After A Levels, I would.......

1. Buy cheap but volatile kerosene. 2. Burn every single damn TYS, calculator, periodic table, data booklet, formula list, GP text, graph paper, NJC exam pad and time table. 3. Burn the ashes. (with a second bottle of rocket fuel if the kerosene runs out) 4. Sleep. 5. Hang out with whoever, whenever, however, wherever. 6. Look through the pictures taken with y'all. 7. Call parents and friends back home. 8. Send a Thank You card to Sharon Phua for her tender loving generosity and care. 9. Get prepped up for Prom. (facial, hairdo *hair regeneration included, wardrobe, camera) 10. Practice Prom performance with Su, Rollin' and Junxu. 11. Attend prom. 12. Take a whole lot of pictures till the camera starts smoking. 13. Look through the pictures taken with y'all. 14. Play the guitar. 15. Exchange contacts. 16. Watch a whole ton of movies. 17. Spend luxuriously with my remaining allowance. ***subject to availability. 18. Pack up. Clean up. 19. Take a deep breath of fresh Singaporean air. 20. Smile and say goodbye.

Post Prelims

Hey, so yeah. prelims are over~! And the results come rolling in. Argh, seriously some very horrible. How can we still be doing SO badly for some subjects!?!? The real thing is only FORTY TWO DAYS AWAY!!!!!!!!!! But i guess the most important thing to do now is to NOT panic.. and just keep revising stuff, even if its slowly. As long as you dont stop completely. THAT.. . as mentioned by other ppl before, would be worse. Sigh... two years here and we now come to the very thing that is the reason we came here in the first place. Seems like only a month go we were this really really big group of malaysians getting to know one another. One big FRIENDLY group. Of course, there was friction here and there a bit. When i remember some of the first impressions we had of each other, i laugh to now realise how wrong they were ( the impressions). Or in some cases, how correct it was and how we/ i have come to love that characteristic of that person now. and now.. Hmmmm. Some have gotten closer [a ~duh], some have drifted apart, some hold grudges, some have given up, some frankly dont care, some pretend they dont, some try to say it doesnt matter, some struggle to make it just day by day,some have found friends in other places ( be they people or things), some are still able to remain their happy carefree self, some have found stability in smaller cliques and some have shrivelled, keeping to themselves. . I remember coming here and thinking i was going to get to know lotsa people pretty well. i I also remember knowing that a lot of other people felt the same way. Sometimes after having someone sit down and chat a bit with me in the dining hall and i think.. " shucks.. shd have gotten to know her/him better before this". but sadly, scarcity persist and we all have to seek the allocative efficiency thing.. heh, econs econs. Have you chosen well? On my part, nope. But can i do anything about then? nope. Now? maybe. ah, okay yeah photos photos. Which i posted below this.. #1. eh.. elaine thian pretending to be a cheerleader in C2L/05 hee hee** aint she cute? #2. Four females squashed on a bed in C2L/05 #3. oh this is the photo i used in the previous post- /snapshots. the one on the left. On the right, is another hybrid photo. yup, i was quite free. Muahaha.. i think the one on the right looks absolutely potty.

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couldnt upload on the other post. yupyup.. this is #1 . heee heeee.. . " READY?! okay~! " =D #2 : four faces #3 : Combi of who and who?

rainbow

Da da da da da….. Writing about nothing in particular. Is this damn blog still worth visiting? HAH! Exams mean everything to us now, huh? Everyone’s caught up in the rat race to getting that wonderful 4 A’s, to great University Degrees, to wealth, to social perfection, to love, to spiritual well-being, what have you. Or is everyone caught up in getting OUT of the rat race? But how can you get out of it if you deliberately put yourself in? Might as well fall out, take a breather, drink lemonade and slack some? But then again, wouldn’t that be defined as being lazy? Unless of course you already have a masterplan to quit college, a crystal clear mind-frame on how you’d start to create and build a powerful new operating system to battle Microsoft and Apple in your very own garage just like Steve Jobs or the Great Mr. Gates? Since when do I have a garage? So many questions. Even more answers. And the worst thing is, every answer differs when you sweep across individuals. It’s up to perception, or you might even want to call it definitions. What is the point of trying so hard? What are we all trying to achieve? To be happy in this life or the next? What is the next life anyway? (I can feel a barrage of answers to that even before I post this meaningless sea of words) What if this is your last chance? Will you lose yourself in this life? You’ve only got one shot, says Eminem. But who cares about some white guy trying to so hard be black anyway? Feeling tired, depressed, angry, emotional, volatile, aggravated, insulted, worn, torn, sad, insulted, fucked up or long-winded? Well, you’re not alone. In fact, the only person that’s alone will be someone who feels the exact opposite. Happiness will be like sadness without sadness, no? Well, all the more reason to return to our friggin’ books and calculators and data booklets and university prospectus and periodic tables and shit. Run and run and run in the direction where everyone else is running. For all you know the road leads to a dead end. But ah, if you turn, would you reach a meadow, or will that be a short cut to that dead end? Up to you. Take it from me. Prelims really rocks.

i have always had weak gums. occasionally, when i brush my teeth, it bleeds. so i have always used Oral B's soft brushes. Medium or Hard will definitely hurt my gums and make them bleed. just recently, the bleeding got a bit frightening. not just more often, but also more profusely. so i brought the matter up with Ben (for obvious reasons), Andrew and Elaine. Andrew said i had scurvi (sorry if the spelling is incorrect for i have never been gd at spelling) and needed Vitamin C. that'd have been fine to me. Ben suggested it was quite impossible i had scurvi, so i would more likely be Gingivitis. some bacterial infection that will involve some painful cleaning procedures at the dentist's and at home, if diagnosed. oh, u bet i was freaked out. so, when i got back, as i was brushing my teeth, i checked my gums. Ben said that red gums are a sign of Gingivitis. guess what? to my horror, my lower gum (the bleeding one) is red. blood red compared to my upper gum that is perfectly pink. i can see my blood vessels in my lower gum. shit, how? panic-ky, i sent shen hua (for very obvious reasons) an email, since he wasn't online. but i so embarrased myself by saying "meningitis" instead of "gingivitis". meningitis is a brain thing. what has it got to do with my teeth right? i feel so dumb because i did send that mail! gah.. but of course, being the image-conscious me i quickly sent another mail to correct myself. so embarrasing. anyway, i'm still scared. i don't want to go to the dentist. i have always always maintained good oral hygiene. i cant eat sweets n chocs (though i still do sometimes) because i will almost always develop a sore throat and my myterious throat infection (some of you will know) afterwards. n tt's why if i eat chips, sweets or chocs, i will try to immediately brush my teeth!! why? why? why is it red?? i don't want red gums!! help!!! i'm freaking out people!!!