Had fun today!:) now I'm trying to send my photos over but i can't and currently I'm lazy to download my New phone's disc for transferring photos ,so yeah. Got to wait till I'm super bored that i decide to download it. Till than,good night. Got to go church in a few hours time:)

Some thrilling experience i've got to share! overslept for work, on christmas eve, so daddy sent me to work(: so i'm early & everyone else was late! So i got to do the opening & all. Announcment for the whole store to hear my freaking sweet voice was thrilling!hahahas! Was so nervous can!
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Anyway, went for midnight mass which was very packed! but was quite nice(:
Christmas was great, though i won't say that it was the best so far. Wasn't as excited for the giving of presents session , when we were kids a few years back, we tend to get so excited that on christmas eve, we would start looking through all the presents & wait till the clock strike 12, we're allowed to open one present each. Stay overs at grandma's place was fun, cause all the presents were there.
Food was Great:D Cakes were awesome! (;
Tomorrow's last day of work): Farewell party+Post christmas party :D I'm so goanna miss them.
I cried that day when saying bye to Anna can! DDD;
oh & sky garden with Mei at OC that day, the breeze was awesome!! hahahas, i'm goanna need another job soon, or i need a touring partner!:D

hehehe, i just realise how i can go gaga over a chinese guy rather than an angmoh lor!!!

I feel like staying at home, not going anywhere!!! DDDDDDDDDD;

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I served Li JiaWei like today!

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K, tml will be tiring, 12 to 12 DDD; Hope u're working :D At least it's within my viewing range(:

Went to Doc and waited for like an hour!!! Got some potassium something to wash the swell): Gotta give up that piercing . like after all the pain i beared,cause i don't want to re-pierce, end up still the same consequence. NVM.

Work contract is goanna end soon. I don't know how i feel. LOLS! );

I LOVE MY FRIGGING HOT RED NAILS:D Penitential service was fast, one hour only. (:
Afterwhich Astons for dinner, I've got loads of photos but i'm lazy to transfer):
Infection on my ear ): Need to see a doctor tml, it's swollen till like one stud size can! ):
I WANT TO SEE A DOC LIKE NOW!!!!. Luckily tml work till 6, afterwhich i think i shall go central for DOCTOR!!! SAVE ME PLEASEXZXZX!!!

Time pass seriously fast can! Like next week is Christmas alr! & Christmas shopping not done yet! Gotta go shop on this thurs, after my penitential service (:
K, yest. this customer came and make a scene & scream&scream , make the salesperson who served her cried. & everyone was like looking at her(the customer). Sometimes, I'm really curious what mindsets does these people carry? Some can come to me cause they can't find a place & start shouting at me : SO WHERE&HOW CAN I FIND THAT PLACE?! oh,please, it's not my job scope to give directions to you when the things are totally not related to the company can! You want to redeem vouchers & you're pissed cause people u asked all can't direct you so send you to my customer service, i can understand. But so what?! Why on earth must you , this auntie scream at me?! use those kind of tone?! Seriously, this only shows how uneducated you are. How hot-tempered you are. How stupid you are . How you don't care what others think of you. Seriously , to this kind of people, i promise one day, I'll get back. 1 simple way you speak just shows me so many traits of you & i pity your children !
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Not forgetting, there are also nice customers who would come back to me & thank me & stuffs (:(:

Hi hi. I'm using my crystal phone to post here.
work was ok today.just that l.m pissed with some worker.

I am very full & tired now.
Work was fast today (: Late night cab again:D 2 days alr 40+ going 50 bucks.
I just ate doughnuts&pie&satay! So bloated. I'm off tomorrow! :D
oh, & i bumped into Jessica today!!! :DDDD Like haven't seen her since May! Got to go out ith my babes soon! (: Church tomorrow, so i think i'm goanna go to bed soon, after my this batch of food is cooked in cafe world :D
MORNING PEOPLE! :D

Shall post since I'm waiting for my cafe world stuffs to be cooked :D
Yesterday was fun! (sought of lah) Close door event = long queue. The queue was non-stop. So i started serving my very first customer from 10.30 till 6.45 . all the way, the queue was damn long. Than , there was this customer who was very pissed cause of the long queue than we can't issue her the free gift cause hers was a duplicate receipt. Than she started shouting & shouting , see alr so hilarious uh! Feel like asking her to go for some anger management course uh! FUNNY.
Off today , so went out with mum for lunch at crystal jade :D than dinner with parents at Changi Village :D STINGRAY ^^ SUGICAKES :D
Tomorrow got to work till 11.30):

Work was all right today :D
Suppose to have lunch with Anna,Fuziya&James so went to the stall, than in the end we ate separately. So went to eat wanton noddles with james.
end at 6 (: tml also same shift. 3days in a row all morning!!! D:
Tomorrow close doors event also need go early . I still can't find a perfect chiffon dress!
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sometimes,it's hard to face it when the everything just come in a rush. i seriously dislike the sudden change,so hostile like cold war. Yet,in a way it's better not t see each other cause the pain will lessen. Anyway this is how life is isn't it? Nice things just come and go.Get use to it & everything will be fine.

