So I browsed through the list...looking, looking.

And then I came across this one. 花吃了那女孩, or Candy Rain. A Taiwanese production which was recommended by my film professor at the HK university I attended on exchange. She said it was one of the better ones she'd viewed while judging for the Golden Horse Awards.

I'd wanted to catch it in HK last year, but didn't manage to because I'm still not used to the idea of being in a movie theatre alone. With no one to annoy with my witticisms and endless comments which I absolutely must share right now.

Perfect.

It's a very pretty film. Perfectly-composed scenes, almost like four very long music videos all linked up together to make a...music movie. Unusual but enchanting music. Beautiful, beautiful girls.

Very pleasant and comfortable to sit through...except for some parts. Well, it is a movie that revolves around an "alternative" lifestyle, after all. I like the feeling it gave me...like what I imagine sitting and writing in Cat Socrates would feel.

It's artistic, but not so much that I can't even begin to guess what it's trying to say. But in the end, I didn't really feel like it was trying to put across any specific message. It communicates, but leaves things vague enough for you to fill the scenes, the stories, with meaning. Receptacles for whatever semantics you want to pour into them. I like that.

It made me wonder if having a "different" sexual orientation is something like being left-handed, only a thousand times worse. I think 蔡康永 once said that the world was made for straight people, and everything was built and designed for heterosexuals. It's like being born with a world view that is entirely different from the world view that's "meant to be", that everyone is supposed to hold in order for things to flow smoothly. Sometimes the design of certain objects sends a jarring reminder that as a lefty, I am different. Many, many things are designed for right-handers, by right-handers. Sure, it's not that bad most of the time. But it's a little saddening when I use smartphones, tilt them, shake shake shake them to make the accelerometer kick in so the view would change to landscape mode, get frustrated as to why it isn't working, then realise...that it's because I'm tilting it the "wrong" way. Because I'm left-handed. I'm actually holding it "upside down", so "no wonder" it stays in portrait mode. So I wonder if it feels something like that. Frustration and helplessness at how thoughtless the design is. How it wouldn't even occur to people who are not that way that it's thoughtless to design it this way. Or, in the case of homosexuals, think this way, say these things, hold such views.

Food for thought.

In other news, I want this shirt, dammit.