thanks many who have made my birthday great! to be honest, im not really a birthday person. but this year was a good start especially with so many cards and presents coming in. anyway, dont waste money on me on next year! okay my birthday was as ancient as the time dinosaur were still alive, but i am really so busy with school work!

okay, i shall really go sleep now especially i have school at 10 later! aw, so many plans this coming week and projects to juggle. i need to buy time! :S

oh! welcome 2011! happy new year everyone (:

this year, im not going to spend time coming up with new resolution. as you know, it is always a trend when everyone would reflect what they have done over the year and come up with resolution to improve on themself. i have tried coming up with interesting one like how to behave more like a grown up (though my thinking is quite mature!), but i think i will still be me.

from previous failure, i conclude that i can never set goals to make it come true. so, im not going to waste time doing so. but obviously, there are things which i would look forward...

1. travelling! - i think since sec 3 , i have been travelling out of the country every 6 months to take a break from schooling. and this coming april , my target was paris, and of course, i hope ns would not screwed my schedule

2. national service - many think that ns is a waste of time blah blah blah, but im actually looking forward because i dont know what to anticipate, so im excited. haha! bull shit right, but i think it will be a good cooldown for me since i dont have to worry about work or study which i have spend my previous 20 years on it.

3. graduation - 3 years of my poly life have past. although i hate when we separate, but im actually moving on to my next chapter of life. everyone would then be separate meaning to say, i will not be seeing most of the classmate real soon. i do hope to maintain contact with some people, but generally, i believe many would usually be too busy.

4. vague future - i have to consider about whether to proceed to university or work soon. actually im quite unsure. nevermind, i shall really wait till it hit me before i bother about it. for now, i should just enjoy my life (:

5. stoning at home - as many has told me, ns would usually not start probably till june. i should have 2 months to stone at home which i enjoyed, lying on my bed and watching the time ticking away. also , i could really do major reflection on my life and remember minor incident that has happened in my life. i think stoning is a better alternative than going out with friends, gathering at the usual place and bull shit all the way.

and ya ya ya, the list just continue to go on.

oh, and im turning 20 in few days time. i dont mind a dinner or instead, i think i could spend it alone at home doing reflection. okay, have never been someone who think birthday is big deal because:

1. everyone has it - what for celebrating birthday when it occur every year. probably im being influenced by my family culture where we dont bother celebrating any festivals, birthday, blah blah blah.

2. waste money - i honestly dont see the point of a birthday cake especially it cost more than those bakerzin cake which i usually spend on.

3. growing older - maybe im in my self denial that im still young. i dont see the need to celebrate an event that show you are becoming older. hah! though in reality, im really young at heart! (:

4. presents - actually i dont really like presents. because since secondary, each time someone gave me a present, i normally chucked it one corner or allow it to collect dust and eventually throw it away. instead, i actually prefer a card where i could take out once in a while to show that who really care. words are really very powerful, i just appreciate card more than any other form of present (:

ps: im not demanding a card or present from anyone , just my opionion

okay, back to my project, aw :S