Tuesday Laundry Day!

To fold and put away:

To Wash:
I try to do laundry everyday but when I get behind Tuesday is my catch up day. Can you tell I am behind! I am on batch 5 right now. Of course you can't just do laundry. I am still dealing with the rest of life.

Such as:

• Going to the school in my pajamas to give my children their permission slips to get the flu vaccine. I got the permission slips 2 weeks ago but forgot to fill them out until my 9 year old got off the bus to come and tell me he needed it. At this point I have to take it to him. Well it is Tuesday. I don't have to go anywhere. I didn't sleep last night. Therefore I am NOT taking a shower today! I know. I should learn from past experience (Adela's stitches) but I still do have days that I just don't shower!

• Pay Travis's speeding ticket. Yes we were so close to being able to get cheaper auto insurance and my husband goes and get ANOTHER ticket. His speedometer doesn't work so that's his excuse but my goodness I need cheaper insurance!! Good thing I love him!

• Stress about my niece. She is 17 and decided her parents are to strict so she ran away. To make matters worse her parents are on vacation in Thailand! I mean really what are you thinking?? Your sister is a basket case. Your parents are thousands of miles away and can't get back until Thursday and are therefore basket cases. I want to freeze my children in time. They still hang on every word I say and believe it. Their free agency consists of stomping off when I tell them they need to clean their rooms!! I love my niece and I am just sick that she is choosing to act this way. She is a prime example of why you shouldn't have a steady boyfriend. You do stupid things that hopefully some day you regret.

It's days like today that I am grateful for the problems in my life but my heart aches for problems that others are dealing with.

LIFE UNEXPECTED

NOTE: This blog was written while I tried to watch the season premiere of Leverage and put my four children to bed who have no interest in going to bed so I am trying to ignore their giggles and talking and yelling at me that we didn't read scriptures ( I have had enough. We read this morning. Should I feel guilty?) I really try to be a good mom but goodness by eight o clock I am just done!!

So I hate Wednesday TV on the big three stations. Even four if you consider Fox! I tried the whole American Idol thing and liked it a couple of time but really I cant do it!! I don't mind a good comedy but if I am watching one while my kids are awake they want to watch to and I am sorry but most are inappropriate for younguns!

That being said I was flipping through the channel guide trying to find something to watch. I stumbled on Life Unexpected on the CW. I decided to try it out and it was actually cute. Made you actually think about your choices. The story line is about a young girl who hates the foster care system and wants to be emancipated. Her biological parents never signed some papers so she takes over he overworked case workers job and goes to find her parents (Don't know how likely this is but good anyway!)

Her mom got pregnant when she was sixteen so she put the baby up for adoption. They said it was easy to place a baby but that was before they knew she had a whole in her heart. By the time she was done with the surgeries she was three and no longer easy to place and therefore put in foster care. The mom never knew any of this.

Sooo.. the girl goes to her court date to be emancipated and the judge is not going for it. She asks who is going to co-sign on her lease and low and behold her biological mom and dad are both there and both say they will. Long story short the judge ends up awarding custody to her biological parents.

It really just got me thinking about if we really understand the long lasting effects of our choices. I know that not many teenagers have sex to get pregnant but many do. It is a possible side effect after all!! Nobody texts while driving so they can get in an accident and kill someone yet it does happen and it is a possibility.

The reality in life is that things don't usually happen the way we plan. We should be a little more careful what we choose to do.

New Family Additions

I am NOT an animal lover!! Never really have been. In high school I found a lost dog. It just came to my house. I loved Shelby. She was a black dog. Then the stupid neighbor dog got her out of the backyard and ran away with her. She was the only animal I ever really wanted. When Tuhker was about 6 months old Travis decided our boys needed a dog. I was ok with this because he was in charge of it and it stayed outside. When we moved to our new house the dog for some reason now became an indoor dog. I am still not happy about it but have since decided to just live with it. WELL...... we have since added to the dog!!!

Meet Fireball the Lizard!!! Tuhker found him in the garage and decided to keep him. We will see how long he lasts!




My best friend here in Grantsville decided to move. I wasn't to happy with her but what do you do!?!?! I went and helped her move and Brigham was with me. He really tried hard to help and not be in the way. A lady in our ward was helping and told Brigham that he was such a good helper that he deserved a kitty. If you know me you know that I REALLY do not like cats. Probably because I am so allergic to them. It is not just me though. Cas and Adela are also. Well we have a vole problem at our house and so I thought that maybe if we had a cat it would solve that problem. We went to get the cat and Tuhker was with us. The very nice lady said that Tuhker needed one too. Yes, I am a sucker and so they both got a cat.

Meet Hiss and Oreo (P.S. my husband was not happy when he found out that we got 2 kitties and he was beyond mad when he found out they are both girls!!! Good thing he loves me!)