Monday, June 15, 2020

Tarot Reading .....

I did a general reading for myself tonight - not something I typically do ... but have been mulling it around in my head for about a week now - more so over the last few days - and I did one tonight while I had my cards out doing them for others ...

I did the typical 3-Card spread....



So THE GUIDE in my deck is also known as Temperance in others ... so I went to a trusty place to pull meanings since I'm still kinda learning....

Temperance wants you to know that you can blend opposites together and find harmony. You maybe seeking the truth and want to discover new awareness. You are very in tune with the vibrational frequencies around you.

You maybe in a situation that needs constant bits of work and adjustments to make it just right. You will need to take things in moderation and not go to the extremes.

Temperance maybe about the wide open country, big skies and a relaxing healing environment that facilitates the natural flow of energy.

Temperance as a person indicates that your soul has fought through many incarnations for religious freedom. Because you probably fought for religious freedoms, you have a high sense of justice. You want to defend the weak. You stand up for what is right.

You have incarnated here on Earth again to be a funnel for higher frequencies. You are probably very interested in your own spiritual development. You are probably in tune with your dreams, spirits and angels.

Temperance in romance is very independent. It suggests tribulations in relationships and unequal unions. Temperance in romance is also yearning to be with the "one" or no one. Temperance in romance does not settle because they tend to have an attitude like "I'm here for a reason and with a mission." That mission may not involve romance. A temperance person may say things that can be mean and cutting too.

Temperance tells you that you will heal after a breakup. S/he may come back to give you closure.

Temperance is about healing. Especially talking it through with someone. Temperance people love to ask questions and fix problems. Temperance almost never indicates a reconciliation between two people after a breakup.

Temperance as a feeling allows any unrest to settle. It brings calm, knowing and harmonized feelings towards a person or situation. You may even feel like a project is finally perfected.

Temperance advises you to  keep your cool and not get hot tempered.

Temperance can indicate mixing together essential oils and making home made bath products.

Temperance and Ten of Cups (Future Spot) in the same reading:

    a. Families of opposites work together in harmony.

    b. Opposites attract and merge peacefully and amicably together.



CAULDRONS is also know as CUPS ....

LET ME FIRST SAY .... I am a Moonchild.  I am Cancer (Zodiac).  So this card ... feels like .. a big fat DUH ... 

Moon in Cancer brings in a sense of moodiness and despondency that is needed. The Moon rules Cancer and is in its natural home in the Four of Cups, this means that the moon needs its time to make its cyclic journey. Emotions can be up and down and with that comes melancholy. Maybe there was too much of a good thing in the Three of Cups, so in the Four of Cups we need to have a time out to reflect on what is passing. Give yourself sometime to relax, meditate and reject those things which do not serve you anymore. It's okay to go New Moon and disappear for a few days and like all cyclic this one is only temporary.

The Four of Cups often signals a refusal of some kind.

The Four of Cups can indicate someone making a hasty "no" decision without regard to thinking it through. The Four of Cups suggests that you should weigh all your options at this time.

On the other hand, the Four of Cups can indicate severe boredom and lack of interest that you will probably not regret. You could be on a date where you'd rather be doing almost anything else.

The Four of Cups suggests that you are depressed and perhaps too depressed to make good judgment calls. You maybe missing good opportunities because you are so sad. This sadness maybe caused by outside forces that you have no control over.

The Four of Cups can indicate being so hung over that you can't bear the sight of alcohol anymore. You are so hung over that you refuse drinking for sometime. The sight and smell of alcohol makes you sick.

If you are already in a relationship it can signal apathy and boredom. If you are asking about a potential love interest, then they will probably reject you.

The Four of Cups is all about feelings. Cancer can be very much affected by their moods, feelings and longing. In the Four of Cups, we have a man rejecting an offer. This suggests feelings of apathy, discontentment, feeling tired and probably turned off by whatever is in that cup.

The advice for the Four of Cups is to take the hand. Someone is offering you help in some way, yet you feel apathetic about it. You don’t want to accept, but need to accept help. This card can often come up for someone who doesn’t accept the cup, but ends up regretting it. It’s a sad position to get in love readings because the person really should have taken the stability of the fourth cup. It was written in the stars. The Moon in Cancer is in its natural position, so this is a “meant to be phase” that a lot of people miss. My advice is to take the hand. Ignore the man looking away from the outstretched hand. He’s a fool because that’s the hand of god. That is your destiny. If this is advice in love, it would be wise to go out on one more date, you never know what could happen.


Again....  CAULDRONS is also called CUPS ....

Family happiness is a sure thing if you get the Ten of Cups. It can foretell of long nights spent with your family doing craft project or watch family movies together. You enjoy making meals together and they taste so good because they come from your heart. It can indicate that you are very happy doing all these things together. The Ten of Cups is the perfect description of family unity and happiness.

The Ten of Cups is the emotional contentment card. Find yourself lucky if you get this card.

The Ten of Cups is also about family, extended family and communities. You could be spending the summer with relatives at a summer home while enjoy the simple bliss of life.

The Ten of Cups can suggest that you are coming together with another person as a family. You both might have children from previous relationships, thus the Ten of Cups can indicate adopting kids. The Ten of Cups can also suggest that you and your spouse are a perfect family and have beautiful children of your own. Family happiness is assured when you get the Ten of Cups.

Tens can indicate an excessive of each suit, not necessarily the culmination. In the Ten of Cups we see us dreaming of the fantasy where wishful thinking and price charming stories play a big role. Be careful not to lose yourself in over idyllic fantasies and stories. There maybe a tendency to over idealize a situation before it happens.

If you are asking how someone feels towards you, then the Ten of Cups assures you that they feel completely emotionally content. They are in love with you for sure. They feel happy, secure and emotionally fulfilled.

When the Ten of Cups comes up in the obstacles or crossing position of your reading, it can indicate that you feel trapped in a relationship and may want a divorce.

It can also indicate that you are caught up in the emotional Pisces world of dreams and fantasies of the fairy tale marriage and family that you aren't seeing the reality of the situation. Pisces has a tendency to get lost in reverie and without action you cannot make the dreams concrete. You maybe spending too much time dreaming about the perfect relationship that you aren't allowing viable options to blossom.

If you are in a relationship, you maybe ignoring that the relationship isn't fulfilling you on a spiritual or emotional level. Maybe you have the perfect house, a great car and a devoted husband or wife, but deep down you are discontent. The Ten of Cups warns you that as an obstacle to your happiness you need to examine the root of the situation and find out if you are really happy where you are or if you are just caught up in the illusion of what you think the perfect relationship should look like.

SO........ hmmmmmm ...... it has me thinking a lot....





Monday, October 28, 2019

Stories from the Hospital....

First a note.  I realize that I put SEGA in my posts and not SAGA .... I went back and changed it but I'm frankly too lazy to take new screen shots and edit them out of names so ... you'll have to deal if you are reading this....

I blame the drugs I was on in the hospital .... it made my Grammerish Nazi mind numb ... I am not PERFECT either ... ever.... and get dinged by other Grammer Nazis lol .... 

SO if you didn't know I have spent many many days in the hospital the last two months ...practically a whole month in the hospital...  it's just ... yeah....

So my first stay I had a private room all to myself with an amazing view ...
Second stay I had a roommate and while mildly amused and annoyed - she ended up growing on me.  (Older lady who was really scared and thought she was going to die when she came in - and we both came in about the same time)
Third stay - I had a roommate - that roommate died.  I'm pretty positive ... then I got moved to a private room with lots of room... and the water pipe was leaking ... and it was determined that there was an effing hole in the pipe... so I got moved again....  but funny enough - I got moved again ... BUT ... I ended up in my same room where the roommate died and this time I got an awesome roommate.... then she got discharged ... and then I got another older lady with a bad UTI and then she left and I got Ms. Crazy-Pants... 


this new roommate is weird
her husband and daughter left her and she has no idea where they went
like they moved
she doesn't know where they were
Wtf
even
like where they were living/staying
That's weird...
She hasn't fallen recently but has a broken hip (and a broken femur) ....
Isn't the femur in the leg?
Yeah
Wtf
The nurse said her name
And she goes "I don't know how you guys got those names"
"I didn't give them to anyone"
Wow that's nodd
Odd
And she asked what she's called,  and she says Connie
Then 3 minutes later she says "Oh I go by Connie too"
?
Omg wrong IM boys lololol
Hmmm
She says "I don't remember anything"
She doesn't know the 3 medications she takes
Wow
She doesn't know her ex husband's phone number
Nothing
Wow
What an odd thing
She just said she tripped and that's how she broke her hip
Isn't that a fall?
Oh yes.... femur is the thigh bone
Umm yeah
Her diagnosis is "femur break"
She says she split her thigh bone in half
Woah
Nonono
She says she split her hip in half
Ohhh
Umm
She says she broke her hip
Maybe she forgot her body parts too
Maybe..??
Lololol





that twat just asked me to move her bed pan
Wtf
I said "I can't move your bed pan" she goes "I was told someone in here needs to move the bed pan, who is that going to be?"  I said "A nurse or a CNA, I'm also a patient" "Well don't get mad at me"  then stop talking to me you twat
and asking me to do stuff
and accusing me of having your wallet and wheelchair (earlier today)


HELLO ... is ANYONE out THERE?
Nurse comes in: "You cannot yell, you have to use your nurse button" they tell her for the 300th time....
Roommate: It doesn't work (or I can't find it, when it's right next to her) ....
Nurse: "You have a roommate and other people can hear you, you have to use the nurse button" they show her how to use it for the 300th time.
(5 minutes later) .. "HELLO!!! HELP!!!"

BTW - she wanted to know if everything was okay - that's it.

30 seconds after the nurse leaves after wanting to know if everything is okay...

HELLO!! ANYONE OUT THERE?? I HAVE TO GO TO THE BATHROOM .....

OMG .... she makes great story material but let me tell you ... nope... nope on all the rest of it....

She just said "I'm from Washington State - I don't even know how I got here"
the nurse lookkkkkkkked at her and goes....  "you are in Washington"
Lol


she needs constant attention
she can't find her nurse button that's RIGHT NEXT to her
she yells HELLO and HELP every few minutes
to get the attention of staff
she's got a broken hip - which she said she didn't fall recently but then said she thinks she tripped and that's how it happened ...ummmmmm




She was on the phone with I think the kitchen basically telling them that she's being held hostage and she wants to leave and no one will let her leave.  She also doesn't believe she had surgery because she doesn't have any "surgery stuff" on her.  And she's harassing EVERYONE who comes in here.  My doctor came in and she was demanding to know why she couldn't leave....  it's gonna be a day ....guess she has dementia and she's an alcoholic ....she slept most of yesterday and last night ....she had trouble waking up this morning and basically all that happened in the last ....er... hour ... the call to the kitchen was shocking - I actually thought she called 911
Lol














this twat just accused me of having her wallet
and then she said her wheelchair was over here and asked me to take it to her
I told her I don't have any of her stuff
Omg
and then she started talking about popcorn and how she needs to find her popcorn and she doesn't know where she got it
Cray cray
these nurses just don't understand how bat shit crazy she is
Charlene - one of the CNAs that I really like ...
she won't stay late because of this chick
now she's pulled some poor CNA in here and told him that someone brought her in here and laid her down but she's not supposed to be here
I could literally just write about this bitch and entertain the world



















IGNORE THE UNLE - I was probably going to write something else but .... got sidetracked 











I went for a walk - came back to kind rearrange my small space because I no longer have to worry about the IV pole - I pressed the button for the nurse expecting the CNA that is taking care of me to come in but I guess she left so i got this cranky bitch ..

Okay

so I asked her if I had to use the red wipes (the surgical wipes you have to "wash" with before surgery) or if I could just use the blue ones cuz I wanted to clean up a bit and change my clothes ... and I asked her for a white hospital bag to put my dirty clothes in... I also asked if she could move the bed over enough so I could fit the walker over on the side so I could get to it better and so she does - then she tells me once my roommate comes back I can't have the bed that far over and that it'll have to be moved back.  I said "what's the point then?"  She goes "exactly" but she had already moved it over .

I told her to put it back then ... even though my roommate can't get out of bed ..  she goes "why not?"  I said "she broke her hip" .... then she said "that's if she even comes back,,"  WTF wouldn't she?  She's homeless.  So I said "even if she doesn't come back I'll still get a new roommate so it's pointless,,," she moved the bed "back" and I reminded her about the bath wipes and the bag - she gives me the exasperated sigh I love so  much that lets you know that you are taking up too much air from the rest of the human race and she says "does it have to be now?  I need to finish my vitals: .....

I told her not to worry about it - I had cold wipes and a grocery bag.  She left and hasn't come back

oh and the same twat CNA from yesterday .... I had my light on and the roommate had her light on... she came in here and was taking care of the roommates redonk needs and then she came over and turned off my light while she was on the phone about the roommate.... and when she was done, she left.  She didn't even ask me what I needed....

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so I didn't tell you the story from the ER on Friday - last Friday of course
so we were at the ER waiting to be seen for about 5 1/2 hours

anyway - there was this couple there as long as us

the woman was a nurse, knew that just from bits and pieces - and a nurse here even ...

so this guy came in with two kids - one to be seen .. and they were sitting there and sitting there - then this woman comes in and sits by the dad and I can only assume it's his wife, and she brought two more kids..

so she sits by my mom and I but like across from her husband and this couple

and she starts asking the woman to the couple questions (the mom does) ...

and woman and mom introduce themselves - they were actually talking football at first ... nurse (woman) had a Seahawks bag ...

so they are chit chatting and then the mom starts to ask the husband questions ....

and this didn't sit well

I actually heard him say something like "you can talk to her all you want, she can share what she wants but I'm more private"

but she continues to ask him stuff

"are you worried about your wife?"

like wtf lady ....

then she keeps asking him shit

and you can tell he's getting very very annoyed

and then she asks "do you have kids" and the guy goes "that's not going to make her feel any better..." and shortly after - Nurse gets up and says she needs to get some air

and I thought - that's a woman going through fertility issues or has had loss or something .... and I thought she must have recently had a miscarriage or something

so then I realize when she came back she didn't go back to her seat

her husband got up and she checked out cuz they'd been waiting 4 hours and all that ....

and I thought that the lady hit a nerve and really thought that the nurse had a loss recently
well she ended up being my nurse tonight...

so anyway - she ended up being my nurse for a little while tonight and sure as shit ... she had a stillborn baby last year  😞  of course I told her about my bestfriend and baby J born with his wings and all my miscarriages ... and my fertility issues

Sunday, October 6, 2019

Today was a good day....




I am two weeks post toe amputation ....  I'm trying to catch up on the whole "Black Toe Saga  - Life and Death of Judith" .... Judith is my toe in case you didn't know.... the one that got amputated.  All those blogs will be back dated ....

Judith is gone. Now my fourth toe is in danger. Fourth toe is named Ruby.  My friend named my toe Judith and DB named Ruby .... but it fits because she's pretty red... long live Ruby .... And with Ruby in danger, my pinkie toe would be in danger too.  Doc G sewed Ruby and my pinkie toe (aka Lilith) together to create a better blood supply for the two toes as a whole... in hopes to give them a better chance to be saved....  So I'm naming the pinkie toe.... Lilith and at this point might as well name the rest, so how about Cecily and Eunis?

So this is how it goes....

1st Toe (big toe): Eunis
2nd Toe: Cecily
3rd Toe (middle toe): Judith
4th Toe: Ruby
5th Toe (pinkie toe) Lilith


So Judith succumbed to her infection and she was put to rest on  September 21st 2019.  She was cremated with the other hospital waste ... but at least she went out with some polish on her!


So Eunis has a cut at the base of the toe, on the bottom of the foot.  Cecily is just standing tall and strong.  Ruby - you can see is darkened a bit but it's not gangrene ... not sure what is going on totally but it likes to bleed when I clean it which Doc S says is a good sign...  but after taking Judith, Ruby and Lilith are sewn together ...

I feel like this is going to be a never ending story ... I'm pretty scared I am going to lose my foot in the long run but ..... ::: deep breath::: I am trying not to think about that ...

I currently have a big hole on the top of my foot where those stitches are... that's where the big pocket of infection was that squirted out like a freaking volcano and hurt like a .... mo'fo....

Today my foot hurts a bit .... pressure on Lilith and Ruby is really uncomfortable but it's especially uncomfortable and painful when there is pressure on Lilith....

Today I actually got chatty on Twitter ....











It was a pretty good day overall :D

I did watch Finn Road and IMO I think it was the best one out of the whole collection.  I was having palpitations because the evil was practically palpable ..... and I am usually working/doing something on my laptop and not ALWAYS paying complete attention to the TV and I didn't realize that someone else from Ghost Hunters (OG) would be called upon ....  and at one point Steve (Prozak)



(Of course I recognized him right here just by his profile....  I was like ...  is that STEVE?  That's STEVE!)





With that....... Goodnight....