As stated, im back here to blog abt my year 2010. Has the year been a good one for you? Overall, i think it've been a pretty bad year for me. Family. Grandpa passed away on the 11th of may. I rmb clearly i was on my way to expo for my year 2 exams. And then my phone rang and it said 'dad calling' i was puzzled, i jus left hse nt long and dad didnt mention he has anything to tell me. And it's like super rare that he'll call. Usually it's like even when im nt home till super late, he'll jus wait for the nxt day to nag or scold me. I pick up his call. He ask for directions to ttsh. Asked him why and he said grandpa had a bad fall and is in the hospital. Still unsure of what is the situation like. He then told me nt to worry and jus do well for exam first and contact my sis. Which i did and arrange time to meet up after my paper and her lesson. Situation wasnt good. Atmosphere was bad. And ttsh actually have some gate thingy to prevent too many ppl frm goin in. ...
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i just woke up! and i wonder when was the last time i actually woke up like 11?! lols! 28th of 2010. few more days to the end of 2010! has it been a great one for you? i just realise when i wanted to recall all the events happened this year, i cant really remember those at the start! how sadddd! i shall buy a notebook and write them down in the new year!! :D stay tuned for last day of 2010's post and first day of 2011 post! :D
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can life be as sweet as candycanes? as long as im happy, things fine. there's no point in giving in to people, being what they want me to be. as long as im doing what i want and is happy about it, im fine. "the most impt thing is to happy" this is what you always tell me. and this is what i see in you. im gna be happy. :D -+- i dont know why uve to be such sensitive. i dont know why it's just such a simple thing and u actually think it's breach of friendship? you makes it sound like it has always been ONLY you putting in efforts and ME doing NOTHING at all but leech off you. hello! this isnt the way ok? and this isnt the way friends should be. maybe, we just have different definition of friends. i dont even understand why u went to comment w/o knowing what is going on. and it's like totally irrelevant -.- but the way u say things...is like there can be ONLY ONE view in things. no...that's not the way, u noe...things have many different angle or possibiliti...
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Technology is great! As of now of cos. Lols. Right now im queueing at msia custom while typing this to kill my boredom! How can i say technology is nt great at this moment? Lols! I checked the web before coming out. I saw the car jammed so i was mentally prepared to be queue for a long time before i can get across the custom. However there was NO queue for bus 170! Within minutes i board the bus! Unlike last time where i had to queue for 30plus mins! Board the bus and the bus was continously moving at normal speed! So i was happy! Alighted, went up escalator and goes 'meh such crowded!' there goes my short journey! End up i reach jus like wat i expected if there was a jam! I think i got so used to jam that i feels 'aiya, jam agn cos it's sat' hahas! I do enjoy coming to jb but if alone then would be boring! I like the fact that i earn money in sg and spend in jb! It's like wah! Im 2x richer! Tho sometimes things here are 2x the price! (eg sometimes in sg cos sgd...
today didnt end well. but whatever is it. it's over and no use harping upon it x.X talking to you seems to be more and more difficult. you assume before you even listen to full story, and your assumption is always based on what you think yet you said GENERALLY -.- piss me off talking to you and not many people can achieve that. and im sure if u read this, you would be assume it that person im referring to -.- i seriously cant be bothered explaining to you anymore. thinking of privatizing my blog and changing link. no it's not becos of whoever or whoever. it's jus becos i dont know who read my blog and i think i need more privacy? link will be given out and i would invite ppl to my blog, so if ure reading and wants to continue reading, inform me. my brain has malfunctioned after it's being overly used. fine, not overly but MORE THAN NORMAL. even tho normally i use 1% nia but I DONT CARE! still overly used cos more than normal! BEDTIME! byebye
I was thinking about you Thinking bout me Thinking bout us What we gna be? Open my eyes it was only just a dream Travel back down that road Will you come back? No one knows I realize It was only just a dream I was at the top and now its like I'm in the basement Number 1 spot, Now you find your own replacement I swear now I can't take it Knowing somebody's got my baby Now you ain't around, baby I can't think I shoulda put it down, shoulda got that ring Cuz I can still feel it in the air See her pretty face, run my fingers through your hair My lover, My life, My baby, my wife You left me, I'm tied. Cuz I know that it just ain't right I was thinking about you Thinking bout me Thinkin bout us What we gna be Open my eyes it was only just a dream... So I travel back Down that road Will you come back? No one knows I realize It was only just a dream. When I be ridin man I swear I see your face at every turn trying to get my usher on but I can't let it burn And n...