DAMNNNN! i lost a 50bucks letter! gotta take it as i give 50 extra t a customer. ):
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Everything is getting more and more like a routine alr. cycle repeats itself.
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K, forget it, 313 (:(:(: Got a lot of variety for me now!!! But later on goanna go meridian for dinner. QUEUED to get into uni qlo with mei after work. it was fucking crowded & i can't get the turtleneck colour that i want, so goanna wait , anyway i can go there like almost everyday:D
& I've got an extra lunch buddy this time round :D

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Blog is getting boring-ier & boring-ier day-by-day.
Work was still fun cause i made alot of mistakes & everyone still love me ttm :D
Today was not as boring in the morning cause there's someone to chat with me (: He very cute siol.
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Yest. went to buy New moon tickets :D TAYLOR LAUNTER & ROBERT PATTINSON , I'M COMING!!!
Tomorrow should be good? New moon & 313 is opening :D SHOP SHOP SHOP!!! :D:D:D

Suddenly, i realised that time is sososososo short.
maybe if it's fated....

k, damn pissed with V. She came back from her 2 days off than start checking stuffs & everything that went wrong she would tell me in a tone like I'm the one who did the wrong stuffs. ITTITATED CAN! when working with others like in their 20-30 years old ones all no problem , except for this aunt! Damn pissed, so when she talk to me i either ignored or i answered in a reluctant way. Guess what?! Bumped into Huiyun & she's working there as well :D
k, now i'm damn tired! tomorrow start work at 2.
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You're just so sweet!(:

Work was damn tiring now a days , cause there're so many people! D:
k, i admit i think i have moodswing today , so i get pissed easily , but sometimes it's seriously so unreasonable.
There's this customer at night,came, talk so loud like i can't hear like that, his wife on the other hand was sweeter. they had this problem, they changed their address so they have not been receiving stuffs from the bank. than i told them, the bank alr prepared those things for like 2-3 months so u will have to wait.
& he was like : THIS IS VERY RIDICULOUS! 3MONTHS?! I HOPE YOU WILL BE ABLE TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT, CAUSE I DON'T WANT TO CREATE TROUBLE.
(when he speaks like that like he want to fight like that )
OK, THE FUCKING MAIN POINT IS, IT'S THE BANK PROBLEM & YOU COME HERE AND TELL ME IT'S RIDICULOUS LIKE IT'S MY FAULT THAT YOU DON'T FUCKING RECEIVE THE STUFFS! CAN'T YOU ALL FUCKING UNDERSTAND THAT THAT IS THE BANK'S STYLE OF OPERATING?! LIKE IT'S MY FUCKING FAULT THAT THEY WORK THIS WAY?! THIS ONLY SHOW THAT YOU HAVE NO COMMON SENSE WHEN YOU COME TO ME , CAUSE YOU SHOULD GO TO THE BANK INSTEAD!!! DUMBASSS.
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On a lighter note, everything else was fine :D Still sweet to have your goodnight :D
10.30-10.30 tomorrow! 10 hours! JUST LIKE TODAY ):

HILARIOUS!!!

Had not got a good night sleep yest.
Went to work from 10 to 10. Lunch at subway, dinner with Mei viriana. :D Had extra time so we decided to go and punch card & go explore the whole Robinsons from level 1 to 6 :D
Closed at 6 to get ready for Prudential night. HILARIOUS STUFF HAPPEND! Someone dropped her bra padding . & one of my friend dropped by with many stuffs on her hand & she put the padding there : (LAUGH!)SOMEONE DROP HER BRA PADDING.
me: (look at the thing & start laughing like shit ) FROM WHERE?!!! I throw away k?
She: NONO!!! Keep , Put in lost and found & wait for her to come and collect it!!! :D
HAHAHAHAHHAHAS! told mei , sheela,Violet & they were like laughing hysterically as well.
Sheela was like: Shall we make an announcement saying if anyone feels unbalanced come to the customer service to claim her padding. LOLS!!!
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One customer was damn sweet! cause i served her in the morning than at night she's back for the event & she offered me a damn high class chocolate which tasted like HEAVEN!!!
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For the very first time, i feel F.A.T.E :DDD

