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another drama down. was quite paranoid about watching this. but since already downloaded so watch lor! not bad i would say. maybe a little bit draggy and i hate the ending -____-" but quite a touching story! wu qi long is quite handsome! ^^

all i want for christmas is the following items! i need more HDD now that 2 of them getting full ! ): maybe i should just get 2x 1TB! but ive been getting like all the 500GB ones. :D headphones! Razer Carcharias! :D any mobile in-ear earpieces with remote and mic

Many broken pieces Shattered, now apart What can I do to mend it? To mend by broken heart? I walk along the beach Leaving footprints cold and bare How can I enjoy the sunset, When there’s no one here to share? There used to be a pair, Of footprints next to mine. But they washed away with waves And the shifting sands of time. All I can do now, Is remember how things were. The good times, not the bad times, Which caused my heart to stir. To live to die, What does it matter? While I am in this state. I didn’t know how much I loved, Until it was too late.

Thank you everyone for making me, me. PS: Do me a favour by writing on my tagboard to show you're reading! TY

will i find my way?

it's a difficult route i know. it's a totally different path i know it mght be full of hardships i know but ive decided to walk on. trust me, ill succeed.

hi blog, how've u been? life's been pretty nasty to me. living in uncertainties. never like that feeling. but well...life still goes on dont it? im trying to move on...from that certain spot. trying my best not to be stagnant there...trying my best not to fall back. but it's just simply not easy isnt it? but then again, whoever said life's easy? everyday im like living in mixed emotions...and i think it's kinda tough to be like that. i wonder how am i going to overcome it or whatsoever. whatever! persevere on! easier said than done. *sigh*

Your Score: 22 12 - 24 Your frankness is commendable. Although you may be a technical wizard or have very high IQ, your EQ is on the low side. It appears you may have some work to do. If you scored in this range, you may find yourself blowing up at people, depressed, or losing sight of where you are in life. Are you stopping and waiting to let strong emotions pass before you react? Are you allowing the 'winds' of change to direct you - instead of setting your own course based on an internal compass? Are you responding to life and its challenges with fear and insecurity rather than passion and purpose? Don't despair! Emotional intelligence is not set at birth - it can be learned and improved. If life is 10% what happens to us and 90% how we respond, then we hold the power to create the lives we want! GG.COM! I GOT LOW EQQQQ!!! now i feel super SAD!!! :( times has come for a change is inevitable! will i succeed? wish me good luck! putting away the damn pride and willing to le...

trust  –noun 1. reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence. 2. confident expectation of something; hope. 3. confidence in the certainty of future payment for property or goods received; credit: to sell merchandise on trust. and i lack that... teach me how to trust?

Oceans apart day after day And I slowly go insane I hear your voice on the line But it doesn't stop the pain If I see you next to never How can we say forever I took for granted, all the times That I though would last somehow I hear the laughter, I taste the tears But I can't get near you now Oh, can't you see it baby You've got me goin' CrAzY I wonder how we can survive This romance But in the end if I'm with you I'll take the chance

been awhile since i last updated. where've i been? hmmm...ive no idea what ive been doing either. jus plain slacking and lazing around. let's just take it as hibernating :D 1month+ of hibernation. it's prolly time to get back to the reality. seriously dont know where i should start but i know ive alot of things i wanna do. and money come first. so job first? think ill just look for a temp job while waiting for results + search for audit job. at least there would be money coming in for me to buy my camera and iphone! O.o it's still kinda unbelievable that im actually a fresh graduate alrdy!! kinda too fast. or prolly im too slow. tsk. life's feeling funny recently. came to realise that friends i care about dont care about me in return and in fact friends that i mildly care about are actually more concern about me. furthermore, friends that im close with(supposedly) dont really care about me and it's like doesnt match my way of life. in fact it's those friends...

When you were standing in the wake of devastation when you were waiting on the edge of the unknown with the cataclysm raining down, insides crying save me now you were there and possibly alone. Do you feel cold and lost in desperation you build up hope, but failure's all you've known remember all the sadness and frustration and let it go, let it go. And in the burst of light that blinded every angel as if the sky had blown the heavens into stars you felt the gravity of temper grace falling into empty space no one there to catch you in their arms Do you feel cold and lost in desperation you build up hope, but failure's all you've known remember all the sadness and frustration and let it go, let it go.

it seems that my time has stopped...somewhere...nothing effectively done over the past few weeks. just....enjoying life! and so one month has passed. time to get back on track of life? prolly. interested in getting a camera...but which? Model : Canon SX230 Price : SGD 549 Model : Canon Powershot S95 Price : SGD699 Model : Nikon Coolpix L120 Price : SGD 399 which camera?

