the october update

haha guess im resorted to once a month blog posts.

so the latest. well still busy at work. im on the busiest run in the hosp and still enjoying it only cos my boss makes me laugh. haha. will so miss the timaru hosp staff. well the ones who remember my name. the others not so much. haha. ive been working there nearly 2 years now and i still get called names of other asian female house surgeons. and i still reckon none of us look alike. i always think if i can remember their name, why cant they remember mine? ive only got about a month left here and then im off to christchurch to try out anaesthetics! not entirely sure if it was a good decision but we shall wait and see.

the rugby world cup has also been on and im so excited cos im going to the final! everyone has been so jealous at work. and im pretty lucky cos the bf has organised it all. ive been saying to him how i wish we could go to a game esp since the world cup is held in nz and nz is so rugby mad. and i always wanna go after watching a game on tv. so he ended up did getting tickets even tho i hesitated cos they r so expensive! but oh well, once in a lifetime rite? so ive been so nervous for the quarter and semi finals hoping and praying dat nz would get to the final otherwise i dunno who i would have supported. and thank goodness nz is in! altho they r playing france. nz better win. haha.

otherwise not much news. i dnt really have much of a life u see.

deleted from facebook.

who the heck is still reading my blog????? i seriously need to update more but my busy life is seriously annoying me. im slightly envious of june who has decided to take 3 months off next yr to spend time with her new man. hahaha.

so anyways, while im procrastinating doing study, ive been facebooking. and i realise that there are a few ppl who have deleted me as their friend on facebook. the reason i know this is becos i go to their page and it says "add friend" at the top. the other way to know is from the list of "people you may know" and there they are, an ex friend. this makes me sad. why do ppl delete me???

one of my frens went thru a deleting rampage cos she was sick of getting all the random notifications. but i dnt post any random notifications. i dnt play on farmville or restaurant city anymore. i hardly update at all. i just silently stalk. so ppl must have intentionally deleted me. how depressing is dat????? yes i kno we hardly talk to each other but really, did u have to go to all dat trouble to delete me?

i already dnt have dat many frens to begin with. it just makes me sad to see dat ppl dnt wanna be facebook frens with me anymore. i think ppl shuld just choose carefully who they add. it's more upsetting to someone to be added and then deleted. it's just rude now.

painless jaundice

today im working a surgical long day.

one thing dat aggravates and annoys me is when patients are admitted with jaundice with bilirubin less than what i had. i always see what their blood tests are like. and anything less than 300, im not impressed with.

if they had abdo pain, ok i give them that. they need to be here for analgesia and possibly surgery.

but when they come in because of jaundice, with no pain and they have deranged LFTs not worse than mine, i get super duper annoyed.

makes me wonder was my jaundice and deranged LFTs not serious enough to warrant an admission to hospital?!?!?! instead, im seen as an outpatient and have to pay for my own bloody ultrasound scan when it could have been free in the public health system!

ERGH!!!!! irritating! dnt come to hospital until your bilirubin is above 300!

bad blogger

so obviously given the lack of blogposts, it goes to show dat working life has sucked anything interesting out of me. im totally uninspired to write. either dat or cant be bothered.

and wat's the update? not much really. it's mid july. omg, we r more than halfway thru this year already. and im still working in timaru but planning to move end of nov. not sure where yet. awaiting jobs. and been travelling a bit until im running out of leave now. went back to sg on super cheap jetstar flights and took the opportunity to go to seoul as well. felt fat and ate too much in seoul. then came back to chch and had a week off on sick leave cos i had my wisdom teeth extracted. my only 2 wisdom teeth! thankfully. lost all of the weight i put on in korea and then ive been back at work since.

been busy at work. the obs and gobs course has restarted. needing to complete audits. it's pretty much mostly work and no play altho i did have a weekend in sydney dat consisted of binge eating and movie/musical watching.

did i mention i love to eat??? hahaha. shoot, im hungry now.

miss A

influenced by my sister who's into all things K (i.e. korean), she has introduced me to miss A. another kpop girl group. i have no time to follow kpop trends even tho i used to. but this group is not bad. 4 girls, including 2 chinese nationals. mostly impressed by their dance moves and catchy beats.





their dance moves are harder than they look. one group to watch out for. and funny how the A is symbolled by a pair of long legs. haha.

mental health day

i took a sick day today. even tho i wasnt physically sick. altho i felt emotionally and mentally drained. so i excuse it by saying i took a mental health day. the rmo unit doesnt need to kno this obviously.