Work has been amazingly good i guess? Except for some mistakes made.
I'm damn pissed with this fcking auntie promoter today k!
Some worker want to ask what time store closing tomorrow cause there's some close-store events. Than she came walking to me & this fucking auntie in pink standing by her fucking pillows that she's trying to promote said (in chinese) : Don't ask this one, ask the ones inside. (cause they're senior & permanent workers).
Feel like slapping her bloody face, hair of a witch , face like a bitch& mouth like a gossiper.
Fuck her can, say till i have no name like that call me 'this one'. Bloody bitch. Hopes nobody buy her damn pillows la!!! _!_
I'm not petty k! I'm just pissed cause she didn't RESPECT me & DOUBT MY CAPABILITY.
Feel like saying into her face"wo pian pian zhi dao da an lei! ni yao zen yang?!"
B.I.T.C.H. irritating shittttttttt.

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Sister is in America now, looking forward for her to come back in 3 weeks time (;
Work was so far ok, not bad ^^^^^^
Today was sweet. This damn cute guy :D ^^
off tomorrow, unsure of plans yet.
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stop trying to suck up! OMGGGG!!!

Still sweet ^^

Here's a short one,
Gala night was fun fun fun ! :D I WANT TO WORK TOMORROW LEI! DDD;
Today was damn fun! :D so fun that in a blink it's 11p.m. (: off tomorrow means i'll miss out the fun! D;
I'm feeling so sweet still! HAHAHAHAHS! HOT!

SATURATED! ^^

Sweetness :D:D:D feels sweet from top to toe. (:
Work was boring today, but gonna be busy tml, cause of gala night. Reporting at 3 :D
A-W-E-S-O-M-E! Some hilarious stuffs today but lazy to elaborate. so many birthdays!!! Presents! Gotta wait till i have time to buy & make!
LOVE YOU ALL K! ^^

Work was awesome, but tiring !
Yest.-first day-SUPER TIRING. But thank God i've got great friends like cheryl&clarissa who sent me there early in the morning & had lunch with me during my break. SO SWEET^^ I'm damn touched k! Night,went to meet xy,shuana&co. & i went home at around 9+, fall flat.
OH yes, BEFORE I FORGET, I MET THIS DAMN HOT AUSSIE GUY :D:D:D:D & I SERVED HIM.!!!!
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Today-second day- I earned 50bucks today *CLAPS* Proud of myself :D K, sad thing is , i missed out Amanda's picnic today due to work!!! DDDDDD;
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K, & there are so many cute customers!! (: They came to me and enquire alr, they left their paid items on the floor and walked off, 2 mins later they came back & take cause they forgotten. HAHAHAHAHAHAHS!!! & on the train back, i saw this Malay guy who look like angmoh!!! HOTTTTTTTTTT TTM!!!!
was suppose to meet eve. but their movie haven't end & i'm lazy to walk t bus-stop t go find them so came home first. TML starting at 2 :D:D:D:D & I'll have my off on sunday!! Goanna nua on that day man!!!

SWEEETTT!(:

Finally have the guts to try lances (: & my eye-ball is damn small, so gotta get the 2 weeks one.
Out with babes to get some stuffs & movie was canceled so went to PRP.
Laughed like shit when i see them play the playground.
& YAYNESS ^^ TMLTMLTMLTML IS THE LAST PAPER! AHHAAHAHAHS!!!

irritant,

Can't wait for sis to go & comeback from America (: Cause all my clothes are sent to her boyfriend's place. & i just bought a damn prettyyy sweater from Victoria Seret yesterday:D
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OMGGGGGGGGGG, was looking at JUMBO's food & now i feel like eating them. It's been so long since i last went there.
The pictures are mouth-watering!!! LOOK AT THE LOBSTER SALAD,JUBO CHILI CRAB,FRIED PRAWNS WITH CEREAL BAMBOO CALMS WITH MINCED GARLIC.
OMGGGGGGGG!!!! I WANT TO GO EATTTTTT (:(:(:(: LOOK FORWARD!!!