I hope you know, I hope you know That this has nothing to do with you It's personal, myself and I We've got some straightenin' out to do And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket But I've got to get a move on with my life It's time to be a big girl now And big girls don't cry Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry The path that I'm walking, I must go alone I must take the baby steps till I'm full grown, full grown. Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they? And I forsee the dark ahead if I stay

what are you trying to do? there's this point of time...where u feels like you're back in the same mess again. the same position where u told yourself to get out of previously. everything seems upside down. change it? nah. let it be? prolly.. this kind of feeling sucks.

the time stop... not moving.. till dk when..

FREEDOM!! 7papers! it's overrrrr!! :D now it's time to play! before i enter the *insert own description* workforce x_X

Pretty :D

Thank you my love, for everything you've done. You've made me understand, distance was never an obstacle. Thanks for sending your wishes on this special day of mine Despite you being far away. Probably they were right, love has no boundary. Words arent enough to depict how thankful i am for you. Once again, thanks for all the efforts! -+- Before the sister start yelling at me... THANK AWESOME SISTER! FOR THE PRICELESS BIRTHDAY CARD! you're awesome BECAUSE you're my sister! =P -+- Poem for love Thank you for being the heart of my life, Harboring me in the arms of your love, Anchoring me in the rock of your faith, Knowing me well, yet loving me still. Thank you for being there, Through every laugh, through every tear. You helped me not to be scared, About the things that I feared. Thank you for the love that you have shown, When you knew I would have blown. You are an important person in my life, You’ve helped me deal with my strife. Thank you for the things you’ve done f...

after a long and tired day after a nonsensically hard paper after a long trip to and from expo reached home feeling tired and worn out. and the moment i switch on my comp, log into msn. and see that picture from how not to feel delighted? :D Thank you!

Management Accounting paper in approx 13hours time on the 13th. tsk! let's hope it's gonna be a do-able paper! jy everyone :D

there's no way out already. it's either make it or break it.

the picture reads "i love you!" and "hate you!" you know you're loved when 5min upon reaching home and seeing that there's no food on dining table, you comments "wah hungry leh, no lunch?" and u went for a shower. when u came out from shower, you see sizzling hot lunch specially made for you by your dad. just becos of a comment u made... you know you're loved when you was casually talking to your mum and commented that the shampoo is finished and that your scalp feels somewhat oily..the next day she return home with 2 bottles of shampoo telling you she went to ask the salesperson what's good for oily scalp and they recommended that and so she bought it for you despite it being EXPENSIVE. -+- some things are not meant to be pen down. but sometimes you feels like writing about it but you've no clue where and how to start... is there a need for a change in my life? even the govt seems to be experiencing change... i dont confide in people, ...

Tired is an understatement!

雨过天晴 sunshine after rain rainbow after storm so whatever happened to my rainbow? why it seems to be forever in a storm? not only me, but recently people around me are pretty down... breakups, quarrels, fights seems like all clustering into happening now... be it betwn couples,family members or friends. and what make it worse is that this is the period where most of us are supposed to be the busiest...why now of all time? and this has to be the period im reminded that you've left me for a year. to all friends who are down, cheer up! i hope we'll all see our rainbows soon!

In the morning when I wake up And I open up my eyes, I feel an aching in my heart That's when I realize. How much I really miss you And long to have you near. My heart is filled with sadness, And my eyes are filled with tears. At different times throughout the day, I find I'm missing you. And I wonder if, perhaps a bit, Maybe you miss me too. And when I want to hear your voice, And call you on the phone. When I check my e-mail And find there's nothing there. I can't help it that I worry, And I put you in my prayers. I think by now it's safe to say, That I miss you very much, And my heart will never be the same Since it suffered Cupids touch.

