08.

Seeing how everyone has done a Dec 31st 'proper closure-like' kinda post (after I finally decided to start blog-hopping), I thought I couldn't miss out on this. The only thing is I have 45 mins left and I highly doubt I could finish this in time. So if I can't, just read on New Year's Day lar.

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The normal people would begin with things like '2008 was a blast', 'It was a memorable year', 'Sad it ended so quickly' -ish kind of statements. I'm like, 'How do I start?'

I have regrets. But I know regrets aren't cures, they're merely infections. So I don't brood over them.

I have joy. For all the great things that've happened, but they don't last, that I'm obviously aware of.

(Somehow I think this is going to become like 'old-school monophobic-haven-x style' posts. The ones that I like long and expressive, but have stop 'churning' them of late.)

The only thing I'll say?

I'm thankful.

For the good, the bad, the unexpected, the worst, the predicted, the whatever else you might wanna put here. The reason's old, cliche, but simple. They've made me who I were, who I am, and who I'll be. I like that. I like me.

And there've been happiness, tears, anger, criticism, sarcasm, disappointment, and all the other hell-load of emotions I could muster. So what if I adored or despised them? They're over, long or barely doesn't matter. Looking back was not what I enjoyed doing, even if I could score an impressive A1 in it.

The events that've occured, aren't exactly alive, so they won't feel what I want them to feel. But the people who were around, whether they liked it or not, can feel, and of course I'll thank you.

(A couple of pre-midnight messages remind me that I have barely 30 mins left.)

For the ones I enjoyed company:

08 Batch:

(Class order, not merit.)

Tarang - The new 'american' boy.

Ashmawi - The 'digimon game' braggart.

Choon Hian - The damn-nice av 'geek'. xD

Allen Yu - Guess who?

Fabian - The currently-in-hibernation scout.

Pratama - The rich in both cash and weight guy.

Glen - The smiling chimp.

Crocodile - Who else?

Fadhil - The 'funny' snowman(size-wise).

Alphonsus - The 'underground bitch club' member.

Musli - The radio 987 buddy. And walking bus directory.

Oswin - The fellow 'Dynasty Warriors' comrade.

Sean Ho - The garang scout.

Terence - The large scout.

Chun Yong - The 'shy' np guy. Who's secretly a meanie.

John - The pessimistic 'manga' guy. Who boasts about his sad life.

Clement - The serial rapist.

Shu Liang - The pltc-makeover scout.

Pei Xiang - The now-can-drive malaysian.

Zhi Cong - The gangster/ah beng in the making.

James - The buy-only-one-chocolate-bar-for-six-people rich kid.

Max Chin - The never-late-on-time 'wizard'.

Bob - The super-modest boy.

Danial/Nuzwan - Leaders of 4JI.

Ignatius - The 'magnanimous' desk-bud.

Weng Keong - The *****-hair on head boy. xD

Han Ren - Heir to the 'Han Foundation'.

Xi He - The china farmer who loves dota.

Ding Yuan - Damn irritating tuition mate.

Elton - The stone/boulder in front of my desk.

Roy - The no-eyes nice guy.

Charlton - The hebe fanatic.

Kenneth - The class MA.

Vincent - The suddenly-origami rc guy.

(I have 15 mins. =.=)

And outside of school:

Nicholas Ng - The 'MRS PARF' emo boy.

Sam/Soon Chuen - The tuition guys.

Primary friends:

Chang Yi - Named after the airport.

Shaun - Wai kiat -eh.

Shu Yan - The 'otaku'.

Hilary - The self-proclaimed fat one.

Leong Ying - Still tigress.

Nicholas Cheng - The scatter-brained one.

(Not all mentioned.)

(Less than ten minutes.)

Juniors:

Lester - The fierce one sia.

Ernest - The mousey face. HAH.

Wei Loong - The 'pui' one.

Bih Yau - The think-too-much one.