HILARIOUS SHIT ! (;

Life's been amazingly good this few days & it'll be better when it's the official end of O's(;
Baking,Majiong.bus rides,dramas,movies,sleeping are just so funnnn^^
So, our baking session was considered a success only the first batch, cause we were so enthusiastic that we stirred for an hour & it came out to be damn soft and damn niceee^^~
But the second batch tasted like kueh bulu. I've got the photos but I'm lazy to transfer. Wait till I'm damn free k :D
& I'm damn happy cause I've managed to replenish my sleep alr :D Slept at 9 on sat night till afternoon the next day(:

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Time flies, it's amazing. In another 4-5 days, all my papers are done. Although i can already start partying now (: Faster book a date with me to go out cause i'm goanna be busy soon & sometimes only available at night.

Caught my sister's keeper & that's the best so far. Damn touching , cried from the start till the end man. NICE. & it's a must watchhhhh.

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Goana start working like the next day straight after my paper on the 12th at centrepoint, so faster BOOK ME , than i can see when am i free. :D There's many places i wanna go, CHIMJES& Fort canning are calling me there for pictures:D Picnics,BBQs,M-J sessions, late night movies,clubbing with babes,Shopping malls. ALL ARE SCREAMING FOR ME :DDDD

& I WANNA TOUR AROUND S'PORE LIKE A TOURIST(:

MY FACE IS FUCKING ROUND!!!
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One last major paper tomorrow & I'M A FREE LADY:DDDD
PLANSPLANSPLANS. Goanna play till i drop :) ^^^^^^^^^
Hope tomorrow's lit will be do-able.

PLANS! On the last day of O's. Goanna go trim eyebrows again cause i was lazy to pluck my own & now it's like so messy, cut hair, contacts & SHOP!!! WOAHOHOHOHOHOHOH! Look forward ! BUT BUTBUT, I haven't study my POA. DDD;
Shoes were here today! Damn chio can~!!! ^^ Love it. :D

OMGFOMGFOMGFOMGFOMGF!!!!
I THINK I'LL FAIL MY AMATH! THE SUBJECT THAT I LOVE MOST! FUCK.
I CAN'T RESIST THE TEMPTATION, SO I CHECKED THE ANSWERS ONLINE & TO MY FUCKING HORROR, THERE'S SO MANY WRONG ANSWERS!!! OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG! HOW?! HOPE I COULD GET METHOD MARKS OR SOME ERROR CARRIED FORWARD. & I'VE GOT SO MANY CARELESS, SEE ALR CAN CRY CAN! THE QN WAS LOOKING FOR VELOCITY WHEN ACCELERATION= 0 , GUESS WHAT?! I WROTE MY ANS A=0 ! FUCK! I THOUGHT THEY WERE LOOKING FOR ACCELERATION WHEN THEY'RE LOOKING FOR VELOCITY. OMGGGGG! I THINK MY HOPES FOR A BUSINESS COURSE IS GOING DOWN DAY BY DAY. I HAVEN'T MEMORISE MY SS & CHEM STUFFS. & I'M LEFT WITH LIKE WHAT? TOMORROW?! HOW ON EARTH CAN I TURN SMARTER IN ONE DAY?!!!!
OMG! I'M FREAKING OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DDDDDDD;

I just realised me hair is turning brown. Parents & cousins kept asking me if i dyed my hair. But it's natural. & the more i look at it, the more it looks dyed.

IF ONLY I COULD TURN TIME BACK. Yes, i'm regretting it. But i know i have prepared myself and told myself not to regret anything that I've done before,cause it's part and parcel of life. *physco myself! *
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I feel so guilty when i told my parents that i think i'll fail math & they told me that it's allright, what's done , done.
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I THINK I'M GOING CRAZY SOON. Cause there's 2 sides of me.
one's telling me that i've gotta be somebody if not people will dispise you. the other's telling me it's ok to fail once but pick myself up. It's allright, cause this is just life, it's a thing that you've got to learn to handle.

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It's so scary when everyone says that the paper we took were so fucking easy.

THERE GOES ALL MY HOPE. When everyone's aiming for an A , I'm aiming for a pass. If i could get an A, than that's the best miracle ever!

I'm contented to know that at the very least, there's someone who can understand my language(:(:(:(:
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Math is killing me mentally , but luckily i've got people who're helping me out :D They're the best of the best :D

Fuck , why do i have so little faith in myself? When i heard the majority, i thought i was wrong so i broke down.
BUT I WASN'T. I SHOULD TRUST MYSELF MORE SHOULDN'T I ?
But anyway, I LOVE THE PEOPLE WHO AGREED WITH ME :D:D:D So YOU YES YOU! JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP OK! (;

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TO MY LOVELY HUMANS ! You guys have been through with me all the ups and downs, all the fun & stuffs (: We would slack at town park & do many many fun things there after our study sessions. After sooooo long, FINALLY TOMORROW it's our BIG BIG O's. GOOD LUCK K!!! I LOVE YOU ALL TO THE MAXXX!