从你的眼角慢慢地明了 From the corner of your eyes, I slowly begin to understand 我能做的很少 There's very little I can do 原来你藏着伤但不想和我聊 Turns out you're hiding wounds, but dont want to talk about them with me 你选的电影像某种预告 The movie you chose was like some kind of foreshadow 不坦白的主角 with a dishonest protagonist 最后流着眼泪坚持独自走掉 by the end, you were crying and insisted on leaving by yourself 散场的拥抱我还在燃烧 the last embrace; im still burning 但你心里的浪潮拒绝让我看到 but the waves in your heart refused to let me see 你煎熬不肯定什么是最想要 you suffer; you're unsure what it is that you want most 爱才又像乐园又像监牢 so love is both like a paradise and like a prison 散场的拥抱混乱的心跳 the last embrace; a chaotic heartbeat 多宁愿只是争吵还能道歉和好 I wish this was just a dispute and that we could still apologize and reconcile 我知道你留着和他所有合照 I know that you've kept all your pictures with him 明明面前是答案却撕掉不要 the answer is clearly in front of us, but you wont tear them up 呵护地祈祷温柔地讨好 i caringly pray, tenderly win your favor 爱能让人渺小 love can make people insignifican...

received a gift via my sis from a fren who recently went bintan! (i assumed he went bintan since the gift wrote bintan) :D thank you my friend. i really appreciate the friendship we share. it's something really special that i cant put into words. thank you for remembering me. thank you for the effort to buy me a gift and posting it to me :D i rmb i read somewhere a quote say "some friends are so special, even when you're not with them, you dont feel lonely, because you know they are there for you." prolly this quote is for you :D hope you chat with you soon! take careeeee :D you made my day (:

There are times when i look in your eyes i see the love that we shared i see the joy inside but i didn't see the feelings you hide and now you're saying goodbye because your love has died And all i can think about is you the way you say you love me too and everytime i close my eyes i see your face my love can never be erased and you can never be replaced...baby baby girl why don't you come back to me why don't you love me anymore baby girl you know i still care for you you know i will love you forevermore...(2x) There are times when i kiss you goodnight I feel the love that we shared I feel the joy inside but I didn't feel what you tried to hide and now you're saying goodbye because your feeling has died And all i can think about is you the way you say you love me too and everytime i close my eyes i see your face my love can never be erased and you can never be replaced...baby baby girl why don't you come back to me why don't you love me anymore baby gir...

maybe i love you was too much cos now it feels like we're out of touch and maybe this was all a big mistake cos i don't know how to take you for your heart it's the chance i'd rather take please forgive me if i cannot hide what i feel i'm just trying to make you believe that i'm real don't turn away when i'm right here waiting don't be afraid cos we both are changing if it's real it will be what it's suppose to be all i ask from you is please don't turn away from me don't turn away maybe i should just give you your space but without you i feel so out of place the more i reach out to you it's like the further you go away i just want you to hear what i'm trying to say don't turn away when i'm right here waiting don't be afraid cos we both are changing if it's real it will be what it's suppose to be all i ask from you is please don't turn away from me oh oh oh don't turn away don't turn away cos i...

You brighten up my life With memories so fond When I reach out You always respond You're someone I can count on When I need a helping hand You're compassionate and loving You always understand Oh yes you have your Off days too However those days Are but numbered few I'm so thankful to have A sister like you There is no other Who could fill your shoes To me you are a priceless commodity A wealth of wisdom you've been to me When I have thoughts I need to share I always I know that you will care Our feelings for each other are entwined A better sister I could never find I always enjoy the things we do together When done with you they’re always better This message I send to you Is filled with gratitude For all the things for me That you do The things that you say In your quiet way Always manage somehow To brighten up my day I send to you warm wishes That your happiness will be As great as the happiness You have always given me

im back to blog! life been pretty much mundane! but at the same time busy! been thinking alot recently but ive no idea what im thinking when i become alert again! rewatching some old dramas which i really love. and surprisingly, it's not boring rewatching it! i realise i can actually rewatch a particular show like more than 10times! waste time i know, but it's prolly my way of finding entertainment!! and probably when life's busy, you find that life's more meaningful. no more sitting in front of the computer more than 8hours a day (altho i admit i still do, but less) i dont know why but i realise ive so much things left undone. i actually have programs lined up for me from now till july! -.- -+- best friends are there for you, anywhere, anytime. i do miss some of my friendsss! -+- 在我的心里面有个黑暗的房间 每当我一个人就有什么出来作祟 我不断找寻方法去度过每一夜 打败寂寞对抗那些鬼 就这样脑子里梦里面总是浮现 渐渐我开始喜欢他们存在我的世界 是否你觉得这样不太方便 所以才会不再出现 在梦里面突然发现快要忘记你的脸 想要改变却无力改变 我救不了自己在恶梦里面 某年某月某一天也许你会再出现 燃起我一丝微弱希望或重回到起点 我虔诚地祈祷多不想说再见 我只需要你的...

this picture prolly depicts my mood. what's going on? it seems like time is moving so fast ahead of me and i cant keep up. if i could live in dream, i would.

