52. Filial Piety: Father and Son commercial

This is the commercial on telly that made me cry like a tap!

51. Thursday and i'm bored.

Another Thursday at home. Honestly time has been passing by too fast for me. When you step into the working society you would be too worn out and exhausted every night to think about life. Working is mundane. I know i shouldn't be feeling like this because i'm only working on all wednesdays, fridays and saturdays. It's only 3 days a week so what's TIRED compare to friends who are going through full time jobs, or those who are struggling between work and studies? I think i'm living my life too easily.

 

11:36pm - 10 apple shooters for me and Fiona.

And down another 3 shots each after 2am!

 

!!! The girl in pink gets to lick the body foam on Nad's body WOOOAHHH~!

Anyway yesterday was kinda awesome. Initially i didnt have plans to go anywhere but straight home after work, but something must have blown my mind for me to go with the flow to Zirca/Rebel with Han Joon, Eddie, Jerial and Sean. It only occured to me what it was when i reached. It must be it that i'm only running between Supperclub, Zouk or ButterFactory that i left out Clarke Quay. I still reminsce the days with Jo & Phin when we do club-hops on Wednesdays. It was more than a word Fun can describe! Anyways, we were at Zirca first and i fell in love with their dj console concept. Gives me the feel i'm back at Zoukout hahaha! I remember it wasn't like this the last time i was there. We shifted to Rebel after a short while and that's when i bumped into Stephanie.S and the moo-boyzz. And i suffered motion sickness while on the way to CQ, all thanks to Eddie.

Tomorrow is Friday and Won is coming down SC! Another someone is opening a birthday package too so i'm really excited. I've decided to take a break on Saturday from work to attend Sam's 19th and also because i'm going JB on Sunday with JJ, Fiona and more guys. Haven't been out of Singapore since that last trip to Bangkok in October with mom.

Oh yes, i've finally gotten my ass to ICA building yesterday (and also on tues but fruitless trip) to remake my passport because it expired. Ben came down just to collect my macbook; i'm selling him my 1yearold baby. I'm getting myself a macbook pro and itouch early next month. I'm still wondering how i'm ever going to make do on the days with laptop, in fact right now i'm using brother's desktop.

Eh. Everyone is saying i put on weight. This is really demoralizing but i'm happy fo' once i get the truth from close friends. You know how friends always choose not to say this kind of thing because they're afraid. But it works differently on me, i'd rather take the truth. Gonna assume i've been drinking too much and not because i eat too much. In fact, i've been eating 1 meal a day (the more some bites in between), so it MUST have been the alcohols i consume. my goshhhhhh.. i think i wanna take pill liaosssss.

50. xx

It's not like i haven't been trying.
Be it waiting or something more.
It's not like i chose to sink in deeper every time.
Thinking everything would perfect itself eventually.
It's not like i don't want this to end.
Just thought it would be difficult...

49. Sometimes happy, sometimes sad

@ Clarke Quay Lunar

& you ever try their carrot cake? OMG i'm going back for more!

(ignore my face please) spotted Ahboy at Butter.

Sam!!

@ Zouk!

From 9th June!

48. Supposedly...

7th June: 

Paragon > 313 > Illuma > Supperclub > OverEasy > Winsor Hotel > Sentosa > Nana

Supposedly i was in high spirits because i knew i'm gonna be collecting my pay. Supposedly i had in mind what i wanna wear out because i'd this inspiration running at the back of my brain. Supposedly to be looking forward to this day but it became just another ordinary day out on a weekday.

Ok, so maybe it wasn't that baaad but i almost almost had my depression running because i feel fat the whole time. Fiona just has this supernatural power to make my feel inferior and then disgusted at myself.

I'd KOI bubble milk tea for the first time!

47. I never wanted to leave, but you never gave me a reason to stay either.

“ It’s funny how when you finally get over someone, you start seeing them in a whole new perspective. It’s like you’re looking at them through the eyes of your best friend, and you realize, he’s nothing special. He’s just another ordinary boy. ”

Guess once in a while i still think of my past rls. It's reaching a year since we officially broke up. It was easy to remember the date because that was the day he got outta SAF. Once or twice we tried to make things happen. & frankly speaking, i've already known my feelings were (almost) dead after we started speaking a month later. But i still chose to give it a try which obviously never work out. "You, me, you or me?" that doesn't matter anymore. I've grown apart from whom i thought i used to be and turning into what i am. I used to think he could be the one; he was special to me and i feel comfortable with him. It's true, he could probably be the first guy i feel that comfortable with. But then all is over. It stopped there. It's like seeing you in a whole new perspective now- just another boy.

I moved on pretty quickly i must say. Like what they say, time heals all wounds. Maybe mine works a lil too fast because i just know it's time to give up trying. & so along the way I get heartbreaks, i get all the dirts from boyz, i get disappointments due to my weakness- i've the habit of pinning hopes on people although i clearly know that without hopes there wouldn't be disappointment, but well. It still happens..

I’m ready to let go, move on, be happy, but there’s always this little shred of “Well maybe he’ll want me tomorrow.” You know what I mean.

Yeh, it's just a selfish thought in me and definitely no hidden meaning BECAUSE life is G R E A T the way it is now! <3

46. Thunder in my eyes

It's scary because even though we are not together, I'm afraid to lose him .. .