Also, to the usual few who would never ever give up on me & kept on teaching me even though you guys would get pissed, i seriously love all of you man ! I know you all love me too ! AAHAHAHS! (:

It's irritating when you want to study but you can't find your study materials !!! GRRRR!

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I'VE GOT EYE BAGS BIGGER THAN MY EYE NOW!!!! DDDDDDDDD;

& I'm so proud of myself today, I stayed in school for practically the whole day. I WANT TO START LOVING THOSE WEIRD FIGURES WHERE THEY ASK YOU TO CALCULATE ALL THE WEIRD THINGS.

Practical tomorrow, but i haven't memorise the solubility table! );

I'm beginning to feel numb.
It's a good thing though. Once someone told me, i should try and understand the feeling whether it's fear or anything, once i understood how it works, i'll no longer find that feeling not scary anymore. (:
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I think i'm in deep shit nowNOWNOW.

Sister got a good deal for me (: infact she's got many.
Too many that i think she's becoming like an aunty. Nvm, managed to shop alot online these days :D & I'm looking forward for Os to end & i'll start partying with my babes :D
K, My math is seriously in deep deep trouble. But anyway i already have some kind of bad feeling of this time round's exam , so ....
NVM, i don't want to start whining and all cause it'll be irritating. Self-pity is a big NO-NO.
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Disappointed with all. nvm, maybe this is how i'll get to know who are real friends (:
I'm goanna stay away from all those fake humans. :D:D

My head keeps spinning . The moment i can't solve one problem, my head will start twirling D;
This is so fustrating. These 2 weeks will be hard to get by, but i think i'll still be able to pull through in one piece (: Many things are happening/happened and all these things made me think was everything worthwhile?
&my inner self told me it wasn't. I've wasted so much. But it's a little too late to realise.

OH GOODNESS! DO I LOOK LIKE I'M 50KG!????!!!! AN ABSOLUTE NO RIGHT?!!!!
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Was suppose to study, but was chased away by the Mac person. Changed venue & we started playing. K,take this as my stress relief day. (:
& I'm damn hungry now!!!

I think i need to see a phycologist. No, maybe that won't even help.
I'm TIRED. But i can't bring myself to sleep cause I'll feel guilty for not studying.
Parents just ask me to do my best,don't have to stress out.
BUT, i can't help feeling stressed. My math! My POA! All my subjects is like so-so only. HOW!?

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The stress is overwhelming! I can't take it any longer.
I want to give up, yet I can't bring myself to. It's like I'm strandled & trying to struggle my way out.
In this point, if i chose to give up than everything will be called waste.
I don't like thinking of the disppointment faces of parents&myself.
I don't want people to look down on me ESP __________!!!
BUT, When I open my Physics/Math/POA , I'm stucked & my head will start spinning.
I hate myself for being so whiney about this!
I hate myself for being happy a day & sad the next.
I hate myself for being stressed over small small things.
. Oh gosh, when can i ever leave this situation?
& I'm such a Great Procastinator D;
Maybe, this time it's really too late.

I've got to constantly remind myself not to be demoralised by my current results.
I'm looking forward to go to all the makan places in S'pore with my 2 mates. (:
I'm looking forward to meet up with my JJAM!
I'm looking forward to playing M-J & hanging out with the usuals.
I'm looking forward to so many things in life, so no matter what, i must hang on .

I'm tired of trying to keep up with all these fucked up nonsensical stuffs. EVERYTHING k.
Fucked up, cried my heart out today & i guess it's better. Anyway the world won't stop even if I'm sad, so I've got to stand Strong by myself (: & I believe that I can .

OUCH! I just closed my room door with my fingers there D: occupied mind cause accidents man!
skipped school today cause i was tired. Study session was SUCCESSFUL! Eve's coming over tomorrow . I haven't got to try the new Yogurt store at WS, should ask her along tml.
My house's refrigerator is filled with boxes of mooncakes & i'm damn happy to see it :D:D:D
Sat goanna celebrate with the usuals (:
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K, my prelim results is like shitxzxzxz. Maybe nurse is a future me. I don't know if thinking like this is a positive/negative thought?!
POA tutotial tml, so i needa catch some sleep alr. NIGHT!