Quinn - The put-pointy-things-in-the-lift boy.

Ziyad - The always-last-on-the-register kid.

Aaron Aik - The auntie one.

Bing Yu - The 'burdened' one. xD

Sean Chin - The 'blur' complain king. xD

Jun Rong - The shameless 'dirty' boy.

Janus - The endangered 'responsible scout'.

Jun Hao - The got-do-homework kid.

Hou Chen - The hardworking china boy.

Ashley Koh - The english-argumentative-need-help one. LOL.

Andres - The 'pork-lover'.

And I'm tired. Happy New Year! (Didn't waste smses this year. MSN and facebook rocks.)

Teachers:

Ms -

Sonia Yong Soon Yi, Tan Wei Lin Adelyn(to-be-mrs), Lim In Siew

Mrs -

Felicia Wong Chiou Ming, Foo Jia Wen, Setho Sing Fee

Mdm -

Lyana Yahaya, Tang Wai Yue, Afwena Nabilah Kabir, Sharma Poonam Kumari, Kwok Siew Eng, Chut Shi Lin, Kwek Chin Huat, Koh Siew Mooi, Goh Siew Cheng

Mr -

Jotham Wong Liang Seng, Thirumaran Velusamy, Zuraimi bin Abdul Rahman, Tan Wil Beng, Alan Goh, Sim KH, Cao Jian Feng

That ought to be it. And I decided to add people I really know on facebook, like all of them, even if some weren't that close.

I'm beat. And someone's phone died. =.= That's all, for now, at least.

300.

Lazy to blog, lazy to read blogs.

Anyway, Christmas is over and I didn't get a single ___. Except maybe Lester's card. And I'm still desperately trying to give out cards even though I ain't getting anything. =.= Season of Giving, huh?

Class Gathering's over and I learnt my lesson. Would expect the next one in ten years' time when someone who bothers gets it done. Won't do anything for undeserving and unappreciative people anymore. Can't expect leopards from 4 years back to change their spots, not one bit, at all. But that doesn't stop me from planning stuff for other people who would bother to say 'thanks'.

It's New Year's Eve people. Tomorrow the year changes.

(I remember how I always spend the first 3 months of every year writing the wrong year in the dates on assignments.)

HI.

Harmony-seeking Idealists are characterised by a complex personality and an abundance of thoughts and feelings. They are warm-hearted persons by nature. They are sympathetic and understanding. Harmony-seeking Idealists expect a lot of themselves and of others. They have a strong understanding of human nature and are often very good judges of character. But they are mostly reserved and confide their thoughts and feelings to very few people they trust. They are deeply hurt by rejection or criticism. Harmony-seeking Idealists find conflict situations unpleasant and prefer harmonious relationships. However, if reaching a certain target is very important to them they can assert themselves with a doggedness bordering on obstinacy.

Harmony-seeking Idealists have a lively fantasy, often an almost clairvoyant intuition and are often very creative. Once they have tackled a project, they do everything in their power to achieve their goals. In everyday life, they often prove to be excellent problem solvers. They like to get to the root of things and have a natural curiosity and a thirst for knowledge. At the same time, they are practically oriented, well organised and in a position to tackle complex situations in a structured and carefully considered manner. When they concentrate on something, they do so one hundred percent - they often become so immersed in a task that they forget everything else around them. That is the secret of their often very large professional success.

As a Harmony-seeking Idealist you are one of the introverted personality types. Therefore you prefer a quiet work environment where you can intensively deal with your responsibilities and are not disturbed by too many people and repeated distractions. You need a lot of time to dwell on your thoughts, to put them into words and let your ideas take shape. You are grateful for a certain measure of order and structure in order to achieve this, and being able to deal with one project after the other, thus not having a number of responsibilities at one time. You don’t like being overloaded because it is important to you to deal with things thoroughly. Your capability to concentrate is unusually great and very often you become engrossed in something and forget everything around you.

