=]

"安慰的话，不知道这样说，就我们会陪着你，就像当时你陪着我一样，明明就拒绝别人的陪伴，可你还是硬硬要赖著我。我相信你想要的也是这种陪伴. 或许这是种解脱。习惯是可以戒掉的。依赖也是可以戒掉.加油，不用怕还有我们。"

亲爱的，谢谢 T.T

不轻言爱，不轻言弃。

太阳照样升起

还以为

会很害怕看见今天的日出

但一切都比想象中

轻松太多

***

研究说

21天重复地做一件事

就能让那件事

变成一种习惯

但怎么没研究

到底用多久才能

脱离一种习惯？

我想

我只需要

5个小时的睡眠

*太强* XD

the unavoidable

Sometimes, you just know it very well
the fact, the principle, the ugly truth,
when you're forced to face it, somehow,
you still will find it difficult
difficult to cope, to accept as it's the only way

one example for this is
death.

The one

Just need someone
who will pull me back
when being pushed away by me
instead of leaving me even further

沉住气

不要酸溜溜地说话
无论心里多么不甘

沉默沉默。

成长就是有分寸
该说什么
该保留些什么

为别人着想
站在别人立场想。








。。。
。。。
。。。



写得容易
讲得容易
读得容易
懂得也很容易

做真的很难。

加油！！！

Don't care!

The lesser you care, the better you feel.

最凄美的只能在故事中看见。。。

1.

我，十七歲，心臟疾病讓我的生命剩不到一年

我，十七歲，愛上了我的老師

「老師！我喜歡你！」我每天早上都會這樣子對你說

而你的回應總是皺著眉頭對我說
「你對我的感覺是欣賞，未來你會找到妳最愛的人」

但是老師，我很清楚我的感覺，而且，我沒有未來
「老師，我真的喜歡你，跟我結婚吧！」

在空無一人的教室裡，我下定決心的對著你說，而奇蹟似的，你給了我不一樣的答案
「...好...如果你父母答應...」

一廂情願也好，我在你臉上看到一點開心的影子
我帶你回了家，跟父母說了
「我要和老師結婚！」

他們知道我的病，但臉上卻充滿震驚，我敢打賭，震驚是因為你願意娶我，但你不知道我生病，我真的希望你是因為愛我所以才答應要娶我 。

最後他們答應了，而你的表情和我父母剛剛的表情一樣，我很想笑，卻笑不出來

心有點難受，不是心臟病的痛，是好傷心、好想哭的痛
爸爸把你拉出去說了一些話，我不知道你們說了甚麼，大概是我的病和一些同情我的話吧！

我不需要同情，真的！
我需要的，只是你的愛
就算只有一點也好

「你跟老師結婚的話，會拖累他的」媽媽這樣對我說
「不會的…」因為我很快就要離開這個世界了，而且…他不愛我，我只會是他生命中的過客而已，我很清楚
也很心痛

婚禮那天，你對我說，我很美，我真的很開心，但婚禮在進行時，你沒有笑容。

婚禮結束後，我們回到我們的家
我們的家，我喜歡這個詞
聽起來很溫暖
那晚，我又對你提出了要求
「抱我」我說
你假裝聽不懂，只擁抱了我一下
「不是這種的…」
我低下頭，不敢看你，也不讓你看我的臉，因為一定很紅很紅
你用手指輕輕抬起我的下巴，親了我的臉、唇、脖子…另一隻手則在我身上游移著，然後，你成為了我第一個，也是我最後一個男人

結束後，你睡了，抱著我
在你懷裡，看著你帥氣的臉
我的第一次很甜蜜，因為那個人是你
我忍不住哭了
我恨我自己的身體不能活久一點
我恨我自己沒有早一點遇到你
我恨我自己沒辦法讓你愛上我
如果可以用身體讓你愛上我，我願意的，但…這副身體並不允許
哭累了，我就睡了
睡夢中，有人撫摸著我的臉，把我的眼淚擦乾了
很小心、很溫柔

結婚後，我們去了好多地方，拍了好多照，我最喜歡的是有漂亮風景的那個地方，有花園、綠地、高山、湖水…那裏是哪呢?我忘了，因為和 你在一起就好開心，會忘了好多不開心，不重要的事情
最後卻沒有再去了
因為我在你面前昏倒了
但我認為這沒甚麼，不過就是昏倒，我還想去好多地方，在我離開前，和你一起
從那之後，我連學校都沒有去了
我好想大家、好想學校
好想你

所以我去了學校找你，順便看看同學
他們說我瘦了，而且臉很慘白，以前的我比較美，怎麼休息後越來越差
我只是笑笑的說「沒甚麼，真的…」
上課鐘響，我坐回我原本的位子
你進到教室之後，看到我的時候臉上震驚的表情還帶了點生氣
下課後，你拉我去沒有人的地方
你罵我怎麼可以亂跑，發生意外了怎麼辦？
然後你緊緊抱住我，說你很擔心我
我好開心，這是不是代表我在你心裡占有一席之地？甚至…
有愛上我的可能？
之後，我昏倒在你懷裡，去醫院檢查後，醫生說要住院觀察
可是我不想住院
我求了你好久，你才答應讓我家在裡
那個屬於我們的家
你向學校請了長假只為照顧我
我有點開心也有點擔心
「若為了我你沒了工作怎麼辦？」
你只揉亂我的頭髮，要我不要擔心
我知道我的身體快不行了，但你每次都跟我說
「你氣色變好了，一定很快就會好了！」
但我知道
我快離開這個世界
快離開你了

夜晚，我的心臟痛了起來
本來不想讓你發現的，但我忍不住叫了出來
好痛
「唔…」
你馬上醒了過來，緊抓著我的手
「怎麼了？」
我知道就是現在了
我要走了
「老師…我…不能陪你了…」我慢慢的說
你緊張的看著我說著
「不會的…妳不會…」
而你的手在顫抖著
「老師…我愛你…好愛你」
你激動的抱住 我大喊著
「我愛妳！我愛妳！妳不要走，留下來陪我好不好…」
我覺得背上濕濕的
流下眼淚，我笑了
「謝謝你….」
然後我閉上眼睛
時間，就這樣停止了


2.