the last few weeks have been mentally exhausting. first the earthquake affected me quite a bit even tho i wasnt physically in chch. i was semi-depressed for the first few days following the earthquake and was stuck glued to the constant stream of news. i was checking stuff.co.nz constantly throughout the day reading updates. checking facebook regularly for updates. it was psychologically sad to realise dat the city i call my second home was in ruins. it was the familiar buildings on tv dat got to me. knowing i've spent time in the ctv building and dat ppl were stuck there got to me. it's just really sad. and the fact dat it was world news made it sink in wat a tragedy the second earthquake was and is.

and then i was in hastings for an icu course dat was rather intense. totally unfamiliar with mechanical ventilators and respiratory physiology. after 3 days, im still totally unfamiliar and hoping and praying dat i passed the mcq test. altho i already kno i got quite a few qns wrong. sigh.

i also went thru a life changing decision. it's over and done with but it has been worrying me for the past few weeks. im just glad it's now all over and i want to move on. dnt ask wat it was becos it's one of those things im never gonna tell anyone becos it's over now. i dnt wanna harp on things and i dnt wanna go over the decision dat i made.

also making some other life changing decisions like where i want to work next yr and wat my short term goals r for this yr. i dnt wanna say wat those decisions are in case i change my mind which is highly possible.

so all in all, it's been mentally exhausting. tears have been shed. feeling kinda fragile. and i start a new run as well, anaesthetics. and i have an audioconference tmr which i have not fully prepared for. and i start nites this weekend. whoop de doo. my stressful list never seems to end.

missing out...

it's sunday nite and im stuck at work. and the insane thing is dat it's reached 40 degrees celcius in timaru of all places. it's sweltering at work. im drinking ice water and sitting in front of fans as much as i can. eating a cold pottle of yoghurt rite now. altho really, i would love a mcdonald's frozen coke and fries and maybe some chicken mcbites? dats my mission for after work.

and i thought i was missing out since im not in sg for chinese new year this year. cny here was so sad. no celebration. no chinese food. i had to cook my own dinner. cooked laksa paste fried rice. and then dat nite was craving all the traditional cny food like yusheng as well as singapore food. so i tortured myself and visited the ieatishootipost website. major torture. then started craving bak kut teh and planned to cook it the next nite. except i have no bak kut teh packet. hunted for it at countdown and new world with no luck. in the end, no bak kut teh. but i still made baked blue cod with soy sauce and fish sauce and chicken stirfry with bakchoy and mushrooms. not bad. haha. esp the blue cod.

i think next yr im gonna plan to go back for cny. def miss the atmosphere. at the mo, im actually considering going back to sg for good at the end of this year. so highly likely ill b in sg for next year's cny. year of the dragon!

why chinese mothers are superior

why chinese mothers are superior
this is the most interesting article ive read in months...can totally relate to it. except for the muscial instrument part. i think my parents were more focused on the academic side. i think it was partly cos i refused to persist in the practising of the piano. and they werent too happy either when i started doing drama/dance in school. hahahahaha..

i have a sinking feeling im so gonna end up like dat if i have kids. sigh...

back from holiday and still uncertain

im back from a much needed holiday in australia. went with the bf to sydney and melbourne. main reason being dat one of my frens whom ive known for the longest time was getting married. aww...and it was my first attendance at a fren's wedding. missed the first one last year due to illness.

the holiday part was good but filled with stress nevertheless. maybe it was due to my incessant need to be in control and well, i wasnt the one planning the holiday, it was all up to him. so i couldnt help but worry dat things wouldnt go smoothly.

regardless, i enjoyed the sun and the warmer weather, the seafood (had a tonne of oysters and prawns) and the shopping.

spent new year's eve in sydney and wasted/waited 7 hours to see the famous harbour bridge fireworks. worth it? dunno. personally, not really. in future, i would either book a hotel room with a guaranteed view or book a table at a restaurant overlooking the view. then also spent my bday in melb. spent the day shopping and eating. had the most amazing degustation menu meal at number 8 at crowne complex. along with wine pairings. seriously amazing food! oysters, quail, fish, moreton bay bugs, duck, dessert, yummerz..

and then celebrated jenn and james' wedding yesterday in melb. beautiful ceremony. i had to do a reading. was so nervous. i think if i was the one getting married, i would be sweating thru the dress. hahaha. then the reception was on a boat by the dock. pretty amazing too. very happy for the newlywed couple!

and now im back in timaru. back to work tmr. my next holiday is set to be in may. going back to sg on cheap jetstar flights. and possibly going somewhere else from there, may be korea! woohoo!

in the mean time, gotta earn more money, do more work, do more study. sigh. im still stressed despite this holiday about the rest of my life. what to do?!?! uncertain about sooo many things. poos.