________________________.:my entries:.

it has been a very very tiring day..i am demoralised by a lot of things, and troubled about others...

on the school front..i aint exactly doing well..just got back some mid-term reviews from the professors and ya...sadness...i really dunno what im doing wrong this term..am i putting too much emphasis on my CCA? shouldnt be...last term was worse, as i had to manage both gc n bondue..maybe it's cos the courses im taking now are not exactly top picks, but it is just an excuse..i shouldn be doing so badly even if im taking stuff i dont like...

i guess i do need some motivation right now, at this juncture, when my academic "life" is at one of its lowest points...maybe i've been taking it a bit too easy, maybe im just not trying hard enough...

am i really stressed? yeah sure, the pimples r breaking out and im feeling a bit under the weather lately, but is that due to stress or just bad diet and lack of sleep...speaking of which...i've been so lethargic these days it's a bit scary...

moving on...gc has been facing a problem...i shant elaborate too much here for it concerns other pple in the comm as well..essentially we do need to work things out soon..for fire-fighting is not exactly the most "fun" thing to do..and it certainly is too time-consuming to my liking..today's incident could have well been blown out of proportion..and im glad in a way it did not even though it did highlight issues that we shd place more attention on...sigh..

i hope i get over this moody period..maybe it's PMS that makes me so gloomy n upset...maybe its the realisation that im not infallible even though i try so hard...why do i feel so helpless at this juncture? i dont want to let the pple around me down...even though "results" are not everything in life..how can i give up like that?? because of these setbacks midway?

i need to work hard...i must strive on..

UGH!!!

firstly, im growing fat cos im eating cup noodles right now, at 1am in the middle of the night!!! *scream*

secondly, dunno why, but ive been having a REALLY BAD outbreak lately...and i do mean REALLY BAD...cos my forehead is seeing the growth of ugly red spots...BAH!!! maybe it's the late nights that caused it, maybe it's the weather...maybe it's juz PMS...i HATE pms... =(

next issue....i think i have a strange mechanism in me that tells me to do everything that is unnecessary, just to avoid doing what needs to be done...*scream again* important work is piling up and im like watching ice-skating cos of the winter olympics and watching tv lots!!! and im neglecting the important (but horribly boring) research work for my various projects!!! sadness...why why why... i dont want my term holiday to end...sobs!!!

oh...on a side note...i applied for the JP Morgan internship...and i got a call from P&G to go down for a psychometric test...*keep fingers crossed*

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UGH...i wanna go on exchange!!!! but all the unis offered in canada are located at COLD regions...and i do mean below-zero temperatures...sigh...HOW????

v-day is coming..and frankly i do think it's a day more DISGUSTING than any other in the year...

for those with that special someone to celebrate with...vday is a day where you burn big big holes in ur pocket...i mean having to think of what to buy for him/her, then having to plan where to go, what to do...and it must all be something "special" and not the usual "watch a movie", "go swimming" kinda activities...not to mention dinner prices at any restaurant will be at least 200% the usual...

AND who wouldnt wanna be seen holding a bouquet bigger than any other girls'? come on, flaunting that nice bunch of flowers is part of the "kick" of being attached right? guys, i do sympathise...i really do...but if u really wanna impress, that's the way to go...

for those without that someone to celebrate with, v-day is either the day to stay indoors and avoid all forms of media (all those lovey-dovey movies will prob be screened on tv)...or a day to make presents and small gifts for all your girlfriends and call "friendship day", which, by the way is another evil plot of all retailers...

and to those who don't celebrate at all...it would appear as though you're an "old couple" with no spark or flame burning anymore...no more romantic dinner out, blah blah...

why do i sound so cynical and all? i dunno..maybe i m juz tired of it all...i've not prepared a present (yet) and not thought of how im gonna spend it... (probably at home since my day class is cancelled)...and dear will probably be too busy to prepare anything anyway...so ya...bah...

i am so BUSY!!! midterms on sunday (yes sunday) and monday and presentations coming up....UGH!!!!

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