我愛上了我的學生
開學時，我看到妳的笑容
很美
深深的吸引了我的目光

當我知道我是你的班導師時，我真的很開心，上課時，我們目光總會不經意的交會，而妳總是撇開頭，假裝甚麼事都沒發生
這是害羞嗎？

這種可愛的反應讓我好想緊緊擁抱你
有這種思想的我實在配不上妳，而且
妳是我的學生
「老師！我喜歡你！」

當妳這樣對我說，我很想跟妳說我也是
但我不能對學生出手
如果我說出口了，會被人指指點點的
我沒關係，但是我不想讓妳受到傷害
所以我只能跟妳 說
「妳對我的感覺只是欣賞，未來你會找到妳最愛的人的」
說不定你真的只是弄錯感覺了
而那個未來
可不可以不要到來？

我猜我的表情一定很奇怪
因為我必須要忍住內心的痛苦，才能對妳說出這句話
每天都上演著這樣的戲碼
然而，那句改變的台詞，也改變了我們的關係
在空無一人的教室裡，妳好像下了甚麼決心一樣，對我說
「老師，我真的喜歡妳，我們結婚吧」
「…好」等我回過神來，才發現我答應了妳的求婚
本能似的”好”這個字從我嘴裡傳出來
為了補救我犯下的錯誤，所以我加了一句
「如果妳父母答應…」

因為妳父母不會答應的，誰會把寶貝女兒嫁給一個完全沒看過、不知道從哪來的男人？
但我不得不承認，聽到妳的求婚
我很開心
我錯了
妳帶我去見妳父母，當妳 說
「我要和老師結婚！」
妳父母震驚的表情是在我預料內的，但有一種失望的情緒從心裡發出
最後，他們答應了

我驚訝的看著他們，怎麼會把自己的女兒隨便嫁給一個男人
內心的感覺很複雜，有開心也有生氣
開心是因為我可以擁有妳了，而生氣是因為我認為妳的父母不愛妳，不然怎麼會那麼輕易的把女兒送給別人？
妳父親把我拉出了客廳，跟我說了妳有心臟疾病，身體狀況很不好，活的時間剩不久了
為什麼這種事情妳沒有跟我說？
如果妳和我說了，我一定會在第一次妳和我說妳喜歡我的時候就跟妳坦承我對妳的感覺
當我說妳未來會找到真愛時，妳是怎麼想的？未來？原來我不知不覺傷了妳好多

結婚那天，妳真的好美
當我告訴妳「妳很美」的時候，妳回了我一個好燦爛的笑容
婚禮進行時 ，我看到好多男人看妳的眼神
怒氣在我體內翻騰著
妳是我的妻子，妳是我的人，妳是我的！
婚禮結束之後，我帶妳回了我家
現在，是我們的家
我們的家，這個詞聽起來很溫暖

那晚，妳對我說
「抱我」
我必須壓下自己體內的慾望，假裝聽不懂，只擁抱妳一下，因為我的衝動，一定會傷害妳
「不是這種的…」妳低下頭，不讓我看妳的臉，也不看我
在妳身上的那股清香，再加上妳的話，讓我的理智潰堤了
我輕輕抬起的的臉，果然跟我想的一樣，臉好紅，我吻著妳的臉、唇、脖子…
全身我都要吻遍！
另一隻手則撫摸著妳，和我想的一樣
妳好甜，好美
結束後，我假裝睡著，因為如果我醒著，妳一定會一直跟我講話，都不休息
不知道為什麼，妳哭了
為什麼哭？因為後悔嫁給我了？還是 怎麼了？反正不管如何
我都不會再放開了
妳睡了，看著妳臉上的淚痕，怕吵醒妳，我輕輕的擦去妳臉上的淚，然後緊緊抱著妳
結婚後，我帶妳去了好多地方，妳說妳好喜歡風景漂亮的地方
我帶妳去了帛琉，妳說妳好想永遠待在這裡不想離開，可卻一直記不住它的名字
親愛的，如果可以，我也想和妳永遠在這
親愛的，這個我一直在我心裡講了千萬變的詞
妳在我面前昏倒了，所以我沒有再帶妳去任何地方
我好害怕妳離開我，就算妳吵著要出門，我只能狠下心板起臉，只為了讓妳在我身邊待久一點

我禁止妳去任何地方，但我去在教室裡看到妳，當時我的震驚和憤怒都表現在臉上了
下課後，我拉妳到隱密的地方，我忍不住大聲吼了出來
「為什麼妳要亂跑？發生意外怎麼辦？」
妳嘟著嘴委屈的模樣 ，讓我不忍心在責備妳
我情不自禁的擁抱妳，對妳說我擔心妳
我不知道妳有沒有聽到，因為妳已經倒在我懷裡了

我帶妳去了醫院，醫生說要住院觀察，但妳說妳不想住院，只想回家，妳求了我好久，我心軟了，但我不放心，所以我向學校辭職了照顧妳，但我只跟妳說我向學校請了長假，妳問我如果丟了工作怎麼辦？我揉揉妳的頭髮，要妳不用擔心，我還有其他的經濟來源，當然不偷不搶不騙，當老師只是興趣而已
妳的身體越來越差了，但我卻跟妳說「妳的氣色越來越好了，一定很快就好了！」這句話不知道是在安撫妳，還是在安慰自己，我好希望妳可以永遠在我身邊，和我一起製造我們共同的回憶到老，然後再慢慢想念我們的一切…

夜晚，妳的身體好像很不舒服的呻吟出聲，我緊張的握著妳的手，問
「怎 麼了？」拜託不要是現在
「老師…我…不能陪你了…」妳慢慢的說著
「不會的…妳不會…」我分不出來我是在安撫你還是在安撫我自己，我的手不停的顫抖著
「老師…我愛你…好愛你」你虛弱的說著，好像用盡了全身的力氣對我說
我緊抱住你，大喊著
「我愛妳！我愛妳！妳不要走…留下來…留下來陪我好不好…」淚從眼眶中流出，再也忍不住的悲傷不斷湧出
「謝謝你…」

然後，妳閉上眼
妳的時間，一直停在十七歲那一年
妳走後，我搬到帛琉
想著我們之間的一切
想著我愛妳的快樂
想著我愛妳的痛苦
想著妳


投稿作者 : 星辰

 

***

 

感动落泪 T.T

难得

很久没看故事到能流泪的

看美好面！

张爱玲说

你遇到怎样的人

就会谈怎样的恋爱

但她没解释

如果那样的恋爱不是你想象的呢？

或许上天要你尝试

要你发掘

考验你

让你更了解你，自己。

人，都不会知足。

Just a dream

when "requesting" is a multiple choice question

 you not only need to construct the question

but also providing the answers

and let the one who is answering it

 choose to perform the tasks that are given

 why not it is an essay question?

write whatever you want creatively

then there will be anticipation, fun 

and, surprise

but, now it is a MCQ question

why?

you don't want 

to guess

to think

to deduce

what are the actual answers

so I will say

I want this, I want that

I don't want this and that

Why don't you do this and that?

it's like a dream

in this dream 

I am the director

the actor

and the audience

ah...

Just a dream.

