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it's superbly early to be in sch at dis godforsaken hour...haiz...i wish i brought a pillow...so tt i can at least get 40 winks in confort...but no such luck...sigh...i wish they really had those beds like in japan...where u pay a fee n sleep in a little cubicle w/o being bothered... *yawn*

got another long day of proj meetings...haha...u know i realised one thing...i like to feel busy wif all thes projs...but dun like e work tt come along wif "feeling busy"...a paradox? my brain is still asleep...cant seem to think clearly rite now...

oh...to add on to my sad pathetic state...im down wif a flu...nose has been running since yesterday...dunno which idiot was scolding me behind my back...dun ever let me catch u...or else...@Q$%#$@^@$&@^....

sunny day today...wondering if i shd go swimming...maybe can get a tan rite? but den e sloth in me is telling me y bother...xianz...my wkend is flying by again...and monday it's back to work...*groan* but the gd news is tt i've complete my darn AS individual assignment! so proud of myself man...haha...now tt's one less worry on my mind...still quite screwed for bgs man...HELP!!!

im still irritated...but bad mood is dissipating....

y irritated? cos i kena TUA again! =( y always me ar? i look like can bully type izit!?!? kaoz! haiz...A sent me an sms saying she cant make it for meeting...and wud like to postpone it to evening instead....n when did she send me e sms? at 3am last nite....madness...so last minute how e hell wud i know?? and dis morn when i checked my phone, it was too late...i was already on my way 2 sch...so pissifying...n it's BLARDY 7:50am!!!! *wail* my sleep!!!! and i feel so damn cheated la...if i were given earlier notice i might haf been able to plan my time beta...arrg to go out n study or sth...crap....now im stuck in sch...dunno wad time e ger is gonna come...IF SHE IS GONNA COME...

sigh...TGIF...if not my mood wud haf been worse! =(

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apparently pple cant seem to view e pix i posted here...so dis is e link to the album wif my zoo pix...not many pix so dun get ur hopes up too high!

rejection is painful...but it's second to loneliness...

sigh...had another tiring session of "nus vs smu"...geez...y cant i have a proper conversation on dis topic w/o getting irritated n feeling like im under attack? but den again, wad r my intentions of engaging into such a conversation? i guess its juz 2 settle wat's been bugging me all this while ever since THAT day i knew of e decision...

hrm...on one hand, m i being to opinionated?? am i trying to impose on others my views?? honestly, i think im juz feeling very unjustified...e whole bu shuang feeling in me...it's like growing n growing n one day i think i'll juz explode...why why why??? if there is little difference btwn e schs, according 2 u, "like an armchair vs a chair", den y do u still say cos u feel u'll "do beta"...if e systems r e same, according to u?? i juz feel like there r so many contradictions in ur words tt i dunno wat's gg on in ur head...sigh...mayb we juz dun understand each other....

what's a relationship when there's no mutual understanding? is it very important to want the same things in a relationship? can e 2 pple lead totally separate lives n juz come tghr for comfort and solace when there is a need? i need answers... =(

this is e white tiger...one of e most majestic animals i saw tt day...



mountain deer of sorts...sure dun look like it was taken sg...



a warthog!! think "the lion king"...hehehe...does he look like pumba??



the sealion...quite a poser huh?



aww...so sweet...mommy n baby monkey...



hehe...e baboon's red ass!!! =P



silly monkey cap...haha...

i went to da zoo yesterday!!! haha....back to being a kid i guess...after like 8 yrs of not gg to da zoo...so much have changed...i guess they renovated e place somewhat...the registration counter looks totally different...e amphitheatre where all e animal shows r held now has seats...backdrop looks beta too...lots of sponsors i bet....