Considerate people. I think my sch has quite a number of considerate people. Those who help you hold on to the door when ure directly behind them, those who helps you pick up your stuffs when you dropped them. They makes u feels somewhat happy. Jus few mins ago, i saw this old man trying to board bus 173, he's with walking stick walking v slowly but can tell he's trying to speed up in order to board the bus. The bus driver, however, did not notice the old man! He closed the front door and the old man somewhat panick and raise to hand to flag for the bus or to get the bus driver attention! A passenger saw this and went forward to ask the driver to wait for the old man. The passenger even help the old man to his seat. Even by looking at it, it makes u somewhat happy! Good way to end a torturous lecture which kills 90% of your brain cells for the day!
i feels like eating cupcake. rahhh! im back to update! nothing much happening. been pretty boringgggg! sch day in and day out. i want hols! it's sad when your friends are all having holidays and u are at the peak period! mehmeh! i have the bad habit of remembering the past. esp sad ones!! and i wonder why i have so much memory space to store them! i wish they could be clean away and use to store my school work instead! oh and i think im starting to lose myself. like...getting influenced...not being what i was suppose to be. but then agn, what was i suppose to be?! AND I HARDLY SEE MY SISTER AT HOME ANYMORE! *insert crying face* random becos IT'S BEDTIME -.-
once in a bluemoon. i feels kinda x.X along your life, have you met people whom u initially dislike? for whatever reason there is...and then u start to grow closer naturally..but at times, you'll rmb how you have dislike that particular person, and wonder if it's alright being close. in this situation, what would u do? remain close or stray? how about people whom u was close with..then after a long period of not talking and meeting, the next time u met up, u realise they've changed into someone whom u dislike...what would u do? remain close or stray? how abt ppl u was really close and happy with..but becos we went on different path. the time to meet and talk get less. but u keep thinking about them now and then. would u initiate to meet up? but u wish to meet up, yet u dont have the luxury of time. what to do?
i wish life is like a rainbow, so bright and colorful :D 4days break overrrrrrrr! tmr start of mundane week again! and these 4 days i really took a long break! i didnt touch my books at all ! lols~ not sure is good or bad, but i better be revising soon! hahas. nothing interesting to update, just that my hse is undergoing some painting work and i had to help out abit. dad say i can paint my own room! should i paint it blackkk?! mama say black attract mosquito!! then what color shall it be? neon green? O.O it's 6hrs lectures tmrrrr! *sigh out loud*
i took the day off from schoolwork. since it's termbreak(a 4 days break only) so i had the luxury of sleeping in. the luxury of eating slow. switching on the computer before even washing up. took my own sweet time to eat. a break from the routine of wakin up 630 and zoom 645 im downstairs waiting for bus to get to school. and always having to tabao my food into my lecture room to eat. so i told mama not to cook anything. just bread or anything that im able to dabao. went over the market to had breakfast with mum and dad. and halfway thru dad said "how long u didnt come market alrdy?" then my mind goes "wah i cant even rmb when was the last time i went and had breakfast with them" but im sure it's way before July 2010. how times flies!! but there's no changes at the market also. look the same -.- "Most people come into our lives and quickly leave. It is the special few that come in and leave a footprint in our hearts. and we are forever changed....
school school school and school ! suppose to be a term break but why am i still in school like monday tuesday wednesday? i used to think teacher doesnt matter. but after seeing how bad my lecturer is. i seriously think teacher do play a role in study. if you seriously cant teach, dont do teaching. a total waste of my time attending -.