Relationship is so vulnerable. They can break anytime. Two parties can be engaging in lovey dovey talk, then suddenly, it turns into heated argument and poof. Break up. It seems like all the past efforts for building up the relationship was worthless. Just becos of that one mistake, it seems like all the good things isnt relevant at all. Just within that few min, two parties can turn from those that hang out almost everyday into two strangers. So, whatever happen to those times he make effort in cheering you up? Whatever happens to those times we smile together? Whatever happens to all the effort in choosing a present and giving you. Whatever happen to the efforts in planning your birthday every year? Whatever happen to all the comfort that he gives? All that is reduce into nth just becos he broke a promise, a seemingly minor one in the eyes of others? Is it that easy to give up relationship that has alrdy lasted for years? Is it even possible to forget he existed when he's always ...

Turned around multiple times Smiled and pretended not to know Silently tried to lie to my heart Are you lost not knowing my heart Suddenly scared to say i love you Not familiar with those words With stiff lips I say love you, I love you I scream to your back behind you Just to breathe together under the same sky Can't wish for anything more Don't know anything but my love is growing pain that is to follow I will linger here even if die of pain Laughter just being by your side Even if we are unhappy and can't be undone You are the one I choose Only bruises on my broken heart Only tears when I look back You couldn't find me cause I was invisible My love quickly hides Just to breathe together under the same sky Can't wish for anything more Don't know anything and my love is growing Pain that is to follow I will linger here even if I die of pain Laughter just being by your side Even if we are unhappy and can't be undone You are the one I choose Tried hard to tur...

if i block you from my life, would u even notice it?

i hate you for leaving me behind!!! but i love you for everything esle :D

U need to be me, to understand me. It's all mixed up now. I hate it.

we may be together but we will still feels different levels of sadness different levels of emotions. you prolly need to be me to understand me. i can act strong. i can tell all my friends it's ok, im used to it alrdy i can pretend to be laughin and smiling when im with people i can hides my tear. but at the end of the day, when im alone, all the emotions within me remains... i always say thing i dont mean and i hate it but i cant change it.

A reluctant hug, and a soft kiss goodbye, he is leaving once again Every year end, he comes to visit then goes back on a plane When he is with me, it is the only time I feel truly happy And when we are apart, all I can think of is when next we'd meet He looks at me and tells me he has to go but he will be back He says i could visit him after my exams, after i graduated I watch tearfully as he walks away from me, into the departure hall He glances back for one last look and a short wave, before disappearing behind a wall All i could do was to wish him all the best and wait till the next time we meet Before I know it, he's long gone.. nothing but oceans and countries away I tell myself to be strong, that life goes on - it should and it will But why does it seem like every time he leaves, time just stands still? The following days are spent getting used to not having him around Getting used to not being able to meet as and when we want I now sit and wait by the phone, the only way...

the mood is down. it just refuses to go up!

i love the weekend or rather, i love it when people are having holidays. but it would be better if i have holidays together with them!! i love your presence. im so gonna miss it when you're gone! boohoo!

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY! YOU'RE OLD ALRDY!! :D ONE DAY OLDER THAN YESTERDAY BUT ONE DAY YOUNGER THAN TOMORROW!

happy valentine's day everyone!! stay happy be happy :D

时而快乐，时而伤感 这才算是人生啊 如果人的一生只有快乐，没有悲伤， 那有如何知道快乐是什么，痛苦是什么 但天天沉浸在痛苦中 也不是办法呀

i have alot of things to do but way too little time! help!! ): and i seriously hate the fact that march is approaching...havent i gotten used to it alrdy?

old people arent useless people. without them, there wont be you!!

it's just not the same anymore. no matter how hard i try, it just wont be what it's like few years ago. people change, me too. i think, i question, i observe. i feels, i understand, i keep silent. -+- i always have a clear view about where i want to head to, but now, ive seriously no idea what's gonna happen... families...what am i suppose to do with/to/for them when i grad? friends...will we still be friends? you...are you the you? me...am i the same me?

tired. dont feels like putting in efforts anymore.