You are one of the feeler types. This fact is partially the reason that you have a very strong insight into human nature and enjoy dealing with people. You are interested in the people around you and have a real sense for their motivations, needs and abilities. Your talent to see the best in everybody and your keen wish to understand others and somehow contribute to their wellbeing predestine you to work with people.

Due to your propensity to be introverted you are not into holding major speeches for large audiences. Your real strength lies in working individually with people like therapists, physicians or priests. In those professions, when advancing others in their personal development or to help them in any other way is the issue, you are unbeatable. You are extremely sensitive, and your social competences are developed above average. As a result you have no problems working with people or being a team member. Still, you should watch out to primarily surround yourself with persons who are similarly profound and eclectic. During the working day you abhor thoughtless, superficial, and insensitive colleagues. 

As partners, harmony-seeking idealists are loyal and reliable; a permanent relationship is very important to them. They seldom fall in love head over heels nor do they like quick affairs. They sometimes find it very difficult to clearly show their affection although their feelings are deep and sincere. In as far as their circle of friends is concerned, their motto is: less is more! As far as new contacts are concerned, they are approachable to only a limited extent; they prefer to put their energy into just a few, close friendships. Their demands on friends and partners are very high. As they do not like conflicts, they hesitate for some time before raising unsatisfactory issues and, when they do, they make every effort not to hurt anyone as a result.

Even if you can fall head over heels in love - like all Idealists - all in all you are still the reserved personality type. With you it takes a relatively long time until your counterpart has figured out that you have developed a romantic interest in him/her. You only show your feelings when you are very sure of yourself and the prospects for the relationship. In matters of love the word “flighty” is not a part of your dictionary. You incredulously notice affairs of others and can’t imagine how anyone can play that furiously with their own and the feelings of others. You are a very consistent and faithful person and you are looking for a partner like that - sometimes it takes a very long time. 

When you are too reserved and hesitate too long before you really trust someone to open up to him/her, you make it very difficult for potential prospects. There is no question that your personality is one of the most complex and complicated types around. So it is no wonder that less complicated types sometimes become demoralized and give up before your flirtation has gained momentum. 

Once you have committed yourself to a partner, it is for life. There is no going back. Since a relationship is that important to you, one of your most important goals in life is to keep the given promise. Your obligation is sacred and you expect your partner to feel the same way. Because it was difficult for you to trust, you have a real problem forgiving a betrayal of confidence like an affair as well as other behaviors that you see as treachery. All your aspirations are focused to form emotional oneness with your partner and to merge with him/her as much as is humanly possible. If your partner feels as you do and opens him/herself up to you, it can form the basis for a close and exclusive relationship. You run the risk of disappointment and hurt though, if you give your love to someone who wants no part of this intimacy. For you, it is either all or nothing.

- http://www.ipersonic.com/index.html

Achievement.

Back from camp and I daresay I've done a week's worth of exercises.

From 35km cycling to Telok Blangah Hill and Mount Faber hiking, to 2 games of bowling and ungodly hour badminton (I've improved LOADS). And technically I did it all in one day since the cycling ended around 2 am and badminton was till ten plus pm.

Now my feet hurt. =.="

But... I officially fixed a bike after the chains come off! First time in four years! After three years worth of letting other people fix them for me at Pulau Ubin.

And Death Race was awesome, other than the endless reminders for viewers to subscribe to the show during the adverts.

And less than 39 hours left. xD

Patriot.

The Judge gave him a chance to apologise before the decision was made whether to convict him of or not. He refused. 

The Judge gave him another chance to apologise before sentence was passed. Again he refused.

On both occasions he said that his "personal convictions" did not allow him to apologise and that he stood by his actions.

As a result Mr Shafi'ie will spend seven days in imprison starting tomorrow. He has been convicted of contempt of court together with Mr John Tan and Mr Isrizal. The three men were wearing t-shirts with the picture of a kangaroo in a judge's gown on them during the defamation hearing between Lee Kuan Yew and the Singapore Democrats.

