Basketball, Boys, & Me

I haven't blogged in forever! I kinda miss it. I was thinking yesterday about how my kids are going to look back and remember me. I'll admit, it scares me a little bit. Ok, a lot! 

I believe I'm a pretty decent mother. I mean I've managed to clothe, feed, keep them alive, and love them. Kadence turned 17 this year and started his senior year, and Kourtland turned 14, and started the 9th grade. I'm struggling with the fact that they're so grown up. Especially the fact that Kadence will be leaving for 2 years at some point this summer. I just want to follow them wherever they go, but at the same time I can't wait for them to be gone. (that's where the "decent mother" comes in) HA! I just don't think I'm prepared for this next phase of life. 

I tell you all that because, yesterday while watching a movie I made the comment to Kadence that he was being lazy. He said, "oh, Ok, coming from the laziest person in the family?" Touche, dude! Touche! It's funny because it's true! I have become so complacent over the last few years. I stopped being on top of the house cleaning because I got so frustrated that they wouldn't keep up the basics of cleaning up after themselves. I thought, I'll show them! Nope, doesn't work! Don't do it! They don't care. They don't mind living in filth. Grrrrr! That lead to mean mom blowing up just to get the house cleaned up.  I'm happy to say that we had a weekend a few weeks ago that we cleaned and it wasn't the next version of war! We've actually managed to stay on top of it for a few weeks, so hopefully that can remain. They still super suck at cleaning up messes, but I've just done it for them for too long. Old habits die hard! A word of advice for you moms of young kids: make them clean up and do chores! I'm still praying my daughter in laws don't hate me! 

So starting today, October 1st, I am going to make a few goals for myself. I don't want my kids to remember me as being lazy! I am by no means the perfect mom, but I hope and pray they always know that I love them and want only the best for them. Matt and I have done our best to make a happy and fun home. I hope that's what they remember the most. Nights spent watching stupid movies and TV shows, laughing at each other, and spending time together. I also hope that one day soon they will realize how much they love each other, and how lucky they are to be brothers! 

We don't pretend to be anything we aren't. We are a happy, sarcastic, busy, loving family! 

Being a mother has been one of my greatest achievements. It saved me! It has been the hardest and the easiest job all at the same time. I wouldn't change a single thing!