I've known you for so long You are a friend of mine But is this all we'd ever be? I've loved you ever since You are a friend of mine But babe, is this all we ever could be? You tell me things I've never known I've shown you love you've never shown But then again, when you cry I'm always at your side You tell me 'bout the love you've had I listen very eagerly But deep inside you'll never see This feeling of emptiness It makes me feel sad But then again I'm glad I've known you all my life You are a friend of mine I know this is how it's gonna be I've loved you then and I love you still You're a friend of mine Now, I know friends are all we ever could be You tell me things I've never known I've shown you love you've never shown But then again, when you cry I'm always at your side You tell me 'bout the love you've had And I listen very eagerly But deep inside you'll never see This feeling of emptiness I...
Time past just like that. *snap fingers* week one of new semester is over. Trial run over! Lols. Nevertheless i had a good week. Those with me will probably understand why. Had nice chat with many friends. =) the classes are not so bad afterall. Friday met up with my sisters(yuh included as sisters la) for dinner at chang korean charcoal bbq at demsey area. Shan pick me up from my hse then we head down somerset area meet ling then qian. After which shan drove us over and yuh met up with us there. Jus realise mayb korean cuisine is not quite suitable for me! Hahas, cos i dont eat veggy and there's like alot veggy! But u enjoyed myself anyway. Head over to bens and jerry for desserts. The atmosphere is totally nt like the ones in shopping mall. And this's where photospam came in. They got really good camera! Lols. But none upload yet so hehe, no photos! Then shan sent me home! Weee thank you sister. =D sat had class!! At 1530 -.- lols. The lecturer. Recorded his own lecture and p...
Falling a thousand feet per second You still take me by surprise I just know we can't be over I can see it in your eyes Making every kind of silence Takes a lot to realize It's worse finish than to start all over And never let it lie And as long as I can feel you holding on I won't fall Even if you said I was wrong I'm not perfect But I keep trying Coz that's what I said I would do from the start I'm not alive if I'm lonely So please don't leave Was it something I said Or just my personality Making every kind of silence It takes a lot to realize It's worse to finish than to start all over And never let it lie And as long as I can feel you holding on I won't fall Even if you said I was wrong I know that I'm not perfect But I keep trying Coz that's what I said I would do from the start I'm not alive if I'm lonely So please don't leave Was it something I said Or just my personality When you're caught in a lie And you've g...
sometimes it's like no matter how many times u tried to change things. it remains there. i dont know if it's still worth trying. does it even matters to you at all? at times i feels that im tired of even talking to you. why do you have to be the way you are? what matters most? think less for you, more for myself. dont blame me for changing, you caused it. competition isnt getting u anywhere.
this describe my situation now. im like the guy in the photo. standing at the junction. it's misty everywhere. I've to decide what to do, where to go. But it's so misty that i cant make my decision properly. As much as i want to say "I'm fine" deep inside im not. Family, friends, relatives have all potray me as someone smart, good in studies. How am i suppose to break the news and say "hey im repeating" and they goes "oh why? how come? too hard?" i rather say "yup fine, everything ok" -the end- whatever it is, dont ask if im ok. i will simply answer "yes ok" unless you're someone im willing to share details with.
people come people go who will be there to accompany you through life? when i was small, i was told family would be there for me whenever, but now..parents wont be there as long as i will... who knows when ill lose them. and dumb sis is growing up and no longer following me anymore. it's almost 100days since you left. have you really left? or are u still lingering around? it still dont feels like you're gone. it's like you're still at uncle's place and i will still get to see you if i go down... should i avoid visiting you on the 100th day? we should to share the same food. you used to pass me biscuits whenever im there. u used to pluck rambutan, mango, soursop. limkim and jackfruits from the tree for me.. now even the house is deserted...does the fruits still grow? =\
In the month of august i shall not -take taxi (alrdy spend 60bucks on cab) -spend more than 30bucks on any single day(so if the outing gna be more than 30, there's a high chance i wont go) -skip my daily routine -sleep later than 1am on weekdays -spend more than 8hrs on comp and more to come as time goes by.
Hello world! im still surviving! think it's the want-to-revive-blog feeling agn. i always end up doing the template, blog abit and then abandon it. maybe there should be a easier way to blog. not just from computers. lols. im lazy :D anwyay, im a happy girl :D what's happier than getting things fixed and having loved ones by your side? :D nothing! -+- simple meal with an awesome person. without him, there wont be me. walk the whole area with him. been long since he last brought me out.