hrm...there was no more A&W...so sad...in place of it was KFC...and they haf a total monopoly of the place man...afterall...e kids will definitely all go there to makan...n it was totally packed...DUH...haha...wif loads of kids...somehow dis period got a lot of tourists fr india...wif families n all...haha...kiddy land has somewhat degenrated into a playground...no more pets to hold n cuddle...only a couple of ponies...one lazy pig...3 unhappy cows...a bunch of goats...yeah...tt's abt it...sad case...

oh well, other than tt e rest of e zoo was actually quite impressive...we've LOTS of monkeys...all e different breeds n all...haha...hrm...i think it's no wonder we are one of da best zoos i guess...a large variety of animals as compared to some of the other overseas zoos tt i've seen...

time passes quickly when u're enjoying urself...we spent 6 hrs in all juz to tour e whole place on foot....haha...great experience wif my dear... =) thanks 4 bringing dis big kid to da zoo!

some photos will b uploaded soon...when i've e time...hehe...

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took dis quiz while waiting for al...man...when i reached sch al was still at hm sleeping!!!! gawd....

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Paranoid:	High
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Low
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	Moderate
Dependent:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
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ruyi was a Complicated Monkey Trainer in a past life. Discover your past lives @ Quiz Me

dis is insane...im a monkey trainer?!?!!?

food poisoning and cramps when combined definitely can kill... =(
sighs....dis is my 2nd day of MC....thank goodness im feeling beta thou still pretty weak fr e lack of food and the constant running to da washroom....the total count as of now is 8 X diarrhoea and 3 X vomitting and on-going period cramps....*groan* my tummy is so incredibly empty now...can feel a vacuum there...

gd news is tt my AS proj is done...yay...pp damn power in her email...haha...n i think my non-presence in today's meeting wasn exactly a bad thing...hur hur hur...okay....but bad news is tt i've still got e darn individual assignment and the BGS proj n e FA proj...oh gawd...dying....n im so freakin lazy...UGH UGH UGH...

hrms...nette juz said she wanna switch fac to social sciences..but apparently requirement is quite high... at least A- for psy, soc, political sc....WAH....wondering if i shd follow suit...afterall, biz is a pretty redundant deg to have....maybe get a deg in psychology or sth...den can work in HR or pple management of some sort...but of cos...tt's juz wishful thinking....

oh ya...my holiday plans...looks like they might have to be cancelled since i absolutely cannot find pple wif suitable time-tables as i...SOBS...there goes e trip to sydney...unless, i choose to do my summer term in may n go travel in july/aug....hrm....tt's a thought....

after close to 2 yrs, bh finally made his decision...nope, u wun be seeing him in smu...he's chosen e rival sch if LSE doesn accept his application...n according to him, e likelihood of tt happening wud b 90%...yippie...no im not jumping for joy...juz feeling damn sarcastic...

which makes me wonder...wat's wrong wif smu anyway??? did all e pubilicity not work?? isnt e idea of having a city campus enticing?? u mean NOBODY likes e seminar style classes wif lots of proj work n a low % on exams?? *gasp* or is it juz MY FRENS...since everyone else seem 2 haf frens or juniors coming in to study next academic yr...to be really honest, i like e system here...i think it suits me pretty much...esp e short timetables(cheer)...n e dist fr hm(yay)...my grouse is e lack of close frens i haf here wif me...yep...every damn person loves nus...my pri sch, sec sch, jc frens...all nus pple...u mean im e weird one!?! y does it always haf 2 b me? sometimes im like so tempted 2 scream n say "look u idiots, dis is e new style of education...wake up...mugging wun help in real life" but of cos tt wud make me sound like a total fool cos e response i get is prob "look who's e idiot who took e road less travelled n is now complaining abt being all alone..." oh wat e hell....

