sigh. i am feeling very depressed. it sucks when you know someone needs help but you don't know what to do to help. i've been only searching for information on GERD, and read a few articles plus read personal experience of people with GERD; nothing seems to be working out.

what should i do? the fact is that i am 10000 miles away; what can i do so far away? i hope koko is thinking about the same time; but most probably not. i hope this thing gets settled soon, preferably next year before koko flies for michigan. at least now there will still be us around. hmm, what else should i do to help?
sigh, this sucks

D:

was it silly of me?
i can't help but to think about it everytime i feel down

i really hate the place that i am at now. apart from going to classes, i don't find joy anywhere else

during freshman seminar last week, the career advisor asked what makes you happy?
seriously, i've not been happy for quite some time. to laugh does not mean that i am happy, it's just a way to deceive myself to pretend to be happy. i want to go home badly.

i have officially deleted the word friends from my dictionary today. i don't ever want to be used by people around me again. people just come to me when they have problems. and i really don't want that.

this sucks. to think about it, when we were born, we're alone. when we die, we leave alone. do we fucking care whether we made any friends in this process? no, to put it straight, the day we were born is just the day we start waiting till the day we die.

it depends on your luck to see how long this entire process takes. i think gu che will totally understand how i feel. seriously, i don't want hypocrites around me. over here i really do not know who i can talk to. but i don't really give a damn. i'm just gonna study hard and get out of this place soon!

D: i want to go home

yay! i've just received my 2nd parcel from home! AWESOME! :D i totally love my family to bits! :D

i want to go home D:

i do not know why but i am secretly avoiding you; not that you interest me anymore.

2013 dec please come faster!!

i want to move badly!!!!!! D:

sigh. this is so shitty!

i need to get out of this place. fast.

i may or may not have already realized that i have an EXTREMELY LOW LEVEL OF TOLERANCE FOR NOISE!!! after complaining to the campus housing about noisy neighbors opposite my room; for the past few nights, neighbors beside me are freaking noisy!
when i had my music turned on at close to twelve when i was about to sleep, i could still hear their voices.

i don't think i'm being unreasonable for being annoyed. i would have gladly went to their door and told them about it if there weren't my friends.

i'm starting to like the courses here; but with regards to anything else, you've gotta be kidding.

we had a fire drill today when it was 5 degrees and the wind was soooo strong! we were basically in the cold without much preparation about the winter. wonderful eh?

i felt so hopeful after the career event with lisa rutledge. she's really awesome.

so now, all that i want to do is to score well, get an awesome grade and leave this place.

i can't wait to move out of my room! serious. i don't want to worry every night esp on a thurs night, thinking whether when i wake up the next morning, would my clothes still be on me! because my roommate always forgets to lock that damn door!

annoyed with her to the max! she's totally getting on my nerves. fuck it!

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