When the time is right.....

I had a weak moment today sitting in church. As I looked around at all the cute kids in sacrament meeting, it made me cry thinking that I was so close to having another baby and then it got taken away from me. Most days I am fine with having a miscarriage, then there are brief moments that I get so sad knowing that I could have been 5 months along by now and feeling a baby kick. I have wondered many times as to why I was able to see a heartbeat twice and then it was gone. I just have to keep telling myself that everything happens for a reason and when the time is right I will get another baby. It has happened before, a miscarriage and then I got Allie. Until then I will continue to enjoy every minute that I have with Allie. I would hope that every mother out there will cherish the wonderful blessings they have.

8 Years

It has been 8 years today that my dad passed away. It's so crazy how fast these past 8 years have gone. For those of you who didn't know my dad, he passed away from cancer. It was hard to see him suffer but he is in a better place now. Our family has grown so much since then. My sister Anna was the only one married at the time and was also pregnant. Now 3 more of us are married and there are 6 grandchildren. All 3 of my brothers have served mission since then also. My brother Chad was on his mission for 3 months when my dad passed away. They said their goodbyes before he left, but it was still hard to go through. We have had many health trials in the family since then, but we've all been there for each other. My mom said once that after my dad died, us kids have never fought with each other. It's so crazy how tragedy can make or break a family. My dad has left behind a wonderful legacy. He was the best example of what a father should be. I tell Matt all the time that my dad was always there for us when we needed him. He coached our sports teams, he helped us with homework, he helped us with our chores when we were too stubborn to do them by ourselves, he never said a bad word or a swear word, he always treated my mom with respect and he consistently showed us he loved us. Matt is a lot like my dad and I hope and pray that he continues to be like my dad with our children. We all miss him everyday. Love you dad!


All of us kids with my dad. We took some pictures for my mom for mothers day one year.


A typical family picture!


At my sister's wedding. One of the last good family pictures of all of us.

A New Year!

It's a new year, and that means it's time for some changes. Maybe if I publicly write down my New Years Resolutions, then they will get done!
* Get healthy.....take care of myself better, eat better, exercise. It's hard for me to lose weight because of my thyroid, but I want to work hard and over come that challenge.
* NO MTN DEW! This is hard for me because of my migraines, but I feel so much better when I don't drink it.
* RUN a 5k. I have never done a 5k and have always wanted to.
* Be nicer to/about people that frustrate me. Sometimes I can say some pretty mean things about people and I need to stop.
* Be more spiritual. I am terrible about reading the scriptures, I want to be better at this. I also need to go to the temple more and do more service.

I know these may not seem too hard for some people but most of them are a challenge for me. I plan on writing these down on the front of my phone so that I can see them everyday. Hope you all have a wonderful 2012!!