Not having respect for others just means that you don't have respect for yourself either. There isn't only one way to express patriotism.

Mr Shafi'ie, 20, has just completed his basic military training. Quiet and unassuming, this lad has moral fibre that few in Singapore can match. The temptation to just apologise and get out of trouble was strong, but he did not yield.

Understandably, his mother is worried sick. What mother wants her child to go to prison?

But instead of feeling down, Mum Shafi'ie should hold her head high because of what her son believes in and, more important, what he is willing to do to stand up for those beliefs. Shafi'ie is being charged together with 15 other activists for protesting outside Parliament House this year. 

We highlight this young man's resolve because many youths nowadays also end up in prison but for other reasons. Theft, drugs, fighting, drunk-driving you name it and many young people in prison have done it.

Since you can name the things teenagers get themselves involved in, why don't we see you doing anything to change that?

But Shafi'ie is different. He believes in democracy, and he is willing to sacrifice his liberty for the greater cause. How many people in Singapore are willing to do that?

Greater is subjective.

But in this system, we punish patriotic youths the same way we punish criminally-minded ones. And we wonder why Singaporeans are leaving Singapore in droves.

It isn't a punishment when you're supposed to be taught a lesson. You were given a chance to repent, you dumped it. There are a billion reasons why people leave their countries.

Loads of people simply take things for granted.

Tomorrow Messrs Shafi'ie and Isrizal will report to the Sheriff at the Supreme Court at 10 am to begin their sentences. Mr John Tan will commence his term a few days later after he has taken care of some personal arrangements. 

The Singapore Democrats salute all three gentlemen. We shall overcome.

Don't try to make yourself look better by stating how ugly others look. Work for it.

Mando.

I'm back in mandopop season.

How long? We'll see.

XMAS TWO!

XMAS ONE!

Repli-ed.

Late TAG replies:

leongying: Backdrop of the performance area.

sywk: Cheapo. xP

zb: It might just be a post-concert CD. Not too sure.

yuanxi: =.= And yes, we OUGHT TO catch up.

jiajie: Unlike-me like four years back? xD

fawwaz: Yep. =3

kenneth: Be prepared kay!

zb/Tristen: Simple terms: power to see past, present, future.

beLIEve: Even with recession, YES!

Fadhil: Haven't got round to relink-ing. xD

azmi: I'm not telling. xP

Defensive.

Some people get defensive over words that aren't targeted at their own names. And you ask why?

Guilty conscience answers.

Who's talking about you?

Anyway, keeping nose out of business that only has an inch of relevance to me isn't my style.

Early-er.

I've confirmed my christmas gift recipient list! Though I have no idea why I'm rejoicing.

Anyway 40 cards is gonna take a pretty long time... reason why I'm starting early, like 3 weeks early. Should be getting supplies like tomorrow or the day after. At least cards are settled.

As for proper gifts, I'm leaving the number to about 9. I'm not intending to work yet and money comes from savings so too bad for those who don't receive any. Usually I settle my christmas gifts overseas which explains Hong Kong in 06 and Australia in 07, this time I decided to go nowhere so nothing!

And I've planned card contents and card layout so I'll start later this week or next maybe?

I have time. =)

16225

Evidently I haven't been 'posting' of late. And I do mean what I consider 'proper posts'.

The counter numbers decrease, and that's a good sign. Even if I ain't patient, I don't seem like I have much of a choice. I wasn't born as who I wanted to be, and I can't choose or change.

Still, it isn't that bad. At least I'm close. Relative to others, of course.

I can wait.

No doubt.

I'm not worrying yet.

Someone will be back.

No doubt.

Evil.

Shit.

Having to find out that someone whom I wouldn't appreciate spending the next two years with is aiming for the same place and same stuff that I'm trying to get into.

The only silver lining for now seems to be the fact that he ain't that intelligent to start with and it isn't easy to get in either.