纯粹无聊

怎么翻回旧照

感觉比较好看？

XD

长得越来越丑了么？

哈哈哈

可能需要去染下头发了

还是直发比较适合我？

还是。。。 真的变难看了啦~~~

***

十分无聊的我

说十分无聊的话

在十分无聊的网志

喂~

读书！

丫伤口

不自觉地擦伤

乱涂了药

竟然出现天字

丫丫

是我的名

还是一颗上天送来的爱心？

***

过了好久

现在才结了疤

小小伤口

太小看它了

怪别人或自己

当小孩不小心把头撞向墙壁

他会生气，生气那道墙

然后就开始哭了

反观，若是成人

他不会像孩子一样生气

因为他知道，生气一道墙是很荒谬的

他只能无奈地责怪自己的粗心

作为一个能责怪别人的小孩

还是作为一个只能自责的成人

比较幸福呢？

and it doesn't mean that I am pretending to be strong

 

Showing and thinking myself is weak

makes me weaker

what for?

too much sorrow can't be expressed in a sentence or two

too much feelings don't usually get the empathy

explaining just would increase the awareness of being pitiful

and this is the time of falling apart

So much drama

while you are the one

dancing on stage, alone

这么平凡的圣诞季节

看着别人的照片

开心出去拍圣诞节装饰

吃（圣诞？）大餐

实在心理不平衡

哎。。。

这种节庆的日子

该把非死不可弄死

眼不见为净

躲起来听圣诞歌

啃书比较好

然。。。 就是无聊到要刺激自己

拼命看着非死不可

真FJ 〉，〈

怎么还是有剩余的波动？

执着？放不下？

嫉妒？不甘？

到底在心理不平衡些什么？

比较心不可有呐。。。

谈何容易

祝福你

Fight or flight?

A mirror with a scratch,

you could see the reflection

with two scratches,

you still could see

with more and more scratches,

you started to doubt it

until the day...

it is full of scratches

we'll see

and I prefer flight

人人都有難處或局限

一個幼稚的人，常常會覺得應該抱怨的人越來越多
，因為他只看到了自己的艱難與不容易。

一個成熟的人，往往會發覺能夠責怪的人越來越少，
因為他知道人人都有難處或局限。

~ 网络转载

So addicted to it~

 

就是爱卷发  \{=^o^=}/

学习

“你就是这样的人。”

听到这句

反应 应该是 "so?" 

还是否定？

又是一个

这就是我

还是

其实我可以不是你所说的那样

的问题了

***

最近真的发现

随机应变的能力

真的很差

*不平衡中*

需要assimilation & accommodation

来达到 equilibrium

= a new learning experience

我真的不是很年轻了 〉，〈

动作有点慢。

矛盾

一场拉锯战

在天秤的两端来回挪动

处在平衡点

是否

什么也不想

什么也不管

矛与盾

到底哪一个好？

话说 探索

亲爱的空心， 我想你了。

               这将会是一篇久违的长篇大论，当然废话也不少。因此，亲爱的读者，你现在有这个心情一口气读完它么？没有的话，等你有这个心情再来吧！ 希望我能一口气把它写完( 哈哈，我的那一口气，恐怕得很长才行）。我昨天去了探索营，去适耕庄郊游，去赴趟心灵探索之约。

               有人说，每一个障碍和窘境，都是成长的机会；我说，每一趟出走，都是新的领悟，新的经验，还有最自己更深的认识。

自己最舒服的表达方式

                 就像一些拥有语言障碍的人们一样，我也有“个人化”的沟通方式，来更正确地、清楚地表达思想。 不是直接的谈话，因为往往说出口的，都没经过处理，就脱口而出。最接近我的体会与感触的表达，需要悠闲的环境，满满的正能量，美好的心情，当然还要通过最擅长的语言。

情绪不好说的话往往是不理智的气话，思想也都是负面的。所以我真的很高兴，今天是我表达能力最好的时刻。哈哈。 但我觉得我的华语句子的主谓宾有点乱，又不正式，又没什么漂亮的修饰，所以很常写新诗类的文章。至于是这个缺点导致我写诗，还是写诗恶化我的缺点，那就不得而知了。要把感想的碎片拼骤成话语，可真不容易啊~（难道我也有语言障碍？）华语退步了，字也不会写了，拼音认字也开始有点吃力了。惭愧呐！这里写的，有点口语化，而且十分紊乱，希望见谅，因为我的头脑的process speed是我打字的十倍以上（别问我十倍是怎样算的XD)  到现在我还在绕圈圈，其实要表达什么呢？ 哎~ 说着说着就忘了重点。 

                  说这个的起因是，我想我不太会说话，更不会说引人入胜的故事。 怎么说呢？平时有什么事，都直截了当，简单地，轻描淡写的带过。 更惨的是，有些话说半天吊（平时写诗都要留点想象空间嘛，习惯这么做了），听的人常常表错义，幸运则只是普通谈话，严重则将带来麻烦。直截了当说的话，有时伤了人，也不知道（或许我有egocentrism,认为我无所谓，别人又怎么介意呢）。火相星座啊~冲动。我也承认我很冲动，但到了这个阶段，我想，我会开始像，到底这是能改的，还是那所谓最真实的我？ 我想每个人像金镀了铁（这不是很好的比喻啦，但好过饼干夹着铁来得好吧？哈），有些铁的部分时间久了，能被侵蚀，但那些金的部分，太难被侵蚀的。人家说，改变自己，也有人说，接受最真实的自己。最难的莫过于，分辨哪一个是能被改变的，而那一些又是最真实的你？这个问题，我一直在探讨，但我现在还是没什么力气，追求太大的改变，或许本来，我就是不擅长改变，也害怕变化的人。 

                  又扯远了。我想我还是会继续扯下去。XD 至于不会说故事，这次的营，有个环节是专门要弄人哭的。话说，那一晚，在漆黑的屋里，我们营员们，像中邪般，手牵着手，在客厅里，绕圈圈，然后围着微弱的烛光就地而坐。这情景让我觉得置身在某个wizard-or-witch-to-be ceremony里，进行着地下邪教仪式。（有点可怕，哈）这样做的重点是要我们在漆黑里，相信前面牵引着你的那只手，我超没安全感，而且筹委可以睁开眼啦，所以就大部分时间都睁着双眼咯~哈哈。（我有尝试关一下下啦，但客厅很窄，很怕撞到。）忘了说，我前面牵我的是还不错帅的学弟啦，有点爽到XD但我对他心理的评估还是存有保留，意思说，种种迹象看来他的为人值得质疑。可是他不是杀人犯啦，只是真的，让人猜不透，而且我感觉到邪气 XP。话说回来，环节的开始，有一把声音说出一些话，关于接到大学通知书，离乡背井的心情，上了大学面对形形色色人的无法适从，还有一些很感性的话。 我们呢，就被交待，每个人一定要分享故事，带领营员说出心底话，然后要触动他们到感动落泪啦。心想，我真的很难哭哩，而且也没什么事能说到别人哭啦。平时在戏院，一整排人哭，我还是很冷静看着荧幕。原因？ 感觉别人在哭，脑的系统很自然得制止感动与引发的心情波动。而且，我不在人前哭的啦。=。= 然后某人就会说在装坚强。怎样？我装得起。 证明了我真的没这么容易被感动，还是说，我反而会去感动无关紧要的事，好像突然看见月圆和星星，超感动的XD 当时，我只想着：有些痛苦是不能呐喊的。真正的伤痛，又如何能启齿，而且在大庭广众。我这个死爱面子，哪里会四处宣扬。最重要的是，都过去了。最庆幸是，我可爱的脑系统，在睡了一觉后，能把悲伤冲缓，把记忆模糊。都无所谓了。悲伤的事，我不时刻记得，一时间，还想不起，有什么凄惨的故事发生过在我身上。其实，我真的很幸运了。有人遇到很复杂，很可恶的人，但我发现，我一路走来，遇到都是很好的人，真的。前世修来的福吧，希望能一直这样下去=]傻人会有傻福的。