oh...n a tot crossed my mind....pple dun do things for each other anymore...dis is a world where pple live by e motto "to each his own"...remember in pri sch...its always very common to hear of best frens doing stuff for each other...doing stuff WITH each other....juz so tt they can stay tghr....n juz so tt e other person will b happy....yeah last time my best fren n i wud stick to each other whenever we cud...we joined e same ECAs(cos we dragged each other ard...haha...), had recess tghr...i think it almost killed us when we were posted 2 separate classes...yep...those were e days...in our minds, it was pure, innocent, n watever we did...it was totally fr e heart....but at dis age, u dun see tt happening anymore...best fren or not, nobody gives a shit anymore...aiyah...who cares wad u wan...i do wat i wanna do...AND...pple can say one thing today n another e next...no such thing as yi nuo qian jing...

yeah yeah...it all boils down to who am i to dictate wat wat others shd do??? each individual has his/her own rights...own entitlement to decide his/her own fate...afterall, uni is an important stage in life...e last stepping stone b4 u get out there 2 work...i guess all i wanna say is tt i cant help but feel disappointed....cant help but feel cheated...let down...upset....blah blah blah...a whole flood of negative feelings....

oh ya...today's incident made me decide tt i hate J8 afterall...n today's incident also made me realise how POWERFUL it is to be the driver...neva haf i been so humiliated, 2 resort 2 lowering my pride n go on my knees n beg 2 be driven...WTF...

yay!!! i actually won 5 bucks at mj today...muahahahaha...ok la..not tt it's a huge sum or anything BUT...considering im still pretty much a beginner (erm...i dunno how 2 count dai...dunno how many diff types of ways to game n stuff...heh...) it was lucky...whee...so happy...haha...but lydia still e da ying jia...n i think pp dunch like 2 play wif me wor...gif e chao bin almost all evening...

anywayz, today supposed 2 haf "serious discussion" for e CT proj...man i think im so gonna malu myself tml lor...esp wif e horrible, uncomfortable mouthguard tt we hafta wear(u know...e piece of plastic/rubber boxers put in their mouths) piangz..i think we really sacrifice for "creativity" wor... having said tt, if we really succeed in gettin lots of attention tml..den at least worth it...hehehehe...

hrms...haf not been spending much quality time wif him...sigh...we're both bz ma...boh pian...n worse still, dis wkend we both haf other commitments...hope for beta times 2 come...

oh yeah...yesterday my dad bought me a swatch skin!!! yippie!!! SO SWEET of him lor...cos i lost my watch a couple of wks ago...hur hur hur...my only complaint is tt i donch really like e colour...it's nude colour la...doesn look nice against my wrist...well, cannot hiam la...e gift is still deeply appreciated...daddy still sayang me most... =) =) =) haha..unlike some pple who say wanna buy stuff 4 me, den i wait till flower wilt also dun haf...ooh...btw, i still wanna buy one of those nice metal watches...i think it can look quite elegant...den can wear for formal occasions too rite? beta start saving up....

ok...dis is gonna be a bitchy post...all who dun wish to read, get lost....

im so incredibly irritated by my AS grp mates...

oh my gawd...we've basically spent a whole damn afternoon tryin to edit an essay from scratch, when PP n I have ALREADY done some partial...no wait...MAJOR changes to our initial piece of crap...ok...to be honest, e initial report is not as bad as im making it out to be...juz that it is really incredibly boring to read...all pure fact, no flowery language...so what if it's an AS proj? i think it could use some fanciful stuff to make reading it more enjoyable rite? quoting f "u can add some stuff, like some meat 2 e bones" ya....essentially, our essay is like a skeleton w/o the body....

well, f was kind enuff to help me out wif e essay...in fact, he wrote a whole new one after looking at our old one....wif stuff a tad bit too cheem to understand(haha...even e dictionaries dun haf e words he used)...to keep things in balance, i took on e laborious task of matching and piecing the 2 vastly different essays tghr....i never used a thesaurus this much in my entire life...(pp can vouch for tt...haha...) juz to figure out what a word means and then finding a substitute tt's simpler and easier to understand....don't get me wrong, i think f's essay was an incredible piece of work....but i think, to make our report more "down-to-earth", gotta tone down on the fluff....