Blog is so boring cause there's no pictures right? But i'm lazy to plug my camera into the computer,so yeah. ):
My mood goes on&off, awhile i feel damn motivated,awhile damn slack. I don't know what's wrong with me man! Now, when i look at my results I realised i'm a failure. I studied last minute &stuffs. Now i'm regretting. & i wonder if it's too late to start mugging now D:
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Everyone comes to this place with a mission to complete,maybe mine's just something else from what i wished it would(?)
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My pimples are coming out all over my forehead):

In the morning was like having breakfast with family & i told them, if i cannot go to the course i want, i'll go & study nursing. Than mummy was like : You sure you can?! Pour shit & all lei! But you will become damn loving.
LOLS! But sis said nursing can go UK/US cause they need nurse :D K, so nursing isn't a bad alternative afterall :D K, i've thought of many possibilities & alternative routes for me to take. So there won't come to a point i'll face a dead end :D I'mloving myself for this(:(:(:

Got this from facebook;
Life Path Number 5: The WindThose born under a Life Path Number 5 are as hard to catch, and as freedom-loving as the wind itself.Naturally changeable and versatile, you thrive on all things new and different. Just like the wind, if anyone tries to capture you, you will die. This is not cruelty - although the broken hearts you leave behind you might argue - it is simply your nature.The love of freedom for a Life Path Number 5 exists on all levels: Intellectually, you have an eclectic array of interests, although you may not have a deep knowledge of any one thing. Emotionally, you will love many people, and move on just as quickly. This is not to say you will be an unfaithful love partner, only that your ideal mate will need to understand that you may not be home for dinner if you have decided to catch a last minute flight to Timbuktu for a month or so. Spiritually, you are intrigued by religion and are probably knowledgeable about many of them, but prefer to develop your own brand of spirituality rather than be tied to any one dogma.This constant changing is not, as some people think, an attempt to run away from the things you don't like about yourself. In fact, it is just the opposite: You are always looking for ways to improve things, including yourself. In your own way you are chasing, and contributing to, the perfect world. Being so open to new experiences make you very compassionate. You feel other people's pain deeply and are quick to draw upon your vast resources to help whenever you can. In true Number 5 style though, you don't like to be shown a lot of gratitude and will often help anonymously when you can. Thanks and gratitude just take up too much time!Occasionally a Life Path Number 5 will suffer from a permanent feeing of restlessness and discomfort. This is usually when he or she is trying to fit a role that goes against their nature. If you feel this way, perhaps you need to stop feeling guilty for being a free spirit. It is not in everyone's nature to live in the same neighbourhood for their whole life or stay in the same job forever. Give yourself permission to embrace the freedom you so badly need. A Life Path Number 5 is truly the wind of change.
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Doesn't sound really true in someparts,but some are so similar to my characteristics.
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k,my voice is damn sexy now!Coughed like a dog. But many people are coughing with me alr.
Tuition later.TIRED.

Talk about giving up a dream D;

I've thought about it. 8 points is really hard to get. Maybe i should be more realistic.
Buisness is my dream, but in reality, what i'm capable of, is only this little.
Maybe this will just be a dream for me, cause i've come to terms that, i should have a back-up plan cause i'm not confident anymore. What i want might not be what i will get right?
Also,sought my thinkings out, at the worse, i think i shall get a nursing course.
Although it isn't my passion, but ...
NVM, i don't know how to explain. I'm sad now. REALLY,cause the smile isn't there anymore.
I'M REALLY TIRED . I WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS EXAMS. I'M DRAINED. & I DON'T LIKE ALL THIS AT ALL DDDDDD;

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20.09.2009. No wonder so many people getting married.

.Church & tuition was canceled as tutor just recovered & dad thinks it's better that i don't go. So came home after having lunch at grandma's. Tomorrow's holiday, but it looks like it's goanna be an endless night for me.

I.AM.SERIOUSLY.FUSTRATED.WITH.MYSELF. Thinking about many stuffs, reflecting & I'm angry/hating myself for whatever reason. Pissed.

It's just so amazing when you see people changing so fast.
I think my definition is wrong.