在别人身上看见过去的自己，或许未来的自己

                  他们说，他们遇到很自私的人，安慰地说，没关系，早点见识社会的残忍以后才不会被吓到。那我以后极大可能会被吓坏吧？其实现在想也没用，还是好好珍惜这些真诚的人吧！说着说着，才发现，那所谓的形形色色。每一个人都是以往的经历所塑造出来的。比方说，被欺负的，被看不起的，到了极点，觉悟了，奋发向上证明给别人看自己的能耐，但却对别人还是存有芥蒂，从此对于别人的眼光很敏感。 那我，也是被过去所塑造成这样冷血无情的。因此，每一种个性并没有好坏，那只是你对于生活，对于生存的适应和对过去的反映而已。

                  所以， 在那个环节，我培养最糟糕的情绪，成功逼了自己留下一些泪水，因为耳边早已传来稀里哗啦的哽咽声。应景一下，本来我要说很正面的东西的，但是每个人都说到自己那么惨，我想，惨这样的事，没必要拿来比吧？何况，每个人的经历不同，而我这个另类的怪物，更不用说有什么要点可以引起共鸣啦。随意说出无关痛痒的故事，事后还被某人炸=。= 都说，这种环节不适合我。 然后他们才肯相信我是那么强硬。软弱要给谁看呢？同情不能当饭吃。长大了，跌倒就算不痛，也不会用痛哭流涕来引起别人关爱这招了。路人，还是会继续走他们的路。就算停下来慰问你的，也安抚不了你的痛。

                 突然很沉重。。。还是把焦点转向快乐一些的事吧 =]  适耕庄，sekinchan，天使与魔鬼结合的地方，不对不对，是姹紫嫣红相映的地方~有稻田有大海。多纯朴的结合。待在租借的屋子里办营一天半后，终于开始郊游啦~

                那里的渔村蛮像槟城teluk bahang的，大概渔村都长一个样吧~ 连海水也一样乌漆麻黑。哈。 不同的是，沙滩上有超多贝壳。突然想起我小时候捡的那一瓶贝壳。特别的是，那里的树，都有绑绳子，捆着塑料椅子，作秋千，更有网，可以躺着享受海风。好久好久没自己去看海了。

海每一次带来的感动

         
                 很棒的海风，很湛蓝的天空~ 心情真的真的很好得很忧郁。哈。其实是被它的美给镇住了。这么美丽的风景，一丝话语，都能刮破它的美感。太多的交谈已经没有必要了，自然地设为静音，默默得欣赏、感受。是时候让思维的骏马脱缰，让他们好好透透气。坐在树下的“秋千”，树上有一位伯伯躺着，唱起老调来了，眼前的小孩，兴奋地荡着秋千；凉风迎面。感官都被启动了。沉默很久，静静欣赏这美好的一切。这就是我的感动。看见广阔的天与海，脚踏着细沙，感受海风、阳光的明媚，涌起莫名的感动。 我想，有些事，不是每一个人都会了解的，我的感动和你的感动。其实，我的感动真的 很简单。 突然想家了，那同样有海的家。以后若屋外也可以有这样的树，下午没事就来沉淀一下，多好！但想到海边的屋子好贵，摆摆头把这念头给抛掉了。在这种时候，喜欢看起来忧郁的自己，不觉得我是很有诗情画意的女子么？哈哈！“她深锁的眉头，带出几分妩媚的忧郁。”我会这么形容~ 哈哈。

 

wohoo~一望无际的稻米！

                若上次我在中国看的不是稻田，那这一次，是我第一次看到稻田！保守来说，是我在国内见到的第一个稻田~ 上端也有蓝天陪衬，也有凉风徐徐，但就差海滩一点点~因为没有树遮荫嘛！ 热死我了！ 还有啊~ 稻准确来说看起来像很“工整”的草。长得跟草一样，只是都排列很整齐，不会乱乱的。 还是很漂亮啦~ 导游说很多新人会到那里拍婚纱照，心想，踩上去，稻苗不就死了？哪里会浪漫  〉，〈

米的制作过程~

                这是一趟很棒的出游~ 好久没像小学中学般旅行了。同学一起去郊游~ “蓝蓝的天，白白的云，蓝天白云好时光~” 还有我小学最爱最记得的童歌~ “走走走走走，我们小手拉小手，走走走走走一同去郊游。白云悠悠~阳光柔柔~青山绿水一片锦绣~”

 

 放风筝~ 很久没放了~

                跟着很high和无厘头的学长姐，在海边高歌，是很不错的体验~莫名其妙唱了情非得以，热情的沙漠，听海等等。哈哈。听得摊子的老板娘很高兴也跟着一起唱。一把嗓子，力量很大，能牵动所有人。歌声是最好的暖场工具吧~

               对了，我是团康组的，负责带游戏和唱歌跳舞。这次还初次体验为了娱乐大众而演戏。真的豁出去了啦~ 也没什么可怕的啦，也没什么“歹势”的 ，我的脸皮够厚XD

 

很漂亮的大合照~ 

               好啦~ 就此搁笔。我快断气了。嘿嘿！

相煎何太急

立场的不同

自然带来纷争

谁对谁错

模糊不堪

又有什么重要呢

输赢又怎么样呢

伤害一定会造成的

纷争，又何必呢？

还是选择退出这样戏

剩下的独角戏

自然演不下去

就让它过去吧。。。

鸭力鸭力鸭力

真的够力够力够力！

晚上睡不着

早上睡不醒

看来太高估自己的能力

要如何把“鸭”变成“鸡”？

需要鸡力鸡力鸡力

可惜我手无缚鸡之力！

Learn from the kids

It's amazing to see their speed of learning 

especially how fast they can learn a language

If I were to turn back time

could I learn all the languages in the world

during that peak period?

LOL

so greedy

but somehow I've been through that process

if I could do that once,

why can't I now?

