Bulletproof

i love this song by laroux at the mo..

BULLETPROOF
Been there done that messed around,
I'm having fun don't put me down
I'll never let you
sweep me off my feet.

I won't let you in again,
The messages I've tried to send,
My information's just not going in.

Burning bridges shore to shore,
I'll break away from something more
I'm not to not to love
until it's cheap.

Been there done that messed around
I'm having fun don't put me down,
I'll never let you
sweep me off my feet.

This time baby I'll be bulletproof,
This time baby I'll be bulletproof.

I won't let you turn around
And tell me now I'm much too proud
To walk away from something
when it's dead.

Do do do your dirty words
Come out to play when you are heard
There's certain things
that should be left unsaid.

Tick tick tick tick on the watch
And life's too short for me to stop
Oh baby, your time is running out.

I won't let you turn around
And tell me now I'm much too proud
All you do
is fill me up with doubt.

This time baby I'll be bulletproof,
This time baby I'll be bulletproof.
This time baby I'll be bulletproof,
This time baby I'll be bulletproof.

This time I'll be bulletproof
This time I'll be bulletproof
This time I'll be bulletproof

(Instrumental)

This time baby I'll be bulletproof,
This time baby I'll be bulletproof.
This time baby I'll be bulletproof,
This time baby I'll be bulletproof.

i think it's an empowering song for women. esp for those sick of being played and messed around. better to be bulletproof and not get emotionally hit. i think dats wat this song is trying to say anyways. any other theories of interpretation?

a sign of old age.

so i went out last nite to party for the first time in yonks. the plan was to gatecrash a 21st and a 25th birthday party and then head into town after.

it turned out rather interesting...first, it was awkward to gatecrash some random person's 21st...i remember having gatecrashers at my 21st and i was totally annoyed cos they wouldnt even come and wish me happy bday so at least i did wish the person happy bday. haha. just to make myself feel less guilty. and being at a 21st makes me feel old. i kno im only 23 but still being surrounded by lots of other ppl younger than u does make u feel so old.

we hung ard there for abt 3 hrs, eating the free food and drinking cocktails at subsidised prices. then were intending to gatecrash the other birthday party but then it turned out dat they were barhopping already so it was a 1 minute HI and BYE then we headed into town.

by this time, it was maybe 11.30pm? the strip was still rather quiet. but we went into ferment which played some really awesome music! and the good thing abt it being quiet was dat we had lots of floor space so we could go really crazy..however we noted dat the majority of crowd there were females so we were hypothesising whether it could have been a lesbian nite..but apparently it wasnt. hmm..

but a couple of weird things happened. for one, i had 5 drinks the entire nite and didnt feel drunk watsoever. 2 cocktails, 2 shots and 1 smirnoff and the only thing dat happened was i prob couldnt walk in a straight line (i was wearing heels too, u see..) but mentally did not feel drunk. instead i started feeling sleepy which i thot was only the case if i drank wine. and then i also got poked in the head with a straw by a random guy. WEIRD! and then when we went to coyote, had 2 guys attempt to pick us up. but it was a very weird attempt. cos they started saying we were above average. (???) and these guys were fugly. half of me was sooo tempted to say if we're above average, then u guys must be a FAIL! but no, im much too nice to say something like dat, esp to random strangers. just ignore and move away. haha. but i love how maiko tells ppl, "can u please not do that?" HAHA.

but yea from last nite's experience, ive concluded dat im much too old to go clubbing now. ppl are weird, in chch anyways. and music sucks sometimes. now i fully understand why ppl stay at home and party. much better to just drink at home and blast music dat u like. party at mansi's? she has good music. hehe.

and today, i felt sooo tired. my body is aching all over. think i over exerted myself with the dancing. didnt warm up u see. haha as if anyone warms up before going clubbing..and my joints are killing me, esp my knees. oh crap. seriously getting old for this. looks like i wont be clubbing again for yonks. im getting too old to stay up late and dance all nite. i actually started yawning at 1am i think. sigh. age is catching up with me. im becoming a granny. next thing i kno, ill be losing my memory. oh wait, dats already starting to happen. sigh.

the end of gen med. for now.

yay! i passed my gen med long case! and it turned out much better than expected and i actually got a really simple case in the end..praying does work!