HANG on for awhile more Joycelyn!
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K, I'm down with fucking diarrhoea this morning, & i think it's because of the food that i cooked. The chicken i toasted was NOT COOKED & i ate like what. Now I'm in pain. But thank God, When i was in school, my tummy was OK. Than the moment i come home, Toilet!
&My throat is Very Very Very pain now D; It hurts even when i swallow my saliva, hopefully will be all right later on.
K, gotta rush. I need a nap!!!
& I LOVE MYSPACE :D

Amath was...., IDK what to comment. I left a 10 mark Question blank. K, don't mention it anymore.
Homed&Napped & out to Changi Airpot.
Laughed till my stomach damn pain. The G.A.Y.S. HAHHAHAHHS!
WS to play cards & homed.

Today's GRANDPARENTS DAY! (:
I canceled my English tuition again cause I'm tired. K, was doing some facebook application & this!
"Fortune Teller GeniusQuestion: Can i score 8 points for my O levels?Answer: Of course! "
HAHAHAHAS! Thanks , It's a boost for me :D:D:D K, i need to nap before i look at my Emath stuffs, I think I've a fear for emath now. I don't even dare to touch the paper. D:
It was once my favourite subject D:

My eyes are fucking dry, to the max & i can't keep myself awake any longer. But if i go to sleep , I'll feel guilty cause i've not yet accomplished anything. Emath is on monday but i'm not digging the papers that i need to study?! I still have the cheek to play majiong just now.
I'm still at unit 8.5 of physics. No progress. Move Joycelyn MOVE!!!!!\
k, i need to run , finish till unit 9 & i'm goanna sleep. Church,English tuition & clear my doubts tml .! NIGHTSSSSS. FLOOD ALL MY LOVE IN. (:

I've photos to share, but blogger doesn't allow. So too bad.
Managed to serious study. Met up with 4 peeps at like 5p.m? Studies at home first cause i go there i know i can't concentrate. Just acia for dinner & it was awesome. Damn full. Played finger-guessing game, Loser drinks one ladle of our mixed mixture. Damn gross, the picture!!! But the taste was all-right. Home afterwhich. My physics is nowhere! Everything is nowhere & My O's is drawing nearer & nearer? I doubt myself at times if i can do it, But i want t hold on to my faith that i can. It's hard. What i'm going through, No one understands cause i sometimes also don't no what i want. Fuck.
Goanna go&try for the pencil case i want again tomorrow after tuition. &I WANT TO LOVE A MATH. But integration is alr driving me to the max . i can't take it . I want to get these papers done & BYE.

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Study room is in a ver very big mess now! HOW? I can't find my things & i start digging for all the paper all around the room, & now i don't know how to start packing. I feel so dead now. I Don't know how to integrate the sin/cos stuffs. HOW?! Physics is still at unit 8. It's 1/2 of the whole Textbook & i aim to finish it by the 14th. Which means, i need to work through the night again today. K, i gotta prepare for tuition alr.

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Catch me, cause i'm falling.

Today's 090909. Was watching news with sister & we came across this, many are getting married on this date. & sis was like:'This's so ironic. Chinese people don't get married during the period of 'hungry ghost festival' yet so many are doing it just because it's 090909.'
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K, 2nd day & the pain comes and goes. Rolled for 2 hours today. & I'm good now :D Math tutor wants SOS tuition tomorrow so i have to cancel tonights tuition to complete my math. But i'm nowhere there yet. I'm stuck with Physics. The Textbook is just so interesting that i can't bring myself to close it. I'm serious! Read your textbooks. :D I'm into NEWTON'S LAW. It's amazing that such people do exist.
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Holidays are ending soon & i'm left with like 48days i think? NERVOUS, But i hope it'll all end earlier. I won't have time to complete my TYS, So i decided to just do the asscessments tutor gave. As for E-math , i need to clear my Standard Deviation, SETS & 1 more topic. I'm loving A-math cause everyone's giving up .
I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT. More than you know :D:D:D
SHOPPING ON FRIDAY !!!!:D:D:D:D:D: LIKE FINALLY. But i think i'll feel guilty cause i'm suppose to study & not start indulging myself D; However, I'm a human afterall, so i need to splurge on myself (: GOANNA BE AS HARDWORKING AS ALEX EVANS! AS PLAYFUL AS HIM & AT THE RIGHT TIME :)

PAIN PAIN PAINNNNNNNNN!!!
I'm screaming in pain now!!!!! Cramp to th max. the pain sent me rolling on my bed for hours crying. & worse of worse i drank cold drinks when i'm already in pain so this led to even more pain. & now. I'm goanna continue rolling.
But the pain has woken me up. My senses are very very very clear now. I'm still looking forward to my near future, where i'll get to study in Australia :D:D:D I CAN DO IT & I WANT IT BADLY. ):