I sound evil? I am.

Maybe just a little.

They always say that people don't cherish those close to them when they're around, and only regret and start missing them when they're gone.

Maybe I just hadn't done that. And maybe that's why I only start to feel it now.

The maybes are bullshit. I don't cherish enough, that's truth.

I'll make up.

LMAO.

Prue: We did that.

Phoebe: And they'll live happily ever after.

Piper: Hmm... I wonder if we will.

Prue: Of course we will. Why shouldn't we?

Piper: It's easy for you to say. You'll never greet your husband at the door with 'Honey, I think I froze the kids!'

Prue: No, I've just accidentally moved them to another zipcode.

Phoebe: But I will see them, find them and bring them back, safely.

Just enough.

It's funny how I can predict how things will turn out, and how some of them already did.

I did my part in saving Victoria, and yes, I'm pretty sure things will be fine now.

Eight was too many, too much, too useless. Four makes the difference just fine.

Deserving is subjective, but not in my case. It's obvious who wants and who needs.

I amaze even myself. =3

519half.

Short of posts, yes I'm aware. It's been a packed holiday, at least for now.

Two chalets, one farewell, one house visit, one camp. Though that seems to end it all.

And now I have a really EMPTY calendar.

If anyone's counting, yes the time is up. For at least 8 hours now. I'm still fine, at the moment.

I'm not job-hunting yet. No drive at all. And I've started counting again.

This time, 519.5 hours left.

Reminder.

Don't remind me that I only have 63 hours left.

I'm already reminding myself.

Revision.

Revising what you learnt two years ago is a chore. Seriously.

But what they say about it being easier the second time round actually makes some sense.

The only thing is, I'm revising for a test I ain't taking. =.=

Two hands.

I'm done writing my christmas gift list. As in who I'll get something for?

There's 30 on priority and 11 on others.

After hearing the truth, it's quite funny actually. 

Especially when it's what I expected.

My clairvoyance hasn't failed me, and it's not going to for a long time.

Nothing that I don't want changed has changed.

Hey.

What's new around here that I don't already know?

It's Ok!

Top Of The Playlist:

Atomic Kitten - It's Ok!

I remember all the nights I used

to stay at home, 

On the phone, all night long,

used to talk about the things

we'd really wanna do,

I believed in you, 

I remember how you used to say,

Have no fear, It'll be ok,

When you told me anything you 

want is possible,

we could have it all.

I believed in you,

I must have been a fool,

All my dreams were with

you...

[Chorus]

I say it's ok,

I can promise you it's

alright, you ain't keeping

me up all night, no more,

You're not here but it's ok,

I assure you, babe, it's 

alright, you ain't keeping me 

up all night, no more,

You're not here but it's ok.

Well, now you got to where you

wanted like I knew you would,

Cash, car, house,

It's all good,

It's the way you never come around

here no more,

Like you did before.

You got it all thats the

way it seems,

looks like you,

live your dream,

And I hope your life has

turned out for the better now,

when I'm not around.

I believed in you,

I must have been a fool,

All my dreams were with

you...

[Chorus]

I say it's ok,

I can promise you it's

alright, you ain't keeping

me up all night, no more,

You're not here but it's ok,

I assure you, babe, it's 

alright, you ain't keeping me 

up all night, no more, (no more)

You're not here but it's ok.

Its all right, it's okay [x3]

That you're not here with me

Its all right, it's okay [x3]

That you're not here with me

[Chorus]

I say it's ok,

I can promise you it's

alright, you ain't keeping

me up all night, no more,

You're not here but it's ok,

I assure you, babe, it's 

alright, you ain't keeping me 

up all night, no more, (no more)

You're not here but it's ok.

Its all right, it's okay [x3]

That you're not here with me

Its all right, it's okay [x3]

You're not here but it's ok.

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Sure, it's a little out of context, but alone it would have made sense.

Now let's hope it lasts.