so anyway, 2 of my intelligent grp mates didn like e new version(i suspect cos they didn understand half of it)...so they came up wif e notion of re-doing it...which explains why we ended up spending like 5hrs in sch working on it....n yesh...im still freaking stuck in sch now....they've left...thank god....so im free to bitch as much as i wan....

ya...dis may sound very very mean n condescending, but i seriously think their command of the language is really not up there lor...not tt mine is damn zai or wat, but come on la...."a person born with a silver spoon in the mouth" does not refer to a "very rich and well fed baby"....i almost died trying to stiffle a laugh...

and im amazed at how narrow-minded some pple can be la...juz sticking to a fixed, rigid method of writing an essay...and asking real silly questions like "why cannot like this...why cannot like tt" WTH... come on la...open ur minds to the beauty of the english language la....there are many words out there we can use to make e darn essay more colourful....y not use it? UGH!!!! *frustrated*

oh well, im certainly not gonna let some pple ruin my chances of getting a gd grade for AS(esp when e report accounts for 20% of our final grade...not a big percentage, but not an insignificant one either.... so im definitely not throwing in e towel as yet....dun care la...mayb on e surface i dun blow up as yet... but it's simmering inside lor...and i will for sure make certain that either pp or i will be e ones doing the final draft....

there....i feel beta already....but sth tells me i still got some dist to go b4 finally completing e whole damn proj.... *sigh*

YESH!!! *jumps up n down*

my busy wk is finally over...PHEW! so relieved man...survived 2 presentations n a test...well, things may get worse as we draw closer n closer 2 e end of da term...but for now...im contented... =)

e day went pretty well...much beta than last nite...hrms...CT was ok la...like they say kirpal is damn slack...haha...first he comes to claz late...talks a whole bunch of crap for like 1 hr...lets us get into grps for e big grp proj...presentations...den more crap fr him...end of lesson...haha...cool...i certainly think it's easier than dawn's claz...hur hur hur....oh yeah...i think my grp did pretty well for our proj...haha..considering it's definitely a creative idea...so glad pp, dia, alvina was in da grp...3 cheers to e grp man!! whoo-hoo!!!

yeah...den FA quiz...crap la...it went ok...wun b gettin e kind of grade i wan thou...damn blardy careless la...tt one cannot forgive...UGH...so irritating...esp when u hear pple like jem n mich saying they will prob get full marks...double UGH!!!

met bh for dinner...haha...he rushed down fr work 2 meet me...so sweet... =) hrms...think i ate too much thou...xianz...gaining weight liao...NOOOO!!!!!!

haiz...my wkend is quite sad...zz is not gonna b free to spend time wif me...sob sob sob...n i've got CLASSES on sunday...how funky is tt!?!?!?!? sickening...juz hope tt cos of dis sunday clas, e prof will skip e next few fri classes...*keep fingers crossed*

so freaking pissed off... =(

i got a blardy FA test tml, which, incidently, i've not studied for....cos of dis heavy wk-load of presentations....y cant u juz be nice n make me happy so tt i can scoot off 2 read da books while u snore away in dreamland? (leaving me jealous n wanting 2 slp too but i juz CANT cos of other responsibilities)

u think im pmsing? obviously NOT...heck...it's not even da time of da mth....

juz cos i dun wanna see u for 1 day doesn mean there's sth wrong...dun take me for granted tt's all...well, even if there was sth wrong, u certainly didn act like u cared...

made an effort 2 give u a ring, sounding happy n wanting 2 talk...been a long time since i called u anyway....n there u are..."cant i call u back??" WTF....

do i ever do tt to u even when im most bz? NO.
i put everything aside n talk 2 u when u call...

do i call u often? NO.
kinda affirms y i don't huh?

now GREAT....i cant conc on my test tml...die...another sleepless night...
im definitely gonna burn out soon...

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to bh: last time i created such a quiz was 2 yrs ago in J1 and u scored highest...will u do so again??? =P

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