Thursday, April 14, 2011
hello blog friends:)
i have decided to officially move over to tumblr:( and i considered being mean and not sharing it with everyone.. but yeahh i guess you people read my blog out of care right? so running away from caring loving friends is mean hor.. soo yup tumblr account link will be at the bottom:) i think i might change the tumblr settings to let readers comment.. but i don't know how that really works.. but maybe i will try:)
i am not giving up my blogger:) YAY! as in i am really fond of the years that i shared on this blog.. so occasionally i will yeahh blog when i am feel hmm.. nuah and reminiscent? hahaha..
WARNING: Tumblr lets me SPAM photos and also post entries and also post videos and ALOT of other stuff.. soo yeahh if you DON'T like it then don't visit k? some people find these sort of thing irritating and annoying.. so don't start hating me k? i think i better express myself through many mediums and not just simple entries la.. thats why i think tumblr is for me:)
DON'T JUDGE AH.. THAT'S THE BIGGER WARNING! i will eat you up with you JUDGE! :D *delicious*
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Day 02- The meaning behind your Tumblr name
my tumblr name so far is thedullestsunbeam
hmmm the story behind it, is pretty sad.. i created this account to ramble to myself and pour my tears out in writing.. cause i was pretty upset by things that happened last year.. soo many mistakes.. it was indeed a bumpy roller coaster ride.. more often than not i would wonder whether i’ll fall off the roller coaster on the rush down.. i’ve never been sooo pathetic.. i think 2010 was the MOST PATHETIC YEAR of my life so far.. on a coaster ride up.. i felt like a sunbeam :) not the prettiest nor brightest sunbeam.. just a plain old dull sunbeam…
well SAD SAD description aside.. i think this sunbeam’s light has returned to her eyes:) perhaps its time to change my tumblr name:) the best thing about hitting rock bottom is that it can only get better:) the ride has been great:) little bumps but i’ll survive:)
soo new name.. what about:
“jarre de coeurs” ? its playing on my com now:)
i can’t think about any now.. KIV i guess:)
Friday, March 25, 2011
Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Photo: I am the one on your left:D1. i get happy over the smallest of thing.. e.g. shade on a sunny day:)
2. my super not favourite word is D_ _ _ _ _ _ _.
3. if you ever need a old airport road tau huay partner, call me.. I think i will drop everything for that tau huay:D
4. the 3 most important things in my proposal is the FOOD(there is an actual list:D), Location and Ring:) get it right and i will instantly marry you…
5. i love look at wedding photos. (know any tumblr accounts i can follow to feed my obsession?)
6. i look like a shoppaholic but i don’t think i am one.. cause i’m not a discipline shopper.. BUT i do love shopping and buying nice things.. Who doesn’t?
7. if i spend over $50 on myself.. i really do feel bad unless.. i really love it:)
8. My bestfriend is a guy.. I will give up anything for a boyfriend BUT my bestfriend.. Bestfriend vs boyfriend.. Bestfriend:) sorry.. he out lasted all the boys before you and he is gonna be there even if you aren’t. BTW… Friends trump boyfriend too.. UNLESS you already reached friend status.. hmm but i can’t think of any guy friends who want to be more than friends… ?
9. I am the most unreasonable person when i am angry.. truly illogical.. sooo its best to RUN or let me cool off before we chat.. sorry:(
10. I am friendly.. believe it or not.. if you chat with me.. i will chat with you:) anyone can chat with me:) *i’m just scared to chat with people first… *
11. When i like something (a song, a bag, and outfit) i’ll just obsess over it.. its seriously not healthy..
12. I love mushrooms!:D yess after 20 plusplus years.. i finally figured what i like! my erm most recent friend asked me what is my favourite food as usual i said i dunno… but it got me thinking.. and i finally came up with MUSHROOMS:D i will never get sick of mushrooms:D
13. I think my brother is Good-looking:) All of my "friends" can’t hold a candle to him:) I have at least 1 good looking guy in my life:D hee hee hee *right maddy?*
14. I am secretly afraid of growing up… cause i don’t know how to manage my money.. i really don’t know how to pay bills or taxes? :(
15. I REALLY WANNA GET MARRIED! by age 24 but i have no boyfriend.. and i think i am more interested in marriage than another relationship.. strange right? on to step 2 without step 1 -.-” sigh i am w.e.i.r.d.
~i know i am more interesting than these 15 points.. but that you’ll have to find out on your own:D
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Wedding photography..
I think i am convinced i want a good wedding photography package.. now i shall wonder whether i want one for my birthday:)
http://primaverastudios.com/blog/2011/why-does-good-wedding-photography-cost-what-it-does/
why make a big deal about my birthday? cause i think i would miss you girls and boys after a short/long trip to america.. i would miss everyone:) and i just want to hang and also capture the moment i missed you most:) but i still have my reservations.. which occasionally makes me sad.. who hesitates about celebrating your birthday? me i guess.. /:
thoughtful vs over thinking.
Monday, March 21, 2011
okay i officially feel bad..
i shouldn't feel scared when people are being nice.. what kind of psycho am i? i finally found the answer just as i was about to shower.. maybe God changed him? here i am thinking the worst in people.. and getting all scared.. i realize.. i never really let people change.. and be better people.. whereas the people around me have always been accepting of my slow progress.. i'm slow to warm up.. more often than not, i'm pretty fake cause i seldom show the bad weather feelings.. and now when other people are changing.. i get all paranoid! and suspicious of them.. *i giggle insanely alot + my voice gets really high pitched* when i get super uncomfortable talking to suspicious people.. (now you know whyyy i get all pitchy when i say "hey BOY or GIRL" when you are on the phone:) yeahh soo well.. i guess i gotta be more optimistic and believe that people can change:) and be more supportive of change:)
an apology is on its way....
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Paranoid? Over sensitive? Crazy???
I'm strangely suspicious that someone is being nice to me/: is something wrong with me?? Shouldn't I bee happy?? /: hmmm super uneasy that he is being nice.. Would you be suspicious of a person who was a meanie (loves tricking you and makin jokes about you.. Laughing at you in a joking manner) then became cold coldish and very erm blunt and distant (which was fine by me) and then played a MAJOR ULTIMATE MEAN JOKE ON YOU.. And after apologizing.. Was usually nice by his own standards ( if you think about it logically.. He is as nice as any normal person.. But as you can see he ain't normal-.-" ) and has been nice for the longest time ever and still counting (1week so far..) I'm guessing...
1. A HUGE x2 major prank is on the way
2. He decided to become human cause my NICENESS TOUCHED HIM:DD (don't -.-" me okay!)
3. I'm paranoid.
I don't knoww am I being crazy for analyzing it?? I feel super weird receiving normal messages from himm.. I almost fainted in disbelief when he smsed good night /: maybe I live in fear and terror of him/: who would think being normal would creep people out.. I feel bad for bring creeped out... :( sorry..
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Thursday, March 17, 2011
we break up and then we make up.
nope.. not the case for many broken hearted girls.. i decided to write this.. cause well in the past 6 months.. i have heard the shattering stories of 1.. 2.. 3.. 6 girls? yeahh just so happen they were all girls.. some of us have moved on.. others are trying to.. while others are still licking their wounds.. i don't have any insights.. buttt.. i have weird conclusions from my own experiences.. i bring my own sobs to a close with this.. i will not date a guy who:
1. Drives a certain brand of car.. :)
2. Has a certain family structure.. :)
3. Who was second in line.. :)
i can almost see some of your faces go -.-" HAHA.. but yeahh this gets me going on T___T days.. my quirky and weird conclusions for the future.. WHY these 3 weird points? well.. come ask me:) i can hear maureen mocking me in my head-.-" in her bird sounding voice " YOUUU SOOO WEIRDDD!!!" hahaha well maybe i am..
when you think there ain't any hope left.. remember that in pessimism there is a little optimism just not a lot of it but its okay:) it can grow on you:)