so i was totally chilled out for the rest of the wk..altho i still had to show up for ward rounds and do work on the wards. but to reward myself, i started watching korean dramas. heehee..i bought a whole lot of series back from singapore and now i finally haf time to watch them! yay! bought the classics so just rewatching them to entertain myself. the life of a singleton. plus it's cold and i haf nothing better to do. and one of my frens has the julia quinn romance novel bridgerton series so im looking forward to reading dat! heehee. the next 2 runs are meant to be cruisy so im looking forward to chilling out and relaxing..but then in 8 wks time, im back to gen med. sigh. the start of my working life.

not much else to report on. i shall wait till im more free to write more thought provoking articles. i dont even get to sleep in tmr nite since im helping out with 5th yr osces. and got pulled in to go partying tmr nite as well. looks like the sleep in will take place on sun. haha.

a beautiful song...

i came across this vid while procrastinating on youtube. somehow i came across the 超級星光大道 videos and started watching the PK vids. then came across this guy from the states.



i think this was like his third appearance on the show? but there are def other vids of him singing other songs but this one made an impression on me. i love acoustic performances and there was so much emotion behind dat song and i think the camera closeup on his expressions kinda added to the whole "feel" of the song..wat do u guys think? and besides, the original was already such a beautiful song..ive def heard of it before but not exactly sure where..

and he's kinda cute too yea? lol. looks just like somebody else...

just thot id share it with u guys :)

the past week.

it has been 11 days since i last blogged. wow. i must have been really busy or totally uninspired to write. a bit of both really. here's the lowdown of wat happened in the past week. it's gonna be a long post.

thu 3rd: acute day. no time to post.

fri 4th: post acute day. very tired. plus added stress of the gen med essay dat was due the following mon. ended up procrastinating the entire nite watching trashy tv like antm.

sat 5th: weekend allocated to doing the essay. woke up late (as always) and muttered abt before celebrating nish's bday at filadelfio's dat nite. was a good nite of chitchat and laughter then it was back to reading bloody journals dat nite. tried to stay up the entire nite in vain.

sun 6th: crunch time. haf to finish the essay otherwise im doomed. it was a mix of typing and procrastinating on facebook. at least my restaurant was doing well. haha. finally finished it at 1 something AM! sigh. my last minute ways must seriously stop.

mon 7th: somehow it turned out to be busy dat day. i was doing discharge summaries non stop. seriously sick of them. but as a post essay celebration, went to watch the ugly truth at the cinema. very funny movie. totally recommended for laugh out loud fun. seriously couldnt contain my laughter. was totally exhausted after dat and fell asleep.

tues 8th: acute day AGAIN! busy busy busy.

wed 9th: post acute day. by this day, i wanted my wkend. it felt more like friday to me. and then when i came home, watched another movie. frozen flower. more abt dat later.

thu 10th: couldnt make it to work. my cough was pretty bad. so decided to stay in and recuperate. slept the entire day. enuf said.

fri 11th: finally the end of the long week. more discharge summaries. at least i had mamma mia to look forward to, which was totally awesome! much better than the movie. another big thumbs up from me.

sat 12th: another big sleep in. nothing much else.

sun 13th: slept in again. wat's new? just spent the last hour sitting outside in the sun. watching my parents do the weeding. hahaha. im so lethargic it's not funny.

anyways, the main gist of this post is abt the movies i watched recently.

first of all, the ugly truth. i had been looking fwd to watching this movie for some time and it didnt disappoint. katherine heigl was funny as always and damn, she looks hot in this movie. and the doctor guy was hot too. haha. so was gerard butler in his own way. haha. basically it was abt this control freak who was having a bit of bad luck in relationships. then along comes this guy's guy who teaches her how to keep guys interested. basically playing the hard to get game by being someone she's not.

playing the game. recommended or not, i dunno. personally im tired of games when it comes to relationships. it's hard enuf trying to follow watever rules there may be. and besides if it's a game, means someone ends up being the winner and someone else has to be the loser. and shouldnt both parties be winners in a relationship? i kno girls play the game to keep the fellas interested. and guys do the same too i spose. but enuf is enuf! it's like dat backstreet boys song. quit playing games with my heart.

