What can save me. My brain sometimes hurt.. i dunno if i am imagining.. X.X

Sighhh if only there were benefits like losing weight.. then it will make this all worth while.. currently i am not getting smarter.. but uglier.. siannn.. growing fat and ugly.. shucks at this rate no wonder i won't find a boyfriend next year.. i will be mega ugly and fat.. shucks.. life is horrible..

i'm just like that.. :(

I'm just to frustrated with everything. Too many demands.. brain is beginning to shut down and think of only what I WANT.. not what I am RESPONSIBLE to do.. or what I SHOULD do.. or I CAN do..

I am dry and tired.. even after 8 hours of sleep.. WHY do i have to be grateful for sleep? why can't i just take sleep for granted like EVERYONE else..

I'm gonna prioritize.. and ME is on top for this second okay?

I don't want to do anything.. I want to just take care of me.. this is not a cry for help or something.. this is a cry for everyone to let me be.. drop all your expectations of me.. let me drive at 60km/h for a while okay? Thanks.. I really find it hard to say "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" at this point okay? I am at a point where I cannot balance what I want and what others want from me.. it has come to a point where I don't want to disappoint so i do everything and more and realize WHY AM I GIVING UP ME ?

In case of emergencies, i open up the small bag of poifull from japan and eat one.. and remember the people who have been supportive as the acoustic music play in the background..

Life is a cycle of give and take. "I will run the course of your commandments, For You shall enlarge my heart." Psalms 119:32 (NKJV) and as you do soo.. my heart grows and my eyes tear.. Sighh.. i need 2 poifulls..

Resolutions are a bummer..