Did some serious math today & I'm loving myself.
Eating like nobody these days. Fast foods & all. I think i'be gained weight but i'm goanna lie to myself.
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Was watching news&came across this, some secondary students thought by jumping down the building they will be able to re-born & have some superpowers. They watch too much TV shows alr. But what's unbelieveable is that they are actually physically 16year-old teen lei!!!
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There's school tomorrow.-. than MOVIE :D:D:D

I FEEL SO MOTIVATED TODAY :D
Jogging plan failed cause everyone did not wake up on time. So woke up & did math. A-math takes up alot of time man! 3questions & 45minutes is gone. GONE LIKE THE WIND.
I think i'm goanna pick myself up already. Last 50 days or so. I'm goanna go into my serious mode. No more distractions please. Play cards only when i'm seriouslt stress & need to distress. Not going to keep playing cause i still want to have my future. I'm still the one controlling my own fate. My future is what i'm goanna work for now. :D
k, I'm going out to study with the usuals soon. tata.

SS today was ok, cause i think i memorised most of it & as for healthcare,just use some thinking skills(:
Cards yesterday & i won. like after so many times finally got some LUCK.
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ALEXEVENS!!! HE MAKE MY HEART BEAT EVEN WHEN I JUST LOOK AT HIS PHOTO.

Today marks my start of mugging. Xueyin was nagging at me asking me to study.
Maybe i should go M-I-A for some time so that things would be better (:
ok, Now'a like 10 plus & i haven't memorise my Chemistry. Sleepy like shit now!
I think i'm having my puperty stage now. I get hungry easily & i keep eating as and when there's food near me HOW? I'm goanna be like a pig in no time.

Seoul garden was great. Was damn full. Chicken is damn nice. I think i've put on weight. Afterwhich,went back to Pasir Ris & nua there.
Lesson learnt, Ladies should bring tissue out.Eugene was flicking this shit off the table & it shot till me.sway.But when i play cards i won. Define the irony.
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Today was fruitful (:

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one of them think i don't deserve the CCA grade i was given. Come on la, i don't care if there's an error in yours or not. You think i don't deserve cause i nv participate? I DID. You think that i nv attend practices?I DID. You think I'm slacking my way through?I'm not even close with you. How the hell would you know how much effort i've put in? What about you?! You quitted band & you should know that you have lost the points when you were in sec 1 /2? Than you still KP so much about my grade? If you think it's not fair, than why don't want to tell me in my face? Why must complain like a fucker behind me? You've got a nice face, but i think your character is beyond words for me to describe.

Out with parents for lunch at SengKang there? Than met up with Eugene,Victor,YongHui&Haojie to catch year one. The show is damn funny la. After which met up the rest & played. Funny stuffs. Goanna eat Seoul Garden on Monday. Confirm 100% . (:

I think i'm becoming a zombie soon. Dark circles are coming out alr. Woke up at 7 today , bathed & daddy sent me to school. Miraculously, I wasn't late. HAHS! (:
Cards after school :D & homed. Nap & tuition. I feel motivated there but when i come home, I just slack my way through.
Seoul garden tml. I'm goanna eat till like no tomorrow cause i'm fucking stress now. I want the countdown to stop for a while.

I studied today :D Serious studying. I'm sought a happy, night class do work :D
After night class went to play cards to destress.

HOWHOWHOW?*Panic.
60++More days till O's. 1 week till PRELIMS. My revision mode?ZERO.
I don't like the situation I'm in now. But i can't seem to find a way to get out of this or indulge myself in something. I CAN'T D:
I want to stop everything just for a day & let me get things right. But it's impossible for this to happen. ):

8Converations at a go. So i decided to let it ring &continue typing this.
So fun, people all are just making me laugh my ass off. Tuition was super funny.
I LOVE MY PARENTS. I seriously do, cause i can see how much they had done for me.

Satisfied cause i get to eat 18chefs,Had a craving when i was sleeping than after awhile,phone rang. So prepared&met up with the usuals. Played cards. IAMBOREDNOW.
Yesterday caught where got ghost with the usual friday people&Study attempt failed cause i was entertaining 2 humans. The show's sought of not good.
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I wonder if i can even get through this test,It's killing me seriously.Maybe I'll have to retake as a private candidate. Think on the bright side. I'm just a 16year-old kid.
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I STILL MISS MY BLOGGER.Friends link me here, so i think i should set it up again.
But i still will be there; WWW.JOYCELYNCXY.LIVEJOURNAL.COM (: