busy for the next 4 days.

my initial freedom of surgery is now gonna disappear very soon..which is good and bad..

good cos ill actually get to do something and may learn something along the way..

bad cos dat means ill be really tired from the standing ard..

tmr is the beginning of my 4 day acutes..wish me luck and pray dat i dnt die..hahaha..

i miss Chinese New Year!

i officially miss celebrating chinese new year in singapore...chch sucks for cny...at least dnd has fireworks!

the fact dat cny this yr falls on a monday doesnt help either..got a mix of the mon blues and wishing dat today is a public holiday just like in sg..the good news is dat i finished at the hospital at a record breaking 8.45am..

i miss the atmosphere of cny..even tho the music annoys me to death, it just aint the same without hearing the traditional cny songs playing in the malls or seeing the decorations overwhelming with redness..the only deco i saw today was in the physio dept with a small sign hanging dat said "xin nian kuai le" in chinese characters..which made me smile..

i miss the food dat comes with cny..the goodies dat include love letters, bak kwa, pineapple tarts, shrimp paste rolls, black seeds, the list can go on and on..ive already requested my mum to send over some stuff..haha..either dat or keep some till i go back to sg..and then there's the constant eating..with dinners at chinese restaurants..and having steamboat at my grandma's place for reunion dinner..and then having the vegetarian meal at my other grandma's place on the 1st day..with fake prawns, fake meat, fake everything..cos it's all vegetarian..haha..and who can forget the must have dish of yusheng..always order it at chinese restaurants for all the dinners prior to cny..



it's like playing with food..making the mess when u mix it up and "lo hei"..and i love the raw fish and crispy crackers with the sweet sauce..mmm..yum..and it's healthy cos it's a salad!

spending cny alone in chch makes me realise how cny is really a time for family..i miss my family..i miss eating with them..and getting ang bao from them..HAHA!

instead on this 1st day of cny, i shall be doing work and doing some chores..but i def wont be sweeping anything anytime soon..

random spiders

im up pretty late at nite..or i shuld say morning..doing very meaningless things such as playing geochallenge on facebook and listening to music on youtube..sigh..im such a procrastinator..and now here i am blogging..

there's actually quite a few things i need to do..but im kinda putting them off..which is not very good..hmm..

anyways..on a side note..ive noticed a couple of spiders in the bathtub..actually i noticed them a few wks ago..there were 2 spiders in the bathtub..medium sized ones..and i couldnt b bothered doing anything abt it..so i left them there..each day i would see dat these 2 spiders would have moved..changed positions..but when i see them, they're pretty stationary..as if they're playing freeze..so anyways they were there for a couple of days..then suddenly only saw one..then i thot oh good they're disappearing on their own..then i saw a bigger spider..then i thot, either they grow pretty fast or dats a completely different spider..then i noticed a spider in one of the cups by the sink! i was like oh no! they're moving to other territory..and this time i wasnt gonna stand there and do nothing abt it..time for me to take some action..so i kinda filled the cup and flushed it down the sink..and ran the tap to flush it down the drains..hoping it wouldnt crawl back out..then a few days later..the spider in the bathtub is even bigger! like bigger than a 50 cent coin..i wasnt gonna risk this spider moving any closer..so i ran the bathtub tap..and tried my best to flush it down..using the cup to pour water over the spider..but man, this spider was resilient..took me a good minute to try and get the spider into the drain..and finally, it couldn't resist any longer..and eventually drowned into the drain..well, hopefully they wont climb back up..but i shall continue to monitor wat's in the bathtub..thank goodness i dnt take baths..i take showers..

i think the spiders are climbing out cos of the hot weather..which reminds me of dat childhood song..insy weensy spider..or something like dat..

i think i can be quite merciless when it comes to insects and bugs..i hate them..esp the ones dat fly..oh but butterflies are forgiven just cos they look so pretty..

hmm..wasted another 10 mins typing this random meaningless crap..oops..ok time to sleep..hope ill be able to wake up early tmr to do some meaningful work..

dancing with strangers...

i went to a salsa dance lesson yesterday..out of the blue..haha..my fren randomly asked me to join her and i thot why not?

i had done a bit of partner dancing in the past..not exactly keen on it cos it highly depends on the male's leading..so if the guy can't lead well, then im a bit stuck..and it usually involves a lot of spinning, which makes me kinda dizzy..altho i have to say ceroc was quite fun with all the turns and arm twisting..haha..

then i had done some latin dance in the past..even went to a latin fitness class the last time i was back in sg..so i knew some basic steps..

but im more of a solo dancer..i guess it ties in with my character..not wanting to depend on other ppl..wanting to do my own thing and be judged based on my own skills and not others..

but anyway, i hadnt been dancing for ages and i was so free ytd since i actually finished at the hospital at 9.30am (!!!) so i just went along..

it was a beginner class and there were heaps of ppl! and for the first time ever in my experience, there were more guys than girls! dat never happens in a partner dance class..usually there would be an excessive number of girls and they would be forced to pair up with each other and one girl would have to learn the guy's part..ive been in dat situation before and dats just silly having to learn both parts..

so we learned the basic steps and started practising in partners..and we would change partners every so often..if u came in a couple, u were allowed to stay together..it's very funny changing partners..each time u're with a new person, u would introduce urself and get into starting position..it's funny how it seems so ok for a stranger to invade ur personal space for the sake of learning to dance..so i must have danced with like at least 6 guys..forgotten all their names..but u realise soon enuf dat not every guy can dance..some are very good at leading..some have the weirdest coordination..some are just terrible to the point where i was so tempted to lead..which is a bad bad thing to do apparently..so soon one hour passed..and dat was the end of the class..

then the 2 teachers gave a very cool demonstration..and wow..amazing stuff..salsa is a very sexy dance..hahaha..makes me wanna give up everything and learn to dance as a full time job..ive always liked watching dance..im a big fan of so you think you can dance..i even like watching ballroom..another one of my lifetime goals to learn how to waltz..dat would be cool..but obviously dat's another personal space invading dance..haha..

so dancing with completely random strangers is weird but wat to do? all for the sake of learning to dance..sigh..shuld add dat to my list of criteria.."able to dance, not just like JT, but also able to lead..."

confessions & rejections

with my recent lee hom obsession, ive been youtubing a couple of his vids and came across this one...



it's him hosting an mtv show and becos his album title is "heartbeat", he was sharing an incident in his past, where his heart beat and his face became red due to confessing his feelings to someone..(it sounds better in chinese)..

so for those dat don't understand chinese, basically this incident happened in college and he liked this girl called sharon but none of his friends knew her..then somehow he decided to compose a song for her and actually performed it in front of her and told her dat the song is for her..the result wasnt dat great with awkwardness and her saying after the performance, "that was weird.." (correct me if i got the translation wrong..haha..)

hahaha i had to crack up cos this was wang lee hom! do u kno how many females absolutely love him?? i cant imagine wat dat girl sharon must be feeling now..to have rejected a guy like wang lee hom..poor him..

then all of this kinda reminded me of my own experience..ive only ever "confessed" once and dat was AGES ago and nothing eventuated..well it was prob a mistake to have done it in the first place cos he was so wrong for me..up to this day, i still dunno wat i liked abt him..but wat i realised after dat experience is, telling someone dat u like them is a very brave thing to do and i'm glad i did it in person and not via technology..(this reminds me of dat song "ayo technology" by 50 cent)..and i also realised it's a very embarrassing thing to do as well which i shall never ever do again! cos really, i reckon it's the guy's job to do it..so kudos to guys who are brave enuf to tell the girl dat they like them..

but then on the other side of the story, there's obviously no guarantee dat the other person likes them back..ive been on the receiving side as well and i think knowing how it feels to confess to someone does alter the way i reject ppl..like i wouldn't be like sharon and say "gosh u r weird" cos dat would be too mean..

it's all good if the feelings r mutual..and usually as a girl, u're like YES! he finally did something abt it..but it's a bit embarrassing if it's one sided..it's a bit of a challenge to tell someone u absolutely dnt wanna be with them but still try to maintain the friendship..there's the danger dat they mite be persistent, which can be annoying..but so far, ive managed to maintain a few of the friendships..but obviously have lost some as well..but as a girl, id say rejecting someone does suck as well..to be the bearer of bad news is not a nice feeling but it's better to tell the truth than to lie and suffer..

and i have to say some of the ways dat guys confess are really quite entertaining..i reckon it's pretty sweet if a guy composes a song for u like lee hom did but obviously sharon wasn't very appreciative! i kno someone who told me abt the way one of her frens confessed to her..the guy told her to come to his room cos he wanted to talk to her abt something..she didnt have a clue abt wat it was abt so went anyways..when she showed up, the room was completely dark and he was lying in bed..(sounds strange already rite?) so she was standing there in the doorway..and then he started telling her abt how he liked her for a long time already since he saw her and the usual blah blah blah..obviously she said no..becos he wasn't her type at all..and then she left..the guy must have ended up crying in bed in the dark? haha..im so mean..but wat a strange way of confessing!

the moral of the story is..be brave if u wanna confess to a girl (or guy)..and if u're gonna reject someone, be nice abt it cos u never kno when it mite be ur turn to confess to someone else..

D-U-M-B

i am seriously dumb, D-U-M-B, dumb..

i think my brain is not functioning properly..either dat or my brain is not suited for a career of medicine..

i think im getting dumbER with age as well..must be early onset dementia..sigh..

another emo day...

feeling emo today...



when was the last time i truly cried? let me count the days, the weeks, the months...

birthday wishes

this is a bit of a delayed post..

everyone has their "special" day and mine was last week..on tues to be exact..i remember always complaining when i was younger dat my bday was during the hols..so i could never celebrate with frens or have bday parties..come to think of it, i think the only party dat my parents ever organised for me was my 1st bday..every other bday when i was growing up consisted of me choosing my own cake..i still remember dat cake shop called angie's choice..and i would always choose the one with the face of a girl with pigtails..i look back on photos and remember making a huge deal of having a bday cake..making special note to have my bday wish and blow out the candles..

as i got older, my bdays were still mostly celebrated with family..cos i would usually be on holiday in sg and we would have dinner out and have cake at home..and still, i would usually choose the cake..

i remember a special bday dat i had in sg tho when my sis organised a surprise bday party..it was a bit sad tho dat i didnt really have any frens in sg becos we moved to nz so early..but yea i really did appreciate the effort she made in organising it..and her frens were like my big sisters and brothers who helped in making dat bday memorable..

and when i was approaching 21, i thot rite, maybe i shuld celebrate it with a big bang..so i organised one rite after 3rd yr exams..which was in nov..haha..like 2 mths early..to have ppl there before the big split up of the year group..it was a hassle to organise esp with exams ard the corner..but i had frens who contributed which helped a lot..and when the time came, it turned out to be more of a big end of yr party..there were a few funny memories, like when i blew half a flaming shot onto the bartender who was pretty pissed off..hehe..and when i got kicked out of the bar..lol..and when i threw away all my inhibitions and did an embarrassing performance..haha..but i made a particular wish dat bday..which up to now still hasnt come tru..

the actual date of turning 21 was nothing special..didnt have a cake cos already had one at the party..my bday then became like any other day..the next bday was no better really..it was spent with family like before..and we had dinner the nite before the actual day..on the day itself, i was feeling unwell so laid in bed most of the day..my mum had actually bought cake but i didnt eat any of it..i never made the wish or blew out the candles..

to me, the point of celebrating bdays is to have bday cake, make the wish and blow out the candles..it was the one day of the yr where i was allowed to make wishes..and i guess ever since i realised wishes never really do come tru, i kinda gave up at the hope of making bday wishes..thereby not having cake at all..bday cakes remind me of unfulfilled wishes..so even now, i dread the day itself..

so wat happened this yr? well..for the first time, my bday was not during the hols so i couldnt escape ppl wishing me happy bday..and thks to reminders from facebook, the bday wishes came in one by one..i also didnt have family ard..which was a first..but instead, a dear fren organised a "catch up" the nite before..and i guess half of me knew it was for my bday..lo and behold, yup it was for my bday..and instead of cake, i got 2 muffins..which i thot was kinda funny..since i was prejudiced against bday cakes..i dunno if it was God's way of making me come to accept bdays once again or if it was just a fluke..she had called the wrong branch of the bakery so went to the wrong shop..and could only find muffins from coffee culture..very funny story..and instead of stick candles..she got the fragrance candle from one of those home accessories shop..and dat sat in the middle of the 2 muffins..oh the irony of it all..this time i did make a wish and im still waiting to see if it's gonna come tru..if it does, i'll be super happy and if it doesn't, then i guess bday wishes are really not for me anymore..

it's funny tho how as u get older, events like bdays become less of a big deal..the day itself becomes just like any other day and ppl lose track of how old they r turning..i personally dnt expect presents anymore and if i do, they r a surprise..

im approaching the mid twenties and yet there r times when i still feel like the little girl who didnt have a care in the world but those times are few..most of the time, i feel older than my age with stress and worries abt my future and the life dat lies ahead of me..at the end of the day, age is really just a number and how i feel now does not truly reflect how old i am..how i wish i could go back to the innocence of childhood where my only worry is which cake to choose..

tongue exercises with a cherry stalk

i accomplished an amazing thing for the 1st time tonite!

i was eating cherries and ive never tried tying a knot using the cherry stalk before so for the 1st time, i stuck a cherry stalk into my mouth and started to attempt my knot tying skills using my tongue..and omg it's quite hard..

but after abt 5 mins, i eventually got a knot! and just to prove to myself it wasn't a fluke, i took another cherry stalk and tried it again..and again, after abt 5 mins, another knot!

and now my tongue is tired..it's actually quite tiring..hahaha..so wat does this all prove? nothing really..i was just bored and eating cherries. :)

crack crack crack crack!

another funny and catchy kpop song..this time it's a dude..listen for the crack crack crack crack!



this is the official music video..so this is seungri and the song is called strong baby..wat strikes me abt the vid is the HUGE similarity to JT's vids..sexy back? my love? wat a copycat..pity the guy cant dance as well as JT..apparently this guy is only 18..sigh..which makes me feel all the more older..

the live performance version of the vid shows seungri with slightly better dance moves but still not quite the slickness of JT..and omg he seems like such a player..and the audience is pretty funny when they start singing along to the cracks and start screaming when he does his flirty moves or when the dancers start touching him..haha..it's quite funny..



the song itself is actually quite catchy and i find myself humming along to the cracks..hahaha! def a song dat makes me subconsciously start moving..haha..

but still, i like the JT better..he has a new song out too with TI, "dead and gone", but video is not out yet..too bad the embedding for all his other vids are disabled otherwise i would have put a video of JT up..but if u wanna see my all time fav JT song and vid, click here..

"ideal bf"

this is just for fun and shuld be taken lightheartedly..

this is in response to the post "drama and romance"..someone asked me wat is my ideal bf..well i was thinking abt it..actually it changes all the time..as i get older and wiser abt wat i want in my "ideal bf"..and like i said before, there is no such thing as an ideal bf becos i could never live up to those standards and my mum always says, it would be very hard to be with someone who's so perfect cos u would become very insecure and worried dat all the girls would be eying (is dat how it's spelt?) him..which is prob tru..heck..even aunties were eying and gossiping abt the guy who i thot was quite hot..haha..dats another story..

so here's the list and requirements of my so called "ideal bf" which by the way im sure doesn't exist in reality..but here goes..the impt ones are in bold..

Physical

• MALE - females need not apply, im very certain dat im 100% straight so pls dnt even try to bend me..
• oldER than me..preferably at least by 2 yrs..
  
• height greater than 1.78m, preferably above 1.8m
• not overweight and not too lanky..fat and skinny guys are a bit of a turn off..but then again, id rather tall and fat than short and average..
  
• good build and preferably with straight shoulders, not the sloping shoulders..
• pleasant looking face, no dysmorphic features..haha
• captivating eyes and still looks good even if wearing glasses (for the good boy look)
• a good haircut is a must! pls see leehom's video as a reference..long hair is not acceptable..neither is bleached hair..
  
• no piercings..if pierced already, pls dnt wear the earring..
• good complexion
• nice straight teeth with a nice smile..pls see pics of daniel henney as reference..dimples are a bonus..
• monobrow is not acceptable..
• clean shaven pls..
  
• basically if u look like, daniel henney, daniel wu, lee hom, keanu reeves, takeshi kaneshiro, the list can go on but i cant think of anymore..if u look like them then loads of brownie points for u..hahaha..
• walks with a straight back..no hunching pls..and also walks properly..
• smells good..HAHA..this is actually quite impt however strange it mite sound..
• no bad breath..
  

Characteristics

• honest, at least with me..
• MUST respect me and my family and frens..
• christian values, preferably a christian..
• generous as a person, not a cheapskate..
• hardworking..not a slacker..
  
• humble..overconfidence and arrogance is a real turn off..
• does not think higher of himself than other ppl..
• acknowledges his own flaws..
• not kiasu..google the term if u dnt understand..
  
• friendly and sociable..able to hold a conversation with most ppl..
• must be more mature than me..but not boring..
• not too conservative and not too open either..
• adventurous, likes to try new things, spontaneous..
• ABLE TO MAKE ME LAUGH! humour is super impt..
• nice person and likeable in general..
• gentlemanly towards all new
  
• well spoken..see daniel henney on youtube as a reference..

Lifestyle

• stable job and career, should be ambitious
• does not necessarily need to be in same career field as me
• works hard, also plays hard..
• has hobbies and interests dat he's passionate abt..
• likes music..able to play a musical instrument is a bonus..
• physically fit, with stamina..
• healthy..
  
• has frens who accept me..
  
• NON smoker..
• able to hold his liquor better than me..and does not get emo when he gets drunk..
• able to dance is a big bonus..esp if he can dance like JT..if only..at least shuld be daring enuf to dance..
• able to drive..good if there's some car knowledge
  
• knowledgeable with computers..
• knos abt the economy and how to manage his money wisely..
  
• well groomed..able to dress well..
• slightly metro but not overly gay..i.e. uses cleanser and moisturiser but not makeup..
  
• neat and tidy..
• likes watching movies and tv..
• able to cook..
• loves food and is willing to spend on good food and wine..very impt..
• good table manners..does not talk with food in mouth..major turn off..
  
• loves to travel and accepting of other ppl's diversity and cultures..
  
• independent in general, able to take care of himself..not dependent on me to cook and clean for him..
  

Relationship stuff

• MUST love me more than i love him..
• still loves me even at my worst..
  
• able to be trusted..very impt..and he must trust me too..
  
• keeps his promises..
  
• sweet but not to the point of a toothache..
• remembers impt dates..
• romantic but must be meaningful..
• pls not PDA..takes other ppl into account..
• does not cheat on me..
• will not hit on my frens or sister..
  
• is accepting of me and my flaws..
• will not end up being gay..
  
• NOT clingy..has no need to spend time with me 24/7..
• has marriage in mind in the long run..
• wants kids and is good with children..
• not stingy with me..
• will put up with me and my emo/bitchy times..
• is patient with me..
• always able to cheer me up when im feeling down..
  
• does not take longer than me to get dressed and ready..
  
• is protective of me and wants to take care of me..
• not possessively jealous, only slightly jealous.. new
  
• does not remember every single argument and use it against me in future..cos dats my job..hahaha..
  
• will NEVER EVER make fun of me, esp not in public..
  
• able to confide in me his deepest thoughts..
  
• will not judge me based on my past or wat other ppl say..
• will not kiss and tell..
  
• his family accepts me..has a nice mother who treats me better than him..hahaha..
  
• will not die earlier than me..

there's one more impt thing which is a must but ill keep u all guessing..hahaha..so dats my list and im sure there's more..haha..will keep adding to the list..anything else i shuld add? but i def kno dat this person is def non existent..haha..thus there is no such thing as an ideal bf..

and besides even if i end up with the ideal bf, it's not a given dat it will be a successful relationship..relationships and marriages take a lot of hard work, compromise and sacrifices..i see it everyday with my parents..life is never perfect and there will always be arguments and hard times..but wat makes a relationship successful is the ability as a couple to work thru those problems together..

note to anonymous 2: erm..unlike wat u said, i dnt have a leehom lookalike bf let alone a bf..haha..but thks for the confidence in me dat a leehom lookalike bf is attainable :)

and to all reading, pls feel free to comment but pls comment on the actual post itself and not on wat other ppl comment on..it totally loses track of the whole point of the post..and disappoints me when i see dat there are comments but it's totally irrelevant to the actual post..

talent + looks = wang lee hom

while i was watching my dramas on youtube, i happened to chance upon more music videos..this time of the very good looking wang lee hom..so apparently he has recently released his latest album titled heartbeat..and i managed to find 2 tracks which are pretty good..

the 1st song is titled heartbeat..listen for the electric guitar bit..and wow he looks good in this mv..hahaha..but the song seems kinda sad..

trivia! the girl in the mv is apparently a jap singer and was part of speed, the girl group fr japan..i rem them when i was in high school..but cant really remember their music..but she's soooo pretty..



the 2nd song has a long title..something along the lines of the sun that's been washed by the spring rain..this one is my fav out of the 2..very chillaxed feel to it..maybe it's the whistling..maybe it's the pitter patter of rain..or the acoustic guitar..but i can imagine myself lying in bed with the sun streaming in..and having dat song on repeat..and again..he looks good in this mv..which he also directed..



he is truly talented, writing and composing his own songs, and now directing his own mvs? sounds familiar? like another musical genius who's also very famous in asia? (erhem..jay chou?) haha..but lee hom def looks good..esp for his age..think most females would agree with me..haha..there's just something about a good looking guy who can serenade u with any instrument..be it the piano, violin or guitar..

maybe im envious cos im not musically blessed..couldnt even make it past 1st grade piano..haha..but it's one of my lifetime goals..to be able to play a musical instrument well..if i could only coordinate my right and left hands..

NEW!!! ok i found another one of his mvs from the latest album..this one is completely diff from the 1st two but still very cool..and it makes me wanna play guitar hero..hahaha..

dramas and romance

ive been on hols for the past 2 weeks and so ive been catching up on the sleep..

another thing ive been catching up is my addiction to asian dramas..in the past week or so, ive already finished watching 3 asian dramas..pretty impressive huh? hahaha..



the first one was zettai kareshi (absolute boyfriend), a jap drama, so pretty short at only 11 episodes..it's abt a girl who never gets the guy..who gets the opportunity to create her ideal boyfriend..a robot bf..it's pretty funny and the robot bf keeps telling everyone dat he is her ideal bf..hehe..it's really embarrassing for the girl and the girl is really likeable as a person..very kawaii! but the ending is pretty sad but sweet too..def worth watching!



guess who's the girl?

the second one i completed was hana kimi jap version..i had heard abt the taiwanese version..i even started watching the tw version but never really got into it..just weird seeing ella as a boy cos she really looks like a boy! so thot id try out the jap version..well the story is abt a girl who idolises this high jumper and travels all the way to japan and attends the same school as he does..trouble is it's an all boys school so she dresses up as a man..the jap girl as a boy actually looks quite cute..so doesn't really put me off..haha..altho the main lead is not as good looking as wu zun..hahaha..but the jap version is really funny! and the ending is good! so i like it..apparently the tw version has a sucky ending so another reason why i wasnt dat keen to watch..this drama also another worth watching!



dnt they look sweet? hehe..

the third one, im close to completion..another 2 episodes before i finish watching devil beside you..yea i kno it's an oldie..but i read on forums dat it was a goodie so i thot id give it a shot..and surprisingly it's pretty good..it's a bit long at 20 episodes and there are a few draggy parts but the chemistry btw the 2 leads is really good and dat makes it interesting to watch..and yang cheng lin is really cute in this drama! so this story is abt a girl who has a crush on the basketball team captain and wanted to reveal her true feelings to him using a love letter..unfortunately the letter falls into the wrong hands of the "devil" who is this bad guy who wants to make life hell for the girl..thus threatening her to become his slave otherwise he would show the letter to the entire school..and of cos they end up liking each other..but their parents want to marry each other so they are to become siblings..so it's a bit abt dat forbidden love as well..told u it was long and draggy..hahaha..but still worth watching it for the cute and funny bits..im not sure wat's the ending yet but if it sucks, ill put an edit note..haha..


so all these rom com dramas remind me of an article i read a few wks ago..about how watching these rom coms can ruin ur love life..cos it makes u have false expectations abt how relationships are spose to be..

yea i guess it has some sense to it..i for one havent heard of any stories dat ive seen in dramas happen in real life to anyone i kno..but surely they were inspired by real life? (the wishful side of me talking now..haha..)

so wat happened to real life? do we have unrealistic views or expectations of how romance shuld be? does life really end in happy endings? in the world we live in today, i havent heard of anyone with a robot bf, or anyone who has purposely dressed up as a guy in order to attend the same school as their idol..i dunno anyone who would write a love letter to tell the person they had a crush about their feelings..i have heard of ppl writing dat via email..which is pretty unromantic..along with txt dating and msn relationships..sigh..wat has the world come to..

im sure ppl in the old days were more romantic than ppl today..im sure ppl treasured their loved ones more..divorce rates now are super high..now marriage doesnt necessarily lead to happily ever after..

life has become too easy for us..we demand more out of everything in life..we expect things to run faster, to last longer..and if it doesn't work out the way we wanted it to, we give up soon and move on to the next thing..maybe dats how we have come to think of relationships..which is a pity really..

hmm..i seem to be talking in circles..haha..maybe i dnt really kno wat im talking abt but i just think relationships nowadays arent treasured like how they shuld be..ppl end up together just for the sake of it..and not becos they really like each other..ppl break up just becos they didnt like one thing abt dat person..

so romance only lives in the dramas i watch..heck it dat it doesnt exist in real life..at least i can fantasise abt it when im watching my dramas..

hello 2009!

so it's the beginning of a new year.

2008 has been a year filled with memories, good and bad..wat was my new year's resolution last year? i don't know..im not the type to do resolutions anyways..but this new year, ive decided to make one..

Be content with being independent...

i believe life is a journey and God puts us through obstacles along the way in order to give us strength and prepare us for the challenges that lie ahead of us..as such, i believe im being put thru a test..to see if i can grow up and become a self reliant adult..the reality is im gonna be a working adult pretty soon anyways so def gotta learn now or else it's too late..

so therefore i hope dat 2009 gives me a fresh outlook on my life and gives me the chance to truly be content with myself and not hate the world so much..besides, im getting old, i shuldn't be so hung up on wat's come and gone..

so cheers to the life that awaits me! i look forward with eager anticipation..