and then the other movie i watched, frozen flower. well wat can i say. it's a korean movie set in the olden times of kings and queens. there's a king and queen who have not been able to conceive an heir and are under threat by another country cos they have no heir. the king by the way is bisexual and has been making out with his chief guard. the king then decides dat in order to produce an heir, the guard should have sex with the queen. which they do and they end up falling in love and the king gets jealous, becos he loves the guard. so it becomes kinda complicated. it's an odd love triangle but interesting plot nevertheless. i first heard abt this movie while reading popseoul. then i heard abt it again from my sis when i was in sg. the thing is there are multiple sex scenes in this movie. one of them involves the king and the guard. which was slightly disturbing to watch. so my sis was telling me abt the grossness of this scene. and it was kinda funny cos she didnt kno it was abt gay/bisexual issues. so it came as a big shocker. watching 2 hot korean guys making out with tongue involvement is not hot at all. it's kinda traumatising to watch. so then i came back to nz and somehow my parents had it. a fren had lent it to them, saying it's better than lust, caution. rite. so then i thot i shuld see wat the big deal was abt this movie. and i ended up watching it with my mum. and it wasnt as weird as i thot it would be. watching sex scenes with my mum. there were a lot of sex scenes and there were a lot of positions used. lol. so it only became weird when i blurted out, "omg, they even kno the 69 position in those days." big mistake. cos then my mum asked me, "how do u kno it's called dat?" uh oh. now im thinking crap, my mum thinks ive been having sex. S*#%. so then i reply, "i dunno how i kno, but i just do?" then my mum gives me the suspicious look and asks me, "are u sure???" which then reminds me of this youtube video i had watched recently by kevjumba, abt watching sex scenes with ur parents. it's definitely awkward and not recommended. i told my sis abt wat had happened and she was in shock and was questioning how i could have watched this movie with mum. sigh. oh well. here's the kevjumba video. his dad is hilarious.



so yea in summary, never watch movies with ur parents unless u kno there are def no sex scenes in them. ive def learnt from my mistakes.

cam whore

ive been told im part of the generation dat takes pictures of anything and everything. i was told this by my sister while we were eating at a restaurant. the table next to us was occupied by girls prob ard my age. and they were taking pics of themselves and each other. abt half an hour later, they were ard the restaurant taking even more pics.

and me on our table, i was taking pics of the food. yup. my sister was rite. i am part of the generation dat loves to take pics. however, i kept to just taking pics of the food since my sis would prob make a face if i start taking pics of her and she would prob groan if i asked her to take pics of me.

but i def kno lots of ppl, who like me, are trigger happy. we take photos of watever is interesting. we even try and make things interesting just so we can take photos. we attempt to make funny faces. we even change the mode and setting on the camera just so the pic is different.

ive even mastered the art of self taking. the art of holding out one's own arm as far away as possible in order to capture everyone into a single frame. dat takes great skill. lol. it's also an art to make diff poses and faces. happy face, sad face, blur face, ecstatic face, silly face, crying face, laughing face, etc, etc...u name it, we make the face.

but is it really my generation dat does it? taking pics with my sis often involves just doing a smiley face. taking pics with my frens often involves doing many faces. is it cos we r bored? and have nothing better to do? yes i can say dat for myself. and then we end up posting the pics on facebook, posting pics of our silly faces and tagging each other for fun. we also end up changing our profile pics on a regular basis. we also take pics using our cell phones so dat we can change the wall paper.

the term dat defines us: cam whores. i dunno wat it is abt our generation but maybe a part of us wants to become famous. esp since it's so easy to do so. we publicise our lives thru our stories, pics and status updates. it's become a part of daily life. even i'm publicising who i am via this blog. many ppl of my generation have become famous simply by posting videos on youtube.

personally, i dont think i could ever cope with being famous. becos most famous ppl's pics always end up getting vandalised anyways. ppl are cruel in nature and there will always somehow be a moustache or a black tooth shaded in if u're ever on paper media. i for one am not able to deal with criticism on a big scale. but yes i do admit i post pics on facebook. and ive become more accepting of wat gets posted up whether it be a good or bad pic of me. ive come to accept dat no one is perfect including me. ive def had my fair share of bad pics. but oh well. i still regularly take pics of myself. and will still do, esp since now i have a new digital camera. looks like more camwhoring for me. :)

so in an attempt to make full use of my camera, i shall start posting pics up on this blog. prob the next post tho. :)