Just that need more time and more efforts

learning process becomes so slow

that the progressions are so little and insignificant that

you can't even notice

Studies have showed that when we were born

we could learn almost everything in the world

but of course we couldn't

we just could develop some skills or talents

what a waste...

then those undeveloped neurons or those were not linked together

would just say bye-bye 

(degenerate , a more appropriate term to say that LOL)

 and recently an article said that

human are stupid than before

technology have made us lazy to use brain

while our ancestors need to use their brains

to trap animals and think of ways for survival

but I guess we nowadays think a lot as well

just that most of the thoughts are silly, useless and non-constructive XD

too much worries

we are just ordinary people

aren't we?

Back to the topic

so those talented people are just lucky enough

to develop their talents

when they were young

in other words

WE WERE ALL GENIUS

but we just didn't become one

HAHA

Enough for the nonsense

learning is a lifelong process

though the rate of learning gets slower and slower

day by day

but we're still learning

learning the ways of living

learning life

but still,

I wanna learn all languages =PP

jk. XP

Meant to be?

 

 Once, ignorantly believe in this

if it's yours, it'll be.

after the lesson

only came to realise that 

sometimes, some quotes

only for certain circumtances

While in this case

She said,

that's what old people usually say

but we are just human

we'll be worn off by time

tired of waiting

Chances don't wait for people

just like

nobody waits for you forever

if you don't grab it the time it appears

it'll just disappear

leaving you, who still ignorantly think that

if it's mine, it'll be mine

and when you found out that

you're really losing it

you start to think that you were not given the chance

actually you were

but just you didn't appreciate it

So, guilt haunts you

you blame this, you blame that

you're living in the past of your own mistake

but what can you do to fix it? Nothing.

What has done, has been done.

and this time, you may say

it's meant to be, it's not mine.

Funny way of using this quote isn't it?

Then you learn to live the moment

in order not to repeat the mistake again

***

and if the history repeats itself again,

what would you do?

God just loves to make fun of ignorant people

it's a choice
and you are afraid to choose
because you are afraid to lose

***

Once I saw on the newspaper, a quote that says

" Men can only wait for awhile,

Women can wait for their whole lives." 

I bet if you are a man, you wouldn't agree this

but well, as I often say

it's just the general idea

you may think you're the exception =]

梦

哭能释放情绪

但真正最有效整理情绪的功臣

莫过于睡眠和梦

它改变了一些事实

安慰了心

抚平了情绪

告诉记忆

其实　这些都没什么大不了

抹去负面的思想

重新设定脑袋

昨日如梦

发生过什么事

不太记得了

＊＊＊

太压抑也太压力的时候

鬼怪就会来梦里纠缠

负面情绪的倒影啊～

不一样

很奇怪

爱情的滋润

把你变得不一样

还是发掘你不一样的一面？

deviation from normal

或许就是爱情跟其他不一样的地方

或许我从未了解过你

很赞的歌~

重听这首歌

才发现

除了旋律很赞

歌词更赞

坏男孩爱上乖女孩

诚实的告白

很写实下
有血有肉叻

写出了多少人的心声
却有多少人那么幸运
到最后
浪子能回头
爱能达到平衡。。。？

***

能不能 - 铁竹堂  温岚

jason 第一次当我见到你 

你说你紧张的忘了呼吸 

记忆里我只想玩玩而已 

在一起没想过这问题 

你说你从来没有忘记
我们第一个夜里 

我一边说我爱你一边喘着气

 sorry 我爱你是指你的身体 

我不知道你的需要 

你对我的要求我从来没做到 

你怎么受的了 

但我总是见到你微笑 

痛苦总是往肚子里吞掉 

只希望有一天我能明了你的好

 我假装对你不在意

 假装失去我的记忆 

为了隐藏以前痛苦回忆 

我选择放弃

 放心去爱人的权利 

因为我不相信自己 不相信你 

不相信一句话叫做真心真意 

我选择绝情绝义 

你把我当作情人

我却把你当作敌人 

我的人生就是充满猜疑忌恨 

不要浪费精神在我身上寻找永恒

 执迷不悔只会在你我

身上造成一道道永远的伤痕baby 

landy 能不能就对着我说爱我 

能不能就陪着我天长地久

 不要对我若即若离

让我伤心泪流

 能不能就对着我说爱我 

能不能就陪着我一直到最后 

从今以后剩下的路要你陪我走 

jason 你一定觉得我坏谁都不爱

 随你去猜我是在什么心态 

面对你给我的爱 

你对我好我就对你越坏 

但我心里一直有声音在跟我告白 

它说不能没有你的存在 

好怪想爱却又说不出来

 为何心软为何心软 

为何你从不会对我心烦 

已经有了答案

我却不敢去看 

面对你不再反感 

我发现我冰冷的心感受到你的温暖 

该怎么办我现在爱你会不会太晚 

你是唯一  

我想跟你在一起不想再和你分离 oh~

就算外面的女孩子她们叫我baby 

在我心底只有一个老婆叫做vicky 

不知道该怎么说但我知道怎么做 

我不会一错再错忘了以前痛苦的过程 

我们要的只是结果 

你问我会一起多久? 

我不知道大概一辈子够不够?

 牵着你的手往前走我只听到你说 

landy 能不能就对着我说爱我 

能不能就陪着我天长地久 

不要对我若即若离让我伤心泪流 

能不能就对着我说爱我 

能不能就陪着我一直到最后 

从今以后剩下的路要你陪我走

Tuning...

Tune to 40997 Hz

=]

出淤泥而不染？

站在负能量的出口

火山爆发般的倾泻

把我溶得体无完肤

轻盈的身躯

承载着过多的负能量

变得无比沉重

流沙般 慢慢下陷

要怎么grounding

才能把一颗颗的负电子

传到地底

又不伤害到任何人？

要怎么从一堆烂泥中

扶自己一把

甩掉身上的污迹

昂首接受阳光的滋养？

莲儿，我敬佩你。

喜悦是。。。

除了你自己

没有人有义务对你好

因此

每一个对你好的人

就算对么微不足道的举动

都能带来感动

喜悦或许是别人给予

却需要清澈的心眼

发现。

没有期许

没有习惯

没有依赖

一切看起来美好。

Live your life

Below is the transcript of the talk of Dr. Richard Teo, who is a 40-year-old millionaire and cosmetic surgeon with a stage-4 lung cancer but selflessly
came to share with the D1 class his life experience on 19-Jan-2012.

Hi good morning to all of you. My voice is a bit hoarse, so please bear with me. I thought I'll just introduce myself. My name is Richard, I'm a medical doctor. And I thought I'll

just share some thoughts of my life. It's my pleasure to be invited by prof. Hopefully, it can get you thinking about how... as you pursue this.. embarking on your training to become dental surgeons, to think about other things as well.

Since young, I am a typical product of today's society. Relatively successful product that society requires.. From young, I came from a below average family. I was told by the media... and people around me that happiness is about success. And that success is about being wealthy. With this mind-set, I've always be extremely competitive, since I was young.

Not only do I need to go to the top school, I need to have success in all fields. Uniform groups, track, everything. I needed to get trophies, needed to be successful, I needed to have colours award, national colours award, everything. So I was highly competitive since young. I went on to medical school, graduated as a doctor. Some of you may know that within the medical faculty, ophthalmology is one of the most highly sought after specialities. So I went after that as well. I was given a traineeship in ophthalmology, I was also given a research scholarship by NUS to develop lasers to treat the eye.

So in the process, I was given 2 patents, one for the medical devices, and another for the lasers. And you know what, all this academic achievements did not bring me any wealth. So once I completed my bond with MOH, I decided that this is taking too long, the training in eye surgery is just taking too long. And there's lots of money to be made in the private sector. If you're aware, in the last few years, there is this rise in aesthetic medicine. Tons of money to be made there. So I decided, well, enough of staying in institution, it's time to leave. So I quit my training halfway and I went on to set up my aesthetic clinic... in town, together with a day surgery centre.

You know the irony is that people do not make heroes out average GP (general practitioner), family physicians. They don't. They make heroes out of people who are rich and famous. People who are not happy to pay $20 to see a GP, the same person have no qualms paying ten thousand dollars for a liposuction, 15 thousand dollars for a breast augmentation, and so on and so forth. So it's a no brainer isn't? Why do you want to be a gp? Become an aesthetic physician. So instead of healing the sick and ill, I decided that I'll become a glorified beautician. So, business was good, very good. It started off with waiting of one week, then became 3weeks, then one month, then 2 months, then 3 months. I was overwhelmed; there were just too many patients. Vanities are fantastic business. I employed one doctor, the second doctor, the 3rd doctor, the 4th doctor. And within the 1st year, we're already raking in millions. Just the 1st year. But never is enough because I was so obsessed with it. I started to expand into Indonesia to get all the rich Indonesian tai-tais who wouldn't blink an eye to have a procedure done. So life was really good.

So what do I do with the spare cash. How do I spend my weekends? Typically, I'll have car club gatherings. I take out my track car, with spare cash I got myself a track car. We have car club gatherings. We'll go up to Sepang in Malaysia. We'll go for car racing. And it was my life. With other spare cash, what do i do? I get myself a Ferrari. At that time, the 458 wasn't out, it's just a spider convertible, 430. This is a friend of mine, a schoolmate who is a forex trader, a banker. So he got a red one, he was wanting all along a red one, I was getting the silver one.

So what do I do after getting a car? It's time to buy a house, to build our own bungalows. So we go around looking for a land to build our own bungalows, we went around hunting. So how do i live my life? Well, we all think we have to mix around with the rich and famous. This is one of the Miss Universe. So we hang around with the beautiful, rich and famous. This by the way is an internet founder. So this is how we spend our lives, with dining and all the restaurants and Michelin Chefs you know.

So I reach a point in life that I got everything for my life. I was at the pinnacle of my career and all. That's me one year ago in the gym and I thought I was like, having everything under control and reaching the pinnacle.

Well, I was wrong. I didn't have everything under control. About last year March, I started to develop backache in the middle of nowhere. I thought maybe it was all the heavy squats I was doing. So I went to SGH, saw my classmate to do an MRI, to make sure it's not a slipped disc or anything. And that evening, he called me up and said that we found bone marrow replacement in your spine. I said, sorry what does that mean? I mean I know what it means, but I couldn't accept that. I was like “Are you serious?” I was still running around going to the gym you know. But we had more scans the next day, PET scans - positrons emission scans, they found that actually I have stage 4 terminal lung cancer. I was like "Whoa where did that come from?” It has already spread to the brain, the spine, the liver and the adrenals. And you know one moment I was there, totally thinking that I have everything under control, thinking that I've reached the pinnacle of my life. But the next moment, I have just lost it.

This is a CT scan of the lungs itself. If you look at it, every single dot there is a tumour. We call this miliaries tumour. And in fact, I have tens of thousands of them in the lungs. So, I was told that even with chemotherapy, that I'll have about 3-4months at most. Did my life come crushing on, of course it did, who wouldn't? I went into depression, of course, severe depression and I thought I had everything.

See the irony is that all these things that I have, the success, the trophies, my cars, my house and all. I thought that brought me happiness. But i was feeling really down, having severe depression. Having all these thoughts of my possessions, they brought me no joy. The thought of... You know, I can hug my Ferrari to sleep, no... No, it is not going to happen. It brought not a single comfort during my last ten months. And I thought they were, but they were not true happiness. But it wasn't. What really brought me joy in the last ten months was interaction with people, my loved ones, friends, people who genuinely care about me, they laugh and cry with me, and they are able to identify the pain and suffering I was going through. That brought joy to me, happiness. None of the things I have, all the possessions, and I thought those were supposed to bring me happiness. But it didn't, because if it did, I would have felt happy think about it, when I was feeling most down..

You know the classical Chinese New Year that is coming up. In the past, what do I do? Well, I will usually drive my flashy car to do my rounds, visit my relatives, to show it off to my friends. And I thought that was joy, you know. I thought that was really joy. But do you really think that my relatives and friends, whom some of them have difficulty trying to make ends meet, that will truly share the joy with me? Seeing me driving my flashy car and showing off to them? No, no way. They won’t be sharing joy with me. They were having problems trying to make ends meet, taking public transport. In fact i think, what I have done is more like you know, making them envious, jealous of all I have. In fact, sometimes even hatred.

Those are what we call objects of envy. I have them, I show them off to them and I feel it can fill my own pride and ego. That didn't bring any joy to these people, to my friends and relatives, and I thought they were real joy.

Well, let me just share another story with you. You know when I was about your age, I stayed in king Edward VII hall. I had this friend whom I thought was strange. Her name is Jennifer, we're still good friends. And as I walk along the path, she would, if she sees a snail, she would actually pick up the snail and put it along the grass patch. I was like why do you need to do that? Why dirty your hands? It’s just a snail. The truth is she could feel for the snail. The thought of being crushed to death is real to her, but to me it's just a snail. If you can't get out of the pathway of humans then you deserve to be crushed, it’s part of evolution isn't it? What an irony isn't it?

There I was being trained as a doctor, to be compassionate, to be able to empathise; but I couldn't. As a house officer, I graduated from medical school, posted to the oncology department at NUH. And, every day, every other day I witness death in the cancer department. When I see how they suffered, I see all the pain they went through. I see all the morphine they have to press every few minutes just to relieve their pain. I see them struggling with their oxygen breathing their last breath and all. But it was just a job. When I went to clinic every day, to the wards every day, take blood, give the medication but was the patient real to me? They weren't real to me. It was just a job, I do it, I get out of the ward, I can't wait to get home, I do my own stuff.

Was the pain, was the suffering the patients went through real? No. Of course I know all the medical terms to describe how they feel, all the suffering they went through. But in truth, I did not know how they feel, not until I became a patient. It is until now; I truly understand how they feel. And, if you ask me, would I have been a very different doctor if I were to re-live my life now, I can tell you yes I will. Because I truly understand how the patients feel now. And sometimes, you have to learn it the hard way.

Even as you start just your first year, and you embark this journey to become dental surgeons, let me just challenge you on two fronts.

Inevitably, all of you here will start to go into private practice. You will start to accumulate wealth. I can guarantee you. Just doing an implant can bring you thousands of dollars, it's fantastic money. And actually there is nothing wrong with being successful, with being rich or wealthy, absolutely nothing wrong. The only trouble is that a lot of us like myself couldn't handle it.

Why do I say that? Because when I start to accumulate, the more I have, the more I want. The more I wanted, the more obsessed I became. Like what I showed you earlier on, all I can was basically to get more possessions, to reach the pinnacle of what society did to us, of what society wants us to be. I became so obsessed that nothing else really mattered to me. Patients were just a source of income, and I tried to squeeze every single cent out of these patients.

A lot of times we forget, whom we are supposed to be serving. We become so lost that we serve nobody else but just ourselves. That was what happened to me. Whether it is in the medical, the dental fraternity, I can tell you, right now in the private practice, sometimes we just advise patients on treatment that is not indicated. Grey areas. And even though it is not necessary, we kind of advocate it. Even at this point, I know who are my friends and who genuinely cared for me and who are the ones who try to make money out of me by selling me "hope". We kind of lose our moral compass along the way. Because we just want to make money.

Worse, I can tell you, over the last few years, we bad mouth our fellow colleagues, our fellow competitors in the industry. We have no qualms about it. So if we can put them down to give ourselves an advantage, we do it. And that's what happening right now, medical, dental everywhere. My challenge to you is not to lose that moral compass. I learnt it the hard way, I hope you don't ever have to do it.

Secondly, a lot of us will start to get numb to our patients as we start to practise. Whether is it government hospitals, private practice, I can tell you when I was in the hospital, with stacks of patient folders, I can't wait to get rid of those folders as soon as possible; I can't wait to get patients out of my consultation room as soon as possible because there is just so many, and that's a reality. Because it becomes a job, a very routine job. And this is just part of it. Do I truly know how the patient feels back then? No, I don't. The fears and anxiety and all, do I truly understand what they are going through? I don't, not until when this happens to me and I think that is one of the biggest flaws in our system.

We’re being trained to be healthcare providers, professional, and all and yet we don't know how exactly they feel. I'm not asking you to get involved emotionally, I don't think that is professional but do we actually make a real effort to understand their pain and all? Most of us won’t, alright, I can assure you. So don't lose it, my challenge to you is to always be able to put yourself in your patient's shoes.

Because the pain, the anxiety, the fear are very real even though it's not real to you, it's real to them. So don't lose it and you know, right now I'm in the midst of my 5th cycle of my chemotherapy. I can tell you it’s a terrible feeling. Chemotherapy is one of those things that you don't wish even your enemies to go through because it's just suffering, lousy feeling, throwing out, you don't even know if you can retain your meals or not. Terrible feeling! And even with whatever little energy now I have, I try to reach out to other cancer patients because I truly understand what pain and suffering is like. But it's kind of little too late and too little.

You guys have a bright future ahead of you with all the resource and energy, so I’m going to challenge you to go beyond your immediate patients. To understand that there are people out there who are truly in pain, truly in hardship. Don’t get the idea that only poor people suffer. It is not true. A lot of these poor people do not have much in the first place, they are easily contented. for all you know they are happier than you and me but there are out there, people who are suffering mentally, physically, hardship, emotionally, financially and so on and so forth, and they are real. We choose to ignore them or we just don't want to know that they exist.

So do think about it alright, even as you go on to become professionals and dental surgeons and all. That you can reach out to these people who are in need. Whatever you do can make a large difference to them. I'm now at the receiving end so I know how it feels, someone who genuinely care for you, encourage and all. It makes a lot of difference to me. That’s what happens after treatment. I had a treatment recently, but I’ll leave this for another day. A lot of things happened along the way, that's why I am still able to talk to you today.

I'll just end of with this quote here, it's from this book called Tuesdays with Morris, and some of you may have read it. Everyone knows that they are going to die; every one of us knows that. The truth is, none of us believe it because if we did, we will do things differently. When I faced death, when I had to, I stripped myself off all stuff totally and I focused only on what is essential. The irony is that a lot of times, only when we learn how to die then we learn how to live. I know it sounds very morbid for this morning but it's the truth, this is what I’m going through.

Don’t let society tell you how to live. Don’t let the media tell you what you're supposed to do. Those things happened to me. And I led this life thinking that these are going to bring me happiness. I hope that you will think about it and decide for yourself how you want to live your own life. Not according to what other people tell you to do, and you have to decide whether you want to serve yourself, whether you are going to make a difference in somebody else's life. Because true happiness doesn't come from serving yourself. I thought it was but it didn't turn out that way. With that I thank you, if you have any questions you have for me, please feel free. Thank you.

可笑的道理

愚人不会说谎。

四方帽在空中旋转的季节

这个季节

提醒着偷懒的小瓜儿

快把懒惰虫 统统赶走

要努力耕耘

才能顺利毕业！

合十

要好好加油

快轮到你啦！

久违的运动会

热烘烘 的太阳

豆大的汗 涔涔

跳着“呼啦啦 呼啦啦” 的手语舞

四个小时的睡眠

五点的巴士

六点的星辰

最辽阔的天空

阔别暗红色的夜空

黑幕里

两颗最耀眼的星星

和排列成三角形的星星

好久不见

温馨的歌词

温暖的歌声

孩子美好的笑靥

家长真诚的感恩

志工热情的活力

晒黑流汗

算什么？

世上没有意外

每一件事都带着

美好的意义、原因、信息。

我的心瘦瘦的却满满的

特别是活动后

受到一些很正面的信息

带着关心和感触

被正能量包围着

人也愉快许多

 

 

I can't agree more... and not just limited to falling in love

加入感恩行列

心情晴朗

被洗涤过的感觉

前所未有的宁静和清澈

无比的感恩

连微不足道甚至有瑕疵

也因此感到开心

***

第二次参慈青的活动

去了麻风病院

机缘巧合下

遇见多年前

在本地电视节目

出现过的阿嫲

还是没变

可惜没机会用超高音说

“阿嫲，我在电视上看过你！”

唱唱歌逗阿公阿嫲们开心

我唱福建歌的天分终于有机会秀一秀了

哈哈~

还有超强（不错强啦 XD）的语言能力

=P

感动与感触

一时说不清

只是

可能是因为天气晴朗

可能是难得早起身

可能是受到正能量

所以豁然开朗许多

***

以感恩的心眼看待事物

一切都很美好

***

谢谢爱

让我了解爱

懂得爱

而去爱人

***

我真的该多多倾听

你的琐碎

你的啰嗦

你的唠叨

再说说

我的琐碎

我的啰嗦

我的唠叨

因为

我知道

你愿意说

你愿意听 

❤

包袱

 

堆满杂物的储藏室

叠了一件又一件的包袱

到底有多少件？

不知道。

到底是什么问题？

也不知道。

“你好像很多心事”

但到底是什么事？

可能有时候

走着走着

遗忘了把它们丢失在哪儿了

“卸下你的心房”

然而太陈旧的门呐

锁头生锈了

钥匙怎么也开不了

忘了怎么说

忘了该说什么

只剩下沉默

而你

却把沉默当作

隐藏

漫长的岁月

岂能用三言两语

说完。

 

***

在雨的季节里

特忧郁。

怀旧

寒冷的下雨天

听着音乐

听着这首歌

唤起某处回忆

温馨。

***
I'll never break your heart - Backstreet boys

Baby, I know you're hurting
Right now you feel like 

you could never love again
Now all I ask is for a chance
To prove that I love you

From the first day
That I saw your smiling face
Honey, I knew that we would
Be together forever
Ooh when I asked you out
You said no but I found out
Darling that you'd been hurt
You felt like you'd never love again
I deserve a try honey just once
Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong
You walked in, you were so quick to judge
But honey he' s nothing like me

I'll never break your heart
I'll never make you cry
I'd rather die than live without you
I'll give you all of me
Honey, that's no lie

As time goes by
You will get to know me
A little more better
Girl that's the way love goes baby, baby
And I know you're afraid

 To let your feelings show
And I understand
Girl, it's time to let go (girl, it's time to let go because)
I deserve a try honey
Just once

Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong 

 You walked in, you were so quick to judge
But honey he's nothing like me
Darling why can't you see

No way, no how (I'll never break your heart girl, I'll never make you cry)
I swear (Oh I, oh I, I swear)
No way, no how (I'll never break your heart girl, I'll never make you cry)

 ***

Backstreet boys, Spice girls, Westlife, 911, Blue, M2M, Boyzone 
= Childhood memories 

成熟？

脑袋熟不熟？

新的一天

告诉自己

今早一睁开眼

是新的一天

昨日心情归零

调整变成喜悦与感恩

又是新的一天！

今日事今日毕？

就因为这样

今日就不能睡

王八蛋。

一个人

在孤单时，享受孤单。

一个人

世界万分寂静

埋首在“伟大工程”里

开始明白

什么是期待

幸福的滋味

太多次的对不起，我承受不起。

嗨～第二年！

闲空。

酱说不会被人打吧？

每个星期一没课

星期五可能没课

但。。。

轻松真的是轻松么？

今年的课开始注重本科

平时笑姐妹课多么难读

自己的也没容易到哪里。。。

就在今年

专注！专注！

所读所看

都是生死攸关
要带到以后的以后的知识

亲爱的

振作点！

别被课程表给骗了！！！

假期要干什么？（伍）

之家乡篇

假期的最最最主要目的

当然是跟家人的团聚时光咯

所以我都躲在家里 ( 宅的最佳理由XD )

等家人回家

吃饭聊天

 出去看电影吃好料

购物一番

干什么了假期？ （泗）

之怡保篇

第一次坐火车

但跟高铁没两样 =。=

还是比较期待坐“传统”火车

 那种轰轰轰、咚咚咚的感觉是不一样的嘛！

 往前奔驰的风景里

一道虹桥伴我行

假期？干什么 （叁）

之新山篇

三的诅咒。。。

又是个漫漫长途

从下大雨到没雨再到小雨又雨停

冲过了朵朵快乐的悲伤的云层

我们的旅途

大多在车里度过

听了杰伦的第一张专辑

第一首歌重播至少三遍=。= 

修

坏了
绞尽脑汁想办法修
修好了
过不久
又坏了
自己的技术太烂吧？
重新维修
还是有点瑕疵
但修好了
又过不久
又坏了

没精力再修了。

小围巾

找不到碎布

干脆自己织一个

快忘了怎么织

奇迹地

我的潜意识记忆还不赖

虽然还是有点差错

没关系

有老妈在

三两下就织好

还加了须须

太可爱啦~

惭愧惭愧

下一个假期

应该好好讨教

不然手艺就此失传噜~

嗒嗒~

假期完毕

回校去！

干什么假期？ (贰）

之柔佛篇

一言难尽

尽在不言中。。。

哈哈哈

其实。。。

我也不记得

去了哪里

因为在计划的阶段

我根本都心不在焉

一心烦着

云顶的住宿

（当天是假日， 酒店又需要订）

还有交通问题

（从云顶搭巴士到吉隆坡转站到TBS再到Pontian）

 

在这段路程

走过的是

史上（我的人生历史啦，不是世界的 XD )

最陡峭+崎岖

和最笔直的路

这真的才叫洋房！

住洋楼养番狗~

屋主是洋人

有两只狗

在院子活泼乱跳

热得发慌时

不知会否跳进泳池游一游？

自己盖泳池

园里可以烧烤

还有吧台

赞哩！

三层楼的洋房

二楼的阳台

可以看看风景

晚上看星星

真会享受~

丫~ 3 mil 的房子哟！
(包括装修）

假期在干什么？ （壹）

倒数最后一个星期

整理整理行李

整理无法整理的心情

写写这两个月

怎么让我荒废

怎么让我蹉跎

真的很没用

但什么又叫有用？

宅女的生活

就是堕落

睡醒 吃饭 * 午觉 吃饭 * 睡觉

*上网/看戏/看书

就这样。。。

一个月半

耗过去。。。

那半个月呢？

故事来了。。。

云顶-柔佛-怡保

之云顶篇

人生第一场演唱会

献给他~

方大同 ❤

我。累。了。

知足

“面对人生千万事，我们可以尽量努力，但是得与不得应该看开，这就是知足。知足，不是叫我们什么都不做，是叫我们在追逐与做了某件事后，无论成败，都不执着于得失。”

~沐澄

太可爱

 

忍不住

很想很想

带它们回家

摆在玻璃橱内

欣赏欣赏

***

只是停留在

想的阶段

而且

我家没有空玻璃橱啦

〉，〈

***

自娱就好。

当作是从我家拍的照片

看了

自爽就好。

=P

P/S : 那旋转木马有音乐的叻！怎么那么惹人爱！！