We are blessed with the words of wisdom We all have gifts to share Stories to tell Let us all learn from each other To exchange words of wisdom To share the positive things that we learned from our past Therefore, others will not fall into the traps laid on the paths below us The ability to communicate is a wonderful gift One does not have to communicate through their mouth But through their action We are all touched in a positive way through the ability to communicate Spiritually, verbally or through the actions of one’s ability to communicate -+- for people who've been asking if im still alive. yes im still alive and healthy and well.
Park Da Ye - What Should I Do? (You're Beautiful OST2) (Eng / Romanized ...
loves this songgg~! new recommendation please? ive finsihed the above one. :D
my heart still long for you. somewhere in my mind i still choose to believe you're around. is everything just a nightmare? if so, when can i wake up? will i see your face again when i go visit? will you be there to tell me there's my fav food on the dinner table? will you be there to ask me how's school? will you be there to say "wah you've come" everytime u see me? will you be there to share your biscuit with me? i knew you're gonna be gone some day, i knew you wont accompany me forever, i knew this day has to come but why did u disappear within hours? why didnt u regain conscious and at least talked to me? if you have talked to me before you left, maybe i would have felt better. too unrealistic...the fact that you're gone. my mind still tell me it's not true, my mind still tell me i can see you soon. and how can i imagine, it've been one week already. one of the saddest thing, is when ahma say u told her "see, the family is falling apart...
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.
Im officially an adult! :D make a wish..i jus realise every year my wish is the same. wonder if it will ever come true. hahas! so fast, im an adult alrdy. feels like yesterday i was only 10plus. oh wells. thanks for the pretty flowers! :D kinda surprise i got the flowers cause i rmb telling the person who gave me that flowers are kinda waste of money. but still, im happy to see the pretty flowers. :D from parents. this is like the first time i received a bday pressie from them! hope i wont lose it! from xian. hur thanks for making the effort to come to my hse and celebrate with me (: too bad this yr midzie isnt around. lols. -+- the days past by so quickly. soon we'll be out in the workforce. soon it'll be our parents who gna be old. soon we'll be taking over our parents' roles. everything gonna change. i always hate changing. i just want things to be the way it is. i dont want any changes. but now, i think i should accept the fact that no matter how much u hate it, thi...
the path we used to walk together, ill walk on alone from now on. time flew past fast. things happen in a sudden. not sure if ive accepted it. it feels like a dream. a nightmare rather. was it a good thing? or bad? i dont know. suddenly poof and no one knows anything. i stayed with you for 12years. though then i was still a kid and prolly dont rmb much, but at least i rmb i stayed with you..for 12 years. your sudden departure left me thinking. bits and pieces of thoughts, shant pen it down here. it's time for a change. everything end just before my 21st birthday. it's time i grow up. i dont know where life is gonna head to. maybe i should let loose of something i thought was really important to me. maybe i need to rethink and readjust my current life. set it free. set myself free.
i always love bubbles even since i was a kid. always feels that they are pretty! HELLO world ! i survived my 1st paper! you know i actually spot all the question correctly but simply refuse to put extra effort in memorising them hard enuff. all i did was, read the qn, read thru the answer, understand it. the end. and when it came out i was like...eh correct not? like missing something leh. and i was right! was missing steps here and there -.- hopefully they gimme method marks and make me passsss! i seriously dont wanna retake fm! RAH!
exams are round the corner *dies on the spot* last year when i receive my results, i told myself ill study hard nxt year. *looks at myself* history is repeating itself. i am NOT studying hard ): whenever exam's near, every single thing feels fun to do, including changing of template which as u can see, i just changed mine. =x any drama or anime also becomes fun to watch. ive finsih 21 episode of next stop, happiness and 12 episode of down with love and 4 episode of working!! and 2 episode of bleach and some random tv show. terrific! :D gotta say, next stop,happiness is really nice! if you're free you should watch too (: shall try to study now, but im tempted to watch the chnl 8 show on tv now which last till 930pm. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. i think ill give in to temptation. -.- ill be back SOON