Lost.

I don't know how should I feel now.

Everything I know, has just got confirmed.

Everything I love,

No,

The only one I love says we do not have spark.

6 years. And yet nothing. 

Perhaps I have been fooling myself for too long. 

A future for us?

I am speechless.

I want to apologize but yet I don't want to.

I still love you. 

I really do hope you love me too.

But I know thats not the case.

Maybe I was too impulsive

Maybe I was too harsh

But all I want is an answer

Yes, I never understood the entire situation

I only respond to what I know

You are busy

Yes I don't deny

Before your exams, were your studies

After your exams, were your dance

So maybe after your dance, were your work?

And the whole cycle repeats again?

Even on the bus home,

30 minutes,

Aren't that enough to reply my message?

Kicking up a big fuss, yes I am

Uncertainty is what I feel

I am unsure

I just want to know do we have a future.

Why?

Because I love you.

A simple note.

Hey ping,

Its been 4 months since you told me that. Its after your exam too.

Can you please let me know your answer? It torturing me and I am afraid I can't take it anymore.

Last night, I read all the smses you sent me since May last year. I cried. Its so different.

I really wish to be with you but even if I can't, just tell me k?

I don't care even if the answer is no. All I want is a closure.

I still love you. Thats all.


Aaron

p.s. I know you may not read this but I really hope you do.

Dead?

Apparently I let this blog rot to the point of seriously even my host removed my template. So well settle for this for now.

Dead? This blog aren't. Its only that at time I seriously have no time or rather no mood to update. Today well I just managed to find time and pretty moody to update.

timetable ish out.

Oh well, guess what got me up so early today?

Its my new timetable of course! So just imagine my excitment when I was waiting for it. And poof! Its out!

Haha but when I actually examined the pictures future I found this.

Still don't know what it is? Look below!

Its the length of breaks that I have with Monday being the champion, clocking in at 5 FREAKING hours. Wow. Tp never fails to amaze me at times with timetabling.

Anyway, last night found out that I will not be in the same class as any of them. Its sad. But then what can I do? Its pretty sway. 6 person going to LOM, all posted to all 6 different classes. Even Cheryl Wee was a little surprised by it. There must be a conspircy.

Quick facts on my timetable. I will be taking Psychology for my cds this semester and I will be taking 5 modules only. So should have more time to study.

back to nan chiau.

Since today was my off-day, I went back to NC. Hah I drag kk with me. I actually only wanted to transfer the 59th Anniversary video which I did home, but somehow the server comp refuse to work with me.

I saw alot of juniors today. Some new, some old as in graduating. Its fast how time flies. Its been 2 years since I graduate from Nan Chiau and somehow I still feel attached to it. Its the place where romance, horror, comedy all happened. I learn alot of things there. I learnt what is love, what is respect and many more. (oh ya and not to use 'many more' in compositions - courtesy of Betsy Teo)

oh ya I saw something super horrified as I will put it.

Talk about disappearing socks. I wonder this boy, I think sec 1, did it out of ignorance or he just want to attract attention.

Oh ya another thing, I went up to Felicity classroom (now 2C) cause I wanna take some production shots and look.

Beautiful right?

So just imagine the horror when I look down and saw these...

I was in total disgust. But well it cannot be avoided. Its a Normal acad class right here. I am not being biased. But somehow I don't see such things happen in the express class corridor. Further inspection shows that actually this is not the first wall damaged. I really wonder what is Nan Chiau's discipline committee doing all this while.

N(T) & N(A) students have long being complaining that people are biased against them. They complained that people look down on them and any bad things must definitely be caused by them. Well its not people want to do that, they themselves caused all this. Just look at the above example and you will get what I mean. Yes I agree that there are still students who are well-behaved and score well, personally I know a few of them. Like my sis? Like Belinda? Like Amira? Like Colin? Like Wei Jiat? But its the behavior of others that cast the Normal stream into the bad spotlight.

Sometimes I really hope Nan Chiau conducts an interview for every student who wants to enter Nan Chiau's normal stream. I mean why enrol a student who damages school property and causes the school results to be pulled down? Isn't it stupid upon the school's part? Its such a waste of money and resources.

Well its also a waste of my time talking about them. Those people who simply damages school property and refusal to study doesn't simply worth my time, the space on this blog.

Feeling totally disgusted by them.

new template

Alright, this new template is up.

Its made with iWeb but edited with dreamweaver. But somehow there is still some bugs in the template itself.

Anyway, me & her is definitely going the way what this blog went. It will be remade in iWeb and it will be version 4.0.

Well life is fun with Mac

Nope I am still here

This blog is not dead.

Though I haven't been updating since 22nd Dec. Hah well have been busy with work and studies. But well as you can see my blog looks horrible in Firefox. I will be updating the template soon but this time on a Mac.

Yes in case some of you don't know, I finally fulfiled my lust hahaha! I got a mac. Its cool.

So just a quick update on mylife so far. Nope I am still not with her and yesh my GPA actually dropped. From a 3.8 to a 3.73. Damn shit.

Well thats all for this quick update. Expect to see a new blog design soon. Maybe a week or two, then its back to regular updating.