If a boyfriend told his friend he doesnt have a girlfriend. It means that he doesnt treat you as a gf or you're not good enough to be introduce as his gf or there's a potential gf in the area or all along you're only self-proclaim gf or he doesnt care if you're his gf or not, isnt it? -- Sent from my mobile device

next time when i grow up...im gna travel around the world if finance and time permit! sg is way too boring. and being confined to this little country isnt great at all. i wanna explore the world! interact with people! look at different culture! i hope, time and finance permit!

I just want to run Just want to hide away Close my eyes to your gaze Just want to leave Don't want to hear them say "You're no good at this" When the world swirls with naysayers Broken wings and torn pages The road ahead Drowning in my tears Break me open Tear me down Into pieces Broken crumbs On the ground You can mould and shape me In your image Breathe your life You know I need it Scars make us stronger for life Losing myself Gaining it back again Forging strength from weakness All that I am All that I'm meant to be Melting in your hand Let the world swirl with naysayers Pickled hearts and sour faces What is real is what I cannot see Break me open Tear me down Into pieces Broken crumbs On the ground You can mould and shape me In your image Breathe your life You know I need it Scars make us stronger for life Cut away All within me That won't bear fruit Cut away All within me Cut away All within me That won't bear fruit Cut away All within me Break me ope...

Why I love my sister A sister is someone who loves you from the heart, No matter how much you argue you cannot be drawn apart. She is a joy that cannot be taken away, Once she enters your life, she is there to stay. A friend who helps you through difficult times, Her comforting words are worth much more than dimes. A partner who fills your life with laughs and smile, These memories last for miles and miles. When she is by your side, the world is filled with life, When she is not around, your days are full of strife. A sister is a blessing, who fills your heart with love, She flies with you in life with the beauty of a dove. A companion to whom you can express your feelings, She doesn’t let you get bored at family dealings. Whether you are having your ups or downs, She always helps you with a smile and never frowns. With a sister you cannot have a grudge, She is as sweet as chocolate and as smooth as fudge. Having a sister is not just a trend, It is knowing you can always turn to her, y...

things to buy ipod touch 4G 32GB 500 GB HDD backpack bookshelf ):

somebody buy me an ipod touch please! 32GB enough! since they dont have 16GB! or give me 428singapore dollars! :D

hello blog! im blogging becos im in a bad mood now. dont ask me why cos idk why! it seems like every single thing is making me bad mood now >:( prolly becos time isnt enuff for me to use! prolly this prolly that prolly i should just head to bed. what a nonsense post ):

me want Mac Miniatures! buy for me $25/box!! frm 13th jan onwards! :D

ipod touch 4? or wait for iphone5?

i used to love blogging alot. becos its where i pen down my thought my feeling every single thing. it's like a space to vent on to talk to whenever and wherever. till one day, people keep asking about my blogpost. why like this? why like that? who u referring to? till one day i keep arguing with someone for not explainin about my blogpost. then i got tired. i lost the drive to blog. even when i do now, it feels like i write mundane stuffs rather than inner thoughts. reality is sad. it just is. i love to live in my own dreamland, believing only what i want to. but hey, it's time to wake up. it's time to see the world from a different view. to me you were everything, to you what am i ? everything? ha.

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spent 1/1/11 fruitfully (: mariam engagement party. met up with "classmates" photos.......to be uploaded soon? lols i wonder what's best for me. i wonder if i made any mistakes in choice. i wonder why u dont care about me. i wonder why u bully me always. i wonder why u didnt treat me nice. i wonder and wonder and never arrived at an ans. ): i dont know what i shud do!

it's a new year!! what's your new year resolution?? i think it's pointless setting new year resolution last year so i didnt have any and didnt achieve anything great in year 2010! prolly major event was that i turned 21! however that is nt smth i choose to do/happen also!! lols. this year my new year resolution? i just wanna be able to put in my best effort for everything i do. and not to be lazy. oh maybe to blog more?! hahas! and maybe one of it is to make effort to meet up with close friends which i have not been constantly meeting up w them. :D i hope 2011 will be a better year! (: